The School

       This next one would be hard for me. The risk of getting caught was a lot higher. But MRS. JOHNSON had to be next. I had to train even harder to blend in so I would not be seen. My  blending in training was going to be extensive. I needed to be pretty much invisible and quick or I would never pull this off. This target was going to be more challenging as it was inside instead of outdoors and the public space only made it worse. At least having first hand knowledge of where all the cameras are helps. After all I had only been going there my whole life it seems. There was only one school in this dinky town. Really who names a town Little Dude anyhow? So we are the Little Dude Of Texas like why? I mean our team was the Little Dude Ranchers. Someone had a sense of humor.

      I knew I was going back to school for my teacher who was wrapped around Steven’s fat finger. She would pay for letting him use her classroom to molest me. I got to the school and for a moment I hesitated going into the old stone building with the banner the cheerleaders made for the upcoming football game. I crept into the school and went upstairs to her classroom. Jay saw me in the school. I never told him about the teacher.  He decided to follow me after seeing me and ended following me to her classroom. He didn't walk in with me. He lingered behind and stayed out of sight. I had no idea he was recording what were saying.  She laughed when she saw me.  She even told me I couldn’t hurt her because I couldn’t touch her. I asked her why she let him do that to me in her classroom when she didn’t have a class. She replied, “For the money of course and I got to videotape it. Watching you struggle against him was the best part.” Upon hearing this Jay ran into the room trying to reason with us both, tears streaming down his eyes. He was taken back on how a teacher who was suppose to educate and protect us could help a monster do this to a child. She pulled the hunting knife she kept in her desk drawer out and lunges at me to stab me. She thought she could kill me to keep me quiet. I was here to ruin her not rat her out to the principle who wouldn't listen to me anyway. She had labeled me as a trouble maker and the principal never took me serious. Her lunging at me with the knife only added fuel to my anger. So with this new power I made her break the window behind her desk. Take her climbing rope of the wall she was so proud of, that she let Steven tie me up with so I couldn't break free, and tie it arohnd her neck and then to the desk. I was crying so much that I was having a hard time keeping eye contact so I screamed for her to jump. As soon as she jumped I glanced at Jay and took off. He tried to chase me, but I got into a tree and onto the roof so it appeared as I had vanished. I couldn't deal with Jay right now. I couldn't handle him seeing me like this. Why did he follow me? He hasn't been around so why act like he cares now? Was that teacher so important? How could he stand up for her? Why is the one I love so much on the opposite side of me? Can he not see how much this hurts me? Does he not see through me and see that I'm in love with him? I need his support. He's the only one that knew the truth and was always there for me. He was a knight in shining armor to me. I knew realistically he couldn’t save me initially from Steven he was just a kid himself. And now he's gone. 

