I have been out on a run multiple times, letting Aspen free to take out his stress, hurt and anger on some smaller prey. He is pining for his mate right now, not understanding why his mate has left, though, in all fairness, I don’t fully understand what has happened. Lola has explained things but it still doesn’t make sense to me, or maybe I don’t want it to make sense. My heart and my head are hurting too much right now. I know at some point I am going to have to be a big boy and accept that my mate just doesn’t want to be with me, or simply cant be with me due to the messed up way their pack is run. Though I have to say I am worried about Manny, if that is how the pack is run, surely that could mean he is at risk of losing his mate, and I don’t know if he would be able to cope with that. I know I am stronger than him, or at least I think I am, and I could see just last night how attached he was to his mate. Though I think we all knew that would be the case for Manuel, he was s
I am in pieces, I didn’t realise just how difficult leaving Gabe would be. I did this to protect myself, my family and the arrangement we had with the pack which allowed me to come to university, but I did not consider the effect the mate bond would have and leaving my mate behind….. it was hurting me so badly….. Kya is on edge, she is skulking at the back of my mind, not happy at me for leaving her mate, the one she has been waiting so long for. If I was finding it this hard, I can’t even imagine what I have done to him, and I hate myself for that. He will know by now, and I imagine spoken to Lola to find out some information. I want to explain to him, but I stupidly didn’t even get his number. I will message Lola and ask her to get it for me. Though I don’t know that he will want to talk to me and who can blame him? My heart is in pieces. We need to find a way around this. I want him so badly. Being with him last night in the club, with his friends, felt so good, like I wa
Esme hanging up on me, irritates me. I look to Lola.“What was that about? She hung up on me. Said It isn’t as simple as that and hung up” I explain. I can feel my heart racing, but this time it is out of anger, not out of passion and need for my mate like it has been the last few hours. It is sheer anger, and annoyance at wanting to protect my cousin. Hating that he is hurting and not knowing what to do to help him. Lola rests her hand on my arm. “Guapo, calm down. I know you are upset, I know you are worried for Gabe, you all are. I am too, if I am honest. I don’t get this with Esme if I tell the truth. She said she needs to protect herself and her family from Alpha” she tells me. Protect them? Why do they need protecting? What sort of Alpha is he if his pack needs protecting from him? The more I am hearing about him, the less I am liking him, and the more suspicious he is sounding. How their pack has maintained itself and kept running is questionable quite honestly. There a
I think we need to sort things out to try to speak to Esme, so I have got her number from Lola. Gabe has asked me that he does not speak with her, so I am wanting to talk to her to see if we can do anything as a pack, I do not want my friend to lose his mate, I do not like to see him struggling, yet if I am entirely honest, he seems to have given up hope already on ever being able to fix this. Surely there has to be a way. We can fix this. She seems to like him from what Lola had told us. I will see what she says when I speak to her in person too, before seeing what else I can decide. Then I am going to discuss things with my Dad, get his advice because I think I need his experience on this. Because how their pack is run has completely thrown me, I have never come across that before and it doesn’t seem normal, and it bothers me. It is not the way the werewolf council expects packs to be run, so I think we need to be reporting them. If my Dad agrees, then that is what I will
I look to Manuel who is just gazing at me, which I can’t help but smile at. I seem to have been blessed with the sweetest guy for a mate I truly do. I should probably look to get up and look after him, I don’t want to fail him as a mate on the first day together, or else I’d be heading straight back to my pack before I’d even moved away. I want to make sure I am a good mate, I need to make sure I am doing all the things I need to do as a mate, running the home, making sure Manuel has everything he needs at home…. We had all this drummed into us growing up. I need to make sure I do not fail. I do not want to lose him. He is just the sweetest guy, so I am not sure he would even tell me if I wasn’t doing something right either. That’s the difficult thing. I should maybe address that with him, make him give me a rota of jobs he needs me to do, like my Mami has. That way, I make sure everything is done, plus I need to make sure I do everything he wants in the bedroom too, or els
I stand looking at Lola, worried by what she has just said to me. It sounds like their pack has truly messed with her head. I thought my issues were over when she had let me mark her, but it seems I am going to have to help her reprogramme her way of thinking. I do not want her thinking she has to answer to me. I do not like that idea at all. My Mami never answered to my Dad, haha I’d like to have seen him make her try! They were equals, and that is how a couple should be, isn’t it? I hope the way I explained the relationship between Dan and Indie and Lilah and Knox will have helped Lola see we can be different to what she was expecting. We can be happy, we can be equal and work well. She should never feel she has to run around after me, bow down to me and try to please me. The thought of that actually hurts me. “What do you say, Carino? You think we can try?” I ask. “I don’t know if I am honest, Guapo. I need you to realise we were brought up as girls in pack to be tra
I watch Manuel walk to the door, wanting nothing more than to escape out of the back door of the house before he lets his parents in through the front door. I can’t believe he landed this on me! Though considering Esme's actions, that probably wouldn't reflect well right now.....dammit.... who ever came up with meeting the parents? Surely I could just avoid them the whole time? Go out each time they come over or stay home when he visits?...... anything to avoid the horrendous nerves inside of me right now.......... I think i feel sick....... I haven’t had chance to tidy his house, do the good mate thing and sort the house or anything….. they will think I am a terrible mate…… “Hola Manuel, you going to let us in son?” I hear a deep voice say. I assume his Dad. I really want to hide, though I am not going to get way with that now…. “Lola, come say hi, Carino” I hear Manuel’s voice now from the hallway. I walk through from the kitchen to meet him. He is stood with who I a
Hearing my new mate pretty much admit to the fact she has been mistreated in her previous pack has sent my emotions into overdrive, not to mention sending my wolf Rey crazy too. He is wanting to go to their pack now and rip them all apart for hurting his mate. I guess I am going to have to get used to this protective streak coming out more often now. It was already there for family and close friends, but it seemed even stronger for Lola. I seriously feel like I want to go and kill these bullies from her old pack, I am just glad that she allowed me to mark her and that she will be with me here from now on so I can ensure she is safe. Maybe we need to consider having her family move here too, I did faintly hear my Dad mention it to her when I was making the drinks, and that makes a lot of sense. The more things she mentions about her pack, the more I think it is an unsafe place to be, so perhaps it would be better for her family to get away from there. Though if Knox does r