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2024-10-29 19:42:56I don't want to lose Ryan. My heart is filled with extreme distress and apprehension just by thinking about it. I have done it for Marianne but still...
“Fuck, fuck fuck!”
Pulling my hair in distress. The regret ate me up from inside. I felt like crushing under the weight of my deed. The feeling of repulsion for myself is so strong that I want to rip off my skin.
I let out my loud convulsions of misery. Losing myself in the anguish, I cried my heart out.
Utterly deprived of energy, I was turned devoid, nothing came to my mind, I was lost in the abyss. My despair got the best of me.
My heart seeks only one person who is not here; Ryan. So that he can hold me and tell me he is here for me. That he can giv
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We both began to cry as I whispered, "Please. Don't leave me again papa... "I cried, holding Papa's hands like there is nothing more safe than this for me. "I promise. I won't, I am sorry I am sorry." He cried. He pressed his forehead against mine as we remained like that. I felt paradise to have the support of my father. I feel like I can achieve anything now. Our cries came.to a halt. We pulled away, Marianne was also crying looking at us. I held my hand out to her as she came and hugged me. We hugged each other after years but I felt incomplete. I turned my gaze and saw Ryan smiling at me. My heart. Just can't be convinced that it locked me. I moved my hand and held his. He looked at me hesitantly.
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“Why did you lock the door, Ryan?” I asked gently, holding my tears back with trembling lips. “Why did you leave me alone..? I was locked in that dark room. I cried for you but you didn’t come..” I whispered, my tranquil broke when tears blurred my vision to ask what shattered me. My heart tore into pieces fearing to hear his answer. His woe stopped, his breathing hitched as he looked at me with the utmost shocked expression. “W-what do you m-mean?” He asked in a barely audible tone and a lost glint of terror. His eyes were wide, he was lost, he couldn’t comprehend my words. “You locked me up in the room.” I said, with a hint of betrayal in my voice, pulling my hands away, turning my head away while my eyes are fixed upon his face
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My eyes slowly opened when a bright light fell upon my face. I blinked a few times to adjust my vision. My heart felt hollow as I felt so weak. I looked around and found myself in Marianne's room. My throat was dry. I shifted and saw Marianne, sleeping on the couch. “Papa…?” I slowly sat up, my head hurt along with an aching pain in my heart. I put my hand over my head and closed my eyes, feeling heartbroken. “Marianne?” The creaking sound of the door made me think that it's Ryan so I quickly shot my head but the one who came was Papa. "Papa." I whispered. "Oh, My child, Finally you are awake." Papa came and patted my head. He sat beside me as I
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"Don't touch me!" I said, holding her arms and pushing her away, unintentionally it was a little hard which caused her to stumble and it tore my heart. How can I be so harsh? "Why are you doing this?!" She shouted, falling on the ground. "I never desired you in the first place, get out of my life." I said looking down at her. Her breath hitched when she heard it. She looked at me with a hint of astonishment. Invoking a ravage inside her, throwing her into an endless pit of turmoil. “W.. What?” She kept looking at me to find any hint of affection but the only thing which was plastered on my face was seriousness which intoxicated her in venom.
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The next day, I woke up and saw Ryan sleeping beside me. A smile crept upon my lips when I saw him but It was a sad one and the only question on my mind was, 'Why are you refraining yourself, why are you pushing me away?' I closed my eyes and remained like this, not wanting this moment to end and wishing that he doesn't go back to his cold personality again. "Are you awake?" He asked softly, my heart skipped a beat, worried he might not scold me. I nodded and said faintly, "Thank you." He hummed and shifted. We both sat up and I kept smiling at him. No words were exchanged between us as we both got ready and he did what my Father did.
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None of us spoke another word after it as the time passed quickly and I went home even if I didn't want to. "Where were you?" I heard Ryan's strict voice from behind, he was leaning on the wall looking at me direly which made my heart race at his dominance. "Why do you care?" I scoffed, folding my arms. "I am tired of living in that room. I will sleep in my room, come if you want." He said nonchalantly. My eyes widened for a second when I heard it. A shiver went down my spine, I turned to look at him. "Don't leave me, Ryan. Please." I said in a barely audible tone. "I won't stay in that room. Learn how to deal with your fears." He said firmly, which immerse
