She got ready, coming out of the bathroom after her bath, getting ready as I continued to watch her intensely until she came closer and sat on the bed, looking at the bangles on her hand.
I scooted closer to her, not preferring distances from her anymore. I also looked at her hands and began to say.
"Your hands were empty so I thought I could…" I trailed off and she began to say,
"I love bangles, bracelets and any jewelry to wear on hand." She said with a smile. I also smiled back and looked at her.
“It looks beautiful on you.” I whispered sincerely.
“Thanks.” She smiled sheepishly.
She also turned to look at me too as we star
These thoughts caused chaos in my mind as I lost my ability to think and filled up with ultimate consternation. My heart, in that moment, I desired nothing but to become the light of her dark sky. I wanted to become the hand she can hold onto and never let it go. “What have you done to yourself, Rebecca?” I asked myself in fright.I wanted the spark of hope which will ignite that endless fire of happiness in her now. All this time, I pushed her away, now she needs me and I will not back away now.“Why?” I don't know about love but I will surely become her salvation. And I understood it's not our unsavory redemption but her unsavory redemption.Like the more she tries to isolate herself from me the more I'll reach out to her. “I won’t let you reside there anymore.” I'll stir her mind as she won't be able to push me away even if she wants to and I'll be the one she strives for.‘I'll become her redemption.’I walked down and looked at her, since today is Saturday, I am home and I
Rebecca POV:-‘Am I making the right choice by taking Ryan along?’My heart felt faint as extreme dread took over my mind, mixing up my emotions and not letting me think. I began to tremble as unwanted thoughts of despair blended in.Pushing deeper into the depths of turmoil, my grip on Ryan's hand tightened.“It’s alright, Rebecca.”I shut my eyes as my breath became heavy, my heart felt like pricking as the images of the day Jane died came to my mind.“No, it’s not.” I whispered. Tears pricked in the corner of my eyes, my distressed form couldn't even comprehend anything.
"Rebecca…" I heard him calling me, shifting after being woken up by my sound.. I bit my cheeks as I remained motionless.I didn't dare to utter a sound and quickly wiped my tears. He groggily rubbed his eyes and lifted his head as I hummed in response looking at him. “Yes?”"You okay?" He asked with narrowed eyes as it was difficult to see my face in darkness."Yes.. " I replied faintly. He shifted and held his hands out to me."Come. Sorry I didn't give you any space to lay." He apologized sweetly, pulling me down."It's okay. You sleep, I am not sleepy." I said.A squeak escaped my lips when he held my wrist and in a swift m
I fell on my knees and began to cry. I cried my heart out, tears rolled down my cheek uncontrollably as I curled my hands in a fist and didn't dare to raise my head.I felt hands wrapping themselves around me protectively. I sniffed and moved my head and saw Ryan as he engulfed me in a hug.My lips began to quiver as I held his arms as if my life depended upon it and snuggled close to him. He pulled me in his embrace and I held his shirt and began to cry.He rubbed my back as I let out my cries of misery. My tears soaked his shirt but he didn't push me away, he held me close, comforting me.“Ryna…” He kissed my head and I continued to let out my agony.I sobbed for I don't know how l
Ryan POV:-Rebecca took us out of the cemetery, she seemed so infuriated, I have never seen her this furious before, it's like she is burning in a fiery fire.I didn't stop her or try to talk it out because the turn of life we are on is because of her father.“How dare he.” She growled, taking me with her.That her father is the one who caused this much devastation… to all of us. If he didn't do it, things would have been different, all of us could be happy… except for Rebecca.No, she could also be happy, she can live her life happily with that guy who wrote her those notes.But deep down, at this moment, I don’t want to imagine her futu
I nodded and gave her a side hug as I left to get something for us to eat. I bought a sandwich for us from a bakery and some muffins. I went to her, she was in the park she told me about. I saw her sitting on a bench, talking to Marianne. The realization of her previous words sank in me, when Marianne asked her if she loved me and Rebecca couldn't answer. “Oh Lord…” My heart began to beat fast as mystifying thoughts came to my mind and caused a commotion, filling me with an eerie yet satisfactory feeling. I looked at Rebecca and no matter how much I try, my eyes can't look at Marianne as if I cannot go anywhere else leaving Rebbecca, like I am made for her.
She swallowed the lump in her throat as I found her too tempting like this. My smirk grew wider, she raised her gaze and stopped at my tattoos.Her pants sounded melodious to me, I leaned in extremely close to her face, her rapid breath lingered on my face as my mind wanted to lose its senses."Your tattoos are captivating, Ryan."Under my piercing gaze, her voice came out in a barely audible tone. I nuzzled to her neck letting out a deep husky laugh as I murmured."So is yours.. "I moved my hand and traced my finger over her shoulder, where her tattoo is.She lowered her gaze shyly, looking at her like this made me feel great euphoria as the desire to see
Rebecca POV:-"Rebecca, I want to become your unsavory redemption."My heart flutters in happiness, tears of content for the first time in my life, brimmed in my eyes, my heart felt the serenity I thought I lost years ago.“Really?” A wave of tranquility rushed in me. I don't know when and how this happened but it's mesmerizing, something I thought will never be bestowed upon me.“Yes. I will.” He smiled and my heart began to desire him. All my sorrows washed away and my eyes teared up in happiness ever since he came to my life.“I can’t bear it anymore.” He became my desire, my identification. Someone who made me feel that I have a life and I also deserve to smile.
