I was always a weird kid. In kindergarten, I didn't really like talking to anyone. In fact, my mom says that I hardly ever spoke.
I would always stare quietly at my surroundings, never bothering to comment on anything or anyone. The only time I seemed happy was when I was reading. I loved reading: it was the one thing I looked forward to every day. The beautiful tales of princesses and wizards turned my extremely boring life into a life of adventure, laughter and glass slippers.
My book obsession only grew as I grew older and eventually I felt more like myself when I had a heavy paperback in my hands. I became known as the weird book girl and it didn't bother me because they were all missing out on the best thing ever invented.
I loved my books alright but I had never, ever thought that my passion for them would result in me auditioning for the biggest book-turned-movie of the century.
I was walking through the mall behind the short, plump lady who had introduced herself as Ms Green. My heart was beating faster than it had ever beaten in its life and I hadn't even auditioned yet. I prayed that I wouldn't pass out in front of my favourite author.
I felt someone poke my arm. I turned, ready to bite off that person's head. Unfortunately, it was Mr Perfect himself and I couldn't exactly bite off his head without encountering a gazillion lawsuits.
"You nervous?" He asked, his blue eyes sparkling.
I was. Extremely nervous in fact, but I would not show it. My pride wouldn't let me.
"I'm ok." I lied.
He seemed to believe me. We were approaching the movie theatre by now, where the auditions would take place.
I sucked in a breath and let the oxygen spread throughout my body. I banished all the negative thoughts out of my mind and forced my heart to calm down. I was terrified but I wouldn't let anyone else see it.
Fake it till you make it, I remembered June's words of advice.
We entered a small, badly lit waiting room displaying a few chairs and opening up to a hallway which lead to what I assumed was the auditioning venue.
"Ok, you may all stay here and I'll call you in one by one to audition. Why don't you come first, young lady?" Ms Green said to the girl beside me.
They went through the hallway, leaving me with Mr Perfect and the cute auburn-haired boy.
"Well this is insane." The boy said.
I nodded. "Yep. I can't feel my hands."
"I thought you weren't nervous." Mr Perfect commented, giving me a smirk.
"Of course I am but I wouldn't admit that to the enemy now would I?" I replied, the words falling out before I could stop them.
The cute boy laughed at Mr Perfect's shocked expression.
"Man, what did you do to piss her off?" He asked, slapping Mr Perfect on the shoulder.
"All I did was tell her the time." Mr Perfect replied, sounding defensive.
"You two are hilarious. I'm Jason by the way." He said.
"I'm May." I introduced myself, ignoring Mr Perfect's stare.
"And I'm Jet. May. That's a pretty name." Mr Perfect - Jet - said, smiling at me.
I nodded. "Yeah. Cool."
Jason found this even more hilarious. "Jet, are you sure you didn't do something to piss her off? She sounds really pissed right now."
"I don't know. You tell me, May. What did I do to make you so pissed at me?" Jet asked, folding his arms and leaning against the wall.
I chewed the inside of my cheek. "What makes you think I'm pissed?"
"Well you referred to me as 'the enemy'."
"This is an audition! Everyone is the enemy." I explained.
Ms Green came running out before he could reply.
"Ok, well that was a disaster. You. Come." She said, pointing at Jet.
He gave me one last look before following her down the hallway.
"You like him don't you?" Jason said, breaking the silence.
My eyes widened. "What are you talking about?"
"Jet. You like him. I can tell."
I laughed. "Oh, no. Trust me, I don't. I just met him and let's just say I don't think I could ever like him. Not in that way anyway."
In hindsight, it never occurred to me just what I was doing. I was actually talking to a cute boy without stuttering or breaking something. I was the queen of klutz and well, talking to hot boys wasn't my speciality.
"Why not?" Jason asked.
I shrugged. "I don't know."
"Well, what about me then?"
I felt my heart skip a beat. I immediately stomped out the tiny flame of hope that had sprouted in my heart. He couldn't be asking if I liked him
right?"Excuse me?" I blurted.
