I sat in the flat my heart feeling like it was breaking. I should be back at the Midnight Forest Pack, at Gabriel’s home, getting to know my fated mate, yet instead I am having to accept the fact I have had to flee from my own fated mate when in truth I wanted nothing more than to be with him. All because of the messed up Alpha and pack we came from. I had never hated him more than I did right this moment. My wolf Kya had withdrawn into the nether areas of my mind right now, having thrown a serious tantrum at me earlier and was not happy with me for leaving our fated mate, but I had to follow pack orders, and had to do what I did. I could not stay with him, no matter how much I wanted to. I just hope that Lola had not allowed her mate to mark her either, she was not strong enough to cope with our Alpha and the consequences of going against his wishes. But ultimately, that was not my concern. She had to make her own choices, I had done what I needed to do, I had stuck to the ag
I was shaking with nerves as I carried Lola up to the bedroom knowing I may finally get to mark my mate now. “Manny, you ok?” Lola whispers into my ear. “Uh-huh” I respond, unsure I could reply much more than that right now, as I gently place her on the bed. I hear her phone buzz from her pocket as I do. She grabs the phone to look. “It’s Esme. Saying she hopes I didn’t let you mark me. And asking if I am going back to her flat to travel home as planned” she explains. “Oh, that’s nice of her. Anyone would think she wants you to leave me like she left Gabe.” I find myself saying, a little spitefully. I have to say I am pissed off with Esme for how she has treated Gabe, as I know he likes to act all tough and like nothing bothers him, but I know he will be massively hurt by this. I could see last night just how much he liked his fated mate, and I know he was already planning a future with her….. like you do when you meet your fated mate. So for her to flee the way she
Wow, we have marked one another. It felt amazing. Manuel was so gentle and caring towards me. I have been truly blessed being fated with him. I really have. The sensation of marking each other was mind-blowing! It was almost like being drunk….. And now we were curled up in his bed in each others arms naked….. I think I have died and gone to heaven, I truly do…. I know it can’t and won’t last as there is shit to face up to now, but right now at this moment I am in heaven. I have the most perfect mate imaginable. My Mami and Papi were happy for me to mark him too, so that has to be a good thing, so I am hoping that means I get to be with him now. I have no intention of leaving him now. We have marked each other, we can’t leave each other now. Alpha can’t make us, can he? That is one thing I am terrified of. I know what our Alpha is like, he does not like being disobeyed, he runs the pack a certain way and I know that mating is not done without his permission. So I have al
I have been out on a run multiple times, letting Aspen free to take out his stress, hurt and anger on some smaller prey. He is pining for his mate right now, not understanding why his mate has left, though, in all fairness, I don’t fully understand what has happened. Lola has explained things but it still doesn’t make sense to me, or maybe I don’t want it to make sense. My heart and my head are hurting too much right now. I know at some point I am going to have to be a big boy and accept that my mate just doesn’t want to be with me, or simply cant be with me due to the messed up way their pack is run. Though I have to say I am worried about Manny, if that is how the pack is run, surely that could mean he is at risk of losing his mate, and I don’t know if he would be able to cope with that. I know I am stronger than him, or at least I think I am, and I could see just last night how attached he was to his mate. Though I think we all knew that would be the case for Manuel, he was s
I am in pieces, I didn’t realise just how difficult leaving Gabe would be. I did this to protect myself, my family and the arrangement we had with the pack which allowed me to come to university, but I did not consider the effect the mate bond would have and leaving my mate behind….. it was hurting me so badly….. Kya is on edge, she is skulking at the back of my mind, not happy at me for leaving her mate, the one she has been waiting so long for. If I was finding it this hard, I can’t even imagine what I have done to him, and I hate myself for that. He will know by now, and I imagine spoken to Lola to find out some information. I want to explain to him, but I stupidly didn’t even get his number. I will message Lola and ask her to get it for me. Though I don’t know that he will want to talk to me and who can blame him? My heart is in pieces. We need to find a way around this. I want him so badly. Being with him last night in the club, with his friends, felt so good, like I wa
Esme hanging up on me, irritates me. I look to Lola.“What was that about? She hung up on me. Said It isn’t as simple as that and hung up” I explain. I can feel my heart racing, but this time it is out of anger, not out of passion and need for my mate like it has been the last few hours. It is sheer anger, and annoyance at wanting to protect my cousin. Hating that he is hurting and not knowing what to do to help him. Lola rests her hand on my arm. “Guapo, calm down. I know you are upset, I know you are worried for Gabe, you all are. I am too, if I am honest. I don’t get this with Esme if I tell the truth. She said she needs to protect herself and her family from Alpha” she tells me. Protect them? Why do they need protecting? What sort of Alpha is he if his pack needs protecting from him? The more I am hearing about him, the less I am liking him, and the more suspicious he is sounding. How their pack has maintained itself and kept running is questionable quite honestly. There a
