BLAZE WILLIAMS
I spent my entire day ignoring my dad’s call. Now that I was only a few steps from our table, a certain lady joined them. Sally. In that moment, I regretted most of my life choices especially the ones from last night. I stopped halfway. I thought of turning around and leaving. I was this close to doing it. Sally, got a hug from my dad and I slipped behind a couple to hide myself from his sight. “How is that possible? You should have options for vegetarians?” The man blocking my path was saying to the waitress. She looked stressed but the man’s wife, a woman with light purple bangs looked even more stressed. She was leaning on her husband and he rubbed the back of her hands each passing second. He also found the time to pat her back occasionally. She was quiet while her husband did all the talking for her. “There are options for vegetarians and we’ve showed them to you—” The waitress's voice was shaky. It was easy for the man to cut her short. “Options that aren't inclusive enough. You need to…” I forced myself to stop paying attention to their conversation. Stepping to the side, I watched Sally whisper something to the other woman at the table. Dad’s fiance. I had to walk out of the restaurant for a minute. What kind of mess have I gotten myself into this time? First off, I was proud that I remembered her name from last night. It was as good as impossible for me to recall a name from a one-night stand. Secondly, just because I could remember the name didn't mean I wanted to see her again. And at a family dinner! I paced outside for a minute. My mind was shifting between the scattered sea of bodies moving around the beach, and the predicament I had to face inside. There was only one possibility. Sally knew either my dad or his finance. Whatever one it was, I hoped she would not blurt what happened last night to any of them. I paused as a new theory rose in my mind. If I was right, then everything could spiral down in seconds. It made me spin on my heels and march to that table. The closer I got, the more worried I became. My biggest fear being that Sally had gotten information about me. She knew who I was, how wealthy my family was and now she was at my father’s table. She was selling herself to him as my bride and knowing dad, he would eat that shit up. I didn't expect Sally to be one of the crazy girls but for the right amount of money, everyone could be. I mean look at Marcy. “Hi, dad. Hi, guys.” I greeted everyone and focused on her. “Hi, Sally. What are you doing here?” “Sally?” The lady at the table questioned, looking between me and Sally. I guessed she was dad’s fiance. She looked like she was roughly in her forties, around the same age as my dad. Sally on the other hand… Dad sat up, pinning his questioning glare at me. “Do you know eachother?” he asked. Sally shook her head and that restructured my brain. Here I was thinking she was introducing herself to my dad and his soon-to-be-wife. “I think he has me mixed up with someone,” Sally said. “Don’t make me look stupid, Sally,” I said. I wanted to let things die a natural death but she was making me look foolish. I was a lot of things but stupid was never making that list even in a million years to come. The table was round shaped and they were seated in this order; dad, soon-to-be-wife and Sally. “If you’ve met me before, you would know my name is Sabrina and not Sally.” She finished talking and looked away. I wasn't backing down. Sally, Sabrina. They all sounded like the same damn thing. What if I mixed it up? It didn't dispute the truth that she was here, with my dad, talking about only god knows what. “So what are you doing here?” My dad got up after that. There was no time to process the hurt that had so quickly flashed through her eyes when she looked at me again. “I called you countless times and you didn't pick. We were having a peaceful dinner without you but once you show up, everything crumbles. Is this how to introduce yourself to our guests?” Guests? “What do you...” An unsettling feeling carved its way into my insides. I didn't see it before but the resemblance between Sabrina and the other lady was unmistakable. They had the same shade of blonde, ones facial features younger and less wrinkled than the other. They were sisters, just of different generations… “I’m sorry, my love,” Dad said as he pushed some strands of hair from his fiance’s face so he could kiss her cheek. “This is my son,” dad gestured to me, “Blaze Williams. He’s a pain in the ass but he’s never embarrassed me this bad before.” He was smiling but when he turned back to me, his grim expression was back. “Blaze this is Caroline Morales, my fiance and this is her daughter, Sabrina Morales.” “You…” I coughed and cleared my throat. Shame was wrapping her hands around me. I had never wanted to disappear so bad. “You didn't tell me about her daughter,” I said, my voice barely louder than a whisper. “How would I tell you if you never answer your damn phone?” Dad scolded me. He shook his head. He had said I embarrassed him. I agree. I have never wanted the ground to swallow me as I do now. Sabrina got