Wow, that had been amazing… he had been so gentle, so patient….. so tender…. Definitely worth the wait, my perfect mate….. he must have known it was my first time as he was so gentle too…. But it had felt so good….like it was meant to be, though he was fated to be with me, so I guess in that regard, it was meant to be. He is meant to be with me. Yet when he went to mark me I panicked, I truly did, I really wanted to allow him to mark me, my wolf Nori wanted to let him, but what Esme had mindlinked to me was lingering in my mind and I was terrified. What would happen to me if I went home and I was marked and mated without the Alpha’s permission? Could they actually do anything? Maybe I should not have slept with Manuel, maybe I should have waited until I knew I could accept him as my mate, because right now I do not know that could actually happen and that terrifies me. Right now I am sat on the bed, having said no, both of us naked. He looks heart broken. I have hurt my mate a
I had struggled climbing down from the bathroom window, but I guess all the tree climbing as a young girl had done me good in the end. Who would have thought back then when I was doing all the tree climbing with the boys it would be in preparation for running away from my future mate…. I had got away with only a few scrapes, no doubt a few bruises by morning, but I am sure Kya would help them heal. Albeit reluctantly, as she was not happy with me right now. She was devastated, leaving her mate behind. She had wanted to complete the mating process, so happy to finally have the other half to her. So for me to run out on him she had been screaming in my mind, trying her hardest to push forward and shift to make me stay. I had to struggle with all my might to keep her back. She was now sulking in my mind, a mixture of hurt, anger and pain emanating from her being.Stupidly, all the same things I was feeling, but I had to do what I did, I had to run. I could not let myself become at
I woke up feeling so happy and content. Rey, my wolf, almost purring in my mind at the fact his mate was in our arms. Being with her last night had been heaven. The first time a little nervous and unsure, but it still felt so good. The second and third times during the night were intense and felt like our bodies were made for one another, each time reaching new heights of pleasure. I don’t think I would ever tire of my mates' touch. I know we laughed at Dan and Knox for always being late for being with their mates, but I can see why now, and I imagine Gabe will be saying the exact same thing when we see him…. if we see him later….. I want to stay in bed for the next month with my mate….. explore every sex position known…. Finding out all the things that make her squeal the way I like…… having both been new to this meant we got to discover things together…. The perfect combination…. I realised I had made an error last night assuming I could mark her, and I felt terrible for t
After rounding up our group, we headed over to Manuel’s house. He sounded a little stressed through the link I have to say, though maybe that is because he is worried for his cousin. I don’t know. I know I need to be wary about how I do this as I do not want to be too full on and intimidating to Lola and scare her or upset Manuel with it being his new mate. Lilah is doing her best to keep me calm. She loves Manuel like a brother, and she does not want to see him getting hurt or caught in the middle of all of this and right now that is exactly what he is. Manuel opens the door to us. He looks tired, though after a night having just met his mate, I would expect nothing less. Though he is only wearing a pair of shorts and I cannot see a new mate mark on his neck, which surprises me. Dan when he met Indie had marked her as soon as possible, as do most couples, thought I know Manuel had been nervous last night. “Here are the clothes Manny, you want me to take them up to Lola?”
