| In Denial |
HIS SUITE was bewilderingly luxurious, grander, ecclesiastical—it has a separate living area, two bedrooms, a dining area. He’s rich. How can he live in this wide space all by himself? Isn’t it too boring? Sometimes rich people seem not to enjoy their luxurious life. Yes, they can have the materialistic thing they want but they can never buy happiness. They’re lack happiness. Yes, money can buy everything, but it doesn’t mean that it can make you happy all the time. The purpose of money is to satisfy your needs. Basically, not favorable among us.We may have lived in a highlander, farm area, where we always see fields. But the small things we do make us happy. We can feel the true meaning of love. We never compete to get something, to achieve something. Because we are happy for simple things.Rich people love to compete for money. Though there were still people who know how to value t| Outgrow |We live life the way we want it to be. The way how it uses to be. We want it to be wonderful as it is. But we know that we can’t make it perfect.Life always offers us the best, it’s just how we handle it. I know God always has a purpose for everyone. And I know he will not give us problems if we can’t surpass them.As time goes by, my heart started to outgrow feelings that I never imagine that I would feel—the feeling of being in love.Indeed, we can’t talk over something that we can’t stand.My school performances were fine, but this feeling… it’s not.I always ask myself, how did this happen? Why that fast?I fear.I fear because I’m not certain about it and I’m not ready for it.I fear being left in the dark, confused about what to do.I fear being rejected.
| The Kiss |Friday night, the cold breeze hugged me as I stepped out of the café. The trees shaded some part of the streets as their shadows reflect on it. I put my two hands on the side pocket of my jacket. Winter is fastly approaching. I began to walk.Linus and I have different end shifts. His out is every six in the evening, while I go home every seven, and sometimes it is eight.I sighed. Linus again? Until when would I forget that name.As I walk slowly, I look up in the sky. Stars are twinkling at me with light, mischievously squinting, and saying hello to me. They are like a sly pearl that adorns that dark blue sky and is no less inferior to the bright moon. The night’s aroma pervades the air, covering all the scenery inside. It is not as realistic as it is during the day. The air is filled with sweltering moisture, like a fog. The light from the lamppost is like a night of pearls gilled with
| Do Consider |The next day, I woke up with swollen eyes and I regretted crying last night. Seems like I need to conceal it before going to work. Lazily, I got off of my ass on my bed.Reina grabs her early breakfast with her new set of friends. Well, they have a group project to work on.As much as I want to stay here all day to avoid Linus, but I can't, because I have work.I remind myself that I don't need to be affected by the things that happened last night. If he tries to talk to me. I will allow him. We need to clear things out.Reina was right. If I continue to avoid it, nothing will happen—we can't solve the problems between us. I think I'm not ready for that.I hope he will get absent today. I overheard him and his friend the other day, saying that they have to undergo training this weekend, in preparation for their fight next week.My memories were still clear about
| The Confession |WE decided to talk in the park near the library. Linus is famous and I don’t want to risk my image nor my reputation being ruined by his fans.This is the only park I know that is far from the dorms and establishments. Sometimes we go here during our free time. Nena found this place.I sat on the bench, and he sat on the other side.I’ve heard his deep sigh as if he’s nervous or what, but I didn’t take a glimpse. I look up in the sky. It was dark and shady. The night is getting deep as the moon shines fully. It was just half but it was bright and beautiful. The stars that surround it were shimmering, it looks like crystals when they first occupy with the light. It seems like they’re giving me hope every day. If I can see them twinkling, there’s always be hope for everything.Back to my thoughts, I will not let myself denying again what I truly feel
| The Coffee |How would I know that he will take the courting seriously? He said he will court me in private. That no one will know or notice. I don’t know if I will believe him, but how would I know if he’s sincere if I won’t let him?Another day had passed, and it seems like he’s doing nothing. Well, he’s absent yesterday and the other day. I know he’s busy, and I won’t let myself be the one who makes a move even if I want to and misses him—yes, I miss him. Until the time when I accepted my feelings, it seems like my day is not complete if I don’t see him. Weird as it sounds but it is how I feel.Monday morning, Reina told me that Linus sees her at the north wing, and he asked for my number. Knowing Reina, of course, she gave it. And now, I’m like a fool waiting for a text or call.I don’t usually use my phone not unless it was my parents or Reina
