Chapter Four

Oh my gosh! This is insane! I remembered humiliating myself in front at the bar of that man, Rainier Hilario! Only knowing that he is Jaira’s older brother and I just kicked his fucking ass last time! Oh, God. What should I do now? I’m pretty sure that the moment he founds out that I will be the one who he’s going to marry, he will remember what I did to him at the bar.

What did I even do to my past life to deserve all of this? Instead of focusing to my studies, I’m wasting all my time about this shit. Ah, damn. What should I do now? I don’t want to marry that man! I also tried to seduce him before kicking his ass and I told him that he broke my best friend’s heart! What if he will also found out that the best friend that I was talking about was his sister? That will be more embarrassing to my part!

“What happened to your face, Andri? You looked more stressed than earlier,” Mom asked me. I glared at her. “This is all because of that idea that I’m going to marry that kind of man!” I shouted. I can’t control my feelings anymore. I just can’t believe that I’m going to marry that man. He will going to be my husband? For real? I don’t want to be registered as his wife, damn it.

“We already talked about that, right? I thought you’re now okay with that idea. Besides, Rainier is a fine guy. He’s masculine, handsome, and popular. Don’t you want a man like that to marry you?” Mom answered to me. I rolled my eyes after hearing what she said.

“Mom, are you freaking serious about that? I guess you still don’t know what kind of man is he. Jaira told me that Rainier is her older brother. You know Jaira, right? She’s my best friend—“

Mom cut me off. “Then that’s great! You’re already close to his sister. I bet she’s so happy to hear the news about you marrying his brother!” she said while clapping her hands as if this is the happiest moment of her life. But to me, it’s not!

“She’s not okay with the idea too! She’s totally disagreeing with this. Why? Because she knows that her brother is a popular womanizer! Do you want me to marry a guy like that? And also, I saw it with my two eyes. I saw how dirty that man was. I don’t want to marry him! No! Never! Find a much better man rather than that guy, Rainier Hilario.”

How I wish my Mom can understand me. I’m hoping that she would understand me because she’s also a woman. I’m hoping that she would at least have a concern to me since they will going to marry me off sooner or later. But who am I kidding? Myself.

“Andricia, if he’s that kind of man I’m a hundred percent sure that he will change after meeting you in person. You’re such a beautiful angel. No man can resist you. Once you tell him to stop meeting other woman because you guys will going to marry soon, I’m sure that he will be good to you and he will obey your commands.”

I sighed in disbelief. I don’t know what to say anymore to my Mom. She all cares for money and not to me. They all just care about the money. They doesn’t care even if I’m going to suffer in the future because of their decisions for me. I even can’t decide for my own. They are taking my rights and my life away from me. This is so unfair. Life is so unfair.

I just went up to my room and cried there. I don’t usually cry, but today I can’t handle it anymore. My heart is full of hatred right now towards my parents. I sometimes think that they don’t want me to be happy. They don’t support my happiness. They just think about themselves. How I wish I wasn’t born to be their child. What’s the use of being born to a rich family? If they will just control your life even if you’re already in the right age to decide for your own. Not everyone is lucky to be born in a rich family. Because in reality, you won’t get the real happiness that you want.

I’m not attending classes as days goes by. I just locked myself inside my room for days. I’m also not eating nor drinking a glass of water. It’s like… I’m killing myself to death. But Dad tries to open up my door. That scared the shit out of me.

“Andricia! Open this damn door now! Or else, I will fucking break this!” my Dad shouted.

I immediately opened the door. I thought I was going to faint, because I haven't eaten for a few days. Thank God, Dad immediately supported me to prevent from falling to the floor.

“See? You’re about to faint! Eat your food now and regain your energy. Andricia, even if you do this kind of rebellion against me, it will not work. Even if you try to kill yourself, it will not work on me. You will still marry Rainier Hilario. Do you understand that? You’ll just making me more mad because of what you’re doing.”

I sighed again and just nod my head. I can’t even speak. I don’t want to argue to them anymore. I know that I don’t have the power in this household. I’ll just obey what they want me to do.

But I’ll do my best to make Rainier mad at me. I won’t be a good wife to him either when we get married. That’ll be my revenge for my parents and to Rainier. I’ll do everything for him to divorce me.