My heart was torn to countless pieces. Regret ate me upon seeing her like this. She let out loud sobs as tears also rolled down my cheeks in heartbreak and remorse as Rebecca began to say between the sobs. "Please Ryan.. I beg you. Take everything away from me.. But.. But please.. Don't do this for me.. I.. I can't live without you.. You are my everything.” She cried. “My life.. My breath.. My heartbeat.. My smiles.. My reason to live.. Everything resides in you. Please don't take it away… please don't leave me.. I will do anything. But please.. Don't hate me. Don't leave me…” Her words evoked woeful tears, the realization that my presence is all she needs and I failed to realize this. “You are my hope for tomorrow.. After taking me out from the abyss. Don't leave me there anymore. After becoming my light, don't fade away.. Please, I beg you Ryan. Don't do this to me…" She begged, lowering her head. A loud gasp of sob escaped my lips as I held her hand and kissed them, rele
Ryan POV:- There is an eerie silence in the house. It doesn't feel like home at all. I missed Rebecca a lot and felt so heartbroken when I couldn't be able to tell her how much I love her and what her worth is; which is greater than any riches of heaven. Even if I try, I can’t tell her how vast my love for her is. A pain inflicted on me and hurt me a lot to see the empty wall as no sound of Rebecca can be heard anywhere. No smiles of hers reached my eyes. I want nothing from God but to bow in front of her. I worship you too. She is present in my very prayer but Dad plus the doctor's words are pushing me in turmoil. I have to let her go because I am
My eyes slowly opened when a bright light fell upon my face. I blinked a few times to adjust my vision. My heart felt hollow as I felt so weak. I looked around and found myself in Marianne's room. My throat was dry. I shifted and saw Marianne, sleeping on the couch. “Papa…?” I slowly sat up, my head hurt along with an aching pain in my heart. I put my hand over my head and closed my eyes, feeling heartbroken. “Marianne?” The creaking sound of the door made me think that it's Ryan so I quickly shot my head but the one who came was Papa. "Papa." I whispered. "Oh, My child, Finally you are awake." Papa came and patted my head. He sat beside me as I
Rebecca POV:- My everything came to halt when Ryan told me that we have lost our child. My world came to a crash, my breaths stopped, my mind went blank, my reason to live suddenly began to feel meaningless. “What have I done?” I was willing to bear any pain with a smile but this is something unbearable. It's all my fault, my pathetic decision killed my child. “No, this has to be a lie…” I was on fire, my eyes couldn't see. My body couldn't feel anything but devastation. A deadly ravage roamed in every inch of my core. I was losing my breath. Nothing in this world can be comparable to this heartbreaking pain. I was damaged beyond repair, killed from inside.
An involuntary smile crept upon my lips when I read it. Getting some motivation on how to love from him. If Jayden loves someone, that person would be lucky. If I didn't give this to Rebecca, I would be unfair. I can feel the pain of his words. I put it in my pocket and went home. My heart skipped a beat as unnerving thoughts stirred my mind. I went home after two days, I hoped Rebecca would be alright. I guess at that time, she must have thought about things… about us. Now Jayden is gone, the only way to find liberation for Rebecca is.. divorce. I shuddered when I thought about it. I swallowed hard and searched for Rebecca. “Where’s Rebecca? I told you to
"Don't touch me!" I said, holding her arms and pushing her away, unintentionally it was a little hard which caused her to stumble and it tore my heart. How can I be so harsh? "Why are you doing this?!" She shouted, falling on the ground. "I never desired you in the first place, get out of my life." I said looking down at her. Her breath hitched when she heard it. She looked at me with a hint of astonishment. Invoking a ravage inside her, throwing her into an endless pit of turmoil. “W.. What?” She kept looking at me to find any hint of affection but the only thing which was plastered on my face was seriousness which intoxicated her in venom.
Ryan POV:- I have told so many harsh things to Rebecca, she is hurt. My words are breaking her heart, my whole being is giving her scars. I am doing things to her which I never thought I would. I am deliberately pushing her away and being this cold to her hurt me. I don't want to do it but I have no control over my senses and I am lost in the delusion that she can only be happy if she stays away from me. “Doctor, I complied with your word but… my distances were only hurting her.” I said sadly. “I know, Rebecca told me. Ryan, I know taking the responsibility of an emotionally fragile person is extremely hard. I doubt you could do it.” He sighed. “There is a possibility,
The next day, I woke up and saw Ryan sleeping beside me. A smile crept upon my lips when I saw him but It was a sad one and the only question on my mind was, 'Why are you refraining yourself, why are you pushing me away?' I closed my eyes and remained like this, not wanting this moment to end and wishing that he doesn't go back to his cold personality again. "Are you awake?" He asked softly, my heart skipped a beat, worried he might not scold me. I nodded and said faintly, "Thank you." He hummed and shifted. We both sat up and I kept smiling at him. No words were exchanged between us as we both got ready and he did what my Father did.
None of us spoke another word after it as the time passed quickly and I went home even if I didn't want to. "Where were you?" I heard Ryan's strict voice from behind, he was leaning on the wall looking at me direly which made my heart race at his dominance. "Why do you care?" I scoffed, folding my arms. "I am tired of living in that room. I will sleep in my room, come if you want." He said nonchalantly. My eyes widened for a second when I heard it. A shiver went down my spine, I turned to look at him. "Don't leave me, Ryan. Please." I said in a barely audible tone. "I won't stay in that room. Learn how to deal with your fears." He said firmly, which immerse