       Zoey meet up with Jaylor right after school as with what happened with Mrs. Johnson she was going straight home. Zoey asked Jaylor why he looked so down. Jaylor told Zoey that he messed up. He had the chance to tell me the truth and blew it. Zoey asked, “Jay what do you mean?” Jay responded while crying, “Zo I love her not as a little sister. She thinks I abandoned her and I was trying to get the evidence gathered and sent to the Texas Rangers. I kept hitting dead ends everywhere. I didn’t know what to tell her. I was going to move out there with her. Now all I can do is be at the treehouse and hope she comes back.” When I got back to my place I realized I didn’t have all my stuff I left my book at the treehouse. I know it’s just a book but it had my pictures and my keepsakes in it. I head to the treehouse, as I get close I stop dead in my tracks when I realize that Jay is there. Of course now that I’m gone he decides to come back. I don’t know why I had a crush on him. I can't understand how I feel madly and deeply in love with someone who couldn't care less about me. "Can he not see right through me? Does he not see how much I'm hurting without him? Why can't he tell I have always been in love with him? Will when this pain turn into anger like everything else?", she asked herself.  I always thought the reason he didn’t flirt back was because he viewed me as a little sister. Now I see that he didn’t care at all about me. To be honest there are only a FEW people left on my list, but I need to train hard. I want them to suffer. I needed them to all suffer just as much and as bad as I suffered over the years at their hands. I had no choice but to retreat back home seeming how Jay was there. Everyday I would train and go by the treehouse for my book. Everyday when I went by the treehouse Jay was there. He was never there before when I needed him there. Now when I need him not to be there so I don't put him through anything else he's always there. Even though he may be disgusted with me I love him and don't want him hurting even more by me. I will always love him, but him being there makes getting my book back seem impossible and I need that book back. I don’t blame him for being disgusted with me and not wanting anything to do with me. I blame myself. Why would anyone want someone as broken as I am, as out of control I am becoming, as cold heated as I seem now? The truth is I love him so much and Zo how could I keep putting them through any of this. I’m sure they hate me now. I bet he waited for me to leave to come back to the treehouse. He should have told me he wanted me gone and nothing to do with me. I would have left sooner if I had known. Now when I cry there are no sad tears just tears of pure anger. I have nothing left in me to cry sad tears anymore. As if now days there isn't any sadness left at all just anger and hatred. The anger has built up to the point all other emotions seemed to have just swirled into anger. I'm slowly letting anger and hatred take complete control over me. I don't think I can continue if I don't I'm tired. I have become such a cold person. My heart is ice cold and empty now days. I'm just an empty shell anymore. Since my grandmother died so did my shot of a normal happy life. How could I have a life full of happiness after she was gone. My hope died with her too. There is nothing left in my heart. Letting anger take over seems to be the only way I feel anything anymore. There is no more joy, fear, hope, being loved. Nothing its all gone. I decided I needed to go check on my sisters. They are so young and innocent they are all that I have left in this world. My sisters mean everything to me. They are my entire world now. I had to see them. When I get there my mom is there fighting with Steven, because I’m not there for him, to use as an outlet anymore. I want to burn their house down but at that time I see my sisters and the youngest Anna spots me. She cries tears of happiness as I haven’t  been able to see them in months. I climb in through their window, give them hugs and leave. As I leave I whisper to them, "I love you and always will." Jay was secretly watching out for Violet's sisters Anna and Kaylee to make sure they didn’t take her place after she left. Jaylor spots Violet as she leaves her sisters that night, he goes to follow her, but a noise catches his attention. Kaylee has been brought to Steven just as Jay is about to bust in to save her; he realizes its just to turn Kaylee against Violet. Jay couldn't help but wonder how afraid he would be if this was his sister. He stayed and watched over the girls as if they were his own sisters. He made sure to do his best not to doze off on guard duty, and stayed until the girls left for school the next morning. After they were long gone did he decide to head back to the treehouse. Jay can't help but feel empty when he goes back to the treehouse and find it empty as always. He always hoped to see her when he got there. He missed her smile. Her kind gentle gestures. The care she showed others. It's not the same without Violet. He knows he should never have let her go. "Dummy you should never have left her side.", Jay says out loud to himself. All he can do is sigh and slump down into his bed and hope she comes back. He only blamed himself for her not being there. He felt as if he wasn't just loosing her but himself. He needed to hold her in his arms and tell her everything was going to be okay. "Can I save her?", he asks himself. "Is she okay? Where could she have gone? Would she have gone this far if I had stayed by her side? I promised her I would always be here for her no matter what, and just like that I wasn't. No wonder she left. I should have been here.",he complained at himself. These thoughts kept coming back in his mind over and over. The more they crept back the more pissed at himself he became, and the more depressed he was without Violet. All he knew was how much he needed to find her and be by her side again. Make sure nothing could ever hurt her again. He loved her and can't live with himself if he can't find her and try to explain the way he feels. They need each other more than they realize. The longer they spend apart the more that emptiness sets in. The more they long for one another. Violet can't help but think about Jay when she lays in bed trying to sleep. He wouldn't understand why she has to do this. He wont be able to see that anger is all she is now. "There's no way he could ever love me the way I am.", she thought aloud to herself. She heaved a big sigh when she realized the thought escaped in real words. This is all it will ever be. I'm doomed to spend eternity without my one and only love.