He smiled. I mentally sighed, he was probably joking. Why would someone like Jason even care to know about my existence? I mean I knew I was pretty enough and I sometimes caught the eye of (unwanted) males but none of them were as handsome as him. Not by a long shot.
I studied his slouching frame out of the corner of my eye. A trick June and I had developed when checking hot guys out in public.
Jason was tall - about a head taller than Jet - and his reddish brown hair was a mess of curls on top of his head. He had tanned skin and nice, not-too-big-not-too-skinny arms.
Not
bad, I thought to myself. Notbadatall"Do you think you could ever like me? In that way." Jason continued, lazily approaching me.
I shrugged and leaned against the wall beside me, adopting his laid-back persona. Inside, I was freaking out but there was no way I would show it.
He was kidding.
It was all a joke.
And I would rather play along than believe him and end up looking like an idiot.
As he got closer, I tried to make out the colour of his eyes but it was too dark to register anything except a dark brown.
He cocked an eyebrow expectantly and I realised that I hadn't replied to his question.
"Uhm, I don't know. I can't tell." I replied, tearing my gaze from his.
I heard him chuckle and my heart forgot how to beat. I suddenly wished June was there. She usually enjoyed flirting. I didn't usually because the boys who were willing to flirt with me were idiots.
Now that a boy who looked like he actually showered was getting dangerously close with each step, I had no idea what to do.
Run! My brain decided.
I was about to run for it but then, his words stopped me.
"Well I can tell that I'll end up liking you very much." He said.
I rolled my eyes, ignoring the butterflies in my stomach and the sudden clenching of my heart. What a shitty pickup line.
Turns out he was an idiot after all. This injected me with enough confidence to look him directly in the eye. "How do you know that?"
He took one more step. Our bodies were less than an inch apart. I couldn't escape even if I wanted to.
He smiled widely, showing two rows of perfect white teeth. I noticed the tiny dimple on his left cheek and despite myself, I heard my heart beat loudly in my ears.
Turns out cute boys were my weakness.
"Because, you're funny. And beautiful." He answered, his grin slowly fading into a tiny smile.
I blinked rapidly, trying to wake up from the dream but it wouldn't work because despite the sheer impossibility of the situation, I wasn't dreaming.
"You're so beautiful," his voice dropped to a whisper, his brown eyes locked onto mine.
"Uhm, thank you." I smiled awkwardly.
This was nothing like the books. I lacked the confidence to lean in and kiss him and I wasn't willing to melt at his words either - I wanted
to (really badly, I might add) but I wasn't willing to.He was cute and all but I barely knew him and Jet's audition could end any time soon.
He lightly touched my cheek, his warm gaze following his fingers on my face. My heart went into overdrive. His fingers trailed down my cheek, slowly approaching my lips. It wasn't until I looked at him that I finally let myself soak in the moment.
He wasn't breathing.
And the pure amazement frozen into his features took my own breath away. He was so beautiful and from up close, I could almost count the sprinkling of freckles on his nose.
I traced each of his distinct, warm features as he did mine. This was the moment they talked about in books. The magical moment you share with another, studying them, appreciating them, memorising
them.Just as I relaxed under his touch, his eyes went wide and he hurriedly stepped back. I took in a deep breath, half confused, half annoyed. I let him get under my skin and I wasn't sure how. He hadn't even kissed me and my hormones were all over the place!
Get a
grip! I scolded myselfI glanced at Jason and surprisingly, he seemed about as embarrassed as I felt. He cleared his throat and scratched the back of his head awkwardly, avoiding my gaze completely.
"Crap. I'm really sorry. I don't know what that was - I wasn't thinking." He muttered, casting me a tiny glance before looking away.
Before I could reply, Ms Green walked in, her face shining. I felt my heart slow down and the butterflies slowly disappear.
What just happened?
"Now it's your turn. Follow me." Ms Green said, staring directly at me.
I looked back at Jason but his gaze was trained onto his sneakers. I couldn't tell what he was thinking because his floppy hair was hiding his face.
I hurriedly followed Ms Green down the hallway until we reached an open door. She let me walk into the bright room first.
