Chapter 6

The bell rang, my mom left to open, I thought that the doctor who was sending Adnan came, so I hurried to bring him to Mihriban.

Mrs. Dilek-Lenor, there is a man at the door looking for you.

Lenor-Me, who can look for me here, who is that mother?

Mrs. Dilek-Onur said that she was your husband's nephew.

Lenor-Onur, are you sure, said Onur?

I was confused, where did he come from, how did he find me, and why is he here when he has not even looked at me in the last few days. I went to the yard and he was standing with a bag in his hand, it was already clear to me that Adnan had sent him, he carried the luggage, and he trusts his nephew.

Lenor-Hello, I'm surprised.

Onur-Your husband asked me to bring you this, otherwise, I do not have much time, here take it, I have to go.

It sounded so cold, I thought disgustingly, I would grieve for him and he got what he wanted from me and now he threw me away. I did not deserve to be treated like this.

Lenor-Thank you, sorry for bothering you, if you won't have a coffee.

Onur-No, I'm in a hurry, I'm leaving, let's have a good time.

Lenor: All right, have a nice day.

He left without turning, I do not know why he is doing this, I stood like that and looked at the car that was leaving.

Miss Dilek-Hey, are you listening to me, I'm talking to you!

Lenor: Yes, I hear you.

Mrs. Dilek-Where did this nephew come from, I asked you a hundred times?

Lenor-Like from where, Adnan is a nephew, and lives with us.

Mrs. Dilek - There is something strange here, why was she surprised when she saw him, Lenor, this guy is young and handsome, be careful how you behave he may misunderstand you. I do not know how you can live with a young girl and a young guy in the same house, I did not like this, I do not know why but I did not like it.

Lenor-Strange, I do not understand, Onur is Adnan's nephew and will get married soon, do not worry.

Miss Dilek-Really, she will get married, it really eased me. I had some bad thoughts, that's how they came to me, but as soon as she gets married I was relieved.

Mihriban-Girl, what happened, I had to get out of bed, she left and you disappeared.

Lenor-Here they brought you medicine, take a drink, then a doctor will come and examine you for a short time.

Mrs. Dilek-Onur came and brought them, a good guy is a pity he has a fiancée otherwise it could have been an opportunity for you Mihriban.

Mihriban-Lenor, did Onur really bring them?

Lenor-Really, believe it or not, he came.

Mihriban-Why so fast, he had to stay.

Mrs. Dilek-Mihriban, do you know him?

Mihriban-Yes, I met him, Onur is good, why did he not stay and you would have met him.

Lenor-Ajde and the doctor arrived, a quite empty talk, Mihriban.

Mihriban-Hello doctor, I think there is no need for therapy, I saw you and I feel better immediately.

Lenor-Mihriban, do not joke with the doctor, let him go to the room to examine you.

While the doctor was examining Mihriban, I was standing at the window and looking in the yard where Onur and I were standing. Why is he behaving like that, again the same question without an answer? he got me or something else I do not know, I just want him to talk to me and explain, I promised myself that I will not bother him anymore but I only wanted one conversation from him.

Mihriman recovered, the next day we had a nice walk in the beauties of the place. While we were walking I got sick and fainted.

Mihriban-Lenor, what is it for you, wake up, open your eyes, please?

Lenor-What happened.

Mihriban-Suddenly he fell to the ground, I do not know, are you okay?

Lenor - I do not know, he turned to me, nothing is certain, I got sick from the pressure.

Mihriban-Lenor, I will go to the pharmacy and take a pregnancy test, you must be pregnant, I think you are.

Lenore: It's not possible, I do not want to be.

Mihriban-Yes, but you have to be sure, while it is time you should know.

Lenor-What will I do if you are really right?

Mihriban - Do you know who the baby is, Adnan or Onur?

Lenor: I do not want to think about it, I hope I am not pregnant.

Mihriban - If you are pregnant what will you do, will you tell Adnan.

Lenor - Do not pressure me now, I want to believe that I am not pregnant. If I can have an abortion, I do not know I really do not know.

Mihriban - Go home to your house, I will go and take a test, if your mother asks about me, tell me that I continued walking.

I went back and immediately locked myself in the room, I was walking from one end of the room to the other, a great panic and nervousness in me. I thought I was talking to myself in the room again.

- Calm down Lenor, do not worry, the test will be negative, calm down, breathe deeply and exhale.

Miss Dilek-Dusho, are you talking to yourself?

Lenor-Mom, when he came in, I did not hear you.

Mrs. Dilek - Come on, sit down and tell your mother what is happening to you.

