"… I will kill them. I won't ever pardon them. Never."
There was certifiably not a solitary star in the dark sky. Strolling gradually, Silje mumbled in torment, "Do they truly believe I will lose? He said he will test my karma? They better realize that this is the greatest misstep they have made. I will endure this evening. I will ensure. I won't kick the bucket here this way."
Silje kept on strolling, however her body was exceptionally near abandoning her.
Her body was frozen, and she wasn't feeling much for some time now. Her feet were numb, and she needed to utilize all that she needed to make them move.
Her wrist hurt. The draining wouldn't stop so it kept on trickling. To oppose her aggravation and outrage, Silje gripped her clench hands. She gritted her teeth to prevent herself from groaning.
"I will kill him. I won't ever pardon him, that charlatan!"
While draining and strolling, Silje looked forward the interminable void field canvassed in white snow.
'How could I arrive? Why? I was brought here as far as possible from a distant land called Korea… to this chilly frosty land? For what reason am I strolling on this frozen street while dying?'
She swore she could always remember this. She could never relinquish this aggravation.
She hauled her legs and kept on following the dull street. The wounds from today may gradually vanish, however the enthusiastic scars from today could never blur.
Not entirely set in stone to look for where she should have been. It was not her present house where she was never welcome, however where she could feel genuine warmth.
She won't ever surrender. Silje will generally instinctually go towards her actual home, any place it very well might be: a spot with a warm fire and, surprisingly, hotter and kinder individuals who really focused on her.
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"Hello! You're doing everything wrong! I let you know that is not the perfect place, but rather you continue to make it happen. To hang the casings, then, at that point, get everything done as well as possible. It should be straight. The shifted outlines make this store look chaotic and disorderly!"
"No, they aren't! The store looks fine."
The moderately aged man murmured and answered to the tanned lady with a piercing voice.
"Tran, this is my store. On the off chance that I couldn't actually have command over my own place, how could I try possessing it? I'm hungover from aquavit, so would you be able to simply ease off of me today?"
"How could you chug down such a solid beverage? It's your shortcoming. I will get you a few pain relievers so take a load off here. What's more, quit putting the nails on the divider, okay?"
"If it's not too much trouble, let me be. My head is beating. Blrrr! I feel like I will hurl."
All of a sudden, the entryway opened and Silje strolled in. Gasping vigorously, she strolled toward the two individuals. Silje was accustomed to seeing them contend.
At the point when Tran spotted Silje, she grinned energetically.
"Goodness! Silje, why are you here during this season of night?"
This cafeteria was thirty minutes from Silje's home. She worked parttime here on ends of the week and a few non-weekend days also, however never this late. Around evening time, the spot sold liquor and Silje, as a minor, couldn't work.
The two individuals checked her in shock out.
"Silje, accomplished something occur?"
The proprietor, Niels, was perched on a seat tediously when he pivoted. A tall man of more than 190 centimeters, he had his hands on his sanctuaries as though he were in torment.
"I drank an excessive amount of aquavit, Silje. My head is killing me, however Tran is making me fix the casings on the divider. Gosh, she is so irritating!"
"The casings aren't hung straight! How about we ask Silje. Wouldn't you say the shifted outlines on the divider look diverting to the clients? What is your take?"
"Goodness… That is… "At the point when Silje genuinely couldn't reply, which was surprising for her, Niels was confounded.
"Silje, you don't look alright. On the off chance that you came here in light of the fact that you really want to utilize the washroom, go on. Gracious, I practically neglected. Last weekend, a blonde young lady came in and requested your name. Was that your companion? Goodness, I can't take this any longer. I really want to take a few pain relievers. My head is killing me."
"Goodness! I will get it for you from the kitchen. I think we have some crisis prescriptions there."
"Goodness… I don't have to utilize the washr… oom… I didn't come here for… washroom… "
At the point when Silje shook her head and keep on shaking with her pale face, Tran halted out of nowhere. She understood something was exceptionally off-base.
"You… will be you… "
Silje had her hand still in her jacket pocket. At the point when she tumbled forward, Tran raised her voice.
"You! Show me your hand now!"
At the point when Silje took a gander at her with her eyes augmented in dread, Tran immediately strolled towards her and snatched Silje's hand out from her pocket.
"Gyaaa!!!!"
Tran shouted when she saw Silje's ridiculous hand.
"Be that as it may, I'm fine at this point. On account of you, I am here at the emergency clinic. I'm okay."
"Is it true or not that you are insane? Have you flown off the handle? You're letting me know you truly will return home presently this way?"
"This isn't fine, Silje. Nobody would be fine on the off chance that they went through what you did this evening. I figure you ought to remain for the time being at the emergency clinic. I will make sense of everything for your folks."
At the point when Silje demanded returning home, Tran and Niels, who carried her to the emergency clinic, ended up being furious.
"This is the sort of thing that gets on the papers. On the off chance that your new parents keep on disregarding this issue, even after this evening, they won't pull off it this time! I won't let them! Don't you get it? This is obviously youngster misuse! This shouldn't occur!"
"No, similar to I recently said, I'm fine. Much obliged to you, Tran and Niels. On account of both of you, I sought the fundamental treatment. The cut is completely sewed up, so I ought to return home at this point. Furthermore… "
Her face was past pale. Silje couldn't quit shaking, however her eyes were dead quiet. Her voice was firm when she asked Niels, "Kindly don't tear down my new parents. Regardless of what, I am appreciative for them for raising me."