I think we need to sort things out to try to speak to Esme, so I have got her number from Lola. Gabe has asked me that he does not speak with her, so I am wanting to talk to her to see if we can do anything as a pack, I do not want my friend to lose his mate, I do not like to see him struggling, yet if I am entirely honest, he seems to have given up hope already on ever being able to fix this. Surely there has to be a way. We can fix this. She seems to like him from what Lola had told us. I will see what she says when I speak to her in person too, before seeing what else I can decide. Then I am going to discuss things with my Dad, get his advice because I think I need his experience on this. Because how their pack is run has completely thrown me, I have never come across that before and it doesn’t seem normal, and it bothers me. It is not the way the werewolf council expects packs to be run, so I think we need to be reporting them. If my Dad agrees, then that is what I will
I look to Manuel who is just gazing at me, which I can’t help but smile at. I seem to have been blessed with the sweetest guy for a mate I truly do. I should probably look to get up and look after him, I don’t want to fail him as a mate on the first day together, or else I’d be heading straight back to my pack before I’d even moved away. I want to make sure I am a good mate, I need to make sure I am doing all the things I need to do as a mate, running the home, making sure Manuel has everything he needs at home…. We had all this drummed into us growing up. I need to make sure I do not fail. I do not want to lose him. He is just the sweetest guy, so I am not sure he would even tell me if I wasn’t doing something right either. That’s the difficult thing. I should maybe address that with him, make him give me a rota of jobs he needs me to do, like my Mami has. That way, I make sure everything is done, plus I need to make sure I do everything he wants in the bedroom too, or els
12 months later continued… Listening to Esme panic rushing around the house, I am wondering why we offered to hold a get-together at our house for our friends. We should have let it be at Lilah and Knox’s like normal. Damn me trying to be clever and be a better host than Knox. “Have we got enough drinks in? What about snacks?” I hear Esme ask for about the tenth time in about half an hour. She is dashing between the kitchen and the lounge, trying to make sure everything is tidy, when I know my friends really could not care less, and within ten minutes of them being here the house will look a mess, especially when Finn and Kai are toddling around looking for things to mess with. Thankfully, Dan and Indie’s youngest, Wren, is not at the age where she can toddle very well just yet. Though she is just as much of a mischief as her big brother, so that was only a matter of time. “Mi Amor, it is fine” I tell her the same thing I have every ither time she asked. Not that she wil
12 Months later I woke up to look at my mate. She looks so tired, yet so beautiful. The pregnancy seems to be taking it out of her. Though she is getting close to the end now. We truly cannot wait for our pup to arrive. We had waited to find out what we were having, wanting a surprise. I mean the pregnancy came as some what a surprise, so why not let the gender be one too. Well, I say the pregnancy was a surprise. We had not planned it as such, yet we had not done a massive amount to stop it happening either. We just hadn’t discussed having a baby just yet. Lola was getting settled in working in the daycare centre and loving every second of it. Her confidence seemed to be building, and the kids there seemed to love her. I think some people just have that kind of personality that draws children to them, and Lola is definitely one of them. She is a natural with kids, so I know she is going to make the most amazing Mami to our pup when they arrive. She had been unwell for
I would say thank the goddess it is the weekend, but I have been busy cleaning the house today while Esme has been working on some coursework for her degree. I was being the ever perfect mate and providing food and drink for her, so she could focus on her work as she told me she had quite a lot to do. I truly do not know how she does it. I look at the work each time I walk in the dining room, where her texts books, note books and laptops are now spread across the table, and in all honesty, it looks like complete nonsense to me half of the stuff. Plus, I see how many notes she has written, and I truly think I would get bored and think I can’t be bothered and give up. I have yet another level of respect for my mate, I truly do. This is some serious dedication. And she is seriously impressive. Our hospital would be lucky to have her when she graduates. We had agreed to our day doing this, then we were having a lazy night together, time to chill out, movie night, takeaway a
