Silje saw her supportive dad Frank's BMW show up however she didn't leave the little unfilled region situated before her home. She remained hunched down on the ground. Notwithstanding the sharp chilliness, Silje would have rather not gotten back.
The vehicle entryway opened and she saw her supportive dad's rotund red cheeks. She watched him go into the house worriedly. Straight to the point planned to find out about what occurred at school today from Olga and he would have been disheartened.
Silje envisioned what had happened seventeen years prior to this moderate couple. Consider the possibility that Olga wasn't determined to have fruitlessness at that point. Consider the possibility that Frank's collaborator didn't have a supportive little girl from China. Imagine a scenario in which that collaborator didn't gloat about how her supportive little girl was so brilliant and got such passing marks.
On the off chance that this large number of things didn't occur, could Frank actually have considered reception an answer for his despondent spouse?
The outcome was that Silje was taken on by this couple from Korea. Her Korean name was Shinae Kim.
Silje Kim Pettersen. This was the name her new parents gave her. They thought of a Norwegian name that was as near her Korean name as could really be expected. Silje didn't have the foggiest idea who her introduction to the world mother was, and she wouldn't even play with the possibility of attempting to view as her.
Korea, her origination, appeared to be up until this point away to Silje that it should have been on another planet.
Korea was a little country in Asia.
Silje generally contemplated her country lastly when she turned twelve, she had the option to observe a Korean illustration book. Throughout her colder time of year break, she attempted to gain proficiency with the language, however it was excessively troublesome. The letters were totally not quite the same as Norwegian and the articulation was excessively touchy. In the wake of going after for a brief period, she needed to surrender. A couple of sentences she attempted to compose were immediately neglected.
"Hi?"
"Ideal to meet you."
"How would I get to Gimpo International Airport?"
At the point when she was still exceptionally youthful, Silje had a decent connection with her supportive dad Frank. His rotund cheeks would become red at whatever point he drank. Straight to the point used to treat Silje compassionate and with friendship from the beginning, however as she aged significantly and began to encounter tormenting at school, he became far off and irritated. At the point when Silje would not go to class, he ended up being furious. It was an exceptionally tense time of her life both at school and at home.
In truth, Silje was a magnificent understudy. She was at the highest point of her group. Other than calculation, her English and 2nd language grades were extraordinary. She was particularly skilled in the dialects, however even her splendid grades couldn't fulfill Frank.
At the point when she referenced she was being tormented, Frank thought about it literally and indignantly as though Silje was humiliating him intentionally.
At that point, Silje attempted to get Frank's fierceness and dissatisfaction. For a moderate and calm couple to embrace an unfamiliar child, it must've been a tremendous groundbreaking occasion. In any case, to figure out that their embraced Asian little girl was a miscreant at school? It must've been exceptionally difficult for them to acknowledge.
For some time, Silje would not go to class as a result of the extraordinary prejudice and tormenting, however she was unable to ask or anticipate that her new parents should comprehend. Regardless of whether she beseeched them, Silje realized they would've never been her ally in any case.
It was undeniably challenging for her to watch her supportive dad become increasingly far off, however she realized Frank had exclusive requirements of her and she had let him down.
Silje kept on remaining external the house vulnerable.
Eventually, her supportive dad Frank learned about what had occurred at school that day. It was melancholy and tense at home.
Straight to the point murmured and drank while Olga stayed despondent.
The following morning, Silje unobtrusively went to class with overwhelming sadness.She for the most part went to the top of the school working to invest her energy alone there until class began. At the point when she strolled into the study hall, the children were visiting among themselves.
The study hall was organized with down to earth yet exquisite work areas and seats. The children looked at her however Silje disregarded them and opened her reading material. She had no companions. She never spent time with anybody.
Silje generally disregarded different understudies. As a matter of fact, she needed no companions, since any individual who turned into her companions her would be tormented also. She didn't need that all things considered.
Sooner or later of going to the school as the main Asian understudy, her schoolmates began to see her with dread eventually. Silje couldn't have cared less. All she needed was to graduate securely and get away from this hellhole to be free.
After Silje got back from school consistently, she checked off the days on her schedule with her pen. This was her main expectation and satisfaction. Consistently she endure implied she was drawing nearer to leaving school.
Furthermore, in particular, Silje was becoming more grounded. Gradually, she was acquiring strength and sometime in the not so distant future, she planned to get away from this spot.
Her home, her school, and Norway.
Before long.
The principal ringer rang, and class was going to begin. Silje took out her scratch pad and paid attention to her instructor tranquilly.
The top of the line was material science. An older instructor was discussing the interior construction of the sun. Silje was all the while recuperating from the shock of yesterday so she was unable to think. It was what was going on where she tumbled off the structure yesterday, yet she was sitting in the study hall as though nothing had occurred.
