Chapter 7

I saw Azi, his head on his knees, tila pagod na pagod ito, hingal na hingal at hindi man lang napansin ang pag-pasok ko at presensya ko ngayon.

"Azi..." I gently called his name as I step closer to him, nag-angal ang ulo nito.

His eyes were red, sharp and imitating. Natigil ako sa pag-lapit at sandali itong pinag-masdan.

Sa sandaling ito iniisip ko kong siya ba talaga yung Asawa ko, he is not in his normal states. May nangyari ba?

"Pack all all things, please. We're flying to Australia." He said, shaking in madness.

I frown, okay? "Sure" I casual reply.

I was about to turn my my things and pack my things up just like what he had said when I saw my luggage already done.

Humarap ulit ako kay Azi, muli nyang tinatanggal ang mga gamit sa luggage nya, pag-katapos ay pinasok nya ulit na parang hindi nya alam ang gagawin.

"U-uhm... Azi?" He then stop what he's doing and look at me, "I think we're already done packing out things? Ayos ka lang ba, or do you need some help? I don't mind flying to another country, Azi. But... If you have to come down and relax"

Huminga sya ng malalim at tumango na lang. "Okay... O-okay... Now we'll go" he stood and enter the bathroom without gazing at me.

Balisa sya, parang may tinatago at may masamang nangyari. Wala naman akong pakialam, I just shrugged my thoughts off and wait for him to walk outside the bathroom so I can wash my body too and we can go wherever he planned us to be at.

I'll waiting for him, I had a lots of thoughts in my mind but I couldn't just voice it out. Hindi ko ugaling maki-alam sa buhay ng lalo lalo na at ang trabaho ko ay pumatay lang.

A few minutes had past and he still noy going out the comfort room. 

"Oh God, hey! Don't tell me you're already sleeping there dickhead!?" I shouted louder than I thought it would be, but he didn't respond.

"Ano ba yan!" I hissed at myself as I stood to step closer to the bathroom's door. Kumatok ang ng sunod sunod, palakas ng palakas at sumisigaw na ein ako para makuha ang atensyon nya pero talagang hindi ito sumasagot.

"Fvck, You Dickhead! Open this goddamn door!" I scream, breathing heavily to reach some air, pero wala pa ring sumasagot.

I heave a sighed. "Fine! If you won't gonna open this fvcking door, I'll do it myself then"

Umatras ako, pag-katapos non ay patakbong lumapit sa mga gamit ko para kumuha ng gamit na maaari kong gamitin para mabuksan ang cr kung nasaan sya.

He must've be in danger in there, baka nag-patiwakal na ang gagv. Pabor naman sakin yun, but what would my mother said about this? Na pinababayaan ko sya? That I killed him, or I am the reason why he killed himself? That I'm giving him so much pressure! That I'll gonna be the first Mcdougalin to have a husband who killed himself because the man couldn't stand a person like me?

Pvtangina naman kasi Azi! I'm hell'a fvcking overthinking because of you!

Hindi ko na napansing tumutulo na pala ang luha ko habang nag-hahalungkat ng gamit ko.

Bakit ba kasi ako umiiyak! I don't fvcking care about him! Bakit ako umiiyak!

"I found it!" Sigaw ko sa paos na boses, hawak ang mga gamit na binigay saakin ni Troy dati para sa pag-bukas ng door knob.

Dali dali akong pumunta sa tapos ng pintoan ng Cr para sana umpisahan na ang pag-sira ng doorknob, pero bigla na lang itong kusang nag-bukas.

I look up to him, presto itong basang basa ang katawan, tumutulo pa ang tubig mula sa buhok nya, awkwardly looking at me.

Agad akong umayos ng tayo at itinago ang mga gamit na dala ko sa likod ko. Nag-tama ang mga mata namin kaya agad akong umiwas.

Sa hindi alam na kadahilanan, bigla na lang tumulong muli ang mga luha ko.

