Camila
While Master Ronan was away, Mira visited often to see if he had returned. No one knew where he had gone, so she had no choice but to keep checking. It was clear that Mira cared deeply for both her sister and Ronan.
Seeing her concern made me feel even worse about the situation.
I hated whoever was responsible for this mess, and knowing that I had been used to ruin something potentially beautiful was heart-wrenching.
Days turned into weeks, and still, Ronan did not come back. The house felt empty without him.
Every day, I would glance at the main house from the garden, hoping to catch a glimpse of him returning. But he never did. Instead, the silence around the estate grew heavier, and the guilt inside me weighed me down even more.
Mira's visits became a routine. Each time she came, I would watch her from a distance, feeling a mix of envy and sorrow. She moved with a sense of purpose, determined to fix things, while I felt helpless and trapped in my guilt.
The days were long and filled with hard work, but my thoughts were always with Ronan. I replayed the events of that fateful night over and over in my mind, wishing I could go back and change things. The regret was a constant ache, a reminder of my role in the tragedy that had unfolded.
The garden became my refuge, a place where I could escape the harsh reality of my situation. I found solace in the simple tasks, the rhythm of planting and tending to the plants providing a small measure of peace. But even in the quiet moments, the sadness and guilt were never far away.
Every evening, as the sun set and the shadows grew long, I would stand at the edge of the garden, looking toward the main house.
The hope that Ronan might return one day kept me going, but with each passing day, that hope grew dimmer. The emptiness in the house mirrored the emptiness in my heart, and I wondered if things would ever be the same again.
I suddenly realised just how important he was, even though I was afraid to admit it. The truth was, I missed him.
Madam Melania's harsh words echoed in my mind, accusing me of everything that had gone wrong. I couldn't argue with her because I felt responsible. If only I had been more careful. If only I had not lingered in that room.
The worst part came a few weeks after Ronan left when I discovered I was pregnant. Fear gripped me, and I didn't know what to do.
I knew my baby wouldn't be accepted; it was considered an abomination. When I told my mother about my missed period, she panicked.
She wanted to suggest that we run away, but we both knew we were safer at the mercy of the Morozovs than facing the unknown world outside.
I decided to keep it a secret for as long as possible, but I knew I would eventually have to tell them.
Every day, questions troubled my mind. What would happen to me once I started showing? How would they react?
There was no guarantee it would be good, and all the joy left my heart.
All this pain and sorrow for a mistake I didn't knowingly commit. The fact that I wasn't working in the main house had bought me some time, but how long could I hide it?
I knew Ronan and the Morosovs wouldn't want a child from me. It was a mess, and the uncertainty was unbearable.
I spent my days in the garden, trying to find some peace in the simple tasks. But every moment was filled with fear and anxiety about the future.
The garden, once a place of solace, now felt like a prison where I hid my growing belly. Each day, I worried that someone would notice, that my secret would be discovered.
My mother tried to comfort me, but I could see the fear in her eyes, too. She knew as well as I did that our lives could change dramatically once the truth came out.
We whispered our worries late at night, hoping no one would overhear. The weight of the secret pressed down on us, making every day a struggle.
I was tending to the tomatoes in the garden when Mira approached me. It had been ten weeks since the incident.
I knew because I had been counting each agonising day. I wondered how long it would take for my world to crumble when I started showing, and they figured it out. How long until the crushing weight of guilt that shadowed me would finally lift?
I was lost in these thoughts, carefully working on the tomato bushes, when Mira stormed over.
"Bitch! With all your scheming, look where you are.
I am sure Ronan left this place because of you. You will never be anything to him. You are nothing, you hear? A bloody slave, spoils of war. How dare you ruin my sister's happiness…" she yelled, her voice slicing through the peaceful garden air.
What had come over her? I guess Ronan, being missing in action, finally got to her, but why?
Whose frustration was she mirroring hers or her sisters? If Leah truly cared for Ronan, she would have heard him out and forgave him instead of calling off the wedding and shutting him off.
I decided to respond since we were outside, and everyone could hear us.
"You are right. I will never be anything to him. I never planned to be. Knowing he isn't home, you should be busy talking some sense into your sister to take her man back instead of visiting here daily. Now, if you will excuse me, I have work to do," I said, trying to stay calm and ignore her attempts to provoke me.
I had bigger issues on of which was growing inside me.
Mira glared at me, her face twisted in anger, but she knew she couldn't make me do anything rash, so she stormed away. My encounter with her left me shaken.
Leah came from another powerful family, just as influential as the Morozovs. What if her family, the Semenovs, demanded retribution from me? They wouldn't care that it wasn't intentional.
I placed my hand on my lower belly and squeezed, a wave of despair washing over me. I wished I hadn't been born; I wished I wasn't Belvarian.
If only I had been born somewhere else, maybe none of this would have happened. The pain in my heart was almost unbearable, and I felt utterly alone in this cruel world.