Lenor-Nothing, mom, I'm just a little nervous, I do not know, so I got some nervousness.

Miss Dilek-Since that boy appeared at the door, you have changed, your daughter has been noticed, I am your mother, I know you when there is something, tell me.

Lenor-Ah mom.

Mrs. Dilek-Is there anything between you and that Onur?

Lenor-There is nothing.

Mrs. Dilek-Lenor, look at me, do not lie to me. I will leave tomorrow and you will leave me in my thoughts. I will not be able to stop thinking about you and what is happening to you. Please trust me, I know that Mihriban also knows what happens, and you hide it from me.

Lenor-Ah mom I do not know what to tell you and where to start telling you.

Mrs. Dilek-From the beginning, we have time, I'm here to listen to you.

Lenor-Mom please, I do not want to talk now, to rest and I promise to tell you, but later. Leave me a little alone.

Miss Dilek-Okay my dear, rest, but the conversation is not over, I am waiting for you downstairs when you decide to come and we will talk.

The door closed and I started crying. Why am I crying, am I really pregnant, I think, so my hormones are working? I was crying like that for no reason, I was crying, and I was crying until Mihriban came in.

Mihriban-Why are you crying?

Lenor-My mother found out that something was happening.

Mihriban-What did you find out?

Lenor - I do not know, but she knows that there is something between me and Onur, and she wants me to tell her what is happening between us.

Mihriban - Are you mentally ready to take the test, and find out the result.

Lenor - I'm not ready, I do not know if he is positive, what will I do with that baby that is not on Adnan.

Mihriban-Are you sure there is no chance any of it?

Lenor - I'm not 100% sure, but I think it can not be from him because we have not had sex for a long time, I mean sex in which he came to me, you understand me.

Mihriban-Come on go to the toilet and do it, I will wait here.

Lenor: Let me do it later, or better tomorrow, so that we do not spoil the mood now.

Mihriban-Lenor, let's not be so stubborn, come in and do it.

Lenor: All right, but I'll not see the result, you look at it.

Mihriban-Okay, let's do it and I will see the result first.

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Lenor-Mihriban, come in, the test is done, let's wait together for the result.

Mihriban-Come on slowly, do not worry, it is not scary if the result is positive, look at the work positively.

Lenor: What is positive here, I do not know who the baby's father is, and I know an even worse situation. The baby's father is another, and you insert the baby into another person. I do not know what this soap is.

Mihriban-Calm Lenor, the result is in my hands, I do not know if it is for rejoicing or not, it depends on who expects it. I think I am happy for this result, I will be an aunt!

Lenor-You're crazy, you have to make fun of me, you must be lying to me to get upset, tell me it's a lie, please.

Mihriban-Lenor, come and see for yourself, it is very clear you are pregnant, we will have a baby, I am happy, you should be happy too.

Lenor - Are you normal to talk to me, I'm not ready for a baby, this can not happen, you have to help me.

Mihriban-How can I help you, this is not a problem to solve, do not tell me you want to have an abortion?

Lenor-You who thought that I would enjoy this lie and pretend everything was fine, I would lie to Onur and Adnan about this baby. I will tell Adnan that he is a father and Onur will never find out that he has a kid, is that okay for you Mihriban?

Mihriban-Lenor, this is a baby, your baby. How can you get rid of him, I do not allow you. I am with you, we will raise him together if you want, if you want and divorce Adnan, let him not know that you are pregnant, but do not kill the baby. It is not to blame for your mistakes. Maybe it will bring light into your life, you will have a reason to enjoy life, you will forget about Onur. Do not kill him, be Lenore's mother.

Lennon: I have to be alone, please.

Mihriban-Si immediately, thinks carefully about what you should do, do not make a wrong decision, I know you are a good person and you will be the best mother.

Alone in the room, staring at one point of the wall. I did not think at all, so I just looked and did not think of anyone, like a void in my head, as if I wanted to forget and not think of anything. After a short time, I returned to reality and I started thinking, To think that this is not a dream, this is really happening, and it is happening to me, I will have a baby. I will have a baby, at this moment every normal man, every woman would be happy, and I, I'm not a good person, I'm not happy about my child. What kind of person am I? Am I a good person? I do not deserve to have a baby. I'm talking to myself again. But what will happen soon when Adnan finds out, he can hardly wait to find out that he will become a father, the father of a baby who is his nephew, how could I do this to him, how I became such a person who does not care about the feelings of others, who sees only for himself. I am a bad person, I do not deserve to have a baby, I do not deserve Adnan, I'm a bad person ......