Lumambot ang mukha nito sa paraan ng pag-titig nya saakin. Pero bago pa man sya maka-hakbang papalapit saakin, agad ko syang hinigit palabas ng Cr at ako naman ang dali daling pumasok at ni-lock ito.

I couldn't think straight, sa loob ay patuloy akong umiyak.

I don't know why... But my chest is tightening in fear. Tila natakot ako sa sandaling isipin na baka may nangyari na sa kanyang masama...

T-this is not me! I kill a person as many as I want! Pero ni isa sa kanila... Wala akong kinaawaan, hindi ako nangamba at natakot ng ganito.

"You alright there?" Mahinang bulong ni Azi sa kabila ng pintoan kung saan ako naka-sandal at pigil ang sarili sa pag-ingit ng malakas para hindi nya ako mapa-kinggan.

"Y-yeah?" I said, trying my make my voice calm and casual, but obviously... I failed.

Hindi na sya sumagot at narinig ko na lang ang malalakas nyang hakbanh papalayo saakin, he's fine now. I can now breathe properly.

Nag-madali ako sa pag-ligo, pag-ayos ng sarili at kabadong lumabas ng Cr. I then saw Azi, looking fresh while leaning on the head.

He gaze at me as if nothing happened. I just act naturally as what he did.

"Aalis na tayo, ayos na ba lahat ng gamit mo?" He coldly said.

Tumango ako at nag-iwas na lang ng tingin. "Anong oras ang flight—"

"I'll just wait you get dress outside. May bibilihin lang ako" he cut me off, storming out of our room with all the luggage.

Napa-hinga ako ng malalim. There's something off to that guy. May problema sya... And I couldn't do anything to atleast ease it as her wife. I'm so useless.

Nag-bihis ako kagaya ng utos nya. Wala akong ibang nasuot kuninihandag hindi ang gamit na nya para saakin na naka-lagay sa kama.

It's just a black turtle neck sleeveless cotton top, paired with a white long pants. May blazer ding kasama na hindi ko alam kung kailangan pa.

His taste in clothing aren't that bad, but isn't just my type of fashion. I'm more on hubadera style, but sometimes I just don't wanna wear anything at all.

Sanay ako sa ganon e, I can wear only lingerie even if I'm with my men, Troy doesn't mine at all, as long as his men won't see me or else they're dead. That's how protected Troy is to me.

Altazar will cover his eyes or just look at my face instead of my body. Napaka-gentle man kasi nong lalaking iyon.

The rest of my co-worker just don't mind me at all. Meron silang kanya kanyang babae, they aren't touching me, takot lang nila kay Troy.

Among all of the woman in our organization, I was the most powerful next to Aira. Walang kwenta si Marjorie sa grupo, too useless that couldn't even kill a mosquito. What a pity.

Nag-bukas ang pinto dahil pumasok si Azi. Masama itong naka-tingin saakin, lalo na nang nag-baba ang tingin nya sa katawan ko. I haven't dressed up yet.

Namula ako sa hiya, I bit my lips and look down to my feet. I heard him heave a sigh before heading out of the room once again.

"I'm sorry..." I mouthed even though I know he could not hear it anymore...

Nag-madali na rin akong mag-bihis, ayaw ko na mang ma-abotan nya akong naka-tapis pa rin ng tuwalya sa katawan.

Ano kayang ikinagagalit nya.

When I walk out of our room, nakita ko sya sa gilid ng pintuan, naka-sandal sa pader. He is also smoking a cigarette that's place on his left hand.

"Azi..." I called him to get his attention.

Pero hindi nya ako nilingon, agad itong nag-lakad paalis hila ang bagahe nya.

I smile and look at all baggages he left. I guess I'll be lifting all of these myself...

Akmang lalapitan ko na ang tatlong bag at dalawang luggages ng biglang bumalik si Azi. Still not gazing at my eyes, he took all out things without a word and left me dumbfounded.

Wala na rin akong nagawa kung hindi ang sumunod sa kanya.