up. She avoided my eyes so much. “I need to use the rest room. Mum. Jo.” She acknowledged everyone on the table and skipped me. I couldn’t blame her if she hated me. I would hate myself too if I wasn't Blaze Williams. Sabrina walked away leaving me with my dad and my stepmother. I never thought I would say that. Ever. Though dad and mum divorced when I was still young, remarrying was never in his books. I guess he couldn't find the time between all those custody battles for me. “Blaze, are you going to take a seat?” Caroline asked. She smiled warmly at me and her smile was so bright and wide the veins in her neck popped out a little. She looked…nice, kind. She had a softness nestled in the brown orbs of her eyes. Her blonde hair, delicate and almost wispy, fell to her shoulders and swayed softly in the salty air swirling through the park. “Yes.” I dragged out a seat and took her invitation to sit. I wanted to cross this room and check on Sabrina. Somehow I knew she was crying her eyes out or giving herself a pep talk. It was what girls did in their rest rooms. And if she was doing either of them, then it would be all my fault. “I’m sorry about my entrance.” Caroline waved it away so easily. “It was nothing. Your dad says a lot about you, Blaze.” “Really?” I leaned back so I could see my dad’s face. He was silencing his phone and setting it aside on the table. It made me wonder how many missed calls mum had given him. Did she know about his plan to remarry? That would drive her nuts. “Actually, no,” Caroline confessed before she placed her fingers over her mouth as the laughter spilled out. Thinking about mum blowing dad’s line right now made me chuckle. It looked like I was laughing with Caroline at what she had said. I went on with the act. Caro seemed friendly. Whoever my dad wanted to marry was on him. I was going to wish them both well. Hopefully, dad would be so busy planning his wedding he would forget about me for a moment. And if they could have more children, that will be amazing. But everything was funny because I knew mum and I knew dad. Mum was a handful and Caroline didn't look like someone who could hand a handful. She probably knew little to nothing about the crazy woman who is my mum and dad’s ex-wife. Now that was funny. “If we weren't related, this man would have given me up for adoption.” Caroline gasped at my words as she steadied her fingers against her chest. As though what I said hurt her, she massaged her heart. “Oh, come on, don’t say that. Your dad would never give you away. Right, Jo?” Dad in the middle of the conversation decided to play it safe and shrug. “Baby!” Caro scolded. She was adorable and she made dad adorable too. Dad was laughing when he tried to reply her. “I mean, at least he knows his father.” “Oh my god, guys!” Caroline covered her eyes as she shook her head. “I can't believe this. Do you know how close Sab and I are? And how close I was with the other Sabrina who was my mother?” I glanced in the direction where Sabrina had disappeared. She was still not on her way back to the table. “You named your daughter after your mum?” I asked Caroline, keeping the conversation going. Talking to Caroline was more fun than talking to my dad was. I found myself sitting up and waiting for her answer. “Late mum, and yeah.” She said it and smiled softly. “My mum and I were soul sisters and then she passed away rather early. When I had Sabrina, it felt like looking at my mum’s face again.” Dad silently comforted her. He wrapped an arm around her shoulder. I felt the need to sympathize with her too. “I’m sorry for your loss.” She blinked the grief away. “Thank you. I think we're going to have a good relationship, you and I,” Caroline said to me. “What do you think?” She asked me enthusiastically. I sighed audibly. “Well it depends on what’s in it for me.” “What pact should we make?” “If I ever gossip about my dad or make snide comments of him to you, you can't tell him.” Dad started laughing. It started as a slow rumble until he was coughing and Caro was patting his back. She chuckled too with tears pooling in her eyes as she sealed the pact with me. “Deal.”SABRINA MORALES Sally! He called me Sally! I swear I could not believe it. Was I angry or did I just find it funny? And if I was angry, could I also be hurt? Were my emotions valid? I mean, Blaze was just a man from a one-night stand. And he did warn me. All the jokes he made about having him for the night weren't just some bad boy jokes. He was who he said he was. A whore with a brain that didn't have space big enough to hold my name for twelve hours. I griped the sink and stared down at the white surface. I had to stop myself from feeling this way. Every emotion rushed at me. Each one felt stronger than the last. I wasn't meant to be feel this way. I asked myself what I was expecting. I was the one who sneaked out of his room this morning when I connected the dots. Now I was mad over him forgetting my name. I turned on the water and placed my hand under it. My finger was missing my engagement ring. I had locked it away in