I am so glad to hear Knox say he will do all he can to help me, and to help Lola be together, and what he said makes sense. If she is already part of our pack, can they actually do anything? I will discuss it with her later, but for now, we need to try to help sort this shit show of a situation for Gabe. Walking into the lounge to give everyone their coffees, I can see he looks broken, he looks like he hadn’t slept and that happy, content look he had on his face when we left him last night was long gone. He looks like a shell of his former self and I have to say I do not like it. He does not seem himself, he does not seem whole and that scares me a little. He seems empty inside. “Hey Lola” Knox greets Lola as she walks into the room with Lilah, despite the fact he had just seen her in the hallway. She smiles in return. “Are you ok Gabe?” Lola asks him quietly. Gabe looks to her, an empty and vacant, expression on his face “Oh yeah, great.” He mutters. Bro quit i
We all look to one another in shock, as Gabe has just walked out of the house, dismissing the whole situation. I thought hearing what he had would make him decide he wanted to go and try to fix things. Everything Lola had said sounded positive, she hadn’t fooled him, she hadn’t lied, she wanted him, she wanted her mate, she was just scared. She had a complicated situation in her pack and the arrangement with her pack for her degree that she was scared it would compromise. I can understand that, so why could he not? Perhaps he was unable to see the logical right now. I know he was hurting but he did not want to throw this away so easily. This was worth fighting for. Seeing them together last night, that was clear to see. We needed him to realise that. We need to speak to Esme, see how we can help her. She may not be part of our pack right now, but she was fated to be, so perhaps we needed to see what we could do to try to help her. In doing that, we would be helping Gabe. Or is tha
Manuel is holding me close to him, Knox has just left. “Wow Angel, I honestly can’t tell you how sorry I am” he whispers into my hair. “It is ok, I am sorry for shouting. I was upset. I don’t normally do that, that is normally Esme like that” I tell him. I feel him laugh, his chest vibrating against me. “It is fine, I am from a big family full of fiery women, it is nothing I am not used to. It made me laugh. Lilah told me you knew all the bad words” I move back from him, to look at him, puzzled. He sits down on the recliner and pulls me to his lap. “Lilah, when me and her first met, liked that Gabe and I would use the occasional Spanish word in our conversation. So Knox, trying to impress her, thought he would try it. He fails miserably, his accent is terrible, but she laughs at him and loves him for trying. It was an ongoing joke with Knox, when I found my mate, I could woo her with my Spanish words. Imagine their surprise when my mate turned out to speak Spanish! L
I sat in the flat my heart feeling like it was breaking. I should be back at the Midnight Forest Pack, at Gabriel’s home, getting to know my fated mate, yet instead I am having to accept the fact I have had to flee from my own fated mate when in truth I wanted nothing more than to be with him. All because of the messed up Alpha and pack we came from. I had never hated him more than I did right this moment. My wolf Kya had withdrawn into the nether areas of my mind right now, having thrown a serious tantrum at me earlier and was not happy with me for leaving our fated mate, but I had to follow pack orders, and had to do what I did. I could not stay with him, no matter how much I wanted to. I just hope that Lola had not allowed her mate to mark her either, she was not strong enough to cope with our Alpha and the consequences of going against his wishes. But ultimately, that was not my concern. She had to make her own choices, I had done what I needed to do, I had stuck to the ag
12 months later continued… Listening to Esme panic rushing around the house, I am wondering why we offered to hold a get-together at our house for our friends. We should have let it be at Lilah and Knox’s like normal. Damn me trying to be clever and be a better host than Knox. “Have we got enough drinks in? What about snacks?” I hear Esme ask for about the tenth time in about half an hour. She is dashing between the kitchen and the lounge, trying to make sure everything is tidy, when I know my friends really could not care less, and within ten minutes of them being here the house will look a mess, especially when Finn and Kai are toddling around looking for things to mess with. Thankfully, Dan and Indie’s youngest, Wren, is not at the age where she can toddle very well just yet. Though she is just as much of a mischief as her big brother, so that was only a matter of time. “Mi Amor, it is fine” I tell her the same thing I have every ither time she asked. Not that she wil
12 Months later I woke up to look at my mate. She looks so tired, yet so beautiful. The pregnancy seems to be taking it out of her. Though she is getting close to the end now. We truly cannot wait for our pup to arrive. We had waited to find out what we were having, wanting a surprise. I mean the pregnancy came as some what a surprise, so why not let the gender be one too. Well, I say the pregnancy was a surprise. We had not planned it as such, yet we had not done a massive amount to stop it happening either. We just hadn’t discussed having a baby just yet. Lola was getting settled in working in the daycare centre and loving every second of it. Her confidence seemed to be building, and the kids there seemed to love her. I think some people just have that kind of personality that draws children to them, and Lola is definitely one of them. She is a natural with kids, so I know she is going to make the most amazing Mami to our pup when they arrive. She had been unwell for
I would say thank the goddess it is the weekend, but I have been busy cleaning the house today while Esme has been working on some coursework for her degree. I was being the ever perfect mate and providing food and drink for her, so she could focus on her work as she told me she had quite a lot to do. I truly do not know how she does it. I look at the work each time I walk in the dining room, where her texts books, note books and laptops are now spread across the table, and in all honesty, it looks like complete nonsense to me half of the stuff. Plus, I see how many notes she has written, and I truly think I would get bored and think I can’t be bothered and give up. I have yet another level of respect for my mate, I truly do. This is some serious dedication. And she is seriously impressive. Our hospital would be lucky to have her when she graduates. We had agreed to our day doing this, then we were having a lazy night together, time to chill out, movie night, takeaway a
