Oh wow, I cannot believe I have found my mate….. Esmerelda…. Esme….. A quirky, fiery ball of petite, curvy, latina, perfectness….. and she was mine….. The moon goddess may have made me wait to find her, but she had certainly blessed me with her. Ok, she may have a fiery personality that will keep me on my toes, but I think that is a perfect match for my personality, so it will keep life interesting…… All the drive home seemed to have taken forever! I just wanted to get back and get her to myself, and I can imagine Manuel was the same with Lola. I cannot believe his mate is the cousin of my mate. How perfect was that? Not just that, but seeing how happy he was made me happy too, he deserved that happiness. I love to wind him up, but he had been my closest friend since we were tiny and has always been there for me. He is a sensitive soul and while I like to tease him for it, I hate seeing him hurt, so knowing he finally has the mate the moon goddess intended for him, an
I stand in shock at the sight of the empty bathroom, the open window signalling to me she has bolted. Clearly, she had second thoughts. She could have at least had the decency to fucking reject me before upping and leaving….. my pain is turning to anger now…… yet I feel tears behind my eyes. How can I want to cry over a girl I don’t even know?! I have built myself up to this point, waiting for a girl that I have been meant to love, to want, like nobody else on the planet, I am meant to worship, idolise and care for like she is the most precious gem in the universe. I have waited, like I was expected to, been so patient, despite it hurting, despite being so lonely, despite my wolf pining for her. And like everyone describes to you, the moment you meet them, and realise they are your mate, the connection is instant, your wolf begins to crave them, you feel the most urgent need and want for them like nothing else you have ever felt once you have felt their touch. As soon as you know
I had just got out of the shower with Lilah having made the most of an empty house, when I heard a loud howl. That sounded near to our house. That seemed odd, I quickly walked to our bedroom balcony, overlooking the back of our house, a towel wrapped around my waist, and Lilah followed in a towel. I saw what looked to be a wolf running toward the forest. That would make sense, given the noise, but wait…. That looked like Aspen, Gabe’s wolf…….. “That’s Aspen” Lilah whispers, she had already reached my side, and was looking where I was. “Something doesn’t add up, he should be with Esme, not shifting into his wolf and running off into the forest” I say. “Link him, tell him to come back, Knox. If something happened he should not be alone. What if she rejected him when they were alone” Lilah says. A feeling of fury rages through me. Would she have done that?! She had run on him when they initially met, had she been too embarrassed to reject him with us all there, and the fact
I had run for a while, chasing some small prey, taking out mine and Aspen’s frustration on the small animals we found in the forest. But I struggled to focus and wasn’t doing brilliantly. My mind and Aspen’s kept focusing back on Esme, on our apparent mate, the mate that didn’t want us, the mate that had run from us. Knox and Lilah had mindlinked us numerous times. Aspen howling when he shifted must have disturbed them, so they knew something was wrong as they had seen me shift and go for a run. So they knew I wasn’t in my house making sweet love to my new fucking mate the way I should be. How fucking twisted fate ended up being. I had clearly messed up in a past life to end up being punished like this. I had ignored their links, continuing to run, pushing myself to the point it hurt, needing to feel the pain, then when Knox had mentioned Manuel I knew I had to go back. What if all this shit does affect him? I fucking hope the actions of Esme do not affect the relationship
To finally get Lola back to my home, well, what would be our home now, was heaven. I still cannot believe my mate is finally here after waiting so long. Seeing her with my friends earlier had felt so amazing, she had fitted in so well, laughing and joking with us like she had known them all her life, this is what I had dreamt of and for it to have happened showed the Moon Goddess knew what she was doing. I am not one for dancing, but when Lola asked me to join in with them dancing with the girls, I was not going to turn my mate down, and having her body pushed against mine had felt so good. I know to look at, the height difference must look amusing for those looking in, but she is cute, and I love how she looks. She clearly isn’t as confident as Gabe’s new mate, but then I am not as confident as Gabe, so in that regard, we are the perfect match. We can work on all of that together. Though right now, the fact we are finally on our own, I am a massive bag of nerves! I have never b
Awww Manuel is the sweetest. I can see he is anxious, nervous to have me here. Lilah had told me he was not very confident around women, plus Gabe had teased about me being gentle with him. Yet I look at him, he is big, tall and a muscly, strong warrior, handsome and covered in tattoos, I seriously do not understand why he would not be confident, he is gorgeous. I imagine he has had she-wolves queuing up for him, yet the moon goddess had decided he would be mine. I find his uncertainty and nerves quite endearing to be honest… Trying to kiss him to reassure him is difficult when he is a fricking giant! I aimed for his cheek and pretty much got his chin! But it meant he lifted me up. I decided to go out of my comfort zone and do what I had seen Esme do earlier and wrap my legs around his waist to allow us to kiss properly and, wow, had I been rewarded for being brave! The kiss was amazing! See he may be nervous, but I am just as nervous…. I do not have much experience around m