| The Quiz |Does kissing a part of courting? I know it was just a smack, but it was still a KISS. And how dare he to kiss me. We’re not into a relationship yet. ‘Yet?’ asked the corner of my mind. ‘So, you want him to be your boyfriend?’ a thought that echoed inside my head.Damn! how can I sleep when he keeps on making my mind haywire? Reina on the other side was already snoring and me… I’m still wide awake. I don’t know but I just keep on rolling in my small bed, trying to forget what just happened a while ago. But I can’t. It seems like the thought doesn’t want to vanish.That jerk! He will see you tomorrow! He will regret what he did.I was awakened by a small pinch in my cheek, as I open my eyes, I saw Reina. “Rise and shine, Becca. Does Linus didn’t make you sleep? Seems you sleep late last night, huh?”“What ti
| Officially On | I don’t want to doubt his confession to me. But I can’t stop myself not to worry about when this courtship will last. If I will accept him now, should it be worth it? Isn’t that too fast? But isn’t that it’s the relationship that matters the most than the courtship? If I will not give it a try, how will I know that he is sincere pursuing me? And even if we’re already in a relationship, he can still court me. I remember what my mother said when I was in junior high school. ‘If a man loves you, he will do everything to make your relationship works. And if you were in the stage that it seems like one of you is falling out of love, try to talk about it and as much as possible, fix it. And if one of you can’t hold it anymore, then maybe he’s not meant for you.’ And I think I can’t find it out when I will not give a chance to myself to experience how to be love and how to love someone. Ms. Dory is finally back, and I talk to her i
| First Date |The next day, the weather seems not fine—it’s windy. The sun was covered by those thick, silvery clouds. The trees were swaying as the leaves fall from them. It’s colder than the other day. I did my daily routine and this time; Reina woke up early and we both grabbed our breakfast at the café.Greeted by the wind-cold breeze, I smiled at Linus who was outside the café waiting for us to finish our food. We’re classmates in Lit and there’s nothing wrong about it if he waits for me. But Reina keeps on teasing us, and it could catch attention from others. Thus, I needed to shove her away and thank goodness, she parts ways and walks in a different direction.Linus and I continued to walk, keeping our distance, pretending on discussing our upcoming examination in Lit.“Do you want to watch me fight on Friday?” suddenly, he asked.I opened
WHILE going to the arena mentioned by the king, Linus' father, my heart pounded faster than usual. I even heaved a deep and that caught Ms. Dory’s attention. And she did say that all I must relax.I hope that was easy. I never thought that we will be brought into this situation. It is so hard to love. All I ever thought is that we’re fine having a relationship privately, I thought I will never experience this kind of thing like I usually watched in movies, but behind everything, I remain tough, and I knew that when you love, you sacrifice. You will take any risk and you will do anything when it comes to love. You will do everything to make your relationship last.I roamed around the place. In every hallway, there were guards wearing black suits. All I have ever known, royal guards should wear like those red and black pants like Queen Elizabeth royal guards in England. But I was wrong. As years passed by, things are getting in trend. They dress a
The Last ChapterAS planned, Ms. Dory and I boarded a plane going to Denmark. My hand couldn’t stop sweating and trembling even if the weather is cold. I just don’t know what to feel. I feel excited at the same time I feel nervous. The fast pounding of my heart gives a deafening sound. Ms. Dory beside me was already asleep.Good gracious, it’s my first time riding a plane. Ms. Dory did a huge favor to me, and I don’t know how to repay her. She’s so kind and I’m thinking why doesn’t she settle down? She deserves everything and it seems like—I don’t know but I can sense that there’s a sadness reigning in her. Like how she looked at you, you can see through the depths of her eyes that she may have a painful past or something.I want to ask her about it, but I feel ashamed. Like what a thick-face I am. And I don’t want to cross the line. We’re not close for me
“HAVE you decided?” Reina asked as she sat down beside me and put down the tray on the table. I glanced at her lazily and turned back to the book I’m holding, keeping flipping the pages but I’m not reading it. I heaved a deep sigh and closed to book.“I don’t know. And even if I want to, I have no money. Plane tickets were so expensive, and I can’t afford it.”Reina laughed at me as she sipped in her fruit drink. “Geez, I told you, I’m willing to help. And we’re going to find cheap plane tickets. There are some airlines who offered cheap ones.”I shook my head. “Even if I go there, how can I find him?”Reina tapped the table. “What the… are you nuts? What happened to the genius Becca I used to know? Look,” she lifts my chin up, “Linus is a prince. And where do prince live?” she asked.“Palace.”