I was glad to have had my time off with Lola, but was ready to get back to work I have to say. Ready to get back to training and burn off some energy through fighting and sparring with the other warriors. Lola had gone into the Day Care centre, her first day being yesterday, and she had absolutely loved it! The staff seemed to love her, and she got on well with them. And Lola loved being around the kids, so I think she had definitely found her calling in life. The smile on her face when she walked out of there at the end of the day to meet me, told me that she was going to be happy there. After a hectic day training, and going over training programmes for the young warrior programme, I had finished later than expected so I had already linked Lola to let her know so she would not expect me to be there to meet her like I had the day before. Gabe and I both were in charge of planning a new training programme for upcoming warriors, and had to work on the training regime
I walk into The Spirits of Tea tea room feeling nervous. I was unsure whether to agree to come or not, to be honest. I have not really spent time with this Diego. All I know is, I think this guy is my fated mate and the crazy fool had run away when he realised. Or I assume he realised. He was new to pack, had come in with the newcomers from the Crimson Night Pack. They seemed nice enough and his parents had made friends with my parents. My wolf Fern had gone crazy the moment I had crossed paths with him in the pack house, but then as I approached him to confirm who he was, he looked at me, his chocolate brown eyes full of uncertainty and he bolted out of the door. Fern had been skulking since. Both of us unsure if this was building up to a rejection. Imagine that, the daughter of a former Alpha being rejected. That would not look good. I honestly did not know if I was hurt or angry. I had not told a soul. Kept the pain and misery to myself. Not wanting anyone to judge me, or
My head was buzzing with the information Manuel had mindlinked me. I drop off with it on my mind and wake up with it still taking over my thoughts. I can’t believe Willow had found her mate yet had not confided in anyone. She would normally speak to our Mum, or our sister, yet nothing had been mentioned. I would maybe have even expected her to confide in Lilah or Indie, but again I would have expected that to have been leaked back to me through them as neither one is good at keeping secrets. She must be in bits feeling rejected by her mate, and I know how that feels. Been there myself with Lilah when we first met, strangely enough . Not for the same reasons, but came back to her not feeling good enough, though she had the added fear of being terrified of being hurt. I can’t imagine how Diego must be feeling. I know how many people consider Alpha families as being way above them, and would see a warrior as not worthy of being mated to someone within the family, but our family ar
We left the BBQ later in the day, Gabe and Esme seemed to have disappeared, not sure when. But Lola and I had enjoyed time with everyone. I get on well with her brother and Esme’s brother, so working with them would be good I think. The week off with Lola seemed to have flown by, but it had been so worth it. We have sorted the house, got a few things for it that she liked so it was more a mixture of our things now and not just mine, which is something I wanted to do for her. We have had plenty of time to chat and I think I see some definite positive changes in Lola now, so I do think we are on the way to things improving for her.I don’t think she will ever get over the crap she went through in that pack, but then I doubt most of the others from there will either. I realise this isn’t going to be a sudden fix, and will be a slow and gradual thing we work on together, and I am good with that, so long as she is doing ok and she is happy. She has been doing amazingly in not trying
We had spent the afternoon at Manuel’s parents’ house, spending time together as one big family I guess. A BBQ to welcome my family and Lola’s family. Though to look at them now you would think they had always been here. No doubt there will always be scars and damage from the Crimson Night Pack, but I think Midnight Forest Pack will be the way forward for them all. There had been so much laughing, maybe something to do with the excess of beer drunk. But at the same time, the atmosphere felt perfect, so warm, and welcoming, like we were home. Like we belonged. My parents clicked with both Mateo and Eden, and Javier and Ada like they were old friends. It was nice to see and I think it will help them settle in. It was the same for Lola’s parents. Mum and Auntie Val are now looking to try painting with Indie – heaven help her! But they are also planning to help around the pack house too. Suggesting cooking classes for some of the younger wolves, which apparently former Luna, Ava loved
Family BBQ day was here again, though this was literally a week later, due to the fact we were welcoming Lola and Esme’s families. Though I seem to have seen them every day this week, I am sure of it! And from what I can gather, our parents are all spending time together anyway, so I'm not sure the BBQ is truly needed. But I won’t say that or my Dad would likely slap upside my head, or my Abuela threaten me! Still, time with the family is meant to be nice, someone else is cooking. And now I have my mate by my side, I don’t have to worry about being hassled about finding my mate, so in all it should be a good day. I get to chill with Esme, and my family while eating good food and drinking beer in the sunshine. Sounds like a pretty perfect day to me. This week has been so hectic helping Esme’s family get settled, and getting into a routine of Esme being back at university but from our home as a base rather than her apartment near the university. I introduced Diego and Luis to