"Would anybody be able to make sense of the hypothesis by the Norwegian doctor, Birkeland?"
Until the finish of the class, Silje gazed at her reading material and her instructor expressed nothing to her. The reality of the situation was, everybody at school realized Silje was being tormented seriously. This was a questionable issue among the instructors. Many thought about it as prejudice, however the school couldn't make any really meaningful difference either way it.
Just her new parents accepted Silje was hallucinating about being tormented. Or on the other hand maybe, they realized it however needed to not imagine anything was occurring. Silje needed to battle for herself consistently and it was a desolate life. Consistently was like battle for her.
During class, just something single was at the forefront of her thoughts.
'I trust nothing happens to me today. I trust the day passes by rapidly.'
Since it was exceptionally peaceful until the midday classes, Silje was beginning to feel significantly better.
All of a sudden, somebody from behind set an extremely sharp steel against her neck. Silje felt her body become tense and she began getting goosebumps. It was Kail's gangster, Gunhild.
The sharpness of the cutting edge was gnawing against her skin.
"Come to the extra space after school. Kail will be hanging tight for you."
Gunhild chuckled and added, "He said he has a comment to you."
After school, Silje was hauled to the extra space by Kail's posse. It was snowing exceptionally hard and as she watched the climate outside, Silje attempted to persuade herself.'It's generally alright. I can do this. I can endure this.'Obviously, she realized something terrible planned to happen today, however she wanted to accept that she planned to emerge from it alive or, in all likelihood her feeling of dread toward Kail planned to gulp down her entire.On the off chance that she didn't keep her head straight, she was truly going to be eaten alive today. She took a full breath to quiet down.She endlessly paused. The extra space for exercise center hardware was loaded up with residue and soil. It was a stormy day and it was cold even inside the capacity. Silje saw a dark calfskin seat the exercise center instructor for the most part sat on during exercise center classes. Silje glanced around and thought in dissatisfaction.'They hauled me her
Kail proceeded, "I'm advising you to be tranquil and simply leave. Get lost."Leave this spot?At the point when Silje took a gander at him in shock, Kail gradually waved his hand for her to leave. He resembled an appointed authority requesting an execution."Get out!"That was the third time.She was unable to trust what was occurring. The horrible ruler was releasing her for the third time. This wasn't a fortuitous event.Leaving the now dead-calm capacity, Silje thought about.Did he suppose she wasn't even worth tormenting? All things considered, essentially she was as yet alive.Everybody scowled at her as she was going to arrive at the entryway when Gunhild raised her voice."We can't allow her pass on to like that. I didn't get to harm her that much."Kail brought his eyebrow up in advance notice, however Gunhild had lost her faculties in the wake of getting hit by a shoe. Before anybody might actually flic
The colder time of year wind blew against the trees unobtrusively and the main sound around was the snow falling.They were essentially a half-hour drive away from their school. Silje was hijacked by Kail's group and was brought to this spot forcibly.Where could she have been? She was unable to try and make a speculation.Remaining in no place, Silje bit her lips vulnerable and kept on pausing.Kail strolled towards her and Silje shut her eyes tight. At the point when Kail stood directly before her, he just peered down at her quietly.Silje inquired, "What are you doing this to me? What is the genuine explanation?"The ruler stayed tranquil as though he was snickering at her.Each time she breathed out, she could see her own white breath in the air. She shuddered viciously in the frigid temperature.It was no big surprise he was known as the horrible ruler.Charlatan.She kicked and shouted during the whole drive
Following ten minutes of strolling, she realized Kail was coming clean. Interminable void fields with nobody to help her. Simply snow and cold. She understood that she would not have been ready to contact her school before the day's over.It was excessively cold. Her body was at that point frozen, and the sharp wind felt like blades cutting into her skin.Be that as it may, her pride wouldn't let her surrender. She would prefer to kick the bucket strolling vulnerable than trust for the horrible ruler to return and save her.She took a gander at the delightful snow falling. Nobody planned to mind on the off chance that she vanished, and Silje couldn't resist the opportunity to feel crushed.'For what reason did I need to be hauled way out here? For what reason do I need to stroll in this chilly blanketed night? How did I respond that was so off-base? Since I'm Asian… It's just a little unreasonable, however I can't allow this to get to me. I should
It was past the point of no return. Pressing forward was the only real option now.His words sounded so compromising that Silje shuddered. Only briefly, she lamented strolling this entire way.Be that as it may, very much like Kail said, it was past the point of no return now. Silje proceeded to stand and scowl at him. Kail's face folded out of frustration as he snarled at her, "Who in the world do you suppose you are? How might you venture to drive me crazy? I let you know that it would be better for you to simply wait. Anything that I do to you from this point forward, it is all on you. It's all your shortcoming so don't fault me."She realized it was over for her, however she showed no feelings. She didn't move it is possible that; she just kept on standing straight and hung tight for her destiny.Kail grinned sharply."I see you are not sorry about anything. No second thoughts, eh?"He discarded his cigarette and as though on prompt, his
