I was a royal pain in the ass, having a toll on everybody yet they were going through a dark place.
I looked down to see some liquid dropping down on my hands, tears. This was the acceptance stage. I finally realized she was gone and never coming back. Whether I liked it or not, I had to deal with it. Deal with my grief.
"Twain, Twain, "
"Mama, is that you?" I called with hope burrowing through my heart. "Come, ""Where? I asked getting up. I looked around the room for her but all I could see was my rumpled bed, a small impression visible on the comforter where I had fallen asleepShouldn't we take the painting downstairs,""Yeah, but I'm worried it's not good enough. " I replied returning my gal eaten burger to the plate." It's special and unique, no artist would ever draw to perfection like you.""Okay, ""Help me carry it, " she replied standing up."First let me fix some string for you to be able to hang it or pin it on a wall. ""Here we go," I said fixing the last bits and standing back.It wasn't heavy like she thought, but light enough for one person to carry. Buy irregardless, I stepped in. We moved carefully out of the door into the hallway and stood on top of these flight of stairs that led down to the sitting area.All the bedrooms were upstairs with the living room, kitchen and other rooms down stairs."Their is a lot of people down their, "I said."Yeah, more guests. ""Shouldn't I have a change of clothes or maybe a shower before I come down? " I ask
I came out if the bathroom and went for the door to make sure it was locked.I would dry my hair with a towel as I read through the diary. I took it out and opened the first page.People we love have other people they love.I was just hoping I wasn't walking into a broken lovers diary.So today the rowdy man next door broke into my house and forced me to lay in bed with him. James is away on an important business trip and telling him would ruin his chances of negotiation. As much as I want to kill myself I have a toddler to take care of and I can hear Elaine's cries from upstairs. its time for me to go and feed her, the tears are blurrying my vision.Forces me to lay in bed with her, a neighbour. My hands trembled as I turned another page, did I really want t to find out what I am so afraid of.I stood in my window and watched a police van take him away. My assailant had beaten his wi
"Will you help me pull up that zipper on the back? ""Sure, " Elaine replied. She was fully dressed in a black elegant dress with perfect make up.My dress had an interminable historical touch with long sleeves that were see me through and made of laces. The design didn't end their, the shoulder line was also made of beautiful laces that joined the silken material all the way down.After she pulled the zipper up I turned to look at the mirror and felt pleased with my choice. The dress hugged my curves perfectly, adding a feminine touch."You look beautiful, if you wore dresses everyday, none of us would have been seen by the other gender except you. ""Thanks," I replied, fascinated at her extreme comment."Now, if you will sit, I'll do a little something on your face to match your outfit ""I don't want heavy make up, besides I will be wearing a mask due to the protocols of the new virus. "
I turned around slowly expecting a gun or knife or a smiling father who wanted to hug his prodigal daughter, a reunion after so many years at suffering and anguish."Steve, "I finally spoke letting out the breadth I had been holding." Twaine," he said called before pulling me into a hug and inhaling the scent from my hair that had been styled by Elaine."I am glad you came, really glad. I have been looking all over for you. "He stepped back revealing his friends.Jake, another guy and a lady who looked beautiful."Jake, " I called hugging him."I am sorry for your lose. ""Thanks, "I replied."This is my half sister Angela, I thought it would be nice if you got to meet. ""Hey Angela, "I called before she hugged me to and left me a few reassuring words. She looked kind and adorable , and I was beginning to like her."And this is Adams from school,
" Is that all," Steve asked as he placed his boot on his fingers holding the rails." Why are you here?" Steve probed in a low and gravely voice. " She just lost her mother, are you here to rub salt into her wounds?"" I swear, I came for the funeral, I have no sinister intentions, on God, on my mama," he breathed an explosion of words.Steve shook his head in disbelief, hardly listening to his words." You failed the interview and guess you are going down the rails, to fall on the cold hard concrete, so your brains can be splattered out their for everyone to see the dirt inside," Steve mocked in a low register voice.He lifted his boot higher planning to push his hands of the balcony." No,you can't do that," I half screamed trying to keep my voice low." It's clear, he isn't worth it," he retorted." Worth what?" I asked." Worth the effort, wo
