Zelena.
So much has happened in such a short time. And it really has been a short time, I first met Gunner just shy of five months ago. That is when my life completely flipped upside down. I went from being an abused, quiet and disconnected little girl, to a strong and powerful woman. So far, I have found out that I’m a Werewolf, the man I thought was my father isn’t my father, and I have a soulmate. I found a family and a home. I have made friends, and I have lost friends. I have discovered that I am capable of wielding unimaginable power, gifted to me by my descendant, the Moon Goddess. I went from being all alone, to having multiple strong and everlasting connections. I have fought for what I have come to love, and I have killed to keep it. Now I sit here, in front of the woman who claims to be my mother, destined to soon become a mother myself. With all that has changed already, I know there is still more to come. I can feel it in the air, there is more drama on the way.
The silence was drowning me. Sitting this close was making me feel seriously uncomfortable. After all, I still don’t know anything about this she-wolf. Gunner was at my side, his large hand resting on my thigh, but it did nothing to calm my racing heart. I can’t avoid it any longer, there’s no denying that. But deep down I'm dreading hearing what she has to say. I want to be mad at her. I want to hate her, and I want to keep blaming her for how I grew up. I have a feeling though, that once I hear her story, I will change my tune. I gripped Gunner’s hand, digging my nails into his skin. If he felt any pain from my death grip, he didn’t show it, he just sat there and let me hold his hand. I nodded to Lunaya, indicating that she could begin. She sat back in her chair and casually crossed her legs.
“Firstly, there is something that you need to understand. Something very important passed down by our ancestors. The power of the Triple Goddess works like a beacon. It draws Weres in, like a magnet. Just our genes are enough for it happen, even for those who don’t bare the mark, they still hold a piece of the Goddess inside them. Our heritage makes us stronger, faster, our senses are more evolved, and we are more disciplined over our wolves” Lunaya began,
“That must be why you had so much control over your wolf. When you first changed in the carpark at the school, and again in the field, the initial instinct to attack wasn’t there” Gunner cut in,
“That would be normal for a daughter of Selena” Lunaya confirmed as she crossed her arms over her chest,
“I also assume many Weres have already sought you out, yes? Even the ones that you had no prior contact or alliance with?”
“Many diplomats have visited since her arrival, yes” Gunner grunted in a gruff tone.
“That is why we can never settle for too long. Our ancestors have moved about all over the world. If the line stays in one place for too long, trouble usually finds us. Whether it be hunters, power hungry Alphas, or other supernatural’s. They always come” Lunaya said sadly.
“Is that why you left me, why you didn’t come for me? Some weird way of keeping me safe?” I hissed at her sarcastically. Gunner squeezed my thigh and shifted closer to me.
“I was born into a pack called Shining Star. They were a small and unknown pack, hidden in the wildlife refuge on Kodiak Island of Alaska. After my parents died when I was nine, I was sent to Moon Light in Northern Alaska, to be raised by an Elder that lived there” Lunaya began. I huffed and squeezed Gunner’s hand tighter,
“Do we really need the history lesson?” I grumbled. Lunaya smiled and looked down at her lap, shaking her head slightly.
“You are so much like your father” she mused with a chuckle,
“All about the quick action with no interest in the fine print. But yes, you need to hear all of it” she answered firmly as she raised her eyes to mine. I was a little taken back by the authority in her stare. I didn’t snap back like I wanted to, and instead just nodded my head.
“After my parents were killed by the hunters, I was sent to Elder Maxine of Moon Light. She was a close friend to my grandmother and a big part of my mother’s life. She knew everything about our history. About Selena and the line of chosen daughters. It was her that trained me, prepared me for the possibility of bearing the mark of the Goddess. Ever since I was young, I felt like I was destined for something great, something important. Being the cocky teenager that I was, I was sure that I was going to be the next Triple Goddess. Clearly that was not meant to be” she said smiling at me with so much pride and affection shining in her eyes.
“It was not my destiny to be the next Goddess, but it was my responsibility to birth, raise and protect her”. Lunaya paused and looked down at her lap. The scent of her sadness and despair filled the room. She looked back up to me with tears brimming in her eyes.
“I failed the task, and I will never be able to express how sorry I am for that” she choked out. We sat quietly, each of us gazing at each other solemnly. I couldn’t talk. If I opened my mouth, I was worried that a sob would burst out.
