Jake wanted to believe he had come to the wrong conclusion, that he wasn’t possibly hearing that she got ditched by the man who was supposed to love her? Because he knew his extended family, and no one came up alone, there were just too many variables that could happen. So, unless siblings came up, or couples did, that was it. And he could have seen her coming up with Tim. He just didn’t think Tim was that much of an asshole to let her come up alone. And yeah, he could see Jay flipping out on this one and he could see her parents demanding she give the cabin key back and she wouldn’t be allowed to come up unless it was the family.
“Rachel, that’s a lot, anything could happen while up here.” She curled her legs up under the blanket and rested her head there.“I know, Jake. I managed them just fine though. Sure the first one had me freaking out, but I’m not a little kid and I’m not dumb.”“Want to explain why he wasn’t up here the first time?” She cut him a look and he chuckled. “Cut the claws, Rachel. I promise, swear, I won’t say anything. I’m just trying to talk. We both are going to be here a while and it might be best if we weren’t at each other’s throats.”“You’re right,” she mumbled with a sigh. “The first time, he wanted to see this place that I loved so much, that I always talked about. So, I asked the parents if I could bring him up, and they both agreed. When I went to pick him up Friday morning, he wasn’t packed. Said the station had some hot shot coming into town and they needed him to play guide. I said there were tons of other people they could have asked for and that we had his planned for months.“He didn’t care, said we could go whenever.” She paused and he watched her, seeing a look in her eye. “I should have known than the job would always be first and that other ladies caught his eye.” She had whispered that part so softly that he barely heard it, but he did.“Who was in town?” he asked.“Not sure. Some other gorgeous station anchor, one he had a major crush on. When she reached out to the station, he overheard and basically demanded to be the one there for her, her personal liaison. I heard a lot about his hookups after we broke up.” Jake blinked at that. Ups? As in more than one? As in he was a fucking prick to have kept on doing it? And then had the guts to hurt her over and over with that? What kind of man pulls shit like that and thinks it’s okay? Who the hell would hurt someone like that? Hell, Jake wasn’t even sure what to say to that right now.“How many?” Her brows came together in confusion at his question. He didn’t want to repeat the question but he knew he was going to have to. “How many hookups?”“Five, at least that he told me about. He wanted to make sure he got his point across.” Jake clenched his hands and his teeth, his anger rolling through him.“And I’m going to assume this all came out after the break-up?” Jake watched as she clutched the blanket a little closer to her and nodded in answer to his question.“I’m a fool on many accounts; I won’t deny that, however, I wouldn’t stay with a man knowing that I wasn’t his only one. I have more self-worth than that. I just thought, well, I thought he did love me, he did really care. And I think he did, but I also think I was really good for his image. You know the down-home, sweet, innocent-looking girl.” Jake tilted his head as he watched her.Lots of things came to mind when he looked at her: gorgeous, sassy, annoying, but down-home, sweet, or innocent was not the case. Never, not with those eyes that raged like a storm or that mouth with those full lips that had him begging for more kisses. Nope, Tim might have been an idiot to see her that way, but she was the furthest thing. Probably didn’t help that he grew up around her so he knew her temper, knew how she was when she drank, and he honestly would suggest not to be around her because she had a vocabulary that would make most grown men blush!“So, what, he thought the image was the most important thing here?” Jake asked, folding his arms over his chest.“To be honest, I’m not totally sure. I mean, Tim was good at dropping pretty lines, but I really thought he cared.” She paused and her eyes focused on the storm outside. “When he asked me to marry him, I really believed he thought we’d make it, especially since he came from a divorced home, you know? That he would only marry for love.” She shook her head and then turned to look at him. “Guess my judgment with men isn’t the best.” Ouch. Did she have to give him those eyes? Okay, yeah, it wasn’t like he was smart in their past. He ran when maybe he shouldn’t have, but it wasn’t like she was a saint either. She could have said something, anything, but chose to remain silent.