SABRINA MORALES “Alex?” Mum’s confused question hung in the air. She narrowed her eyes at him. She eyed the flowers, surprised to see him. That made two of us. “Alex what are you doing here?” I sat up. “Who is this guy?” Blaze asked me. He lacked patience so he shifted on his chair and asked Alex. “Who are you?” His tone held suspicion. He had a guess of who Alex was. And he was right. Alex held my eyes. He softened his gaze hoping it would do something to me. “I’m Alex Bailey. Sabrina’s fiance.” Alex held his chin up and spoke with pride. “Hi, mum.” He said, turning to my mum. Jo looked around, well aware of the stale energy radiating off everyone. Blaze stood up in one movement just as mum looked away. Her shoulders fell. She was disappointed in the one she once called her son. “I don’t care who you say you are,” Blaze stated clearly. “But it doesn't seem like you’re welcome here.” “And who are you?” Alex laughed, mocking Blaze. Alex thought Blaz
BLAZE WILLIAMS Caroline drew her lips into a thin line. She was struggling to stay in her seat. She looked at dad who held her hands under the table. “Do you think I should go after her?” Caroline asked anyone who cared to listen. She looked to dad for an answer. I beat him to it. “It’s better if we respect her wishes,” I said to Sabrina’s mother. Alex had called her mum. It made me wonder how close they had gotten. Sabrina must have felt entirely safe with him only for him to hurt her the way he did. “Yeah. Blaze is right,” dad spoke with maturity. “These kids are adult and there’s nothing they hate more than being treated as kids. She asked for space, let her have it. Maybe send a text letting her know you’re here for her.” Dad agreed with me. That wasn’t something that happened a lot. Caroline finally listened to us. She clutched her phone and typed a message to her daughter. Dad poured wine into three empty cups. He skipped the fourth one which was
SABRINA MORALES I was curled up on my bed when the resort landline vibrated on the bedside table. The sound went off. I blocked my ears with my pillow. It wasn't enough to drown the noise away. I grumbled. “Ughhhh! Can I be left alone for a minute?” I cried out to the walls of my room. I was able to ignore the call once. Barely a minute later it was ringing again. I hissed and stretched for it. “Hello?” I shifted to the edge of the bed. I remained curled and my voice came out shushed thanks to the pillow beside me. “Good evening, miss. Blaze Williams is asking to come up to your room. Should I send him up?” The name alerted me. I instantly sat up. My head threatened to fall because of the speed. “Blaze Williams?” I asked in case I heard wrongly. “Yes, miss,” the voice at the other end said again. It was a female and her tone was professional and clipped. “Send him in,” I said at once. Filled with a newfound energy, I rose from the bed and threw my
BLAZE WILLIAMS The shower was turned on. From the room, the splashing of water was somewhat audible. But nothing was more loud than Mum’s voice. “He sure knows how to be a pain in the ass,” Mum said over the phone. She hissed loudly. I was holding my phone to my ears. I forced myself to stay interested in the conversation. But all I wanted to do was join Sabrina in the shower. “Maybe he’s not ready to tell you because he's worried you will make a scene,” I explained. Mum was good at seeing things from a wrong perspective. She always did this when it had to do with dad. “Which proves how full of himself he is,” mum replied wryly. “Why on earth would I do something like that? I'm not the evil ex who promises to make sure you're never happy again,” Mum spat out before she hissed. I dragged my body down. My back was resting against the pile of pillows behind me. I was still on the bed. I could laugh at mum’s words because she was more of the bitter ex than anythin
SABRINA MORALES Mum waved at me and I walked up to where she was. She pointed to where her bags were. I could also see Blaze and Jo standing there. The ship was going to board soon and people were huddling around at the cruise terminal, waiting to get checked. “Good morning, love,” mum said as she hugged me. Our pullovers pressed into one another, making us feel heavier. Still I wanted to keep hugging mum. I sighed when we had to pull away. Mum was smiling at me, a little worried. “Are you good?” She asked, rubbing my shoulder. “Especially after what Alex did,” mum finished in a careful voice. I smiled in appreciation. It must have killed her to not check on me last night. It was a good thing she didn't. Guess what she would have found? Blaze in my room, me on my dresser and our asses out in the open. “I’m good,” I said to mum. I bit back my smile and repeated it for me. “I’m good. Are you ready?” I asked mum. Mum hesitated before she said something. “Y