All thoughts of Jason and our strange encounter flew out of my head as I realized that this was it.
It was a medium-sized room: lit up in every corner with stage lights. In the front of the room was an open space with a red "X" taped to the floor. At the end of the room was a long table, seating four very bored-looking people.
One of them I recognised immediately as Andrea Romes. She had short black hair and was wearing her signature hot pink glasses. I nearly freaked out as soon as I saw her. My fangirl dreams were coming true: I was about to meet my favourite author!
"Please introduce yourself and tell us what role you're auditioning for." Ms Green said, standing beside the table.
"Hello, everyone. My name is May Holden and I'm turning eighteen in a few months. I'm a huge Romes fan and The Wrong Cinderella is my favourite book ever! I've read it like a hundred times." I gushed, forcing my smile not to fall off.
None of them looked impressed. The man at the end of the table even yawned. I inwardly sighed. Hundreds of girls had probably said the exact same thing to them.
"I'll be auditioning for the role of Sapphire because she's the complete opposite of who I am. She's bold, loud, proud, and isn't afraid of anything. Not even herself."
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Isoundlikeatackyreview"Whenever you're ready." Ms Green smiled warmly.
I closed my eyes, took a deep breath and imagined reading the part I was about to act out.
Sapphire has just broken Ace's heart without meaning to and for the first time, she lowers her pride and begs - she begs for him to fight for their love and to prove that he loves her as much as she loves him.
Hurt
Desperate
And
so, sosorry.Opening my eyes, I repeated what June and I had practiced for the past two weeks.
I
havetodothispiecejustice, I repeated before letting my body feel the emotions I knew were supposed to be here.It wasn't enough to just pretend to be Sapphire - I needed to be
her."Ace, don't you dare do this. You're supposed to be my Prince Charming! I don't care if I'm not Cinderella! Does that mean I can't have a happy ending? You love me! Not her!" Sapphire yelled, fighting against the tears she so desperately despised.
"I know I hurt you and I'm sorry! I'm sorry that I broke your trust. I'm sorry that I lied and made a fool of you. I'm extremely sorry. Words can't even begin to explain how bad I feel." Sapphire turned to the wall, envisioning a brokenhearted boy avoiding her gaze.
She would not give up until he looked at her and saw
what she couldn't say in words. "Lock me up! Take everything that I own! I deserve it and so much worse but don't you dare destroy the oneprecious thing I've managed to get in my miserable life. Don't you dare take away our love. Don't you dare take away the only thing that makes sense in my life! I love you and I'm sorry. Just please, please don't leave me."Sapphire cried and I cried along with her, desperately clutching at my chest as the unexpected emotion diffused from my false character and straight into my very soul.
Soon, it wasn't her pain that I was feeling but my own. Desperation clawed at me, leaving a trail of forgotten memories and suppressed emotions in it's wake.
I gasped for air, and the blurry image of Ace that I had conjured faded. In his place was my dad, smiling at me the same way he did minutes before he lost his life.
Fiveyears earlier"Bye dad! I love you!" I yelled, waving as the car rolled out of the driveway."Bye May!" He yelled back.I closed the front door and turned, nearly bumping into my gigantic brother. I was tall alright but he waslong. We both had my dad's genes to blame for that."Why were you yelling? You're going to see him in a few hours." He scowled.I rolled my eyes. "What's wrong with telling your parents that you love them?"Matt gave me a disgusted look. "You're so weird."I ignored him and, standing on the tip of my toes, I
I opened my eyes and my living room was gone. I was standing in a badly lit room and four people were looking at me with wide eyes."Oh. My. Gosh." Andrea whispered.Ms Green suddenly burst into tears and the three men beside Andrea stood up and clapped their hands.I suddenly felt nervous. What was I supposed to do? I hurriedly wiped my face, shame flooding through my veins.The remainder of the heart-wrenching sorrow that had interrupted me halfway through my audition still churned in my gut.I needed to throw up. Unfortunately, t didn't seem as if I was leaving any time soon."I think we've just found our Sapphire." Andrea laughe
As soon as we got home, I forgot about my mom's tea and I shot to my room. I quickly connected my phone to the charger and dialled June's number."Did you get it?" Was the first thing she asked as soon as she answered."I don't know." I answered honestly."What do you mean you don't know? Was the audition bad or good?" She screamed.I winced, removing the phone from my ear. "Well I think I nailed it! I even cried! I think it was perfect...except I overdid it a little. Okay a lot. I didn't even get to finish the whole monologue."She paused for a second. "What happened?"Somehow she always knew when something was bothering me.