"… I will kill them. I won't ever pardon them. Never."There was certifiably not a solitary star in the dark sky. Strolling gradually, Silje mumbled in torment, "Do they truly believe I will lose? He said he will test my karma? They better realize that this is the greatest misstep they have made. I will endure this evening. I will ensure. I won't kick the bucket here this way."Silje kept on strolling, however her body was exceptionally near abandoning her.Her body was frozen, and she wasn't feeling much for some time now. Her feet were numb, and she needed to utilize all that she needed to make them move.Her wrist hurt. The draining wouldn't stop so it kept on trickling. To oppose her aggravation and outrage, Silje gripped her clench hands. She gritted her teeth to prevent herself from groaning."I will kill him. I won't ever pardon him, that charlatan!"While draining and strolling, Silje looked forward the interminable void field
Steaming hot cocoa, warm chimney, comfortable couch, and individuals who really focused on her.In the tranquil cafeteria, Silje tasted on her beverage and grinned brilliantly to console them."Goodness, it's so scrumptious. I love it. It's warming me up."Tran and Niels took a gander at Silje in shock briefly, however Tran immediately began to laugh uncontrollably."It's that great, eh?"At the point when Silje gestured, Tran snickered once more."Then, at that point, I will get you another so have however much you need. You are so peculiar, Silje. How might you be so quiet experiencing the same thing?""I for the most part don't drink hot chocolate. I don't eat different desserts frequently either, however when I feel down, I eat sweet cake.""Okay. I trust this cheers you up.""… Ok. Much obliged to you."Silje took one more taste from her cup and said unobtrusively, "Thank you for being with me like thi
For a couple of days, Silje turned out to be exceptionally sick.When she got back home, her body must've loose and she at long last acknowledged the amount she had gone as the night progressed. Her wrist felt extraordinarily excruciating and she caught an extreme fever. Her feet and hands additionally experienced frostbite.The enthusiastic cost for her was the straw that broke the camel's back and she was unable to get up the following day. She told her new parents she had a terrible fever thus she remained at home for a couple of days.Silje frantically needed to stop school right away, however she needed to move on from secondary school. That was the main way for her to compensate her new parents for raising her, and it was additionally the main way for her to authentically venture out from home.Similarly as she had done all through her whole life, she needed to persevere through everything. Silje chose to just contemplate graduating and that's it. H
Beep, beep.The street was busy with familiar yellow cabs and other cars. It was rush hour, and everyone was trying to get home while the restaurants and bars started to light up their neon signs.Beep, beep.The drivers honked in frustration, but Silje, who was on foot, was walking with a light heart. It was rush hour, but it didn’t mean anything to her.In an ivory trench coat, high heels, and a pink scarf, Silje looked like spring. Wearing a pair of sunglasses, she smiled happily as she hurriedly walked to her destination.It wasn’t that she was late, and she actually didn’t know where she would be going tonight. She was going to call him very soon to find out what he wanted to do.Waiting for the green light, she took a deep breath. The wind was still chilly, but it felt gentle, reminding her that the spring was finally coming to New York.“Could it really be almost spring already? It has been so cold this
Two years later at a TV studio for the show “One” Norway.“Hello, everyone. We are here today to interview the world-famous model Silje Kim. Oh, there she is, walking out. Do you see her? She has arrived right on time for her interview. The audience is turning around to get a glimpse of her. Yes, that’s right. Beautiful long black hair, calm black eyes, exotic features, and a gorgeous body. She was one of the top Asian models in New York until recently when she retired after getting married. She wrote an autobiography titled ‘The Swan’ which is receiving enormous attention from the public. In her book, Silje Kim talks about the terrible racism she experienced in her youth, going through an abortion as a teenager, and moving to New York to become a successful model. Her candidness has captured her audience’s attention and ‘The Swan’ is currently the number one bestseller in Norway. Her writing is considered to be excellent
Kail was in a coma for well over a week.After ten days of not waking up, the doctors didn’t seem to have much hope for him. Instead of becoming hysterical, Silje began to feel calmer as the uncertain time passed.She felt like she was ready to let him go now.With that thought, Silje visited the hospital again. Smelling the unpleasant disinfectant and walking into the VIP room, she stopped suddenly.“…”For some reason, there were more doctors and nurses inside the room than usual. Silje raised her eyebrows in confusion. Something felt different. These people weren’t here just for a routine round.One of the nurses noticed Silje and informed her, “The patient woke up a little while ago. You can visit him if you want, but only briefly.”Kail was awake.Just when she finally came to terms with his death, God sent her an unexpected gift. Walking slowly to his bed, Silje looked at him cal