BLAZE WILLIAMS Lunch was served barely an hour after we were shown our room. A large buffet on a room service cart was wheeled into my room after I answered the door. The room service lady was neat in her white sailor pants and shirt. She smiled brightly, holding the trolley. “Can I take this in?” She asked me, standing outside my door. I looked around. The hallways were still a little busy but she was here alone. “Complementary?” I asked. “No but its being paid for already by a…” She lifted her ipad. “Joseph Williams,” We both chrused the name together. She found it funny and chuckled a little. After which she asked, “can I come in now?” “Of course.” I stepped to the side. I told her to take it to the living room. “You can leave it there, thank you…” I trailed off, looking for a name tag on her uniform. “Tulip,” she answered for me. Her face was red with embarrassment. “Tulip?” Tulip nodded. She laughed at how confused and shocked I was. As
SABRINA MORALES I wasn't a fan of events so when Blaze told me of the evening party the crew members were hosting, I immediately knew I wasn't interested. But did it matter? Not really. My mother was getting married and I was on this ship for her. The least I could do was have fun while at it. Blaze and I walked out together. He was dressed casually, in a white flannel shirt and a pair of beach shorts. I stuck to my favorite orange bikini set, pairing it with a black crotchet romper. We made our way to the deck, where the party was happening. Bodies were sprawled around. The DJ was spinning tracks, some people danced, and others sat at lounge chairs. Blaze and I made our way to the bar to get a bear. Mum and Jo were there. “Hey, sweeties,” Mum said as soon as she saw us. She was dressed in a white bikini set and a white robe. Looking like the bride she was about to be. “Momma!” I crushed her in my hug until we both started to laugh. She moved to hug Blaze
SABRINA MORALESNext, you have dinner with Alex, and you can call it a day,” Violet said as she walked around the stool.I was looking at the computer when she spoke. My hands froze over the keyboard. I was too stunned even to say anything.I had a date with Alex?!“Take this too,” Violet was saying as she gestured to stool.We’d just finished the artist shoot with Suzie’s artist, Bella.I thought I was done for the day but Violet told me that I wasn't.“A date with Alex,” I echoed slowly, as if saying it out loud would help me process itI had to remember to be normal about it. I've not been able to bring myself to tell Violet or anybody. I wasn't ready. Maybe it was time for me to tell her before she fixed my wedding without my knowledge.Violet turned away from the ruckus. We were packing up and cleaning the studio after the day’s work. There were lots of glitter on the floor, some CDs, posters…There was a little bit of everything.“Yeah. I sent you an email and a reminder every
BLAZE WILLIAMSMum had been on my neck about when I was returning home. I eventually told her.Imagine my surprise when I saw Marcy waiting for me. It wasn't hard to spot her in their crowd of people. The one person in the crowd who had a strand of her hair dyed white was Marcy.The person who locked eyes with me smiled with her teeth, and waved at me was Marcy.The person I least expected was Marcy and she was right here, pretending this was normal.Marcy could star in her imagination, but I wouldn't fuel it for her.I walked up to her out of courtesy.We used to be something more than friends. I owed it to her to be cordial.“I don’t think you’re here for me,” I started, holding my hands together at my front. “So who are you here for?” I looked around for a moment. I was looking for someone who would be recognizable too. Maybe one of Marcy’s friends. It could even be her boyfriend.Though I had not heard about her being with anyone yet.“You,” Marcy said. “Come here,” She pulled
BLAZE WILLIAMS I stayed back at Night Park because I wanted to stop thinking about Sabrina. She was invading my entire life. Sabrina was going to be my sister. We were also spending nights together and getting to know each other. I had to put a pause on that cause it was getting scary. Two days later I was booking a flight back to Miami. “Tickets, please?” The airport lady asked me. She was smiling cordially, her hair as neat as her outfit. I shook my head. I was attempting to clear the thoughts in them. I gave her the ticket. The lady looked at my credentials. She paused looking at her computer screen to give me a brief stare. In a bright but quiet voice, she said. “Your flight leaves in thirty minutes. You can wait in the lobby.” I got handed back my ticket. I had my duffel bag hanging from my shoulders. It was almost eight in the morning. I spent the previous night working and staying up with a bottle of champagne. My hotel room had never felt
SABRINA MORALES “Our bride-to-be is back!” One of my staff chorused and the rest of them started clapping and cheering. I stood at the door of my studio, heart pounding both in fear and painful nostalgia. I couldn't bring myself to take a step in. I had regretted a lot of things in life, but pnothing hurt me like lying to Violet. I was so close to banging my head on a call in a show of painful regret. Violet walked up to me. Her lips were stretched fully, eyes shining with pure joy. “Welcome back, Sabrina,” Violet said and hugged me. I had two options. To tell them the truth and destroy their view of Alex. That would bring this entire celebration to the most abrupt end. Or, I could play cool. I could take the congratulations and keep it moving. I had kept the truth from them all through the Christmas holiday. What could a little more time of avoiding the truth do? It wasn't like I was lying. I was only not telling the truth. Yet. “Thank you, Violet,”
