" Jesus Christ!"
" Get your hands off her, what the hell are you trying to do?"
He was now sweating and shaking all over as his grip tightened around me.
Steve struggled to unwound his hands and after a struggle, he finally let go and fell back in the ground still shaking and sweating as his eyes bulged out.
" Are you okay?" He asked.
" Don't worry about me, let's worry about him, is he okay?" I shouted back at him.
The man was now holding his stomach or belly with his hands as he wriggled on the ground.
" Twaine, Twaine," he called out in desperation.
" What's wrong, what's happening to you?" I asked making a move to bend and inspect him as Steve pulled me back.
" Something is going to happen, something bad, I feel it," he breathed amid the trembling and sweating.
" What is it
Just as the the thud was heard, a cold wind rushed from nowhere and hit my face.The universe was mocking me from every possible angle,v telling me I had failed, daring me to challenge it and fate.I wanted to scream papi and father, but noticed the words were safer inside my mouth.I slowly moved towards the balcony rails, trying to hold my world and universe together. He wasn't dead, he wasn't dead, stay positive..I couldn't loose two parents within two weeks, each going right before my eyes, making sure I saw them go, making sure I had their last cry as death consumed them.I felt myself grow dizzy and held onto the rails to support my weight and pain. All the hurt that had gathered inside me over these past few years had built a wall, too hard for me to break out of, soft enough for all darkness or anyone to break in . I was weak
" My family and I are all grateful that you came, we are thank you for standing together with us during this hard time that caught us off guard mentally and emotionally, for showing up in large numbers despite the pandemic, you have all touched me corazon." Everyone was gathered outside beneath the street lights, as he spoke. Two police men standing beside him.This home was now marked a scene of crime as if someone had pushed him." Due to the string of unfortunate events, we can't continue and the police want everyone to go home, so they can begin their investigations, thus area is now labeled a crime scene, the few individuals who would like to record their statements can stay back for a few minutes, but that will be all,once again, I'm forever grateful for you all standing by my kids and family and holding our hands during this period of grief, goodnight and thank you all."I scoffed inwardly at the perfect
" kindness is a human virtue, you do not need to applaud me for that," he smiled holding my hand." That is not what I mean, don't you know the meaning of sarcasm?" I cried." Let us just step out and discuss this tantrum you are throwing all over."He led the way out and I glanced back to see the patient moving his fingers, sending a message." What I am trying to say is that I don't like the way you are putting up a..."" I take this call," he cut me off.I confirmed and saw his phone ringing." This isimportant, can we just finish what I was saying so you can go and.."" Don't start, please, just don't start, I'm about to go underwater with all this stress and everything weighing down my shoulders, can you at least make things easier for me." He pleaded angrily." Hello.... yes........where..... how did that happen.....oh my God,"The conversation was one sided and I couldn't get all the details as he mov
" Ma'am, calm down please," the brave detective who looked scared was now pleading. I got up from my seat and rushed to the door to catch sight of the drama. Such high level and dramatic woman were the type you met once and I wouldn't let that opportunity slide. As soon as my eyes caught sight of her I gasped. She was wearing high end heel, lips soaked with red lipstick and a woolen coat I had spotted Jason Derulo wearing. She passed the door was standing at with speed and elegance leaving behind a trail of perfume and bumping into the detective rudely, an act that I highly applauded her for, she could have my favorite hoodie for that if she wanted. She pushed open a door and someone made a move to stop her before she flung a string if abuses and curses to stop them. " He is here voluntarily, we are not arresting him," a voice greeted her warmly. " Well, he is
As I walked down the streets, I felt a different kind of feeling. After escaping the detective, Steve was safe and here I was not sure about tommorow or what it would bring, the uncertainties of the future.A couple was holding hands across the streets, the girl smiling sweetly as wind blew her black hair that was glittering under the moon.They stopped to kiss and I still followed the duo keenly like a YouTube fan. I imagined his kisses leaving her senseless with want and boneless with desire.Couldn't my life just be the same? Without angels blowing a trumpet and shouting time is up for being happy, now start being sad.My mother's death had bore a hole into my heart and it seemed my father's presence had plastered that hole over.Then why did it seem like I was still bleeding and hurting inside . Was I bipolar now?An awkward pain flushed through my gut down to my stomach and I sto