| Hold into Him |“No matter how long it takes, true love is always worth the wait.”***THE STARS glow along with the dark skies, the luminous moon peeking over the clouds, leaves were wiggling on the branches, the wind blew coldly and swayed the curtain in the window of our room. My tears won’t stop flowing to my cheeks as I remember him, leaving me without a word. He never bothers to call or send messages to me.Reina was already asleep. While me… I just can’t. I’ve been crying for hours, and my body seems to be dehydrated. I look at the bottle of water, Reina just gave before she climbs to her bed. Why does he need to go without saying anything to me? I know I should trust him, but can’t I deserve an explanation?I can feel that something was bothering him but as he told me to trust him, I never asked him about it. those me in black, those black c
| The Prince |“LINUS, did you enjoy living in a province?” asked Reina as she went inside Linus' car. We are heading back to school. Classes resumed tomorrow.Linus started the engine and said, “Of course, I did enjoy it.” then he looked and smiled at me.“Yay! I hope you have already overcome the second stage of your relationship.”I looked at Reina and glare at her. “What?” she said to me as she shrugged her shoulders.“Can you just shut up if you’re just going to ask inappropriate things?”Linus chuckled which makes me turned in his direction. I raised my left brow and crossed my arms.He hemmed. “Seatbelt please…” he said.“You know what Becca, don’t act innocent okay? I know you already kissed.”Oh my God, if I’m drinking or eating someth
| His Words |THE FOLLOWING days, things went well between Linus and me. I can say that he was very helpful and doesn’t have any complaints about the work on the farm. He doesn’t care even if he’s already dirty. And he helped my father a lot. He worked hard to get cow’s milk. Feed the chickens and take eggs on the poultry. I once asked him if he was already struggling with it because the activities of elite people are way different from poor people like us.In just a few days, our one-week break will end and we will be back to studying again. More activities and lessons again. My part-time job at the café will be resumed. And I’m going to miss my parents again, but that’s really how life is, you have to sacrifice for the sake of your dreams and your family. If you won’t study, you will not reach your goals.I heaved a deep sigh when I remember the scene the other day, at the top
| Trust Him |Telling the truth to your parents is very important, and I know I don’t have to deny our relationship.My mother smiled. “I thought, you will finish your study first, hmm… why a sudden change, sweetie?”I put the plates on the table before answering. “I thought so, mom. But things happen unexpectedly. At first, I don’t want to, but this bizarre feeling seems to grow. And I don’t have control—Ah, I can control it, but mom, I can’t resist it,” I said. I sat down on the chair and heaved a deep sigh.“That’s what I’m talking about since then, and I’m not against it, sweetie. I’m happy that you’re experiencing it, yet I want you to set limits, okay?”I smiled and helped her to fix the table. “Yes, mom, and thank you.”“Anyway, sweetie, Linus seems nice and a responsible man. He’s mature enou
| The Vacation |It is a fine day. The sun cast a luminous glow. The fresh breeze from the green fields welcomed us as we enter the village. The whole landscape was bathed in the warm glow of the rising sun. palm trees swayed gently in the breeze in the warm tropical sunshine. The village has this breathtaking scenery that can captivate everyone.I look at Linus, my eyes lasted a minute on his side. He seems relaxed while driving with just one hand gripping the steering wheel. He always wears his elite aura—those people who were born with a silver spoon.Could Linus like to live on a farm? Does he know how to milk cows? Feed chickens and gather their eggs? Does he like the smell of a muddy land?Of all people that surround me every day, why did I fall in love with him?I looked outside the window and heaved a deep sigh.Things changed the moment I fell for him. typically, being in love means I want to spend much time w
| Found Out |I didn’t get a good sleep because of excitement. Well, he’s coming! I gently tapped Reina’s face so she will wake up, good thing, she did.“Hmm… what time is it?” she asked me.I walked towards my closet to get some clothes. Just a few. Besides, I got lots of them at home.“Seven.”“What time we will go home?”“After lunch,” I replied.“Did you call your dad to pick us up?” she asked as she stretches her arms and yawned.“Nope. We will surprise them,” I answered and sat down at the wooden chair as I sipped on my coffee. “Come, let’s eat,” I said.“Whoa! I guess you woke up early, huh. Excited to go home?” She stood up and walk in my direction. She yawned again as she gets her cup of coffee.“Sort of,” I replied. I will not tell her yet that Linus