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14 An Old Wound
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Trained Not To Love You   15 Memory Lane
Ronan.I opened my dresser, searching for my cufflinks. The new maid assigned to me was barely any help. I couldn't help but think of Camila. She was so young, yet she took it upon herself to learn my routine perfectly. Camila made sure I never had to search for anything. She always put things exactly where I would find them. I could say she spoilt me.As these thoughts ran through my mind, my hand brushed against a book in the dresser. It was the last novel Camila had borrowed to read. I always let her read on my balcony. Once she left my room, her work wouldn't give her any time to relax. Allowing her to read there was my small way of giving her a break.A wave of emotions hit me. I felt a pang of nostalgia and sadness. I had grown fond of her. Camila's presence had become a comforting routine. Yet, her mother had to ruin everything.I would be lying if I said I didn't miss Camila. If things were different, I would have taken her to my house to work for me. But given what happened,
Trained Not To Love You   16 A Shock
Ronan.I felt a whirlwind of emotions—shock, anger, confusion, and a deep sense of betrayal. My world had just been turned upside down, and I could barely keep up with the revelations."And Camila?" I asked, trying to grasp what they had done."She has agreed to raise the girl as her nanny," he said, and I was in shock."Agreed or had no choice?" I pressed."She understood it was the best option for Katya. She was willing to sacrifice so Katya would have a good life. If people knew Katya's mother was a Belvarian, Katya would be a slave, too. We can't allow our granddaughter to live like that," he said. I buried my head in my hands, finally understanding their reason. No wonder Camila's eyes looked so haunted and distant. She had been carrying such a heavy burden."I wanted to speak to you about it, but you weren't returning my calls or responding to my letters," my father said, and I felt like a jerk for avoiding them.My father reached into his drawer and brought out a photograph. He
Trained Not To Love You   17 Time To Go
Ronan.I tossed and turned most of the night, unable to find peace. My heart raced so fast it felt like I was having an anxiety attack. This wasn't a typical situation, and there was no guide on how to be a father, especially not for someone in my position. I was eager to meet my daughter but also dreaded the days ahead. Having her biological mother raise her as a nanny would be difficult, but it was necessary to ensure Katya would be free. Most children born to Belvarian women, regardless of their fathers, were born as slaves. I couldn't condemn Katya to that fate. The image in the photograph stayed burned in my memory, keeping me up all night.Morning came, and it was time for me to leave. Glenda served breakfast, her puffy eyes showing she had been crying. I was glad to take Camila away from her before she completely ruined her with her antics. I just hoped Camila hadn't picked up too many of her traits.Belvarians had a reputation for being wicked people. They deserved to be
Trained Not To Love You   18 Awkward
CamilaI felt so out of place sitting in the back with Master Ronan. I wished he had let me sit in the front seat, but now I was nervous about doing something that might upset him. Though I appreciated his offer, my interest had faded. Since he left, I lost my passion for books, and TV was no better. The channels were always filled with stories about how evil my people were, with movies highlighting the terrible crimes my government committed. A government I never knew. It felt like they wanted to make sure no one ever forgot. The only thing I looked forward to was holding Katya in my arms and caring for her, even if I would just be her nanny. It didn't really matter because I knew she would have a good life.We finally arrived at a small estate. It was grand, though not as grand as General Sergey's. I got out of the car and went to get my bag from the trunk, knowing the driver wouldn't help me. As I carried my bag, a young woman, slightly older than me rushed out of the house an
Trained Not To Love You   19 A Storm Of Emotions
CamilaMy heart felt like it was in a storm, filled with so many emotions all at once. Relief, gratitude, and a bit of hope swirled inside me. The room seemed to shimmer with the weight of what he had just told me. For the first time in a long while, I felt a small glimmer of happiness."Thank you," I whispered, my voice barely audible. He gave me a small, reassuring smile, and I felt a sense of comfort.And soon, the sobs came. He moved close to me and held me in his arms. His embrace was warm and reassuring, something I hadn't felt in so long."I'm sorry, Camila. I should have been there," he apologized, and I wondered why he was sorry. He, too, was a victim in this. Whoever drugged our drinks had ruined both our lives, but despite everything, I was grateful for the blessing that came from it."I know how things are. But you will be free in my house," he promised me. His words filled me with a deep sense of gratitude and a glimmer of hope."Thank you, Sir. Thank you," I said and p
Trained Not To Love You   20 It Just Might Be Fine
CamilaI wanted to speak up and thank Ronan for standing up for me, but I didn't dare. Instead, I focused on the joy of knowing that Katya would be close. The thought of being part of her life, even as her nanny, was a beacon of hope in the storm of uncertainty."I can take care of your daughter," Arya said, but Ronan shook his head firmly."No need. I'm sure Camila will do a good job," he replied, already turning to leave."You should have come home so we could discuss this first," she insisted."I can send you back to Kivastan if you don't like my arrangement. Katya and Camila aren't up for discussion, period," he said, walking out of the room with Arya following behind him. Seeing how he stood up for me and Katya, I felt a surge of relief. Maybe, just maybe, we would be safe here. I looked around the room, taking in its beauty. This wasn't a room for a worker; it was meant for a guest. Why had Ronan given me such a nice room? I prayed silently, hoping this wouldn't end badly.I
Trained Not To Love You   21 Not Up For Debate
RonanArya's behaviour from the moment she first saw Camila deeply troubled me. I never expected her to be so cruel and filled with hatred. It frustrated me immensely. Despite the difficult circumstances, I was determined to protect what little innocence Camila had left. She carried such a heavy burden, unfairly inherited through life's harshness. When I brought her into my home, I hoped it would become a sanctuary where she could rediscover the happiness and hope she once knew. But Arya seemed intent on crushing any chance of that. I wondered if I had to endure Arya's hostility, even though I wasn't married to her.Though I hadn't yet met Katya, my daughter, I wanted her to grow up in a nurturing environment of balance and peace. I knew the prejudices against children born to Belvarian slaves in Jorvik, and I vowed never to subject Katya to such mistreatment. She deserved nothing less than respect, dignity, love, and a secure home — things my parents had begun to provide, but I
Trained Not To Love You   22 Rethinking Things
RonanWe arrived at the bar where my friends were gathered. Everyone was there except Lucas, who was getting married to Leah. He had always liked her, which explained why he didn't attend my bachelor party. I guess what Glenda did worked out for him. Every time Glenda crossed my mind, a surge of rage filled me, but I knew I had to let it go for the sake of Katya and Camila.My friends seemed to like Arya. They were happy that I had moved on, but I felt a deep emptiness when we talked and interacted. There was a hole in my heart that nothing seemed to fill. That void had been there since Leah called off the wedding, and even my time with Arya couldn't mend it.It was a sad reality. I didn't want to linger at the club, so I told Arya we should go home. She didn't argue, and for that, I was grateful. She had always been pleasant and understanding until today. Her meanness toward Camila was unexpected and hurtful.I wouldn't lie; any woman would be intimidated by Camila. Despite t
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