It's been three days since Joshua's party and we haven't spoken since. This lack of communication is starting to freak me out.
Maybe he regrets saying yes. Maybe he ran off to Europe and fuck all the Dutch girls. I hear they're great at it.
Of course, during my freak out session, my phone rings. I pick if up without looking at the callers id.
"Bella speaking."
"Bella." Joshua. "I'm coming over."
"O-oh ok." I reply, but he already hung up. Rude much.
The bell rang, whilst I was reaching out to lay my phone on the table, startling me and making me drop my phone to the ground.
"Fucking hell." I screech as it lands on my toe.
Once again, the bell rings, irritating me for the lack of patience in this person's mind.
"Yea yea- wait a fucking minute." I mutter and walk to the door.
I didn't expect Joshua to be here so soon, seeing as he called me aboht a minute ago. And I'm pretty sure the ride from his house to my apartment is nearly a 20-minute drive.
"Josh-" I get cut off by his lips crashing onto mine, forcing me with such passion I immediately give in. He walks us further into my apartment and I hear him closing my door. "I missed this." He breathes out whilst planting soft kisses on my neck, all the way down to my cleavage.
"So did I." My words come out hoarse as I suppress to let out a shout of contentment. He pulls off my tanktop and squeezes my breasts as he follows his previous trail back to my lips.
I tangle my hands into his brown locks and pull his face towards mine. I suck at his bottom lip and softly bite into it. I giggle as I hear him groan. He lift me up and I tangle my legs around him. I could feel his thunder junk growing beneath his jeans as he lays us down onto my couch.
"Shit." I cuss as I break our heated kiss. "Shit. Shit. Shit."
"What?" He asks as he breaths ragidly above me.
"We can't." I say, looking into his passion filled, blue eyes.
"Why the hell not? I brought condoms." He jokes, running a finger over my jawline.
"It's not that." I look away, partly ashamed and partly nervous for his upcoming reaction.
"Then what is it, Bella." He dips his head into the crook of my neck and runs his tongue along it. "Tell me."
"I'm on my period, Joshua." He looks at me, as if he is trying to figure out if I'm just pulling his leg or not, before succumbing on top of me.
I could feel the presence of his little buddy as he lets his full weight lay on me.
He groans into my neck and mutters something about a cold shower whilst getting up. He doesn't forget to kiss me before he leaves the couch completely, telling me, with the kiss, that he isn't mad or anything like that.
I know Joshua could never get mad over something like that, but it still warms me up to know he respects me enough not to push it. Knowing that other man do not mind taiming the red sea.
"Want me to join?" I tease, as he is making his way to my bathroom.
"I do," he shouts back, "but my dick doesn't."
Joshua took about 20 minutes in the shower before finally coming out, cleaned and dressed in some sweatpants and a t-shirt- which he left at my place about three weeks ago.
"Did you clean up after you?" I say, implying to his dirty bussiness in my shower. I set down the plate of spaghetti I made when he was in the shower.
"Didn't need to." I raise my eyebrows at his reply and try not to laugh. "Saved it up for later." He adds, sitting down.
"You do know periods take about 4 to 5 days, right?" I ask, taking a bite of the spaghetti.
"Yes."
"And you're willing to wait that long to get some action?"
"Didn't I tell you," he says, "'only you'." He looks at me from under his lashes and it nearly kills me to see the passion beneath them.
"I didn't mean that you couldn't use your... hands." I laugh a little emberassed and take another bite. Anything to avoid his piercing eyes for awhile
"I guess I'll just have to do with your hands."
I look up and find him staring at me with a lust filled look.
"Whoa whoa whoa- no action for me, no action for you, mister. And for as long as there is blood coming out of my... pink pearl- there'll be no thunder junk entering." I state, despite my inner self screaming not to say it. I definitly wouldn't mind giving him some pleasure, even if he couldn't return it right away.
"Who says I need to fuck your pussy to make you come." He smirks whilst standing up. He strolls over to me and pulls mt chaur towards him, making it screech awefully along the way. "I can make you come in a lot of different ways, Bella. I don't need your pussy." Even though I resented the word 'pussy', his words had turned me on quicker than I could mutter, "oh boy".
"That you could say." He winks and kisses the top of my head. "Thanks for dinner, Bella." He sets out plates on the counter and starts cleaning the mess up.
Damn it, he's way more perfect than I thought he would be.
I shook my head and told myself those thoughts appeared because I had been staring at his ass. And lets be honest, that ass is effing perfect.
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"You mind me staying the night?" Joshua mutter tiredly as the credits to Rambo, first blood roll down the tv. Old, but gold film.
"No, of course not. You know you're always welcome here." I reply, getting uo to get to bed as well.
