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Chapter 30: It doesn't really matter
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2021-12-01 23:20:14I thought this day is ought to end in the worst way possible.
The same way how my 15th birthday end.
On the night of my 15th birthday, it was the first time the world fell on me.
That’s when I saw my parents and their happy family of four cheerfully walking through the thick white snow. The day I have accepted that I was indeed alone in this massive lonely world.
And now, my world fell apart the second time when Shaun refused me. The very first person I want to spend this day with.
First, he rejected my request.
I couldn’t even have the chance to force him, he refused my request just like that. He didn’t even hesitate to say no. He didn’t flinch, even just a little.
Second, Grey confused the hell out of me. He made me out of my wits. He said these weird things to me, as if saying Shaun is a beast, a lycanthrope perhaps. Like that would even be possible, right?
He keeps on aski
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