“A little below the belt, don’t you think Rachel?” She shrugged, her head turning to look out the window again. The snow was piling up, and fast and the clouds that were rolling were a lot darker than just 15 minutes ago. Yeah, he could see this was going to be one hell of a storm and he only hoped that Jay didn’t get all freaked out on him over it. Rachel was right, had they left when he came, they would have been in the middle of this and that would have been a lot worse. At least here, they had means to eat, to stay warm, had light, and each other, even if it was rough and rocky at times.Jake sighed and ran his hands over his face as he leaned his head back. He still had more questions for her, and wanted to know a lot more, but he wasn’t sure how forthcoming she’d be with her answers right now. Not that he could blame her; it wasn’t like he was opening up a lot about his own problems. And hell, he didn’t even tell his best friend much of anything, although Jay did ask if he had any intention of bringing his girlfriend up for the weekend and his short and sweet response was a big hell no. Jake was sure that Jay was able to figure out that something was going on though.“I’m sorry, Jake. That response wasn’t quite directed at you, but you got to admit, it’s not like I have the best run of luck with men. I really thought Tim was different.”“You just know how to pick them.” He crossed his arms a little tighter because the urge to reach over and rub her back in a comforting manner was something he wasn’t used to and wasn’t sure how he felt about it. But he knew he couldn’t do it, not right now with everything still stinging both of them. “Look, Tim was a jerk, no way around it, but not all of your exes are that way.”“What do you even know of them, Jake? Let’s not try to play that we’re friends because we’re not. You often made it a point that you were only my brother’s friend.” Jake smirked as he turned a little more to face her.“However, that didn’t stop you from trying to butt into our business, did it?” Rachel tried to turn away but his gaze captured her and she ended up shrugging.“Look, you can’t blame a younger sister for following her older brother around. You also can’t blame said younger sister for having a crush on her brother’s best friend.” Jake’s smirk became even bigger and he poked her lightly.“You did?” he questioned.“I was like any hot-blooded female in school. You were hot with an ego that was the same damn degree. But that was ages ago and I’m well over it.” Yeah, he could see that, not. He also wouldn’t dare admit that he had a crush on her back in the day, or even still did. Jay would kill him. Well, honestly, Jay would kill him over a lot of things, which is why he kept his mouth shut. This is also why, at times, he tended to keep his distance from this gorgeous woman sitting next to him, he just couldn’t afford to lose his friendship with Jay. And Jay knew Jake pretty fucking well, Jay would only ever assume that Jake was out to fuck Rachel, or to fuck around with her, and truthfully, that wasn’t the case at all. “Anyway, are we done discussing me?”“Far from it, princess.” Rachel rolled her eyes at the name before she sent him a glare.“How many times am I going to have to tell you I hate that name?” she asked and he shrugged.“A lot, cause it won’t stop.” She smacked him with the couch pillow but she did laugh and that was the most important thing. “I say we’re done talking about me for the moment. What about you? What’s going on with that Tanya, Joana…something with an ‘a’ at the end?” And that had Jake freezing up.She watched Jake as he sat there for a few minutes, quiet before he got up to go to the kitchen. He needed space, she knew that, and she was going to give it to him. But she wasn’t going to let the question go without an answer. He had pestered her then she can pester him. He claimed they weren’t friends, but that wasn’t quite true either. They maybe didn’t always confide in each other, but they did talk and they did care about one another, even on a low level. Finally, she got up, tossed the blanket down, and made her way into the kitchen. She crossed her arms as she leaned against the doorway and watched him. He was such a good-looking guy and she often wondered what kept him from having a decent relationship. “What?” he grumbled, causing her to smile. “You don’t scare me, Jake, so the big bad wolf can happily trot his little ass away.” She almost smiled as his lips quirked up at that. “Funny reference because the bi
The silence was loud, buzzing in his ears, and he hated it, always had. But after the question with no comment, not that he needed it; he wasn’t sure what to say. The cabin was sufficient enough to stay for months, it was another home, but it wasn’t done, it wasn’t stayed at for that long because of blizzards or other things, it just wasn’t something anyone had done before. And because it was so secluded and everything was so spotty in service no one stayed more than a couple of days. But if Rachel had every intention of staying longer, that meant she really needed time away and that went just beyond her relationship with Tim. Jake turned his head and looked at her. She sat with her legs curled under her, her elbow resting on the couch, and her head on her hand. It was a peaceful look, but he knew her, and she was probably far from peaceful right now. God damn did he want to ask more, but the look in her eyes when she talked about Tim really drew him up short and he wasn