"Thanks, Bells."
"You never call me 'Bells'." I say leading the way to my bedroom after turning off the tv.
"Right, I'm just tired I guess, sorry."
"No, it's ok." I pull off my sweatpants and get into bed. "I like it." The bed dips as he crawls in beside me, letting out a deep sigh as he pulls the blanket over the both of us.
"I don't." He mutters as he closes his eyes.
I look his way and roll onto my side, "why not? Lucas and Jason always call me that."
"I know," he grumbles, seemingly annoyed, "but it makes me think about cow bells."
I burst out laughing and slap nudge his chest, his bare chest. "You're kidding me."
"No, Bella. I'm dead serious." He says, but even he can't keep a straight face. He's absolutely crazy. Cowbells.
He reaches out for me and wraps an arm around me, pulling me into his embrace. "Now sleep, Bella. I'm tired."
"Ok, Joshua." I suppress my laughter and snuggle into his embrace. We've never actually slept together. We literally had sex and left right away. Like a bootycall.
I guess that was what tonight was supposed to be, but I'm glad it didn't turn out that way. I wouldn't want to miss this for the world. Wrapped into his strong arms, hearing his heart beat below my ear as I am tucked against his bare chest.
Oh god, I'm falling harder than a landslide.
Waking up to a cold, empty bed has never been an issue to me before. Which is why I couldn't wrap my head around the feeling of desertion, when I woke to a note on my pillow instead of the handsome man that laid there last night.Gone to work.- Josh
I've never been this nervous when Joshua announces he's coming over. I chose to ignore his words and was simply eating some dinner in my pyjama on the couch.Sexy enough, right?I walk to my bedroom and pull
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"Why was she there?" I nearly shout as he sets foot in my apartment."I thought you'd be in bed by now." He says. I instantly get annoyed as he decides fo ignore my question.""You thought I'd be waiting with my bare ass in the air for you to pay a
Waking up to a scream was not what I expected when I fell asleep in Joshua's strong arms.I pry open an eye and see a shocked Amy standing in the livingroom. Her eyes as big as marbles and a hand clasped over her mouth."Shit." I curse and sit up,
"How did this even start, Bells?" Amy asks as she sips on her coffee in our favorite café. It's this cute littlr place that makes you feel like home. It's not like Starbucks or Mcdonalds. It's a small family café, with all homemade cookies and home brewed coffee."I don't really know, honestly. It just happened one day and we never stopped after that." I reply, thinking about the day we started all this.
"I have to go on a business trip tomorrow. I'll be gone for a week or two.""Oh- Ok, who's coming with?" I clear my troath when it starts closing in on me."Just me and my secretary, I got some business in Japan that needs to he taken care of. Jaso
He did make my world go boom. In many more ways than intended."Josh... this is wonderful." I gasp as he leads me through the trees, bringing me to a clearing."I promised, didn't I?" He looks down at me as he tightens his arm around my waist.
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Laying in bed for such a long time, forgetting about the rest of the world and all the troubles outside of the bedroom. That is something I haven't done before, but doing this right now with Joshua feels like one of the best feelings in the world.We haven't talked ever since our mental break down in the shower yesterday. Something we did do was get rid of his clothes, since mine were already gone. He had pulled me into his lap once more, now with a different purpose as before. The shower
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Joshua had been teasing me about babies all night. Making comments about how we should totally make on for our own, like it's baking a cake."Bells, come on. Raising a kid is like taking a walk in the park." His fingers tightened around my thigh and I glared at him from under my lashes.
Lucas called me to inform that the whole family will be joining us for dinner at my house tonight. Claire is coming too, as pregnant as ever. Katherine is bringing James as well and Joshua is still here of course.I've been preparing dinner for the last 2 hours. Doing my absolute best to make something delicious for everyone.
Waking up from the sun is not as perfect as it seems to be in Disney movies.Feelinh your eyes sting when you try to open them and not being able to wake up slowly cause of the burning light all around you."Ugh.. Josh, close the blinds, please." I
Joshua and I have been spending time together almost every day, not realizing time was passing by so fast & everything we did seemed so natural. I've never felt something like this before & I don't ever want to let it go.The thought of Joshua and I being apart felt weird to me. It felt like we've been together for so long by now, everything has fallen into place & is how it should be.
Joshua grabs my hand and pulls me into the side of his body. "We have something to tell you.""Joshua." I hiss near his ear, while keeping a straight face towards Katherine and Lucas.They both look quite lost, which frankly I was too.
"Bella." Joshua whispers as he trails his fingers along my bare back."Hmm, yea." I grunt in reply. Most of my words silenced by my pillow."Do you think we should tell Lucas & everyone else about us?" He asks, I can hear he's asking me even th