“Here you go Mi Amor” I say offering the glass of juice to Lola, she looked deep in thought. I hope she is ok, and not having second thoughts of being with me. She looks to me, a small smile on her face, though I am almost certain there are traces of tears building in her eyes. “Thank you” “You want to go sit on the balcony in my room, we have a great view of the lake from up there, it is quite warm out still. We can sit and talk if you like?” I suggest, hoping to the goddess that does not sound sleazy or dodgy in anyway. I really need to work on this…… She simply nods, following me upstairs. I open the patio doors, leading out onto the small balcony attached to my bedroom, over looking the back garden of my home, and also views of the lake and parts of the forest in the pack. Our packlands are beautiful, full of mountains and plenty of forests, which are perfect for when we shift and need to run. I have a small table and chairs set up out here, as I love to have my bre
I decided to take her example and slipped off my trousers, leaving me in my underwear, pulling her close to me once more, the contact of her skin against my body was sending shivers all over my body, as her mouth explored mine, the kisses passionate yet tender, needy and wanting….. this is the girl I had been waiting so long for and she was finally here…… I ran my hands down the curves of her body once more, feeling her groan against my lips as I did, so I took that as a good sign and let my hands wander a little further. Lola moved slightly, flipping me so I was now under her, she was straddling me. And my heart was pounding in my chest and I was wanting my mate so badly…. Though I imagine she knew that…. could feel that that from where she was sat….. I could smell her arousal in the air too…. My beautiful mate wanted me…. And beautiful she was…. She looked perfect sat on top of me too….. Suddenly, she had unhooked her bra, and I was able to take in the view of my almost n
12 months later continued… Listening to Esme panic rushing around the house, I am wondering why we offered to hold a get-together at our house for our friends. We should have let it be at Lilah and Knox’s like normal. Damn me trying to be clever and be a better host than Knox. “Have we got enough drinks in? What about snacks?” I hear Esme ask for about the tenth time in about half an hour. She is dashing between the kitchen and the lounge, trying to make sure everything is tidy, when I know my friends really could not care less, and within ten minutes of them being here the house will look a mess, especially when Finn and Kai are toddling around looking for things to mess with. Thankfully, Dan and Indie’s youngest, Wren, is not at the age where she can toddle very well just yet. Though she is just as much of a mischief as her big brother, so that was only a matter of time. “Mi Amor, it is fine” I tell her the same thing I have every ither time she asked. Not that she wil
12 Months later I woke up to look at my mate. She looks so tired, yet so beautiful. The pregnancy seems to be taking it out of her. Though she is getting close to the end now. We truly cannot wait for our pup to arrive. We had waited to find out what we were having, wanting a surprise. I mean the pregnancy came as some what a surprise, so why not let the gender be one too. Well, I say the pregnancy was a surprise. We had not planned it as such, yet we had not done a massive amount to stop it happening either. We just hadn’t discussed having a baby just yet. Lola was getting settled in working in the daycare centre and loving every second of it. Her confidence seemed to be building, and the kids there seemed to love her. I think some people just have that kind of personality that draws children to them, and Lola is definitely one of them. She is a natural with kids, so I know she is going to make the most amazing Mami to our pup when they arrive. She had been unwell for
I would say thank the goddess it is the weekend, but I have been busy cleaning the house today while Esme has been working on some coursework for her degree. I was being the ever perfect mate and providing food and drink for her, so she could focus on her work as she told me she had quite a lot to do. I truly do not know how she does it. I look at the work each time I walk in the dining room, where her texts books, note books and laptops are now spread across the table, and in all honesty, it looks like complete nonsense to me half of the stuff. Plus, I see how many notes she has written, and I truly think I would get bored and think I can’t be bothered and give up. I have yet another level of respect for my mate, I truly do. This is some serious dedication. And she is seriously impressive. Our hospital would be lucky to have her when she graduates. We had agreed to our day doing this, then we were having a lazy night together, time to chill out, movie night, takeaway a