" Jesus Christ!"" Get your hands off her, what the hell are you trying to do?"He was now sweating and shaking all over as his grip tightened around me. Steve struggled to unwound his hands and after a struggle, he finally let go and fell back in the ground still shaking and sweating as his eyes bulged out." Are you okay?" He asked." Don't worry about me, let's worry about him, is he okay?" I shouted back at him.The man was now holding his stomach or belly with his hands as he wriggled on the ground." Twaine, Twaine," he called out in desperation." What's wrong, what's happening to you?" I asked making a move to bend and inspect him as Steve pulled me back." Something is going to happen, something bad, I feel it," he breathed amid the trembling and sweating." What is it
Just as the the thud was heard, a cold wind rushed from nowhere and hit my face.The universe was mocking me from every possible angle,v telling me I had failed, daring me to challenge it and fate.I wanted to scream papi and father, but noticed the words were safer inside my mouth.I slowly moved towards the balcony rails, trying to hold my world and universe together. He wasn't dead, he wasn't dead, stay positive..I couldn't loose two parents within two weeks, each going right before my eyes, making sure I saw them go, making sure I had their last cry as death consumed them.I felt myself grow dizzy and held onto the rails to support my weight and pain. All the hurt that had gathered inside me over these past few years had built a wall, too hard for me to break out of, soft enough for all darkness or anyone to break in . I was weak
" My family and I are all grateful that you came, we are thank you for standing together with us during this hard time that caught us off guard mentally and emotionally, for showing up in large numbers despite the pandemic, you have all touched me corazon." Everyone was gathered outside beneath the street lights, as he spoke. Two police men standing beside him.This home was now marked a scene of crime as if someone had pushed him." Due to the string of unfortunate events, we can't continue and the police want everyone to go home, so they can begin their investigations, thus area is now labeled a crime scene, the few individuals who would like to record their statements can stay back for a few minutes, but that will be all,once again, I'm forever grateful for you all standing by my kids and family and holding our hands during this period of grief, goodnight and thank you all."I scoffed inwardly at the perfect
Everything breaks, hearts break, promises break, biscuits break and so does determination and strong resolve. " Goodnight," My father whispered as he kissed my forehead. " Goodnight papi ," I whispered back as he helped me to tuck myself into bed. As he stood to go I called again. " Papi, I love you," I said. He stopped moving and stood still in his trucks before turning around. " Sweet heart," he began, " Tommorow we are going to appear before a judge, I know this may come as a shock to you, this may not be what you expected, but whatever happens, whatever I say, you just have to know that I love you so much," he breathed. " Okay papa," I whispered back. I wondered when I became such a professional liar and shook my head slowly. Did I deserve all this love? Most of all, wa
As flowers blossom in spring, happiness blooms in emotional warmth.I gasped as my breath hitched in my mouth."Oh my God," I gasped again.He was wearing the cutest smile in the world as he looked into my eyes and held my gaze their." I know this is a lot to ask but allow me to ask you to be my best friend, my girlfriend, let me be the first person you want to call and see everyday, I want you to let me in, I'm not perfect but i can do my best to make girl happy, Twaine, please be my girlfriend" he finished.He was on one knee and as he spoke i couldn't hide the happiness and smile in my face even if i tried. Everything seemed perfect right now. he was word and emotion perfect. It was true that 9one happy moment could undo all the sad momentsHis blue eyes sparkled with the skin a little wrinkled, round and dark under them, a sign he hadn't been
Steve: Hey, sweet heart, I arrived home safely, take care I love you, let me know when we can face time.I smiled slowly before I typed back, " I miss you, I'll call you, stop smirking or I won't," I typed back." Elaine," I knocked once before trying to open the door." Hello, I'm home," I knocked again and waited for a reply patiently.I knocked again before I decided to push the door. It was locked from inside and their was no sound coming out." Open the door, Elaine," I almost screamed.I counted one to ten again and began knocking again.What was happening to her? I began pounding on the door continuously. The noise would obviously disturb whoever was inside until they decided to open the door.After almost five minutes if banging the door relentlessly, I heard a sound at the key hole and she pulled the door ope