We were in the same elevator, but it feels like we're on the different continent. The cold gap between us were very wide, it's suffocating me.

On the first floor, he left me waiting on the corner while checking us out of the hotel. I just stood watching him afar.

Hindi ako sanay, bakit parang pakiramdam ko ang layo nya sakin, may nagawa ba akong masama?

B-bakit pakiramdam ko lumalambot ako...

Sumakay kami sa sasakyan nya, he drove to the airport, we waited for hours until our time to ride the plane has come.

No one initiated om talking between us. He pick the first class, so we're like on a fancy room.

Walang kwenta.

Nakatulog ako sa haba ng byahe namin, nagising na lang ako ng tapikin ang braso ko ng isang flight attendant.

"Good day ma'am, you have to wake up, our plane in landing any moment now" she said, with a full set of teeth smiling at me.

I awkwardly smiled back. Umayos ako ng higa, napa-lingon ako sa gilid ko kung nasaan si Azi, I bitter smile plastered on my face when I realized he's just sitting next to me but didn't wake me up if it's not the flight attendant!

He is getting in to my nerves! Wala naman akong ginawa sa kanya a! Why is he treating me this way!

Pag-labas namin ng airport, may sumundo saaming kakilala ni Azi. Hinatid kami nito sa bago naming hotel na titirahan, but the whole time, I was just looking at the window of the car and not giving them a fvck.

Sometimes, Azi's acquaintance will ask me a favor but all I do was ignore him. I don't know the shits about him! Why would I answer? Azi didn't care at all though, all he do is to laugh in fake when his acquaintance is saying something unimportant.

"Have a nice honeymoon, Herbert couple" the man said and salute like a soldier before driving off his car.

Azi and I didn't waste a time to gaze at the guy as we're both excited in resting.

"The largest suite you an offer please." Azi directly said to the woman.

Napa-irap ako at kunwaring hindi nakikinig. I even turn to my cellphone to message Altazar and emailed Troy. I informed them to where I am. Baka kasi ma-miss nila ako.

AJA:

Altazar! Give me a tip on how to kill a husband without anyone suspecting you as a murderer?

I sent it to Altazar right after I tell him I'm in Australia.

ALTAZAR:

you answer your own question, Treasure. You're the expert in Killing a person not me. Sino kaya ang ruthless torturer sa ating dalawa? The one who can beat up a dozen of huge mens even without a loaded gun.

Napa-tawa ako ng mahina at akmang mag-rereply ulit ng bigla kong maka-salubong ang masamang titig saakin ni Azi.

Nag-iwas ito ng tingin at bumalik sa babaeng kausap nya ang atensyon nito.

"Yes, we'll take it" the coldness in his voice... I like it...

"Alright then, please give me your name sir"

Humarap muna saakin si Azi, bago nag-salita na sa mata ko mismo ang kanyang atensyon.

"Luigi Mercari, 34. This, my Wife, Mosary Meijer Mercari.

Hindi ako nagulat nong ginawa nga yun. Hindi ako nag-lita at nakipag-sukatan Lang ng tingin sa lalaki, fine then that confirmed my thoughts. May tinatago sya... Tinataguan.

"Alright, Mr. And Mrs. Mercari, enjoy your staying in our hotel. Here's the key, " ina-abot nya iyon saakin pero sinamaan ko lang sya ng tingin. "Mr. Mercari?" He smile at my husband.

Kinuha naman nya ang susi sa babae pero nasa akin pa rin ang kanyang tingin. "We'll go" 

"Floor 106, room 5507—" hindi pa man tapos mag-salita ang babae ay agad na akong hinila ni Azi papaalis, pa punta sa room namin.

Right after we're in, he lock the door and slammed all our things on the floor furiously staring at me. 

"We will stay here for good" he coldly said before walking down to the bathroom without looking back.

"As long as I'm with you, Azi... I'm good" tanging bulong ko, habang hinahayaang tumulo ang mga luha ko mula sa mata ko ng hindi inaasahan.

I'm being emotional once again...