I was glad to have had my time off with Lola, but was ready to get back to work I have to say. Ready to get back to training and burn off some energy through fighting and sparring with the other warriors. Lola had gone into the Day Care centre, her first day being yesterday, and she had absolutely loved it! The staff seemed to love her, and she got on well with them. And Lola loved being around the kids, so I think she had definitely found her calling in life. The smile on her face when she walked out of there at the end of the day to meet me, told me that she was going to be happy there. After a hectic day training, and going over training programmes for the young warrior programme, I had finished later than expected so I had already linked Lola to let her know so she would not expect me to be there to meet her like I had the day before. Gabe and I both were in charge of planning a new training programme for upcoming warriors, and had to work on the training regime
I walk into The Spirits of Tea tea room feeling nervous. I was unsure whether to agree to come or not, to be honest. I have not really spent time with this Diego. All I know is, I think this guy is my fated mate and the crazy fool had run away when he realised. Or I assume he realised. He was new to pack, had come in with the newcomers from the Crimson Night Pack. They seemed nice enough and his parents had made friends with my parents. My wolf Fern had gone crazy the moment I had crossed paths with him in the pack house, but then as I approached him to confirm who he was, he looked at me, his chocolate brown eyes full of uncertainty and he bolted out of the door. Fern had been skulking since. Both of us unsure if this was building up to a rejection. Imagine that, the daughter of a former Alpha being rejected. That would not look good. I honestly did not know if I was hurt or angry. I had not told a soul. Kept the pain and misery to myself. Not wanting anyone to judge me, or
My head was buzzing with the information Manuel had mindlinked me. I drop off with it on my mind and wake up with it still taking over my thoughts. I can’t believe Willow had found her mate yet had not confided in anyone. She would normally speak to our Mum, or our sister, yet nothing had been mentioned. I would maybe have even expected her to confide in Lilah or Indie, but again I would have expected that to have been leaked back to me through them as neither one is good at keeping secrets. She must be in bits feeling rejected by her mate, and I know how that feels. Been there myself with Lilah when we first met, strangely enough . Not for the same reasons, but came back to her not feeling good enough, though she had the added fear of being terrified of being hurt. I can’t imagine how Diego must be feeling. I know how many people consider Alpha families as being way above them, and would see a warrior as not worthy of being mated to someone within the family, but our family ar
We left the BBQ later in the day, Gabe and Esme seemed to have disappeared, not sure when. But Lola and I had enjoyed time with everyone. I get on well with her brother and Esme’s brother, so working with them would be good I think. The week off with Lola seemed to have flown by, but it had been so worth it. We have sorted the house, got a few things for it that she liked so it was more a mixture of our things now and not just mine, which is something I wanted to do for her. We have had plenty of time to chat and I think I see some definite positive changes in Lola now, so I do think we are on the way to things improving for her.I don’t think she will ever get over the crap she went through in that pack, but then I doubt most of the others from there will either. I realise this isn’t going to be a sudden fix, and will be a slow and gradual thing we work on together, and I am good with that, so long as she is doing ok and she is happy. She has been doing amazingly in not trying
We had spent the afternoon at Manuel’s parents’ house, spending time together as one big family I guess. A BBQ to welcome my family and Lola’s family. Though to look at them now you would think they had always been here. No doubt there will always be scars and damage from the Crimson Night Pack, but I think Midnight Forest Pack will be the way forward for them all. There had been so much laughing, maybe something to do with the excess of beer drunk. But at the same time, the atmosphere felt perfect, so warm, and welcoming, like we were home. Like we belonged. My parents clicked with both Mateo and Eden, and Javier and Ada like they were old friends. It was nice to see and I think it will help them settle in. It was the same for Lola’s parents. Mum and Auntie Val are now looking to try painting with Indie – heaven help her! But they are also planning to help around the pack house too. Suggesting cooking classes for some of the younger wolves, which apparently former Luna, Ava loved
Family BBQ day was here again, though this was literally a week later, due to the fact we were welcoming Lola and Esme’s families. Though I seem to have seen them every day this week, I am sure of it! And from what I can gather, our parents are all spending time together anyway, so I'm not sure the BBQ is truly needed. But I won’t say that or my Dad would likely slap upside my head, or my Abuela threaten me! Still, time with the family is meant to be nice, someone else is cooking. And now I have my mate by my side, I don’t have to worry about being hassled about finding my mate, so in all it should be a good day. I get to chill with Esme, and my family while eating good food and drinking beer in the sunshine. Sounds like a pretty perfect day to me. This week has been so hectic helping Esme’s family get settled, and getting into a routine of Esme being back at university but from our home as a base rather than her apartment near the university. I introduced Diego and Luis to