Chapter 5

In the middle of the darkness on the street, somehow, I felt something inside me.

Sa sandaling iyon pinara ko ang sasakyan ko, in my car window I throw up. Right after that it feels like I just get back to my sense.

I cuss under my breath. There's an urge inside of me saying that I should turn back my car to killiroque Mansion even though I'm nearly far away from San Roque.

Pag-kababa ko pa lang ng sasakyan kinuha ko kaagad ang extra gun ko sa compartment at nag-simulang mag-lakad papasok ng mansion.

I only see few people that makes me frustrated even more, ni hindi ko ngs alam kung bakit, tinutok ko ang baril sa dalawang lalaking nag-lalakad papalayo saakin.

Then I shoot one of them without hesitation. Agad na nagulat ang isa pang lalaking kasama nito na ikinatuwa ko.

He look at my direction, nanginginig ito sa takot. "Pvtangina ka!—"

I pouted and before he could even finish his words I shoot him on his head.

Naka-silencer naman ako, pero ang dalawang bangkay ang lalaki ay nag-bigay alarma sa mga nakakakita. I make the two men my bait to kill every person I saw.

Sa ilang minutong pag-patay na ginagawa ko, I get bored. Ni isa sa kanila hindi pumalag, some raise their arm and some plead for life, too boring.

I get back to my car to reload my gun, but before I could even reach my compartment I heard many footsteps heading into my direction.

Agad akong nag-reload ng bala nang hindi tumitingin sa kalaban. Right after I stood straight I saw a bunch of men with guns pointing on my head.

I flipped my hair, nag-lakad ako papalapit sa kanila pero agad silang umatras.

"Ms. I know you're drunk but please don't just kill people you see here—"

"Why?" I said with my charming voice, "should I torture them first?"

He was taken aback. Isang tagumpay na ngiti ang sumilay saaking labi. I look down to my gun, guess I won't be needing this anymore.

Itinapon ko ang baril ko sa pwesto nila. Isa, dalawa, tatlo... Labing tatlo. I think I can take them all.

Right after I throw my gun on their way, they put down their guns too. What a wrong move, hindi sila marunong sumunod sa golden rule 'never let your guard down' kaya ayaw ko sa mga lalaki e, they always look down to woman as if they are always above us.

Lumapit ako sa lalaking nag-lakas loob na kumausap saakin kanina, hindi ito umalis sa pwesto nya hindi gaya ng labing dalawang lalaki na umatras ng makitang papalapit ako.

When I'm already haft meter away from the guy, a smirk plastered on my lips and before he could even react I reached for my knife under my dress and hastily stab it on his chest.

The remaining twelve guys gasp as the man I just stab kneeled on the floor with flood of blood.

Akmang mag-tututok ng baril saakin ang ilan sa kanina ay nakuha ko kagaad ang back up Paralyzation pin na naka-tago sa batok ko.

Without a noise, haft of them died. While the haft of them just freeze as if they knew that one wrong move they'll get killed.

"Somebody shoot me please?" I said pretending to be drunk, and guess what? Some stupid guy follow what I have said, unlucky them, I was fast enough to shoot them first before they could even point a gun on my direction.

13 guy in just 3 minutes, not new to me. 

I look at my body, I'm filled with blood stains. I somehow like it when I see red stains on my body, I feel so much power, yet not always. Madudumi ang mga taong ito, maswerte ang dugo nilang madampian ang balat ko.

Mapait ako natawa habang naka-tulala sa mga kalalakihang naka-higa sa sahig.

Truly skills has no gender. Almost all of the person I killed tonight was a man, masculine and well body toned man, yet all of them die within a split second through my hand.

Nakakatawa, kaya kong pumatay ng kahit sino, kahit ano at kahit saan pero hindi ang nag-iisang taong nagawang saktan ako, nagawang saktan ang puso ko...

Fvck you Martinez! Soon I'll bury you myself. Mahal kita pero pvtangina ka, mahina ako pag ikaw na, kaya pvtangina mo. May araw ka rin.

I was near at letting my tears flow when a hand tap my shoulder.

