Chapter 9

Hunter's POV

"From now on, the Alpha's Luna... is dead. I have never had a mate. And I will never ever going to have one. Not, if it's going to be you. "I felt an incredible pain rise in my chest as I hear those words.

N-no. She heard it. She heard everything and now she's completely abandoning me as her mate. She's... She's rejecting me. And everyone knows what rejection can do to a wolf. It's like a poison, slowly consuming every inch of you. Giving pain from head to every toe, creeping from every limbs in your body. It's like you're dying and the worst part was the fact that you're not.

"M-Mystic... "I tried walking up to her, but she flinched as she step back which pained me more. I know that she has every right to be mad at me. I fucking know that but I don't want her to go. I can't bare to see her walk away. And I can't take it seeing her cry, more because of me.

"Mystic, let me explain--"I held her arms and tried to make her look at me in the eyes, and she struggled to get away from my grip. But I didn't let her go. "Mystic--Mystic, Please, let me explain... "I pleaded, desperation evident on my voice. "I--"

"What more do you need to explain and how much more do you want me to hear?! "She bursted out, now looking at me with anger and pain in her eyes. I was surprised. I wanted her to look at me, but I didn't want that look. It wasn't the look she had for me for the past days that was filled with love and hope. It was now fiery, full of hate and despise. And it's slowly tearing me to pieces.

"You have been my last branch, Hunter... "She said with a broken voice, which also broke me. "I've held onto you because any moment, I'm going to fall on a deep cliff and I was afraid that I wasn't able to get out. And I've put all my hope on you. You were the reason why I wanted to continue... But fuck it, I was never even supposed to be  on the edge of the cliff if it weren't for you! "

My hands that was holding her, voluntarily let go hearing her words. She's right. It was all my fault. I killed her family, she had all the reasons why she would hate me. I couldn't imagine how I just turned the almost perfect life of hers into an utter mess. I couldn't imagine how I just turned her dream-like-reality into her worst nightmare. I couldn't imagine how I just broke a perfectly fine piece of art into a lifeless picture. I couldn't believe what I've done.

"Y-you're right. It's all my fault. I'm so so...so sorry... "My voice broke as I said those words. Mystic just gave me her deadliest glare as she balled her hands into fist.

"Do you think a sorry will fix anything?! Would your sorry bring back the life you've just taken, Hunter?! "This time, tears started dripping down her face, and God knows how it made my chest tighten even more. "I miss them, for goodness sake! I miss my father! I-I miss my brother! "She cried, and it only made me feel worse. I couldn't leave my place. I was just stuck here as I stare at her broken state, wanting so bad to hold her in arms but trying my best to hold it in because I know I'm not the person she needs right now. Or never. Only the thought of that makes me want to die.

"Hunter, you are my mate but I just... I can't, Hunter. I just don't know how I can face you anymore without feeling this rage inside of me. I'm sorry, but let everything end this way. "It seems like the world turned too silent as I hear her. She... She really wants to abandon me. She's going to abandon me.

I didn't know what to do. I know sorry won't change anything. I know I can't do anything to take her pain away because I only made it worse. But I can't see her walk away and never see her again. I just can't.

Maybe, I have no choice after all. If this is the only way...

Then so be it.

I held something at the back of my pants. Slowly taking it out as I walk closer to my mate. Once close enough, I held her hands, which was almost impossible as she was trying her best to keep it in. I forced them open as I put the sharp blade on her hands, slowly pointed it at my chest as I stare at her shocked face.

"W-what are you--"she struggled to pry her hands away but I held it tight.

"Alpha! "Leo was alarmed as he stare at my current doings. If he didn't say anything, I could've forgotten he was still with us. But before he can even walk up to me, I lifted my palm up, signing him to stop.

"Can you leave us for a moment, Leo? "I asked.

"No. "He firmly answer, which made me sigh.

"Leo--"

"No, Hunter--"

"Please... "With a desperate voice, I faced him. "Leave. "Though opposed, he know he can't do anything and left. I faced Mystic back as I grip her hands tightly. 

"Kill me. "I demanded. She finally looked at me in the eyes, eyes widening in shock.

"What are you--Let me go! "She tried her best to struggle away from my grip but I only held it tighter.

"I can't see you walk way, Mystic. I'd rather die in your hands, die with you still beside me than die without your presence,  knowing you're somewhere out there but not here. No, I can't take it. I'm dead serious, Mystic. Kill me. "She stared at me for a few seconds, probably still in thoughts. And moments later, I can feel the blade touch my chest. But before I can close my eyes, Mystic ragingly threw the blade away before it can even dig into me.

With fiery gaze, she held my collar and pulled me close to her.

"Do not be selfish, Hunter. I know how painful it is for a wolf when it's made die and-- "

"But I know you can take it! "

"I can! But I won't let a murderer turn me into another murderer. "She gave me a one last glare before completely turning her back against me, leaving me starstruck.

But seeing her walk away, my mind completely went blank. All that matters was stopping her from leaving.

So I ran to her, lift her up and carry like how I carry a sack of rice. Although I didn't know which was more heavier.

"Hey, Hunter! Put me down! I said put me down! "

"I am not going to let you go, Mystic. I won't let you. "She started hitting me in the back, but it seems like I weng numb that I couldn't feel the pain. The only thing in my mind right now is to not let her escape.

"Enough is enough, Hunter. Isn't killing my family enough?! Do you need to torture me too! Please, just fucking put me down! "I didn't give attention to anything she was saying and just continued walking home.

"Hey Alpha, why are you carrying Mystic like--"I didn't even give a glance to Ethan, neither to Leo who was asking what I was doing, and only put Mystic down when we were in on her room.

"Tell me you're not thinking what I'm thinking. "She had his eyebrows furrowed in irritation, but nervousness is visible on her voice.

"I think we have the same thoughts. "I answered, making her stomp her right foot on the ground, hands balling into fist.

"You are not going to lock me in here! "She yelled angrily. "No, I will not let you! "She was about to walk pass me, but I held her arm and lightly push her back. She wasn't swayed and was supposed to walk pass me again, but I again held her arm but this time, she tried to forcefully shake it off, but I gripped her arm tighter and pushed her a little harder.

"What are you doing?! "

"I will not--! "For the very first time, I raised my voice at her and I know it didn't made the atmosphere any less tense. "Let you go. Either you stay here or kill me and leave. But until I lost my last breath, you are not able to leave this house! You can never escape me! You get it? "I was panting hard as I said those words and perhaps due to shock, she barely manage to say any word.

Without any more words, I left the room and locked it. And maybe she just got back to her senses now, she started banging the door countless times, asking for help.

But I didn't pay any attention to it as I sat down and leaned against the door.

After few minutes, I started hearing her cry, perhaps maybe just behind me, also leaning against the door. 

She didn't stop crying even after few minutes, and I couldn't do anything as I just sat there, feeling all so guilty and hurt but unable to do anything. Few more moments later, she stopped crying and we were engulfed by silence.

"Can't you just let me go...? "I can hear how fragile and weak that sounded, which made a tear escape my eye.

"I can't... "

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