JOSEPH WILLIAMS My fiance called me for the third time that afternoon, while I was having lunch with my ex-wife. And I thought of busying the call yet again. “Maybe you should take that. Whoever it is can't seem to get the memo,” Leticia said. Her eyes slid across the phone, then she looked up, smirking. I ignored Leti. This was how she was. She intruded on people’s personal lives. Leti might think she knew who it was but she didn't. She would never guess right. I got up, taking my phone into my hands. “Let me use the restroom,” I said and excused myself. Leticia Miller, my ex-wife and mother to my son, had been blowing up my line all through the trip. She had called, texted, and even emailed. In her words, she deserved to know what step I was taking in my life because we shared a son. “Baby, how are you doing?” I talked softly as soon as I was in the restroom. I stopped at the sink and stood in front of the mirror. Staring but not quite looking. “A
SABRINA MORALES I loved my apartment a lot. Mum wasn't a big fan of it. I had packed out of our house immediately I finished college. Mum had been against it. If it was up to her, she would have me in her house for the rest of my adult life. But I needed to experience life away from my mum. I was still mostly broke and couldn’t afford a lot. I also didn't want to take mum’s help so I got a one bedroom apartnenf unit. It was located at the suburban area, a good twenty minutes drive form our former home. Mum hated my apartment but she was going to be crashing with me for a few days. Jo had dropped us off at our family house, that is mum’s apartment. When I was at Night Park, mum had her things moved away. She had taken some of her things to Jo’s place and the other, to my place. I stood behind mum and she opened her front door. The feel of home rushed me, a sense of embrace from the environment. This used to be home to me for a very long time. “Are y
BLAZE WILLIAMS Dad raised his glass and tapped the side with his cutlery. We all turned to him and he cleared his throat. Dad got up, smiling at all of us. The cruise ship was heading back to the Island. Our arrival time was stipulated to be around noon. It was still Christmas. It was probably the best Christmas I had experienced in my lifetime. Carrie had gifted me a guitar and a stack of books with a note that read: ‘Your dad is a hard worker and you two are a lot alike. These are a few options for hobbies to relax with. Merry Christmas, Blaze!’ She got a gift for me when she didn't know me. There was nothing more thoughtful than that. “This has been the best weekend of my life,” dad started, beaming with joy. We all listened to him, mirroring the smile on his face. My cheeks hurt from smiling and I still could not bring myself to stop. I wish I was exaggerating. Really. “Same for me,” Carrie called after dad. She was the happiest person here. They
SABRINA MORALES I was tired of attending all the celebrations. I was tired of being with family so I slipped away from the Christmas party. I walked over to the quieter part of the deck where I could get a little privacy and just sat. By now, we were meant to be on our way back to the Island. Christmas fell on a Sunday. The cruise tour was ending on a Monday. This weekend had gone better than I expected it to. But that didn't stop me from wanting out. It was mentally exhausting to not be able to be sad. Mum was getting married to this amazing person and they were happy. That was enough reason for me to swallow my sadness. Also, Blaze had done his best to keep me happy. And I mean both sexually and platonically. He took care of me and offered a shoulder to cry on when I could afford to break. I was grateful to him. Yet, I wanted out. I wanted space from my family. I sat on the edge of the ship, just past the safety railing, my legs dangling over the side. T
BLAZE WILLIAMS “We need to get you into the room, Sabrina. Come on,” I resorted to saying. Sabrina kissed me by the stairs. She told me two days ago that she wanted us to be just siblings. She was the one that said she couldn't handle being my lover and yet, she kissed me. I couldn't even tell if I was angry or impressed. The way I felt was new. “I can walk on my own,” Sabrina said. She stopped me from helping her to do anything. Sabrina smoothened her gown, a deep red-laced material that clung to her like second skin. She kissed me wearing that. And I had to be the stronger person. “I don’t mind,” I told her, trying again to hold her. Sabrina didn't let me. “I’m fine, Blaze. I can walk on my own.” Sabrina hissed and spun around. She was mad at me because I didn't reciprocate her actions. If only she knew how much of a torture it was for me to do that. I stood behind her and watched as she exhaled, slowly putting herself together. When she felt be