Hindi ako nagulat pero agad kung nilingon ang may ari ng kamay.

Ang kaninang nag-babadya kong luha ay napalitan ng galak sa aking mga mata, "Troy!" I almost scream in excitement.

Agad ko syang niyakap ng mahigpit kaya ganon na lang din ang ginawa nya. He tap my back continuously until I decided to let him go.

Abot tenga ang ngiti ko, sinusuri kung totoo bang tao ang nasa harap ko ngayon.

But then, I realized something... He was the main reason why I'm stress right now! Siya lang ang pinunta ko dito sa party tas hindi sya mag-papakita!

"I hate you! Hindi man lang kita naisayaw kanina... You know I always look for you when I'm in the party... Ikaw lang favorite kong ka-date!" I the pouted.

He let a sexy chuckle and then he pat my head. "Silly, Altazar is always your date."

Tinanggal ko ang kamay nya sa ulo ko kaya napatawa na lang sya ng mahina sa ginawa ko. "I said favorite, stupid!"

Ngumiti lang ito habang naiiling. "The moment you said you don't want to work with me anymore... Your tongue gets a little spice, Treasure."

Umirap ako at mahina syang hinampas sa dibdib, "of course! Boss kita dati kaya di kita mapag-salitaan ng ganon, but then... When I realized what you said to me before, that... 'we can still be friends' I just get into insulting you without thinking about its consequence" I smile.

Tumango ito at hindi sumagot. I look around, mag-isa lang sya—"I'm with my men... They're just around, watching us afar if that's what bother you"

Sumimangot na lang ako at umirap. "Sayang... I was trying to think of something on how can I kill you... This is a perfect timing though..." I said, acting innocent.

But I'm just kidding, I was just worried about his safety. He's one of the big boss in our organization. Mainit ang mata sa kanya ng mga kalaban.

Ito kasing si Troy, he's a good example of a nice person. He may be cruel sometimes, but it's only the devil inside of him.

Siya yung taong kayang mong biruin, kaibiganin, tropahin pero wag na wag mong pag-tataksilan... The only rule is 'don't trigger the devil within him'

He's soft, irresistible and extravagant. Kung hindi ko siya kilala bilang boss ko sa pag-patay ng tao at marami pang illegal na bagay ay baka isipin kong isa syang santo.

Natauhan ako ng ilagay nito ang braso nya sa balikat ko, then we started walking. Hindi nya alintana ang lagkit ng katawan ko gawa ng mga dugo mula sa walang kwentang mga tao.

Tahimik lang kaming nag-lalakad hahang sa maka-kita kami ng benches at naupo doon.

He then reach for my hands and play with it. "You must paint you finger nail black. Purple and blue just don't fit to your personality—"

Agad kong inagaw ang mga kamay ko sa kanya, he look up to see my reaction and I glared at him.

"Ang kapal ng mukha mo! Bakit ikaw, bakit hindi mo pinturahan ng itim mukha mo! Palibhasa kasi..."

I deeply close my eyes, sighing. "Fine, so uhm... Ganito kasi talaga yan, Troy. Gusto ko sana na—"

"Be back as Treasure once again, Aja." He cut me off.

Napa-kunot ako ng noo, like what the fvck is he saying!

Akala nya ba gusto ko bumalik sa grupo nila? Hell y-yes! B-but that's not what I'm trying to say! Gusto ko lang naman maki-search in sa data base nila kahit kulang kulang ang binigay ng info sakin ni Altazar tungkol kay Azi!

"P-pero Troy..."

He sighed. "I know, I know... Alam kong sinabi mo sakin na bibitawan mo na ang pangalang iyon, but Aja... This is the last time you'll be back in our Organization. Malapit na akong mawala, not literally but you know I'll be passing my title to my sister... Walang mag-babantay sa kanya"

Mariin akong napa-pikit at nag-iwas ng tingin... This is some part of Troy that you wouldn't dare to be against with.

Masyado nyang mahal ang kapatid nya. Pag si Aira ang usapan, kaya nyang lumuhod sa harapan mo o kahit mag-labas ng napaka-laking pera mapaburan mo lang sya pag si Aira ang pinag-uusapan which I don't get why since they aren't really siblings.

