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2024-10-29 19:42:56"Where did you go?"
"Wherever I wanted.""Mom, please. Just...where did you go?""You and your father are both the same. Always try to keep tabs on what I do, who I'm with, and what I drink. Just leave me alone!"I grit my teeth and rolled my eyes. She was shaking and vomiting, getting worse because she was in withdrawal from all of the drugs she had been doing while she was away. The hospital staff referred us to a rehabilitation place for her that would help nurse her since she was unable to do sh*t for herself right now.The only issue was that it cost a lot of money. The money we no longer had because she had spent over five hundred grand while she was away. Her bank account was wiped clean and when I searched the purse at home that she had brought with her, she only had forty-two dollars and a bunch of needles and baggies of drugs in there."I just want to know where you spent all of the money."She cackled and noddRelated chapters
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