" Collateral damage!" I screamed. Out of the whole world, only four people knew what was going on and one of them was six feet underground. Whoever stole the diary, probably him my father to say, my biological father and I. He looked at me surprised. At this point I wasn't sure if it was staged or genuine. " Yeah, collateral damage, a lot of it," he replied. I felt the weird feeling come back and I was about to start shaking and breathing fast again. At this point it was right to question my sanity, was my sanity okay? The few people in my life who I now held onto like a life raft were not so steady anymore. " My wife going insane, my divorce, yeah my divorce, I act unaffected but deep down it's affecting me. And many more," he smiled. " Your aching dying love for me just died when you realized I'm flawed from head to toe?" I asked
I rushed to the scene holding Luke's hand trying to hide his face so he couldn't be exposed to the dirt and sin of the world before my eyes. He was too young for that. I expected a bleeding Mary, or someone down on the ground after the scream. What a disappointment. Why was I even disappointed. It just meant I was rotten inside and reveled when I saw blood and bad things happen. He had smashed the bottle on the wall breaking it into pieces and pouring the liquor it had inside all over the verandah. " Get off your high horse, me finding ways to generate warmth with you?" And a loud ugly roar followed added to by laughter. I covered Luke's ears sos it wouldn't be poisoned by the words. I had heard about families who fought. Families who had a drunk parent, a drunk father who would drink everyday and haul abuses or beat the children.
" Come on Luke, you can't do this to a girl who barely eats," I whispered in his ear and he replied by snoring loudly. " Wait hear, I'll get someone to carry you," I said. " Twaine," he grunted slowly, refusing to let go of my hand. "Teddy bear, just relax I'm coming back right now, nothing is going to eat you up," I whispered again ruffling his hair. " Before you go," he interrupted. " Let's just walk as you tell me, please," I tried to plead. " No, I'm sleeping," he groaned. He was a kid and probably wanted someone to baby him around. I couldn't blame him, he just lost his mama at such a young age, and with everything going on he needed a support system or someone to make him feel loved. " Can I ask you something, but please don't be mad?" " Okay , Luke ask me," I replied
Everything breaks, hearts break, promises break, biscuits break and so does determination and strong resolve. " Goodnight," My father whispered as he kissed my forehead. " Goodnight papi ," I whispered back as he helped me to tuck myself into bed. As he stood to go I called again. " Papi, I love you," I said. He stopped moving and stood still in his trucks before turning around. " Sweet heart," he began, " Tommorow we are going to appear before a judge, I know this may come as a shock to you, this may not be what you expected, but whatever happens, whatever I say, you just have to know that I love you so much," he breathed. " Okay papa," I whispered back. I wondered when I became such a professional liar and shook my head slowly. Did I deserve all this love? Most of all, wa
As flowers blossom in spring, happiness blooms in emotional warmth.I gasped as my breath hitched in my mouth."Oh my God," I gasped again.He was wearing the cutest smile in the world as he looked into my eyes and held my gaze their." I know this is a lot to ask but allow me to ask you to be my best friend, my girlfriend, let me be the first person you want to call and see everyday, I want you to let me in, I'm not perfect but i can do my best to make girl happy, Twaine, please be my girlfriend" he finished.He was on one knee and as he spoke i couldn't hide the happiness and smile in my face even if i tried. Everything seemed perfect right now. he was word and emotion perfect. It was true that 9one happy moment could undo all the sad momentsHis blue eyes sparkled with the skin a little wrinkled, round and dark under them, a sign he hadn't been
Steve: Hey, sweet heart, I arrived home safely, take care I love you, let me know when we can face time.I smiled slowly before I typed back, " I miss you, I'll call you, stop smirking or I won't," I typed back." Elaine," I knocked once before trying to open the door." Hello, I'm home," I knocked again and waited for a reply patiently.I knocked again before I decided to push the door. It was locked from inside and their was no sound coming out." Open the door, Elaine," I almost screamed.I counted one to ten again and began knocking again.What was happening to her? I began pounding on the door continuously. The noise would obviously disturb whoever was inside until they decided to open the door.After almost five minutes if banging the door relentlessly, I heard a sound at the key hole and she pulled the door ope