Rachel let her mind run over Jake’s words again and again as she made their lunch, which she wasn’t even certain why she was being that nice to him. She figured since she was probably making one of their last hot meals, might as well make enough to cover both of them. But, still, he was being an asshole and he didn’t need to be. She also hated, with the biggest passion she could manage, when he acted like that. So, after he tossed those cruel words out, she tossed her blanket on the couch, grabbed her book from the room, and left him to deal with the silence while she stayed at the kitchen table. Or, well that was until about twenty minutes ago when her stomach wouldn’t let her not eat anymore and she was forced to get up and make something. Again, she didn’t have to be nice, but she wasn’t a bitch either. Maybe that was her problem? She had come to the cabin to lick her wounds, to heal from the heartache she was given. And she didn’t get the tim
Jake got up, stormed away from the table, and shook his head. What had he been thinking when he did that? The truth was nothing. Or well, he was. He was thinking about the look he saw on Rachel’s face, how she thought she was odd, and fuck if he didn’t want to change it. He wanted to convince her that she wasn’t odd, that she was beautiful, and that any man would be lucky to have her. So, he kissed her. However, the fucked up part of his mind was also speaking up and he was using all of that as an excuse. He kissed her, in part, because he wanted to. There was no denying that, just like he couldn’t deny that even a simple kiss, like what they shared, got his blood going. And damn it all to hell, he wanted more. But when it came to that woman, he knew better, he always wanted more. He stormed to the living room and ran his hands through his hair as he stared outside. Right now, after something like that, he would love to be outside, taking in
She stared at him, her eyes round; she knew that because she had no clue what she was doing. Well, no, that’s a lie. She knew perfectly well that she wanted to kiss him, and she did. And she figured if she did that then he couldn’t stop her. And he didn’t, which spoke volumes. However, it wasn’t something that should have happened and the look in his own eyes said that. But why, was the question? She really couldn’t believe it was all Jay. She ignored pretty much everything her brother told her anyways about the guys she had been with. She moved back to her side of the couch and grabbed her cell, surprised to see that a text had even made its way in. Out here, that was so uncommon. She opened the screen and saw the message from Jay hoping that she was okay and that Jake was with her. And that to be smart, wait out the storm, and not do anything stupid. Rachel glanced up at the bars, noticed her signal was gone, and that she couldn’t respond. Well, what w
Jake saw the look in her eyes, the hurt, and the anger. And damn did he want to do nothing else but tell her about a promise that a stupid hormonal teenager made to his best friend and then got constantly reminded of it as they grew up. He wanted to open up about a comment that was made by him and a prom date that she had and a wish to take her to prom instead. He wanted to say he knew about the first guy she slept with him and how he punched him a couple of times after school because he wanted to be her first. Yeah, there were a lot of things he wanted to say, but he couldn’t. Why? Because he also promised Jay that that promise would never come up, not any time that Jake was talking to Rachel. And because of that fucking promise, he had to pull away from her. Especially that night because had Jay ever walked in on them; ever seen them in an embrace other than friendly, Jay would have killed him. He had already gotten that run down and he didn’t care to
She closed her eyes as she lay against him, sucking in his warmth and giving him hers. She should have climbed off of him, she knew that. Should have grabbed a blanket and given him that rather than use herself. But she didn’t want to move. She could also feel what being this close was doing to him and she was having her own issues. If she shifted, she could rub against him, but she knew that wouldn’t stop the ache, it would only make it worse. And she was smarter than that; she didn’t need any more issues than she was already having. So, she started to sit up to pull away but his arms locked around her even tighter and she turned to look at him. Rachel watched and smiled as he shook his head slightly. “I don’t want to give up your warmth yet. And even if you move for the blankets, that’s too long and too cold. Just stay here for another moment.” She nodded and laid her head back down and covered him once more. She could feel the change in the cabin, cou