I was glad to have had my time off with Lola, but was ready to get back to work I have to say. Ready to get back to training and burn off some energy through fighting and sparring with the other warriors. Lola had gone into the Day Care centre, her first day being yesterday, and she had absolutely loved it! The staff seemed to love her, and she got on well with them. And Lola loved being around the kids, so I think she had definitely found her calling in life. The smile on her face when she walked out of there at the end of the day to meet me, told me that she was going to be happy there. After a hectic day training, and going over training programmes for the young warrior programme, I had finished later than expected so I had already linked Lola to let her know so she would not expect me to be there to meet her like I had the day before. Gabe and I both were in charge of planning a new training programme for upcoming warriors, and had to work on the training regime
I walk into The Spirits of Tea tea room feeling nervous. I was unsure whether to agree to come or not, to be honest. I have not really spent time with this Diego. All I know is, I think this guy is my fated mate and the crazy fool had run away when he realised. Or I assume he realised. He was new to pack, had come in with the newcomers from the Crimson Night Pack. They seemed nice enough and his parents had made friends with my parents. My wolf Fern had gone crazy the moment I had crossed paths with him in the pack house, but then as I approached him to confirm who he was, he looked at me, his chocolate brown eyes full of uncertainty and he bolted out of the door. Fern had been skulking since. Both of us unsure if this was building up to a rejection. Imagine that, the daughter of a former Alpha being rejected. That would not look good. I honestly did not know if I was hurt or angry. I had not told a soul. Kept the pain and misery to myself. Not wanting anyone to judge me, or
My head was buzzing with the information Manuel had mindlinked me. I drop off with it on my mind and wake up with it still taking over my thoughts. I can’t believe Willow had found her mate yet had not confided in anyone. She would normally speak to our Mum, or our sister, yet nothing had been mentioned. I would maybe have even expected her to confide in Lilah or Indie, but again I would have expected that to have been leaked back to me through them as neither one is good at keeping secrets. She must be in bits feeling rejected by her mate, and I know how that feels. Been there myself with Lilah when we first met, strangely enough . Not for the same reasons, but came back to her not feeling good enough, though she had the added fear of being terrified of being hurt. I can’t imagine how Diego must be feeling. I know how many people consider Alpha families as being way above them, and would see a warrior as not worthy of being mated to someone within the family, but our family ar
We left the BBQ later in the day, Gabe and Esme seemed to have disappeared, not sure when. But Lola and I had enjoyed time with everyone. I get on well with her brother and Esme’s brother, so working with them would be good I think. The week off with Lola seemed to have flown by, but it had been so worth it. We have sorted the house, got a few things for it that she liked so it was more a mixture of our things now and not just mine, which is something I wanted to do for her. We have had plenty of time to chat and I think I see some definite positive changes in Lola now, so I do think we are on the way to things improving for her.I don’t think she will ever get over the crap she went through in that pack, but then I doubt most of the others from there will either. I realise this isn’t going to be a sudden fix, and will be a slow and gradual thing we work on together, and I am good with that, so long as she is doing ok and she is happy. She has been doing amazingly in not trying
We had spent the afternoon at Manuel’s parents’ house, spending time together as one big family I guess. A BBQ to welcome my family and Lola’s family. Though to look at them now you would think they had always been here. No doubt there will always be scars and damage from the Crimson Night Pack, but I think Midnight Forest Pack will be the way forward for them all. There had been so much laughing, maybe something to do with the excess of beer drunk. But at the same time, the atmosphere felt perfect, so warm, and welcoming, like we were home. Like we belonged. My parents clicked with both Mateo and Eden, and Javier and Ada like they were old friends. It was nice to see and I think it will help them settle in. It was the same for Lola’s parents. Mum and Auntie Val are now looking to try painting with Indie – heaven help her! But they are also planning to help around the pack house too. Suggesting cooking classes for some of the younger wolves, which apparently former Luna, Ava loved
Family BBQ day was here again, though this was literally a week later, due to the fact we were welcoming Lola and Esme’s families. Though I seem to have seen them every day this week, I am sure of it! And from what I can gather, our parents are all spending time together anyway, so I'm not sure the BBQ is truly needed. But I won’t say that or my Dad would likely slap upside my head, or my Abuela threaten me! Still, time with the family is meant to be nice, someone else is cooking. And now I have my mate by my side, I don’t have to worry about being hassled about finding my mate, so in all it should be a good day. I get to chill with Esme, and my family while eating good food and drinking beer in the sunshine. Sounds like a pretty perfect day to me. This week has been so hectic helping Esme’s family get settled, and getting into a routine of Esme being back at university but from our home as a base rather than her apartment near the university. I introduced Diego and Luis to