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"June!" I squealed as she let me go.It had been three months since she left for the funeral and I had missed her so much. My summer had been more boring than usual without her to drag me out of bed.I had a theory that her mom prolonged her trip in order to keep us apart. I didn't have any evidence though so I couldn't say anything. Besides, it didn't work either way because June and I talked for at least three hours everyday."What the hell did they do to you? You look stunning!" She replied, gaping at me.I shrugged. "Well thank you and it was these three that made me look this amazing. This is Jeane, Kayden and Rachel."The three of them greeted June as they made a few more adjus
"You'rePrince Charming?" I asked the boy in front of me.He smirked, showing off his perfect white teeth. "You look surprised."I blinked twice. "I am."Before he could respond, Lucas yelled at us to face the cameras. I couldn't believe what was happening. I had told myself not to get my hopes up on Jason being Ace but as I looked at the blue-eyed boy in front of me, I realised that I had actually gotten my hopes up and now, I was disappointed."Jet! May! Snap out of it! Show me love and affection!" Lucas yelled.I awkwardly turned my back to him as he slipped his arm around my waist. I felt my back touch his c
"Move it!" Someone bumped into me, snapping me out of my daze.I turned and noticed immediately who it was. Maia.I rolled my eyes, deciding to let it go."Why does she hate you?" Jet asked me.I was a bit surprised to hear his voice. For a second, I had forgotten that he was with me."Because I'm Sapphire and she isn't. I feel sorry for the little thing. She can't help but waste her time on hating me when I couldn't care less about what she thinks of me." I shrugged.He laughed. Again, I was surprised. His smile was...nice. And he didn't look hideous when he laughed either. I sighed, remembering June's earlier words. Maybe
The Wrong CinderellaChapter 2"I'm still here you know," said the boy beside my so-called Prince Charming.I looked at him and smiled. He was cute but it was obvious who got the most female attention between the two. I stretched out my hand to him. "Hi, I'm Sapphire."His hair looked black in the dim light, a contrast to his companion's blonde curls. "I'm Archer and by the way, I don't think my friend over here will be telling you his name any time soon."I glanced back at theblue-eyedboy. "Oh really?"He ju
Jeremy Lee, born Lee Yihuang, was a 54-year-old billionaire who owned Lee Productions, the biggest movie and reality TV production house where the most famous Asian stars were born and bred. Jeremy Lee had five children: all girls. Ming was unfortunate enough to be the smartest, prettiest and youngest of the group, which meant that her dad kept a special eye on her.Which was probably awful considering Mr Lee was notorious for his dictator-like way of running things. Sources claimed that his own employees nicknamed him as Kim Jongun's stepbrother. Thankfully, it was just a nickname and not the truth because I don't think I would've agreed to meet him otherwise.In just two hours, June and I had dug up everything we possibly could on Ming's father. If I wanted to convince Mr Lee to invest in the movie then I needed all the help and knowl
It felt like ages since I had last kissed him even though technically, it had only been two days. The thrill and slight nervousness that I felt during our first kiss was still there. I somehow knew as we kissed that it wouldn't be the last time. I loved him way too much to let him go. And judging by the way he forcefully kissed me back, he felt the same way.I barely registered the fact that the car had stopped or that the driver climbed out. All I could think of was him. Jason. I somehow found myself straddling his lap, my lips still connected to his. I barely cared about the fact that I was wearing a dress or that we were extremely exposed. The kiss was intimate but nowhere close to the burning heat that would entice us to remove our clothes. It was an intimate form of desperation, of pure need and adoration.He pulled away first. I s
I don't know why I did it.I didn'twantto rush home and pack my bags as quickly as I could while hoping that the plane hadn't left yet.I didn'twantto write a quick letter to my mother explaining where I was going.I didn'twantto call June and have her drop me off at the airport without asking any questions.I didn'twantto rush into the airport and barely make it onto a plane that was about to leave for Hong Kong.I didn'twantto feel relieved as I sat in the business class section of the plane, hoping and praying that I could find Jason.