Jake watched as Rachel glanced downward and he knew what she was seeing. But he had no urge to stop or deny it. Those images that flashed through his mind when she was talking were hot as fuck and she knew that. He knew her well enough that she was having problems just like he was. He wouldn’t dare be the ass and let her think she was alone in that department, wanting something that she couldn’t have. So, he gathered up his wits and walked over, knowing what she was doing. Fuck, he even agreed with her, the coldness was bound to help the fire and flames right? Or maybe not given that it was worse knowing she was in the same fucking boat. His hand reached out and cupped her cheek, his thumb running along her cheekbone. Of all the ladies he laid eyes on, this one before him was the one he always found the most beautiful and enchanting, and she didn’t try. That was one of the best features about her. Her face was rounded, her eyes mysterious but capturing, her lips
Jake sat up as well, his brows pulled together in confusion. He wasn’t sure how she got into her head, but she did, and he could feel the moment she pulled away. He wanted to pull her back in his arms, but he knew her well enough, she would just refuse, and it would lead to an argument. And as he watched her pull his shirt on, he wanted to comment on how sexy she looked in his clothes, but he knew that wouldn’t work either. So, with quite the effort, he wrapped the blanket around his bottom half and crossed his arms. “Okay, you have my shirt, what am I going to wear?” She jumped at the sound of his voice, and he knew right away she was far into her head and her thoughts and pulling her out was about impossible, at least for the moment. He was going to have to give her time and that was the one thing he didn’t want to do. The time between them without talking never led to anything good. “Hey,” he softly said as he grabbed her arm lightly and drew her near. “Talk to
She couldn’t say her favorite position had ever been on top because it wasn’t. Not that she didn’t like the control, because she did, what female didn’t, right? But for her, she always felt like it wasn’t good like she failed in pleasing any man this way. But the way Jake stared up at her, the way his eyes roamed over her body, set her own desire skyrocketing. She had never seen him look at her like that, and she loved it. Hell, she wanted a lot more of it. And if that meant that being in this position was going to get looks like that, she would fucking do it all the time. Her nails scored along his shoulders as she rocked her hips slowly, his soft moans making her legs shake even more. She couldn’t say any of her lovers were ever as vocal as Jake, and she had to admit, it was a serious turn-on to her. Not that he needed to cry loudly, or even scream, but his moans, his kisses, and his pinches let her know that he always seemed to enjoy something she did. Even wit
Jake watched as Rachel glanced downward and he knew what she was seeing. But he had no urge to stop or deny it. Those images that flashed through his mind when she was talking were hot as fuck and she knew that. He knew her well enough that she was having problems just like he was. He wouldn’t dare be the ass and let her think she was alone in that department, wanting something that she couldn’t have. So, he gathered up his wits and walked over, knowing what she was doing. Fuck, he even agreed with her, the coldness was bound to help the fire and flames right? Or maybe not given that it was worse knowing she was in the same fucking boat. His hand reached out and cupped her cheek, his thumb running along her cheekbone. Of all the ladies he laid eyes on, this one before him was the one he always found the most beautiful and enchanting, and she didn’t try. That was one of the best features about her. Her face was rounded, her eyes mysterious but capturing, her lips
She closed her eyes as she lay against him, sucking in his warmth and giving him hers. She should have climbed off of him, she knew that. Should have grabbed a blanket and given him that rather than use herself. But she didn’t want to move. She could also feel what being this close was doing to him and she was having her own issues. If she shifted, she could rub against him, but she knew that wouldn’t stop the ache, it would only make it worse. And she was smarter than that; she didn’t need any more issues than she was already having. So, she started to sit up to pull away but his arms locked around her even tighter and she turned to look at him. Rachel watched and smiled as he shook his head slightly. “I don’t want to give up your warmth yet. And even if you move for the blankets, that’s too long and too cold. Just stay here for another moment.” She nodded and laid her head back down and covered him once more. She could feel the change in the cabin, cou