Silje took the shiny scissors to Kail’s wrist.“…”She cut his pale skin, making the shockingly red blood drip from it.Next, it was her turn. Silje did the same on her delicate wrist.She dripped her own blood into Kail’s wound, as if this act could make them one.“I can’t let you go yet, so this is what I am going to do. You are not allowed to leave me. I’m sure there will be plenty of people in the world who would be pleased to have you die, but I am not ready for you to leave yet.”Kail still wouldn’t move, and Silje looked down at him coldly.“You are not allowed to die without my permission, Kail. You made me the way I am now, so don’t even think about leaving me without my permission. I will never forgive you if you die on me like this. You always do whatever you want, causing me so much pain, but this time, I will not let you get what you want. You can&rs
Pale face covered in wounds.Tubes going into his mouth to hook him to a ventilator.Kail was barely breathing, but despite the desperate situation, he still looked like a beautiful deity underneath the blue moon.Silje stared at him. She looked calm on the outside, but she felt her heart breaking on the inside.The noises from the medical devices were disturbing, making her frown.“Are you happy now? You made me into this weak woman. You made me feel such strong emotions… Fine, I will admit it. Looking at you like this is killing me. You once told me that I drove you to madness. You are doing the same to me… You flew halfway across the world to chase me and you have caused me so much pain. Are you happy now? Answer me! Kail!”Silence.It felt like she was standing in a cold graveyard. Watching him looking helpless, Silje put her hand on her chest and said to him slowly, “You won. You have ruined me, so
This was the first time Christian told her his true feelings. Silje didn’t know what to say at first. She thought for a second before asking him slowly, “If you get to come with me to the hospital now, do you think it will make you feel better? Would it be enough to make you feel like you no longer owe me anything?”“Probably.”Christian nodded and continued, “This will be the last time. I will take you to the hospital. You look like you are in shock so I don’t think you will be able to get there on your own anyway in your current state.”He was right. Silje was pretending to be calm, but her legs were shaking. She looked up at him and replied quietly, “Alright. Then could you drive me to the hospital, Christian? I need to see him.”“Of course.”She had to see him.On the phone, Silje was told that Kail was in a terrible accident and he was dying.The man she hate
The phone rang in the middle of the night.The woman swore in annoyance as she took a sip of her whiskey. Putting down her cigarette, she picked up the phone with her perfectly manicured hand.“Hello?”Messy blond hair, clad in black slip wet with sweat.A naked man watched her as she answered the phone. Ingrid was with a young man in a hotel room when the phone rang. Breathlessly, she answered, “What? Seriously! You finally got rid of him! Perfect. Good job. I knew you could do it. It was worth the money. Good. So now, you need to cross the border to go to Mexico and then take the boat to the Caribbean island like we planned. I will take care of the costs, so don’t worry. Make sure to destroy your cellphone as well. Rolf can never find out about this. Gosh!!! Finally! Finally, the day has come!”Ingrid laughed hysterically at the news. She took another sip of her whiskey as if to celebrate.The blond young man
When she came out wrapped in a white towel, Tasha was talking to her boyfriend on the phone. Anna was away in Saint Petersburg doing a photoshoot for Russian Vogue, so the dorm was quieter than usual.A siren was heard from outside but Silje was used to it by now. Drying her hair with the towel, Silje looked out the window with a bitter expression.She was used to this life now. When she first came to New York, she felt lost in this giant city.However, she no longer felt lonely. She used to be completely alone, but now, she had friends, including Jung Yun. After work, Silje often chatted with her friends.Jung Yun, especially, became a close friend. Jung Yun, a fellow model and the daughter of Silje’s favorite Korean restaurant owner, often gave Silje helpful advice regarding modeling.And of course, Silje sometimes talked to Niels and Tran in Oslo. She also contacted Irina from time to time. These were people who were happy for Silje’
After returning home from dinner with Christian, Silje changed into more comfortable clothes. She still lived in the agency dorm with the other models. Since she didn’t live alone, it wasn’t perfectly private, but Silje still felt like she belonged here.“Hello, Silje.”Tasha greeted her. She was a model from Eastern Europe with a long ponytail. She was wearing a yoga shirt and black hot pants. They lived with another model named Anna who was from Russia. The three got along well and they often went for meals together. Their favorite place was in Chinatown.Silje also had a wide network of acquaintances. She was often invited to parties where she was able to enjoy good jazz music and wine. Silje liked these parties sometimes, but she still couldn’t get used to them like many other New York models.What mattered the most to her was her work, but still, Silje recently opened up her heart and worked on her social life as well. I