It all happened so fast. Our first meeting, our first date and our first kiss: it all happened in the space of two weeks. And on top of it all: two near-death experiences in two days. I fell in love too quickly and when my heart broke, it happened so fast that I could barely feel it.At first, I was angry. I wanted to beat him up for lying to me; I wanted to see Ming face to face so that I could scream at her for taking away the only boy I had ever loved. I was angry at everyone: Jason, Ming, Jet and even myself.Then, after the initial shock wore off, I felt wounded: my heart felt as if it had shattered into billions of pieces and the only one who could fix me was him. I wanted to call him and beg him to come back and tell me that it was all a dream. I was willing to forgive him; I wanted to forget everything. I just neededhi
Love destroys.At first, I didn't believe Jonathan's words. It wasn't until a few weeks later that I realized he had been right. Love had the potential to destroy and I suffered the effects first-hand.My relationship with Jason was pretty much public when everything started to fall apart. It was a Friday evening and we were finally about to shoot the Ball scene. Jonathan, Jeane, Kayden and Rachel had dressed me up in my royal blue showstopper and the iconic glass slippers. My feet felt amazing in the surprisingly comfortable shoes.I was sitting in the limo, waiting for my cue. The director yelled "action!" and the scene began. I tilted the phone in my hands slightly and scrolled through the fake Instagram account that Ms Green and her minions had created for Sapphire.
The mind is a very powerful tool. It can be used to shape the most beautiful stories, the most sinful of fantasies and the scariest of nightmares. The mind is capable of destroying even the sturdiest of towers but it is also capable of building up the most resilient people.Grief, just like the mind, is a beauty disguised as a demon. When welcomed and nurtured, it leaves peacefully, offering its host the gift of closure and solace.But when ignored and left to its own devices, grief can turn even the sweetest memory into a bitter nightmare.Years later, whenThe Wrong Cinderellawas behind me, my psychologist would teach me all these things.But right then, I was seventeen and oblivious to the fact that I hadn't all
"I love you."I grinned.My heart strained against my chest, nearly combusting with joy. He finally admitted it. So why did he look so sad?He looked down at me, his blue eyes swimming in tears."I love you too." I said, trying to stop his tears from falling.He shook his head, his straight black hair sticking onto his wet cheeks.My heart broke to see him like that: so miserable, so vulnerable, so unlike the man I loved.
We walked into the building with our hands intertwined. Ms Green met us at the door, her sickly sweet smile in it's usual place."You're here!" She exclaimed, as if it wasn't obvious.I noticed the way she stared at our joined hands. I squeezed Jason's hand tighter and forced a smile of my own."Yes. June said you wanted to see us." I replied.Her eyes snapped towards my face. "Oh yes, please come in, Andrea is waiting for you."I felt my stomach churn. Why did Andrea want to see us? The multiple possibilities filled me with dread.Jason seemed to sense my nervousness as he flashed me an encouraging smile.
"May! May! Maaaaaaaaaaay!"I rolled my eyes and entered the hospital room. Jason was sitting on the bed when I walked in. He smiled as soon as he saw the bag in my hand."You're finally here!" He sounded like an excited little boy.I couldn't help but smile. "You didn't have to call my name while I walked down the corridor though.""I couldn't wait. What did you bring me?" He asked.I walked towards him and dumped the shopping bag in his lap. He opened it as I sat on the chair beside the bed.He gasped loudly as he took out the countless bags of sweets and chips. "May. I. Love. You." He breathed, staring at the contents of the bag.