"Why was she there?" I nearly shout as he sets foot in my apartment.
"I thought you'd be in bed by now." He says. I instantly get annoyed as he decides fo ignore my question."
"You thought I'd be waiting with my bare ass in the air for you to pay a visit. Jesus Christ, Joshua, how foolish do you think I am?" The distaste in my voice was as clear as water and I know he doesn't miss it either.
His eyes soften whilst he slowly walks over to me. I hold up my hand as he kneels beside me, reaching out for me.
"You better explain, Joshua." My words could cut through steel if I wanted to. I made sure to get rid of all the emotions, in my voice, which were seering in my stomach.
"Bella, she's nothing to me. She's just a face for the public, so they don't get suspicious." His voice is one of a father talking to it's child. He must think I'm completely stupid to fall for this bullshit.
He told me, 'only me'. Tonight did not say, only me. That other woman is not me- obviously.
"Suspicious? Suspicious about what? About us and our agreement?" I question him as he looks at me and nods his head. "If you keep talking like this there won't be anything to get suspicious about."
"Fine. Don't believe me, Bella. If that is what you want, but we both know I don't break my promises. So if I promise you that there'll be no other woman I fuck, then there'll be only you." He stands up and his soft and innocent demeanor suddenly changes to hard and self-consciousness.
He is a man of his word. But should I believe him?
"Josh, I just don't want to get a STD through you." I say cold and emotionless.
He stares at me for a second, before shaking his head and walking straight out of my apartment. Without saying a word.
I groan deeply, annoyed with myself and my hard headed mind. Why can't I just believe him. I should've believed him. I know he's speaking the truth. Even if I didn't want to believe him, I know I do.
He has never broken a promise since I've known him. Not to me, not to his friends and surtently not to his family.
I've known him for quite a while now, nearly my whole life. But we've only upgraded our relationship recently. I even gave him a key to my apartment, so he could come over whenever he wants. He also gave me a key to his apartment, which was part of the deal of course. Such level of trust, yet I can't trust him in this.
Im such a fool.
I sigh deeply, shaking my head and slowly standing up. Pulling my pajamas straight.
My apartment door suddenly opens causing me to shreek loudly. I look up and see an out of breath Joshua standing on my door step. He slowly walks in, not leaving my eyes with his heated gaze. He closes the door and locks it behind him.
"I'm sorry, Bella." He whispers.
"Me too, Joshua." I whisper back and we both close the space between us.
I jump and he catches me, I instantly wrap my legs around him as he walks us to the couch. He throws me on it and follows behind, locking our lips in a passionate kiss. I could feel his anger from before as he furiously parts my lips and roams his tongue in my mouth. As is he's exploring jt for the very first time.
He rips of my pajama bottom and starts unbottoning my pajama shirt. I hastily undo his belt and get rid of his pants. I pull his shirt over his head, still slightly amazed by his godlike shaped body. I start kissing his delicious chest- thank god, hairless aswell- and roam my hands all over his body. When I finally reach the core of his desire I don't waist a second before clasping my hand around it. I slowly start pumping his enormous shaft and kiss my way lower and lower. He turns us around on the couch, forcing me on top. I smile at him and wink, before descending my way down.
I wrap my moist lips around his tip and softly suck whilst continuing to massage his shaft. He moans loudly and clasps his hands on my head, tangling his fingers through my hair. He pushes softly, forcing me to take more into my mouth.
I retreat and slowly lick along his shaft whilst looking at him from below my lashes. The predatory look in his eyes spoke book parts as he suddenly hoists me up and rips my panties apart. Not waiting any longer to take me.
He gives me all control and I slowly descend onto his shaft. I purr his name and throw my head back as he completely fills me. His hands latch onto my hips and he starts building a rythm as I move up and down.
"Fuck, Bella." He moans as I dig my nails into his shoulders. He picks up the pace and pulls me down towards his lips. He locks us in a heated kiss as he rolls his hips over and over into my depths.
"Oh- Joshua." I nearly shout, breaking our kiss as he finds my g-spot. No other man has ever found that before.
I bite onto his shoulder, silencing my screams as I vaguely remember Amy in the guestroom. His thrust become more uncontrollable whilst his breaths become more rigid. I whimper loudly whilst still biting his shoulder as I finally reach my highest point.
He follows quite soon after me and slows down his thrust as he grunts my name in the crook of my neck.
"I definitly forgive you." I breath out, after succumbing from our highs.