Jake saw the look in her eyes, the hurt, and the anger. And damn did he want to do nothing else but tell her about a promise that a stupid hormonal teenager made to his best friend and then got constantly reminded of it as they grew up. He wanted to open up about a comment that was made by him and a prom date that she had and a wish to take her to prom instead. He wanted to say he knew about the first guy she slept with him and how he punched him a couple of times after school because he wanted to be her first. Yeah, there were a lot of things he wanted to say, but he couldn’t. Why? Because he also promised Jay that that promise would never come up, not any time that Jake was talking to Rachel. And because of that fucking promise, he had to pull away from her. Especially that night because had Jay ever walked in on them; ever seen them in an embrace other than friendly, Jay would have killed him. He had already gotten that run down and he didn’t care to
She stared at him, her eyes round; she knew that because she had no clue what she was doing. Well, no, that’s a lie. She knew perfectly well that she wanted to kiss him, and she did. And she figured if she did that then he couldn’t stop her. And he didn’t, which spoke volumes. However, it wasn’t something that should have happened and the look in his own eyes said that. But why, was the question? She really couldn’t believe it was all Jay. She ignored pretty much everything her brother told her anyways about the guys she had been with. She moved back to her side of the couch and grabbed her cell, surprised to see that a text had even made its way in. Out here, that was so uncommon. She opened the screen and saw the message from Jay hoping that she was okay and that Jake was with her. And that to be smart, wait out the storm, and not do anything stupid. Rachel glanced up at the bars, noticed her signal was gone, and that she couldn’t respond. Well, what w
Jake got up, stormed away from the table, and shook his head. What had he been thinking when he did that? The truth was nothing. Or well, he was. He was thinking about the look he saw on Rachel’s face, how she thought she was odd, and fuck if he didn’t want to change it. He wanted to convince her that she wasn’t odd, that she was beautiful, and that any man would be lucky to have her. So, he kissed her. However, the fucked up part of his mind was also speaking up and he was using all of that as an excuse. He kissed her, in part, because he wanted to. There was no denying that, just like he couldn’t deny that even a simple kiss, like what they shared, got his blood going. And damn it all to hell, he wanted more. But when it came to that woman, he knew better, he always wanted more. He stormed to the living room and ran his hands through his hair as he stared outside. Right now, after something like that, he would love to be outside, taking in
Rachel let her mind run over Jake’s words again and again as she made their lunch, which she wasn’t even certain why she was being that nice to him. She figured since she was probably making one of their last hot meals, might as well make enough to cover both of them. But, still, he was being an asshole and he didn’t need to be. She also hated, with the biggest passion she could manage, when he acted like that. So, after he tossed those cruel words out, she tossed her blanket on the couch, grabbed her book from the room, and left him to deal with the silence while she stayed at the kitchen table. Or, well that was until about twenty minutes ago when her stomach wouldn’t let her not eat anymore and she was forced to get up and make something. Again, she didn’t have to be nice, but she wasn’t a bitch either. Maybe that was her problem? She had come to the cabin to lick her wounds, to heal from the heartache she was given. And she didn’t get the tim
The silence was loud, buzzing in his ears, and he hated it, always had. But after the question with no comment, not that he needed it; he wasn’t sure what to say. The cabin was sufficient enough to stay for months, it was another home, but it wasn’t done, it wasn’t stayed at for that long because of blizzards or other things, it just wasn’t something anyone had done before. And because it was so secluded and everything was so spotty in service no one stayed more than a couple of days. But if Rachel had every intention of staying longer, that meant she really needed time away and that went just beyond her relationship with Tim. Jake turned his head and looked at her. She sat with her legs curled under her, her elbow resting on the couch, and her head on her hand. It was a peaceful look, but he knew her, and she was probably far from peaceful right now. God damn did he want to ask more, but the look in her eyes when she talked about Tim really drew him up short and he wasn