" Collateral damage!" I screamed.
Out of the whole world, only four people knew what was going on and one of them was six feet underground.
Whoever stole the diary, probably him my father to say, my biological father and I.
He looked at me surprised. At this point I wasn't sure if it was staged or genuine.
" Yeah, collateral damage, a lot of it," he replied.
I felt the weird feeling come back and I was about to start shaking and breathing fast again.
At this point it was right to question my sanity, was my sanity okay? The few people in my life who I now held onto like a life raft were not so steady anymore.
" My wife going insane, my divorce, yeah my divorce, I act unaffected but deep down it's affecting me. And many more," he smiled.
" Your aching dying love for me just died when you realized I'm flawed from head to toe?" I asked
I rushed to the scene holding Luke's hand trying to hide his face so he couldn't be exposed to the dirt and sin of the world before my eyes. He was too young for that. I expected a bleeding Mary, or someone down on the ground after the scream. What a disappointment. Why was I even disappointed. It just meant I was rotten inside and reveled when I saw blood and bad things happen. He had smashed the bottle on the wall breaking it into pieces and pouring the liquor it had inside all over the verandah. " Get off your high horse, me finding ways to generate warmth with you?" And a loud ugly roar followed added to by laughter. I covered Luke's ears sos it wouldn't be poisoned by the words. I had heard about families who fought. Families who had a drunk parent, a drunk father who would drink everyday and haul abuses or beat the children.
" Come on Luke, you can't do this to a girl who barely eats," I whispered in his ear and he replied by snoring loudly. " Wait hear, I'll get someone to carry you," I said. " Twaine," he grunted slowly, refusing to let go of my hand. "Teddy bear, just relax I'm coming back right now, nothing is going to eat you up," I whispered again ruffling his hair. " Before you go," he interrupted. " Let's just walk as you tell me, please," I tried to plead. " No, I'm sleeping," he groaned. He was a kid and probably wanted someone to baby him around. I couldn't blame him, he just lost his mama at such a young age, and with everything going on he needed a support system or someone to make him feel loved. " Can I ask you something, but please don't be mad?" " Okay , Luke ask me," I replied
" Sorry teddy bear," I whispered softly." Did you tell day about it?"" No, I would get punished again," he said afraid." Well, next time anything happens, you speak to daddy, you tell him what happened that same day or as soon as you see him okay?"" Yeah."" But you didn't answer my question?" He asked." Well, yeah, look at me."He looked into my eyes shyly feeling guilty." Why are you asking, or rather where did the question come from?" I inquired." Well, don't be mad, just that I heard Mary and some women talking about it. And they spoke for long saying you were not my sister," he answered." What else did they say," I asked." Well, I didn't stay longer, because I felt bad and wanted to cry that you are not my sister," he said." Oh poor Luke," I sighed" I want you to know that even if an asteroid full of candy and chocolates hit the earth right now and we all drowned in sweetne
I stood still waiting for his hand to hit home. It seemed like my body was the home of blows and I couldn't deny that.A person can get used to anything when given enough time. Right now I was used to all of it.His fist hit the wall behind me loudly as he cursed under his breath furiously.I didn't move or tremble, I was used to it all and if he had hit me I wouldn't have been scared.Nick came and held him back as he spoke fast in words I couldn't grasp." Just go upstairs to bed," he urged, " it's been a long day for everyone and clearly he is not taking it well, he needs time to grieve and many more," he then kissed my forehead as he urged me to go upstairs to bed.I nodded with teary eyes, trying to stay strong." Everyone get out of my house, all the illegal people out," he screamed.I looked back and Nick nodded telling me to go and
" Noo," I screamed furiously as I kicked my legs in vain. His eyes grew wild as he laughed and roared in an ugly voice. " Papa," I cried as his hands tightened and I began coughing in snore like sounds. He lifted my head and hit it back on the ground and I tried to scream in pain but no voice came out. I lifted my hands trying to hold on to something as I took my last few breaths on earth. I don't know how but I managed to hold his neck too but and atrte squeezing too. His monster monster strength was nothing compared to my humane little strength as my eyes bulged out if their sockets. Just as I gathered a little strength and began squeezing his neck a weight from nowhere pulled me from under him making me hit the ground. As I coughed in desperation holding my chest and sore throat, I heard someo
They say that if you sit by times square long enough, you will see the whole world pass by itself. Even though I had never been to times square, I felt like that towards life itself.If I sat by the same spot with patience for long enough I would come across People that I was looking for or people that I had lost.The world is in constant motion and those who passed by at one time will come back to the same spot to finish their circle.Right now, that's what I wanted to believe in. That's what I wanted to happen. I just wanted to stand in one spot and look at the whole circle and try to figure out where I went wrong." Sorry I shouted at you, but you scared me with Luke and got my heart racing and blood boiling," she breathed." It's okay, I would have done the same," I nodded." No," she replied, " it's me who hasn't been trusting you and counting on on you,
I looked at Elaine and she signaled me with her finger to keep quiet.The person kept banging the door and it was almost giving away from it's hinges.I kept quiet and tried steading my breathe and taking control of my reflexes.Luke was sleeping peacefully again and it seemed the continuous pounding had not gotten to his ears."I think you should ask what he or she wants," I whispered to Elaine." Let's just see if he'll go away," she whispered back.We kept quiet for a while and the pounding continued.Whoever it was had a firm determination to get in and keep quiet about it.After a while I felt my ears screaming at me to keep the voices out. Specifically the pounding of the door. I felt like if I didn't stop the pounding in the next minute, my ears and would burst or I would just collapse and run insane for all eternity."Just stop pounding that door," I screamed all of a sudden from nowhere.Elaine look
I looked at Elaine and she signaled me with her finger to keep quiet.The person kept banging the door and it was almost giving away from it's hinges.I kept quiet and tried steading my breathe and taking control of my reflexes.Luke was sleeping peacefully again and it seemed the continuous pounding had not gotten to his ears."I think you should ask what he or she wants," I whispered to Elaine." Let's just see if he'll go away," she whispered back.We kept quiet for a while and the pounding continued.Whoever it was had a firm determination to get in and keep quiet about it.After a while I felt my ears screaming at me to keep the voices out. Specifically the pounding of the door. I felt like if I didn't stop the pounding in the next minute, my ears and would burst or I would just collapse and run ins