Chapter 9: Emotion

April pov:

Although the whole class did not end, I received a message from Dr. Alvarez caused me to lose concentration due to extreme fear. My whole being was wrapped in fear and nervousness, I didn’t know how I would feel in case my mother gone forever. Due to the intense emotion, I was not aware that my tears were streaming down my cheeks, I just noticed that they accidentally fell into my notebook and left a tear mark there cause me to back the reality.

“Santisima? Are you okay?" My reaction on face as I faced to Ms. Almira Reyes was blank, she is our music teacher.

“Why are you just looking at me? Don't tell me that you are afraid to sing in front of many people even though you always sing in front of everyone especially on recognition day. ” her rudely said.

I feel my throat suddenly go dry, I don’t even know how to tell them what is bothering inside me.

Fear preceded me, lest when I told them instead of helping me they would just laugh at me. I know they can't understand the problem I'm facing now because they're not in my situation.

"Do you have a problem? You haven't been comfortable in your seat before.” she commented to me. Even my classmates looked in my direction with their own questions but they could not speak freely.

Even Jayson who is also a member of Badburn also looked in my direction. As far as I know, he doesn't want to hear any noise except the teacher so he often wears a head phone because he doesn't want anyone to disturb his silence.

Jayson Alvarez, is the best at handling instruments and most of all she has a beautiful voice so almost all the girls in the music class are just turning their attention to him instead of focusing in our practice or vocal lessons.

"Will you tell me something?" no emotion question by Ms. Almira. I looked at Jayson again tensely, it could be read on his face that he also wanted to know what is inside me. 

I don’t know if I’m right or not but I can read what’s running through each person’s mind through eye contact even if they don’t say it, I know right away what’s on their minds.

I heard Ms. Perez release a deep sighed before she spoke again.

“You are a class president, so you can express your resentment and attitude. Do you have a problem about being on your position as a president?” I didn't speak right away just because I really don't know how to tell them about my reason was. “Is that one reason why you have to quit as a class president?” Everyone was surprised to hear from Ms. Reyes. “Is she quiting ma’am?” Jayson suddenly asked, everyone turned their attention to him as if agreeing with his question.

“Yes, that's what she said but we still don't agree, the board of directors still has to make a decision because that's what it should be. As long as there is no decision from there, she will stay with what she has now. She will manage the position she was have.” explained by Ms. Perez.

“But, Sean’s father was the head of directors. I know Uncle Sherwin didn't bother to think who was April in this campus. I mean, if that case happens that she will resign as president automatically Sean Clinton who was the head of director's son was to be elected as a new president in her place in that position. ” Ms. Perez took a deep sigh again to Jayson's response that she doesn't seem to agree that the son of this school will replace me.

“Sean Clinton was authomatically replace her.” Jayson added said.

"Yeah I know, but that's not the problem I see with April's eye." Jayson frowned as he landed the head phone on his desk and I, remain silent.

"Then what?" its interested question.

"I think April is still thinking deeply about the reason why she needs to quit as president because I see she is facing heavier obligations in her life." Jayson frowned as if wondering as if he face me seriously.

"Its a personal problem, I think." clarification by Ms. Perez to avoid him.

“What is bothering you Ms. Santisima?” then she turned to me again to find out my true reason.

"If you think that the owner's son replace yo-" it didn't finish what she was supposed to say when I suddenly spoke her first. "Ma'am, the truth is–” They were all waiting for what I would say next, I even noticed the teacher's lips that seemed to be mimicking the opening of my mouth so that she could better understand what I was going to say in case I had to say something.

“Ahm c-can I go out t-to call my father?" I stuttered and said. "Why is there a problem?" my teacher's face showed intense concern.

"Because ma'am, the doctor said that my mother had to be transferred to the ICU." her eyes widened in shock while I could no longer explain what I felt. Its like anytime my chest would explode with intense emotion.

"An emergency? Go ahead and check her first I know she needs you now." when I heard that from my teacher I quickly arranged my things to packed all in my bag. "I'll be the one to tell the principal so that your scholarship won't have any problems. I know how much you need that stuff." I just sigh a relief to hear that from my teacher. I would rather hug her but I just need to stop myself from doing that.

"Thank you ma'am, I'm really sorry if I didn't attend your class now. I promise I'll get it back ma'am." it just nodded. I hurried to the door when I heard her call my name again.

"Be careful on the road, and please, be strong for your mother." I don't know why my tears suddenly dripped from my eyes when I heard my teacher's comfort, I know she is the rudest of all teachers but from what I see now, she is even kinder than I thought . 

When I make sure that my things had pack properly, I hurriedly ran out to leave her room. I felt out of place as I crossed the street out of school. I don't even know who I meet on the way, I don't care if they think I'm crazy because I'm sobbing as I walk out.

I was on the side of the road, waiting for the cab when I suddenly startled when someone pulled over a motorcycle. At the speed of the incident, at the same time as I shouted loudly, the impact pulled me to avoid the car that almost ran over me when I fell to the ground.

 It was as if the incident had happened three times, in an instant I was on top of someone I didn’t know who because my eyeglasses had flown to somewhere, I don't know where either. I quickly groped it somewhere because my eyes were blurry when not wearing eyeglasses but I was depressed to see that one of its glasses was broken. 

"Are you ok?" I could feel my heart beating fast while staying in that position. His voice is very familiar, even though my vision is a bit blurry I can still see his familiar face and I can't be wrong he is, "M-Mark?" I quickly got up to move away with all my might from him until I was finally able to stand up but he quickly grabbed my hand back to lying on him in a flash with a deadly sigh applying my lips to his soft lips.

At these points, we were both unable to move and remained in that position. I was literally shocked when our body touched as if volt in as he still lay on the side of the road and our lips touched again. My eyes widened in shock but my heart was beating treacherously wanting to stay in that situation with the man I loved so much.

Does he also hear my deafening heartbeat?

Do we feel the same now?

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