Chapter 7

"Lazarus!" I scream with my eyes widening in terror but he just shrugs and smiles innocently. I want to erase that smile on his face. I don't know why I'm angry at his smile. Maybe because he looks like he's teasing me?

"What? You wanted to know my talent, right? I just follow what you've said," he explained as if it were just a simple gesture. I know, we're in my imagination but the kiss is too sudden. I might give a color or meaning to it! What is he thinking? For Pete's sake! I don't know if he's just playing around or what?

"I know, all right? But it's a kiss. I mean, yeah, we're in my imagination, I understand that but you shouldn't kiss someone without asking them if it's okay," I said, trying to explain to him.

"As if you're not addicted to my kiss and lips before." There he goes again. He keeps on whispering himself but I can't understand a thing! What is he saying? Why can't he just say it loud so that I can understand him?

"You saying something?" I crossed my arms on my chest and taps my right foot on the floor. I raised my eyebrow at him which made him gulp in fear. He became uneasy when my mood became like that but I don't care. If he's going to speak, make sure that I can understand and hear it clearly.

"No - nothing, Eli," he smiled at me but it looks like it was fake. He's scared of me? In what way?

"You whispered something, Lazarus. What is it?" I asked again trying to make him say it again but he shook his head repeatedly until he slowly disappear from my sight. My heart aches in pain the moment his eyes look at me before he disappeared.

This weird feeling again. What is the real reason behind this heartache? I'm starting to feel uneasy because of this. In what world why would I feel this? Unless I'm starting to get attached to him? That's impossible. It's too fast. Not because he suddenly kissed me, I'll get attached.

"Remember, Kyna. It's just an imagination. It's not real. Suit yourself," I reminded myself and gently slap my cheeks trying to wake myself up. It feels like I'm sleeping or something and I needed to wake up because if I didn't, I don't know what to do anymore if ever I'm really attached to him.

I checked my phone, trying to search where should I apply to college. I needed to think about what kind of course I liked. What if I try to become a pharmacist? Well yeah, that would be nice because I like their uniform. It's pure white. They look clean and fresh that's what I should choose.

My phone rang when I receive a message from Sophia. It's been weeks since we saw each other and I already miss them. I immediately check her message and read it.

"Hi, Kyna! How are you? It's my birthday next week! All of our classmates are invited, of course! Please come, okay? I'll be waiting for you!"

My eyes widened in shock when I read her message. So it's her birthday next week? Sh-t! I still don't have a present for her! What should I buy? Da-mn! Good thing she messaged me today. I'm going to buy her a present but first, I need to take a bath and fix myself.

I opened the door of my room and walk downstairs but when I saw my mom here in the house, I stop myself from greeting her. I don't know why she's here but maybe, she'll talk to my dad. I shook my head and walk straight to the door but she grabbed my attention so I paused.

"Kyna," she softly said but I didn't turn and look at her. It's up to her if she wants to talk at my back, I don't care anymore. It's just, that I don't want to see her face because I know, I'll break down and ask her why she left me behind. Why did they do that to me?

There are so many why, what, and how but I stop myself from that. When they decided to leave me, I already knew that they are not my parents anymore. They seem like, they're just a stranger. A stranger who gave me a life in this world that I didn't even wish to be here.

"You're not a kid anymore. You grow up so fast," she said. I don't know if it's a compliment or not. So what if I'm not that kid anymore? It's been 3 years since they left me. What do they expect? Did they expect me to cry at their shoulder, begging them to take me? No! Over my dead body, I will not do that.

I'm done begging for them. It's enough! I can't do that again. I'm not the old Kyna. This is the new me, this is what they did to me. I learned that I shouldn't beg for their attention and love because if they truly love and cares for me, they will give that voluntarily.

"Thanks," I simply said and continue walking. I shouldn't waste my time on someone.

"She likes this perfume," I said while looking at the perfume that I'm holding but I know, she also loves accessories. Well, I can buy all I want as long she's happy. I gave my card to the cashier and took the bag. I bought four different perfumes because I'm sure, she likes all of them.

"Dress would be nice too but I don't know her size," I whispered and bite my lower lip. What about accessories only and bags? I nodded and hurriedly enter a jewelry shop. Every item that I think suits her, I'll take.

After the jewelry shop, I went to the bag shop and find a simple, elegant, and over-designed bag. I don't know what is her taste when it comes to bags so I bought three different designs.