I closed the door to my room and found it neatly cleaned. The sheets and duvets had been changed. The floor cleaned and all the clothes arranged in order.I locked the door and sunk down as my chin met my knees and stayed their, not crying not doing anything.Their was pain that ate you alive, it ate you from inside like cancer and laughed and mocked at you."You thought you could get away from us, you thought you could leave us behind, we are a part of you, wherever you go, whatever you do, you are one with us," my depression and anxiety laughed at me.I finally moved to the bed and covered myself with the duvet so no sounds would come out. I lay their blocking the whole world undecided, trying to stay alive before I went back.I found a razor blade made two thin lines in my thigh before writing a strong clear message.I hate myself.The w
We got to the living room and Michael looked at us smiling knowing. I headed over to him and kisses him in the cheek." How are you?" I mocked." Well, their is no evidence left," he went straight to the point knowing that was what I was looking for.I smiled at him and winked." Thanks you," I curtsied." Why are you so Happy," Luke asked." Because I passed a test," I replied." What was wrong with Elaine," Michael asked me slowly in a low voice." Well, she is pretty stressed up about everything, " I half lied and half said the truth.He looked at me half convinced but choose to let it go.We headed to the kitchen and found dad cooking supper with an apron tied around his waist.Elaine went over to him and hugged him before I did the same." What are you cooking pao?" E
We laughed loudly as we pushed open our gate." You didn't see how her face looked," Elaine breathed." It looked like like a wet weekend," I added as we laughed loudly and giggled like little children.We raced to the house and I let her come first intentionally.We pushed open the front door and we're greeted with a sweet aroma from the kitchen.Michael was sitting with Luke on the floor as he helped him build blocks.The twins were watching a video on YouTube. Something meant for kids and I guess it was johnny Johnny, yes papa." What's the surprise?" We both asked Michael." Well, you won't believe," he started before sniffing the air," you guys are drunk are you?"" No, "Elaine quickly refused as I pulled her back." It was only a few glasses of wine, dies it look that bad?" I asked." Well, if I smelled it, he definitely will and we ain't ready for more tornados and volcanoes here," he j
" I can't thank you enough," Elaine repeated again as we neared our gate." Come on, that's random treat," I shrugged." How was your mini camping?" She asked." Well it was awesome, I mean totally awesome, i don't want to fill your head with rocket science, you'll definitely see the pictures once we get home." I smiled." Well, you think I don't know your are photo phobic, unless someone tied you ATI and took snaps of you as you screamed and wailed," she joked.We passed Cain's house and I watched a figure standing on the balcony. He was home my papa was home.I felt Elaine's eyes piercing holes intoe but I ignored her as I continued looking at him with interest. He stood their looking back neither of us looking away.I lifted my hands to wave so he could wave back but all I got was a brief nod that I imagined inside my head
Steve: Hey, sweet heart, I arrived home safely, take care I love you, let me know when we can face time.I smiled slowly before I typed back, " I miss you, I'll call you, stop smirking or I won't," I typed back." Elaine," I knocked once before trying to open the door." Hello, I'm home," I knocked again and waited for a reply patiently.I knocked again before I decided to push the door. It was locked from inside and their was no sound coming out." Open the door, Elaine," I almost screamed.I counted one to ten again and began knocking again.What was happening to her? I began pounding on the door continuously. The noise would obviously disturb whoever was inside until they decided to open the door.After almost five minutes if banging the door relentlessly, I heard a sound at the key hole and she pulled the door open.
I arrived home feeling high up in the clouds. As soon as Like saw me he ran up to me and hugged me tightly." Where is my present?" He asked." Oh my God, it seems I forgot," I joked. "" What? You forgot?" He almost wept as his mood changed drastically." Well, let's see if I didn't forget," I winked as I got into the house and headed upstairs.The living room was empty and Luke followed me upstairs. As soon as I arrived the all came rushing in.Luke, the twins and Michael.I pulled out Luke's present and he looked at it happily. A handkerchief with the logo of batman and another with the logo of superman. It was Steve's idea to buy him those handkerchiefs. Then an expensive robot car with it's remote.He grinned from ear to ear and couldn't help jumping up and down bragging. Next the