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Camila Mirabel was the one who eventually told on me. She had seen me bringing in some farm tools during a heavy rainstorm. My clothes were soaked, and the small bump on my belly was visible through my shirt because it stuck to my body due to the wetness from the rain. It was exactly five months after the incident. That evening, a servant came to summon my mother and me. I had a sinking feeling that my time was up. I put on an oversized shirt and trousers, trying to hide my growing belly, and walked towards the main house with my mother. I hadn't been there since I was banned, and I never thought I would be allowed back in again. As we entered the house, I noticed the scornful looks from the other servants. Their eyes were filled with disdain and curiosity. What had happened to make them look at me like this? I remembered a time when my mother and I lived in peace before all this chaos. Now, I felt like a curse to her. My heart ached with guilt and shame. Maybe it was time for
CamilaMy heart pounded in my chest, and every word I spoke felt like a plea for my very existence. The weight of the situation pressed down on me, making it hard to breathe. I glanced at my mother, her face a mixture of fear and sorrow. She didn't deserve this. None of this was her fault. My eyes stung with unshed tears, but I held them back, knowing that crying wouldn't help now.General Sergey remained silent, his expression unreadable. The tension in the room was thick, and I could feel everyone's eyes on me, judging, accusing. The fear of what might come next was almost unbearable. I felt like I was on the edge of a cliff, about to be pushed off. My future was in their hands, and I could only hope for mercy.Madam Melania's harsh words echoed in my mind. I knew the stakes were high, but all I wanted was a chance to make things right, to protect my mother and to find some small shred of dignity for myself. My heart ached with the weight of what was happening to me, but I stood
CamilaOne year later, I had a daughter named Katya, a name given by Madam Melania. I was allowed into the house, and Melania wasn't as unkind to me as she had been when the matter was still fresh. She was happy when my baby came with dark hair and eyes like her father. Her first words when she held Katya in her arms were, "We can hide her Belvarian roots."There was no doubt my daughter would be loved, but it hurt me deeply that she wouldn't know me as her mother. It was bittersweet. Seeing the love and care the Morozovs showed for her made it a little easier. I told myself it was okay, that this was for the best. I nursed Katya as her nanny. Just as General Sergey had promised, when the time came, my daughter was carried away. It was supposed to be for a year, but Melania insisted it be only for eight months so she could return sooner. General Sergey explained that he hadn't been able to reach Ronan because he had been conscripted to head a battalion overseas. He assured me that R
CamilaMy heart continued to beat fast with anticipation and fear. I wondered if Ronan knew about Katya. Was that why he came? Had his father summoned him? What would he do? How would he react? The questions swirled through my mind, and I dared not approach him. I pretended to be calm while I waited.I soon learned he was only visiting. He had moved into the villa he had bought to share with Leah when he returned from overseas. It must have been lonely living there, but that was his way of moving on. I wondered if he was still mad about what happened.Seeing him brought back so many memories. I remembered the times of innocent moments with him when I served him. He was gentle and kind. I never saw his military side, and I was always relaxed around him. He was a good master. I remembered the morning that changed everything, and the weight of my secret felt heavier than ever. My heart ached with the longing to tell him about Katya, to explain everything, but I knew I couldn't. It w
RonanReturning to my father's house after nearly two years filled me with a deep sense of nostalgia and a mix of other emotions I couldn't quite name. The memories came rushing back, each corner of the house whispering tales of my past. I had left the country two months after that terrible incident, never intending to look back. But my father, ever the determined figure, found a way to bring me back to Jorvik headquarters. I knew my mother had a hand in this, too; it was just like her to meddle when I refused to speak to them. My father's attempts to reach out to me over the past year had been relentless. Each call and message went unanswered. I couldn't bear to talk about Leah or the Semenovs. I had tried so hard to bury the past and move on, leaving it all behind me.During my time in Kivastan, I met a young woman in the medical department. She was kind and attentive, tending to my gunshot wound with such care that I couldn't help but be drawn to her. The war raged on around us,
Ronan"How was your time in Kavistan?" my mother asked as we sat down for lunch on my second day back.When I arrived, my father had mentioned wanting to discuss something serious with me, but I wasn't ready for that yet. I was grateful they had respected my wishes. I planned to have that talk with them this evening because I intended to return home tomorrow. Arya was waiting for me, and I had promised her I wouldn't be gone long. I hadn't introduced her to my parents yet, but that would happen soon."It was challenging," I replied, thinking about the battles with terrorist groups. My eyes drifted toward Glenda, who was standing by the door, waiting to take our orders. I still didn't trust her, and seeing her so close to our food made me uneasy."When did Glenda start handling food service?" I asked as I cut into my steak."Mirabel is ill, so Glenda is filling in for her. Is there a problem?" my mother asked. I shook my head, knowing she would do anything to make me comfortable. Stil
Ronan.I opened my dresser, searching for my cufflinks. The new maid assigned to me was barely any help. I couldn't help but think of Camila. She was so young, yet she took it upon herself to learn my routine perfectly. Camila made sure I never had to search for anything. She always put things exactly where I would find them. I could say she spoilt me.As these thoughts ran through my mind, my hand brushed against a book in the dresser. It was the last novel Camila had borrowed to read. I always let her read on my balcony. Once she left my room, her work wouldn't give her any time to relax. Allowing her to read there was my small way of giving her a break.A wave of emotions hit me. I felt a pang of nostalgia and sadness. I had grown fond of her. Camila's presence had become a comforting routine. Yet, her mother had to ruin everything.I would be lying if I said I didn't miss Camila. If things were different, I would have taken her to my house to work for me. But given what happened,
Ronan.I felt a whirlwind of emotions—shock, anger, confusion, and a deep sense of betrayal. My world had just been turned upside down, and I could barely keep up with the revelations."And Camila?" I asked, trying to grasp what they had done."She has agreed to raise the girl as her nanny," he said, and I was in shock."Agreed or had no choice?" I pressed."She understood it was the best option for Katya. She was willing to sacrifice so Katya would have a good life. If people knew Katya's mother was a Belvarian, Katya would be a slave, too. We can't allow our granddaughter to live like that," he said. I buried my head in my hands, finally understanding their reason. No wonder Camila's eyes looked so haunted and distant. She had been carrying such a heavy burden."I wanted to speak to you about it, but you weren't returning my calls or responding to my letters," my father said, and I felt like a jerk for avoiding them.My father reached into his drawer and brought out a photograph. He