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Chapter 20: S A U D A D E
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(Portuguese) (n.) a nostalgic longing to be near again to something or someone that is distant, or that has been loved and then lost; "the love that remains"
"Mark, stop running! I told you, no running once we arrive."
Just then, the front door burst open with Eunha walking inside the house. A little boy running and leaping by her side excitedly and looking so pumped up.
"Sorry, grandma," The little boy said sheepishly. He scanned the house and quickly ran towards them, rendering Yunoh stupefied. "Mommy!"
And just then, the world seemed to stop.
"I missed you, mommy!" The little boy continued to chirp. He even jumped into Eunae's arms excitedly.
"Oh sweetie, mommy missed you too. Were you with grandma all along?"
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