"Dito. Best make up sex ever." He laughs softly near my ear. I instantly smile as I hear his familiar laugh and tighten my hold on him.
"Double dito." I whisper back.
Waking up to a scream was not what I expected when I fell asleep in Joshua's strong arms.I pry open an eye and see a shocked Amy standing in the livingroom. Her eyes as big as marbles and a hand clasped over her mouth."Shit." I curse and sit up,
"How did this even start, Bells?" Amy asks as she sips on her coffee in our favorite café. It's this cute littlr place that makes you feel like home. It's not like Starbucks or Mcdonalds. It's a small family café, with all homemade cookies and home brewed coffee."I don't really know, honestly. It just happened one day and we never stopped after that." I reply, thinking about the day we started all this.
"I have to go on a business trip tomorrow. I'll be gone for a week or two.""Oh- Ok, who's coming with?" I clear my troath when it starts closing in on me."Just me and my secretary, I got some business in Japan that needs to he taken care of. Jaso
He did make my world go boom. In many more ways than intended."Josh... this is wonderful." I gasp as he leads me through the trees, bringing me to a clearing."I promised, didn't I?" He looks down at me as he tightens his arm around my waist.
"Bella." Joshua whispers as he trails his fingers along my bare back."Hmm, yea." I grunt in reply. Most of my words silenced by my pillow."Do you think we should tell Lucas & everyone else about us?" He asks, I can hear he's asking me even th
Joshua grabs my hand and pulls me into the side of his body. "We have something to tell you.""Joshua." I hiss near his ear, while keeping a straight face towards Katherine and Lucas.They both look quite lost, which frankly I was too.
Joshua and I have been spending time together almost every day, not realizing time was passing by so fast & everything we did seemed so natural. I've never felt something like this before & I don't ever want to let it go.The thought of Joshua and I being apart felt weird to me. It felt like we've been together for so long by now, everything has fallen into place & is how it should be.
Waking up from the sun is not as perfect as it seems to be in Disney movies.Feelinh your eyes sting when you try to open them and not being able to wake up slowly cause of the burning light all around you."Ugh.. Josh, close the blinds, please." I
"This day is too short." Joshua whispers in my ear as he leads us on the dancefloor."It's long enough for me," I say sarcastically, "these heals are killing me!"I let him think he's leading because he sucks at dancing, but he practiced a lot the
Laying in bed for such a long time, forgetting about the rest of the world and all the troubles outside of the bedroom. That is something I haven't done before, but doing this right now with Joshua feels like one of the best feelings in the world.We haven't talked ever since our mental break down in the shower yesterday. Something we did do was get rid of his clothes, since mine were already gone. He had pulled me into his lap once more, now with a different purpose as before. The shower
Days passed and no messages on my phone tell me that Joshua regrets walking away and is running back to me as I waste away on my couch. Thorny spots all over my body making me regret putting the shower so far away form my couch. Why couldn't there be a shower or a tub next to my couch so I could just roll right in?Note to myself; write down new idea for a world breaking interior design.
Joshua had been teasing me about babies all night. Making comments about how we should totally make on for our own, like it's baking a cake."Bells, come on. Raising a kid is like taking a walk in the park." His fingers tightened around my thigh and I glared at him from under my lashes.
Lucas called me to inform that the whole family will be joining us for dinner at my house tonight. Claire is coming too, as pregnant as ever. Katherine is bringing James as well and Joshua is still here of course.I've been preparing dinner for the last 2 hours. Doing my absolute best to make something delicious for everyone.
Waking up from the sun is not as perfect as it seems to be in Disney movies.Feelinh your eyes sting when you try to open them and not being able to wake up slowly cause of the burning light all around you."Ugh.. Josh, close the blinds, please." I
Joshua and I have been spending time together almost every day, not realizing time was passing by so fast & everything we did seemed so natural. I've never felt something like this before & I don't ever want to let it go.The thought of Joshua and I being apart felt weird to me. It felt like we've been together for so long by now, everything has fallen into place & is how it should be.
Joshua grabs my hand and pulls me into the side of his body. "We have something to tell you.""Joshua." I hiss near his ear, while keeping a straight face towards Katherine and Lucas.They both look quite lost, which frankly I was too.
"Bella." Joshua whispers as he trails his fingers along my bare back."Hmm, yea." I grunt in reply. Most of my words silenced by my pillow."Do you think we should tell Lucas & everyone else about us?" He asks, I can hear he's asking me even th