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Halloween
Children walked around everywhere, dressed in various costumes, grinning and laughing as they walked up to my doorway.
I stood uncomfortably in my Elsa dress, my hair braided off to the side. I smiled brightly at the kids and their parents as they grabbed fistfuls of candy from the bowl I had set up. Children hugged my legs and stared up at me in wonder as their parents complimented me on my costume. I grinned at each of them and gave them candy and hugs back, but the entire time I thought of my dad. I thought of how happy he would have been if I had ever just taken the time to hand out candy to him. I wish I had done it more often. Sure, the dress was itchy, but the kids all loved it and I loved seeing their excited faces when they looked at me. I was busily handing out candy for a few hours already, happy that I had thought ahead and bought a sh*t ton the night before when some familiar faces popped up. One was a tiny prRelated chapters
Unapologetically Me Shopping
I walked mindlessly through the aisles, picking up things that looked interesting and just perusing so that I didn't have to go home. My phone tinkled in my purse and I stilled. Whether it was Chloe or not, I didn't want to hear the re hash of what had happened at the party. But I seemed to be a masochist this morning anyways, so I answered the call without looking. "Hello?" "Hey!" Hearing his voice I felt my jaw clench and I stopped strolling. "Oh, hey James. What's up?" "Just calling to see what you're up to. My mom told me she took the little kids over to see you." I smiled at the memory and nodded. "Yep. They were cute." "Yeah. So what are you up to?" "Shopping. Toilet paper and all of the fun stuff." "Trader Joe's?" "Yeah." "You mind if I join you?" I rubbed my face and shrugged. "Okay." I sighed. "
Unapologetically Me Dance and Signs
Dance was the only thing getting me through. I worked my a*s off for the next few weeks, getting the routines down and traveling to our first meet in Texas. The hardest part of the meet was not having my dad cheering me on in the stands. He had always been so supportive of anything I did. He would practice cheer routines and perform them in the stands while he watched me proudly. He loved football, but he always made the games just for me. On dance competitions, he made sure to take the two full days off, even if he had important meetings, and would cheer me on in everything. Another thing that sucked was the nerves that I would get before a meet. I guess with my dad being absent, my anxiety had kicked up and I found myself vomiting right before the meet. Even in practice, I would be good one second and then all of a sudden I felt my whole body begin trying to dispel any single parcel of food I had tried to digest. Des
Unapologetically Me Avoiding
The next day I tried to focus on classes and doubly avoided James. It wasn't hard when I had already been doing it for two weeks, but even when he smiled at me, I turned away without a smile back. During class, he tried again and I studiously ignored him. I couldn't let him in. If he found out, there was no telling what he would want to do with the information. During class, I got a text from him asking me what was wrong. I ignored it and proceeded to block his number. After he realized I had blocked him he turned around during Danforth's lecture with his eyebrows furrowed. I continued to ignore him and he only turned away when Ms. Danforth called his name and told him to pay attention. After class, he followed me to my locker but before he could say a word to me, Pink Streak came out of nowhere and hugged him. He continued to try to get near me by removing her from his arms but I was able to move q
Unapologetically Me Ultrasound
Chole held onto my hand tightly and jiggled her knees as we waited in the back room for the nurse to come back with the results. I was already sure that I was pregnant, but for some reason, I couldn't get rid of the hope that all of those pee sticks pregnancy tests had been faulty. The nurse came in holding a clipboard and a cherry smile. "Alright, Miss Whitmore, we got back your results. They came back positive. From the information you gave us, we estimate that you are approximately ten weeks along. After scans, we can be more precise." "Do we have to do scans?" I asked her nervously. "To be more accurate about how far along you are, we would need to get pictures." I took a deep breath and nodded. Okay. I knew this would happen. I turned to Chloe and she pressed her lips together and sighed. "Okay, so can you talk us through her options afterward?" "Yes. I
Unapologetically Me Thanksgiving
My cousins hadn't even bothered to call me to set anything up with me. I felt forgotten. I could probably die over the holiday and no one would even be the wiser. The days passed by painfully slow and the night before Thanksgiving, I finally snapped. I had laid around feeling sorry for myself. Crying and acting like a victim when instead I should be trying to fix it. So around dinner time, I made my way to the grocery store to see what I could get to make myself a Thanksgiving meal. I pulled up a few recipes and grabbed everything I could find to prepare pies, mashed potatoes, a chicken, because thawing out a turkey was out of the question, stuffing, and green bean casserole. I spent the rest of the evening preparing the pies. I was able to successfully make a pumpkin pie, not entirely from scratch, but it came out looking like the real deal. I also made a sweet potato pie, even though I didn't even know how it tasted,
Unapologetically Me Admission
When he turned to look at me I froze. The betrayal in his face gripped at my heart and I bit my lip. What now? What was I going to do?God, I was so stupid. Why didn't I just put it away?"This was why you walked out of class on Wednesday?"The frustration in his voice was evident. I clenched my fists and squared my shoulders. "Why are you looking through my stuff?"I walked to him and plucked the ultrasound out of his hand. I tucked it back in the book in his lap and he just continued to stare at me."Answer my question. Did you know since Wednesday that you're pregnant?"Hearing him say it out loud made reality come crashing down on me. I shook my head. "No.""What does that mean? How long have you known?"I pressed my lips together and stared down at my book. Stupid traitorous book. He grabbed the book from me and set it on the couch beside him."Two weeks.""You've known for two w
Unapologetically Me Plans
I set the appointment but the only availabilities they had were for after the following Tuesday, which meant I was going to have to cut class again. At this rate, it wasn't looking good for me with my uncle. I was still nervous as hell but with James in the know now I felt like a weight had been lifted off of me. I still didn't want him to come to the appointment but I at least told him about it. He still seems kind of on the fence about it but it was for the best. Chloe was relieved when I told her about the appointment and about James finding out. I knew she had been stressed about it for me, but it was my business to take care of. James came by every day since he found and helped me with mundane chores like laundry. He felt like even though I was going to abort, I should still be careful. At school on Monday he even joined me for lunch. It was a quiet affair since he had brought Pink Streak along. She did most of the
Unapologetically Me Abort Mission
The next day instead of going to school I slept in and only got up and got dressed when Chloe called me when she was in her way. We both sat quietly in her car on our way to the clinic and my stomach was jumbled with nerves. I was kind of freaking out a little. Last night I had a dream that wouldn't leave my head. It was of James and I chasing after a cute, dark-haired little boy. My mom was there, sober, and his parents were there. It was almost perfect. And it was dumb. The dumbest dream I had ever had because I knew it could never happen. We walked into the clinic and I checked in. Chloe held my hand as we waited for them to call me to the back and I was glad that I had told James to not come. The dream kept repeating over in my head and I couldn't shake the guilt that was beginning to make me feel sick to my stomach. The clock ticked by slowly and one after another, people were being called into the back. After the
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