“The moment that I met your father, I knew that he was made for me. We may not have been True Mates like you two, but I knew there was no one else for me. After I realised that I wasn’t the Triple Goddess, I thought he would love me less. Moon Light knew who I was, and what I was possible of becoming. This brought me a lot of unwanted attention from the males, those that wanted to use me for my status. But your father wasn’t one of them. He wasn’t bothered by it at all. Triple Goddess or not, he only ever wanted me. The moment I told him that we were pregnant, that smile that covered his entire face, I will never forget that look. He was so happy, so excited” Lunaya uncrossed her arms and interlaced her fingers. Her smile enveloped the bottom half of her face, but her eyes held so much grief and longing.
“What was his name?” I asked softly,
“Micha. Micha Alvar” she answered. Her voice held so much love, I could feel it flowing from her. It made me feel happy and appreciative. I came from so much love. Regardless of what came after, that has to account for something.
“What was he like?”
“Your father was the strongest pack warrior I had ever met. He was fiercely protective of his pack and his family, and yet he was so kind and generous. He was the kind of Were to help the elder she-wolves move furniture and chop their firewood. And he loved you. He loved you so damn much. I wish you could have known him. You may not know it, but you are so much like him” she said with a widespread smile across her face.
“I wish I knew him too. I wish I knew the both of you” I whispered. Lunaya sat quietly, lost in her own thoughts while I waited impatiently for her to continue. Gunner sat beside me, unmoving, apart from his thumb rubbing circles on my thigh.
“When the hunters attacked, we were completely unaware. They had managed to get to the border patrols and scouts before they alerted us to the incoming danger. The hunters knew exactly what they were looking for, and they knew just where to find it. They ripped their way through Moon Light, slaughtering anyone and everyone in their path. Your father and I had a plan, something we tried and tested many, many times. We were to separate, him going one direction and me going the other. There was a small log cabin hidden in the snow at the base of Mount Logan. We had readied the cabin with supplies and necessities, for if there ever came a time to use it. But your father never showed”
“And where was I during all this?” I asked, interrupting her spiel.
“With me. When your father and I separated, I didn’t get too far before the hunters had me surrounded. They knew exactly what I looked like, and they knew how to find me” she answered without a pause,
“How?”
“That is a question I have asked myself many times over the years. Each time I arrive at the same conclusion. We must have had a spy in the pack, a traitor, someone selling information to the hunter clan”.
Zelena. "We must have had a spy in the pack, a traitor, someone selling information to the hunter clan” said Lunaya, “You really think one of your pack members betrayed you?” Gunner interjected, “There is no other explanation. Besides, it can’t be too hard to believe, you yourself had a spy. Artemis was working with the Origin Alpha” “Working with another pack
Zelena. After a moment, I had nothing left. I stopped screaming and took a deep breath. I kept my eyes closed and continued to take slow,deepand soothing breaths. “Do you feel better now?” a soft feminine voice said with agiggle. I sat up and shielded my eyes fromthe sun.AsIlooked up,I foundone of the people I wanted to see least of all right now. I huffed and flopped back down on the grass. She chuckled and satdown next to me.
Zelena. I laid in Gunner’s arms as his fingers gently traced circles over my bare back. The house was quiet at this time of night, letting the sounds of the forest slip through the open window. It was peaceful, listening to the insets and other forest animals sing through the night. Just as peaceful as the gentle caress of Gunner’s hand over my skin. The sparks and tingles that heis able toinflict on me, is still the most wonderful sensation. A sensation that I hope never goes away. I turned my head and nuzzled my nose against his firm and perfectly hairless pectoral muscle. I spattered kisses across his chest as I worked my way up to the place that my mark sat. I poked out my tongue and let the tip run along the raised scar. Gunner groan
Zelena.After a while I had become very uncomfortable, and my body was screaming for food. The sobbing had stopped, but my fear of being without Gunner was still the main focal point of my mind.“Can I put you down now?” Gunner’s voice whispered softly,“Yes” I answered after a deep breath. Gunner placed my feet back on the ground but kept his arms around my shoulders. My stomach grumbled loudly, breaking the silence of our combinedsadness.
!!!! TRIGGER WARNING !!!! CONTAINS RAPE !!!! WG-02. Some time ago. I've dealt with a lot up until this point. I'm proud to say that through it all, I have not broken. All my life I've known pain. I've grown up on it. Lived it, learnt it, tasted it. I know pain. I have been pushed to the furthest limits imaginable. Both in mind and body. And I've still not broken. I am stronger because of how far I have been pushed. I have endured and survived more than anyone else possibly could. I have beenmouldedinto the ultimate weapon, created from pain to cause havoc. I am the shadow in the dark, the monster under the bed. I am the bringer of death. Nothing could ever break me. But this... This is unlike anything else that I have endured before. This is beyond the point of physical pain and mental torture. This is worse. This is a line I was naive enough to believe would never be crossed. This
Whiskey.I struggled to my feet and swallowed the whimper that nearly came out. No crying. Monsters don’t cry. One lashing for one tear.Growing up, Ilearned quickly not to cry. The scars on my back are a testament to my lesson. One tear, one lashing. My scars are years old now. No tears mean no lashings, so I letnonefall. I limped to the small sink in the corner of my room and turned on the tap. As per usual, the water was freezing. I cupped my small hands under the stream to catch the water, then gently placed my face into the collected water. I ran my wet fingers over my beaten face, letting the moister wash away the blood. I cupped my hands again and washed more water over my face. I did this until the water that dripped from my face lost its red tinge.