I heave a deep sighed. "Troy..."

"I'll give you everything you wanted... Just this one Aja, just this one. I won't be filing a contract. You're free, you can go to my mansion and kill every person in there, but not the eldest of course, we'll be on big trouble if that happens."

Parehas kaming natawa ng mahina sa sinabi nya. He's right, all the eldest are pain in the ass.

Ilang saglit kaming nanahimik. Naputol iyon ng himinga sya ng malakas, meeting his eyes I see him pleading for hope.

Who am I to feel special when I'm with this gorgeous man?

"You see... I'm offering you a good deal here. My place is yours, just accept mission and you're done. Nasa iyo ang oras, Aja... You can choose what you want to accomplish. I'm begging here, please"

Pilit akong ngumiti bago isinandal ang ulo ko sa balikat nya.

"Troy, I promised myself not to work under someone anymore, remember?" Malambing kong tugon.

Pinatong nito ang kanang kamay sa ulo. "I know you'd say, but still at least I tried" sa sandaling iyon, pakiramdam ko bumalik ang dating Troy na nakilala ko.

Yung Troy na animo'y hindi pa nakakagawa ng kasalanan sa anyo at gawing mala-anghel.

"These past few months that I'm alone... I tried to find you, but you being the boss of course you won't show yourself to me unless it's necessary."

He chuckled. "I'm always watching you though."

I snore and softly hit his chest, "sira ka, alam ko naman yun. Nakakainis lang na hindi nyo pinipigilan yung mga taong gustong pumatay saakin" kunwari pang nag-susumamong boses ko.

Muli nanaman syang tumawa ng mahina, kasabay non ang marahan nyang pag-haplos ng aking buhok.

"You love killing people, right? That's the main reason why I don't let my men take over those people who's after your life."

"Pero kahit na! Nahihirapan kaya akong mag-tago ng mga walang kwenta nilang bangkay. I don't have assistant though."

Kasabay ng marahan nyang pag-haplos ng aking buhok, gayun don kapayapa at banayad ang kaniyang pag-hinga.

Kasalungat iyun sa aking nadarama ngayon. I feel so much pressure sitting beside him and receiving this kind of treatment. 

Kung wala lang akong asawa baka nag-kagusto na ako sa lalaking ito.

"Hindi kita pinipilit, Aja. Rethink your decision. Mag-hihintay ako kung kailan ka babalik. You know you're always welcome in our Organization"

Hindi pamilyar na ngiti ang sumilay sa aking mga labi. This guy really knows how to melt someone like me.

Hindi ko man gustong matapos ang gabing iyon, oras at panahon ang kalaban ko sa pag-lipas ng ala-alang iyon.

Malagkit ang buong katawan ko na nababalot ng dugo, mula ulo hanggang talampakan pero wala akong paki-alam.

Ang isa sa pinaka-kinaayawan kong pag-diriwang ay naging isa sa pinaka-espisyal sa saaking gabi dahil sa isang lalaking nag-paramdam saakin ng kakaibang saya gamit lamang ay malumanay nitong pag-sasalita at marahang pag-haplos saaking buhok.

I'm slowly regretting my decision of agreeing on that fvcked up arrange marriage.

I know to myself that I can seduce Troy to make him mine if not because of my situation right now.

Mapait akong natawa habang naka-tingin sa sariling reflection ng salamin.

"I have so much confidence..." I said shaking my head.

Sa sandaling iyon, kahit hindi inaasahan ay kusang tumulo ang mga luha ko mula sa mga mata.

Fvck, I'm having my breakdown once again... I'm feeling loneliness, I'm feeling the emptiness.

Akala ko matapang ako, akala ko malakas ako, kaya ko ang lahat, matibay ang puso ko, but all of that... Are just some of the mask I had to wear for the sake of those people who look down on me!

Fvck my life! I just want an ordinary lifestyle, why do I have to be in the same circle of my past over and over again! 

I w-want change... With my man, with Azi... I need to learn how to love him