I closed the door to my room and found it neatly cleaned. The sheets and duvets had been changed. The floor cleaned and all the clothes arranged in order.I locked the door and sunk down as my chin met my knees and stayed their, not crying not doing anything.Their was pain that ate you alive, it ate you from inside like cancer and laughed and mocked at you."You thought you could get away from us, you thought you could leave us behind, we are a part of you, wherever you go, whatever you do, you are one with us," my depression and anxiety laughed at me.I finally moved to the bed and covered myself with the duvet so no sounds would come out. I lay their blocking the whole world undecided, trying to stay alive before I went back.I found a razor blade made two thin lines in my thigh before writing a strong clear message.I hate myself.The w
We got to the living room and Michael looked at us smiling knowing. I headed over to him and kisses him in the cheek." How are you?" I mocked." Well, their is no evidence left," he went straight to the point knowing that was what I was looking for.I smiled at him and winked." Thanks you," I curtsied." Why are you so Happy," Luke asked." Because I passed a test," I replied." What was wrong with Elaine," Michael asked me slowly in a low voice." Well, she is pretty stressed up about everything, " I half lied and half said the truth.He looked at me half convinced but choose to let it go.We headed to the kitchen and found dad cooking supper with an apron tied around his waist.Elaine went over to him and hugged him before I did the same." What are you cooking pao?" E
We laughed loudly as we pushed open our gate." You didn't see how her face looked," Elaine breathed." It looked like like a wet weekend," I added as we laughed loudly and giggled like little children.We raced to the house and I let her come first intentionally.We pushed open the front door and we're greeted with a sweet aroma from the kitchen.Michael was sitting with Luke on the floor as he helped him build blocks.The twins were watching a video on YouTube. Something meant for kids and I guess it was johnny Johnny, yes papa." What's the surprise?" We both asked Michael." Well, you won't believe," he started before sniffing the air," you guys are drunk are you?"" No, "Elaine quickly refused as I pulled her back." It was only a few glasses of wine, dies it look that bad?" I asked." Well, if I smelled it, he definitely will and we ain't ready for more tornados and volcanoes here," he j
" I can't thank you enough," Elaine repeated again as we neared our gate." Come on, that's random treat," I shrugged." How was your mini camping?" She asked." Well it was awesome, I mean totally awesome, i don't want to fill your head with rocket science, you'll definitely see the pictures once we get home." I smiled." Well, you think I don't know your are photo phobic, unless someone tied you ATI and took snaps of you as you screamed and wailed," she joked.We passed Cain's house and I watched a figure standing on the balcony. He was home my papa was home.I felt Elaine's eyes piercing holes intoe but I ignored her as I continued looking at him with interest. He stood their looking back neither of us looking away.I lifted my hands to wave so he could wave back but all I got was a brief nod that I imagined inside my head
Steve: Hey, sweet heart, I arrived home safely, take care I love you, let me know when we can face time.I smiled slowly before I typed back, " I miss you, I'll call you, stop smirking or I won't," I typed back." Elaine," I knocked once before trying to open the door." Hello, I'm home," I knocked again and waited for a reply patiently.I knocked again before I decided to push the door. It was locked from inside and their was no sound coming out." Open the door, Elaine," I almost screamed.I counted one to ten again and began knocking again.What was happening to her? I began pounding on the door continuously. The noise would obviously disturb whoever was inside until they decided to open the door.After almost five minutes if banging the door relentlessly, I heard a sound at the key hole and she pulled the door open.
I arrived home feeling high up in the clouds. As soon as Like saw me he ran up to me and hugged me tightly." Where is my present?" He asked." Oh my God, it seems I forgot," I joked. "" What? You forgot?" He almost wept as his mood changed drastically." Well, let's see if I didn't forget," I winked as I got into the house and headed upstairs.The living room was empty and Luke followed me upstairs. As soon as I arrived the all came rushing in.Luke, the twins and Michael.I pulled out Luke's present and he looked at it happily. A handkerchief with the logo of batman and another with the logo of superman. It was Steve's idea to buy him those handkerchiefs. Then an expensive robot car with it's remote.He grinned from ear to ear and couldn't help jumping up and down bragging. Next the