Whiskey. If I change without permission, the punishments that I endure are unlike anything else. They have this purple liquid, and when they inject it into me, it’s like I am burning from the inside out. It's the worst punishment by far. “Oh, please give me a reason to hurt you” Spencer sneered down at me. Heknelt downbeside me, right next to my face. He grabbed my chin and turned my head so that I would look at him. “Show me the monster, then I can really have my fun with you. Johnny Boy had his turn last night, now I want mine” he hissed
Whiskey. I hate this place. I hate this smell. The stench of wet dog and fear.It’srepugnant. When someone dies suddenly, they leave behind the stench of their last thoughts.I'vecome to find that most of the time those thoughts are ones of fear. I hate the smell of it.It'swhat comes after, that I like the most. The scent of death. Blood, mixed with pain and a hint of helplessness, all thrown together with the scent of decaying flesh. That is the smell I like. That is what I want to be able to smell all day. If I could, I wouldinfusethe horrendous sent into a perfume and wear it daily. The bringer of death, carrying with her the scent of your doom. Sounds gooddoesn’tit. This tedious task is st
Zelena. Gunner’s arms came around my stomach and he leaned his chin on my shoulder. “You okay?” he asked softly. “I’m good” I answered and reached up to tap his cheek. He turned his face and kissed the palm of my hand. “You were crying again” he said, like I hadn’t already known that. “Well, pregnant ladies cry, Mighty Alpha” I quipped and turned to face him with a smirk. He didn’t answer me right away, just gazed down at me. “You sure you’re alright?” he asked more gently. He cupped my cheek and I leaned into his touch. “I’m fine. Thinking of Cole and Tobias just makes me sad sometimes”. Gunner smiled sadly and ran his thumb over the corner of my mouth. “Me too” he said softly before leaning in to press a soft kiss to my waiting lips. “I love you” I said looking up into his beautiful blue eyes. “I love you more” he smiled back. “It’s not a competition” I grumbled and pinched his peck. He laughed and rubbed at the spot. “It’s not. There's just more of
Zelena. Grief is difficult. It's a hard feeling to navigate. With the addition of my bouts of guilt and regret, I wasn’t sure I was ever going to find my way through it. If I’m honest, I’m still working my way through it. Every new day is different from the last. It's strange really. One day I will be fine, filled with happiness and joy, enjoying my family and my life. The next, something as simple as hearing the term ‘Little One’ will set me off on hours of crying and wishing for things to be different. Grief is weird. It's true when people say that you never actually get over the pain, you just learn to live with it. Not being alone with my pain is a huge help. Gunner and I are both working through our grief. Everyone is really. Losing Cole, Tobias, and Aurora. Plus, Cleo and all the other fighters that sacrificed their lives. Those losses hit us all really hard. Even with all that loss, we’ve gained a lot as well. Thanks to Aurora, the hunters are basically extinct. A special t
Whiskey. “I know” Zelena whispered with a slight nod of her head. She pushed her other arm forward with her palm facing me. A wave of energy hit me, like a truck hitting a mountain at top speed. My entire body jolted with the force, down to the tiniest atom. The air was stolen from my lungs and my vision went black. I felt like a giant hand was inside my body, pulling it apart piece by piece. The pain was incredible. I could feel every part of myself being torn to shreds. I tried to scream, but no sound came. I tried to fight, but my body was no longer under my control. This must be what death feels like. I can’t imagine it being anything else. There was a pressure inside my chest, like something was pulling it open. It built and built, tearing and ripping at my essence. It was almost too much, I was ready to give in to it. After all that I have endured, and all the pain that has been inflicted on my body over my lifetime, I still kept fighting. I was never worn down to the point of
Whiskey.It was a fucking dragon. The glowing light dimmed, just enough for me to find a small human frame within the dragon's glow. It was Zelena. The dragon was with Zelena. How could this be possible? “Whiskey” a voice called out. I took a step back as I looked up at the beast. Dragons aren’t real, I told myself. Plus, this dragon was odd. It wasn’t a physical being. Its face, its wings, its body, it was all made out of light. I could see the electrical currents tethering all the pieces together. Almost like it was made of pure energy. “Whiskey” the voice called again. It came from both Zelena and the dragon, almost like they spoke at the same time, in the same voice. I stumbled back a few more steps, but Zelena and the dragon just kept coming. “You’re reign of death is over” the dragon called. This is unexpected. But I’ve never quit before, and I sure as shit won’t be starting today. I steadied my feet and squared my shoulders. I summoned another icicle sword, now holding
