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CHAPTER SEVENTY NINE - NONCHALANCE

Author: Leema Kamal
last update Last Updated: 2023-02-09 22:45:26

Jayla

Things are going to be tough for you, Jay. As soon as we get back to the pack tomorrow, you will have to face all the pack members and you know how they are. They are going to talk about you, gossip about everything, and they won't care if you hear it," Shane says with a severe expression on his face as we sit on the green grass of the forest outside the tent.

"I really don't care about them anymore. Or anyone for that matter. I don't care about what they say," I tell him. "You know after all that I have been through, if there is one thing that I have learnt, then it is that when hard times come, you are all that you have -only yourself. Everyone ceases to help you, your parents, your friends, your partner. Everyone. Regardless of whether they wanted to help or not. You are only one who can drag yourself up from the dark abyss that you are into bright light. Someone can lend a hand but we have to reach out ourselves first.

"I don't really care about what others think because I
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