Whiskey. I swung my arm towards Zelena, letting fly the spear of black ice. It got her in the upper right side of her chest, sending her flying back to the ground. A proud smile filled my face as another weapon materialized in my grip. I was about to hit her again when I was sent flying back through the air. I dropped the shard of ice and used my own power to cushion the landing. Gunner was poised and ready to attack. Zelena was still laying on the ground, I knew she was going to be easy to be rid of, just one hit and she was out. I pulled on that dark feeling inside me, tugging on the string of power that was in me now. Another icy shard appeared in my hand, and I hurled it toward Gunner. He dodged to the side, missing the spear, and then charged toward me. I didn’t even need to think about it now, the weapons just came to my hands as I thought of them. I leaned on my back foot and steadied my feet, then I hurled dagger after dagger at Gunner. One hit his shoulder, but it didn’t
Whiskey. Tobias hit the deck like a sack of shit. A pulling sensation tugged at my heart. Like the shriveled piece of brown beef thumping in my chest was going to suddenly come to life and feel something for the big dumb oaf. Yeah right. Once he was down, the fighters that he waved away all charged at me in unison. Some shifted into their beasts, others tempted fate on their human legs. It didn’t really matter either way. They were all going to die by my hand one way or the other. I cut each of them down easily, and all the others that tried their luck with me. It appears these animals are just as dumb as all the other stupid dogs that I’ve fought. Never learning where they lay on the food chain. Never realising that they’re doomed from the moment they decide to fight against me. They’re all the same. Single minded, foolish animals. The fight had us slowly moving through the village, leaving a breadcrumb trail of bodies along the way. They just kept coming, one after the other. I
Zelena. I flew off to the side with so much speed. The force at which I hit Gunner’s shield made my brain wobble inside my skull. My hold dropped and Whiskey landed back on the ground on her feet. Keeping the shield in place, Gunner growled and stepped toward Whiskey with his claws ready. I quickly stood up and raced to stop him, but I was sent flying back into the shield once again. When I went to get back up again, a sharp pain shot through my chest, and I yelped out in pain. I looked down to the source of the irritation and froze. Shit. A long black jagged piece of ice was protruding from my chest. It’s the darkness. I produced the same type of weapon once. The sting of ice in my veins intensified and the cold emptiness of the darkness filled my chest. I snapped my head to Whiskey who was about to launch another in my direction. Before the fresh shard of black ice left her hand, Gunner swung his arm out in her direction. The shield around us dropped and Gunner retrained all of his
Zelena. Gunner took my hand and I turned to follow behind him. Lupus was marching at his side, the two of them whispering harshly. I couldn’t focus on what they were saying, I was too taken aback by the bodies we passed. My eyes caught on a woman lying face down on the ground with a gaping wound in her back. Another with his neck broken at an ungodly angle. Three or four wolf bodies followed quickly after. How could one person do so much damage? A rush of magic tickled across my skin and the air around us felt thinner and light. Gunner stopped walking and turned to look at me. “Do you feel it?” he asked. I nodded and lifted my head higher. “She’s literally sucking the air out of the village” I answered. “How are you supposed to fight against that?” Lupus grunted angrily. “I have powers too” I said as I lifted my hands and erected a shield around the three of us. The air immediately felt normal again, further proven by the sigh and deep breath Lupus took. “Let’s go” I c
Zelena. I swallowed the pain in my chest and stood up slowly on shaking legs. Gunner grabbed my arm, half to help me stand, and I expect half to stop me from bolting right for the door. Smith and Felix followed my movements, both of them also rising slowly. Smith’s growl rumbled lowly through the room, quickly followed by Felix, then Lupus. The symphony of growls rolled around the room, all blending into one angry song. I hadn’t realised it at first, but my own growl joined the angry tune. All of us rumbled out how worried, angry, and ready to fight we were. I pulled my arm from Gunner’s hold and stepped toward the door. My claws extended and my bones ached through my anger and the desire the change. I pulled the Goddess power into my body. It tingled across my skin, fed my soul, and filled me with energy. “Let’s get to it then” I snarled. My anger was palpable. Family be damned, if my own sister has hurt Tobias, MY Tobias, I will finish her where she stands. I will reign the pain