"… I can't completely accept that you actually feel as such."
Niels viewed at Silje in dissatisfaction as he proceeded, "Let me know who did this to you this evening. Do you have at least some idea what number of fastens you got a little while ago? You actually need to cover for those individuals you call your folks? Assuming you have that impression, I surmise there is no way around it, however it is reprehensible for them to disregard your aggravation and languishing. They are defeatists! Exactly what sort of individuals imagine nothing is occurring?"
"My new parents treat me compassionate."
At the point when Silje persevered in a temperamental however firm voice, Niels turned out to be tranquil. Tran, who was remaining close to them, opened her mouth.
"We are saying this since we are stressed over you, Silje. You were attacked by your schoolmates, so wouldn't you say we reserve the privilege to be worried for your wellbeing? You should concede that your new parents' way of behaving up until this point doesn't give us certainty that they mean well. Regardless of whether you return home currently like you needed to, we have no clue about what your new parents could do, right?"
Tran talked roughly, however Silje realized she had good intentions. Tran's displeasure came from her anxiety for Silje.
Silje took a full breath. Her wrist was done dying, however it was pulsating. She felt unwell and she realized she had a fever. In particular, she was unable to decline Tran and Niels' thoughtfulness.
"I know what you are talking about, Tran. Much obliged to you both, folks. Then, at that point, I will ask you for some help. Kindly return me to the cafeteria… "
At the point when Tran and Niels looked confounded, Silje made an honest effort to give them a grin and added, "I need to have hot chocolate prior to returning home. I figure it will assist me with feeling significantly improved."
Steaming hot cocoa, warm chimney, comfortable couch, and individuals who really focused on her.In the tranquil cafeteria, Silje tasted on her beverage and grinned brilliantly to console them."Goodness, it's so scrumptious. I love it. It's warming me up."Tran and Niels took a gander at Silje in shock briefly, however Tran immediately began to laugh uncontrollably."It's that great, eh?"At the point when Silje gestured, Tran snickered once more."Then, at that point, I will get you another so have however much you need. You are so peculiar, Silje. How might you be so quiet experiencing the same thing?""I for the most part don't drink hot chocolate. I don't eat different desserts frequently either, however when I feel down, I eat sweet cake.""Okay. I trust this cheers you up.""… Ok. Much obliged to you."Silje took one more taste from her cup and said unobtrusively, "Thank you for being with me like thi
For a couple of days, Silje turned out to be exceptionally sick.When she got back home, her body must've loose and she at long last acknowledged the amount she had gone as the night progressed. Her wrist felt extraordinarily excruciating and she caught an extreme fever. Her feet and hands additionally experienced frostbite.The enthusiastic cost for her was the straw that broke the camel's back and she was unable to get up the following day. She told her new parents she had a terrible fever thus she remained at home for a couple of days.Silje frantically needed to stop school right away, however she needed to move on from secondary school. That was the main way for her to compensate her new parents for raising her, and it was additionally the main way for her to authentically venture out from home.Similarly as she had done all through her whole life, she needed to persevere through everything. Silje chose to just contemplate graduating and that's it. H
After Ingrid left, Kail was going to light another cigarette when he grimaced."She demolished it."He mumbled to himself and got his jacket. He really wanted something to encourage him."Welcome, Kail. You honor us with your presence."Lady Camila grinned enchantingly and welcomed him.Kail entered the restrictive Karl Johans club in Oslo. Within was embellished with Persian floor coverings, extravagant ceiling fixtures, red velvet draperies, and Wedgwood one china containers. With high roofs and dull floors, the magnificence of the spot was threatening.In the background, ladies' chuckling could be heard from the private rooms. Not at all like the other normal clubs, this spot guaranteed unadulterated animalistic delight. For this reason Kail visited this place some of the time when he felt disappointed.Kail addressed the entertainer who was exceptionally eager to see him."You are so great at honeyed words, Madam.""
Ding dong ding dong.As the ringer rang, Silje entered the study hall with her dressed wrist.It was the second time of the day and she was going to go to her exemplary writing class. It was an elective, so the understudies in the room weren't her customary schoolmates.At the point when she strolled in, everybody gazed at her. The gossip of the occurrence among her and Kail had proactively spread generally, so the children murmured among themselves. They were obviously discussing her, however Silje disregarded them and plunked down unobtrusively. She was utilized to this.The instructor began the illustration, "How about we start from where we left off last time. In the northern European fantasy, berserkers were Odin's most courageous men who did without protective layers into fight. They… ."Of all subjects, the instructor was discussing berserkers. Silje could have done without it. It helped her to remember Satan, Kail.Her wrist a
This had happened for a considerable length of time. She won't let this gibberish proceed. The individual who went after her was remaining in front and ridiculing her. She needed to retaliate. Silje grimaced forcefully and spat out his name."Kail Jorgen Bruntland."At her furious voice, Kail gradually gazed toward her. Silje didn't turn away and inquired, "That is your name, right?""So?"When he replied with a sweet grin, Silje gritted her teeth and proceeded, "And you are the horrible ruler of Bestrum Skole, right?"One, two, three seconds.Out of nowhere, Kail snickered boisterously, filling the whole corridor."It made perfect sense to you. It seems like you know me well overall, so I don't have anything to say about that."Kail grinned enchantingly and proceeded, "You're entertaining. I hadn't understood how well known I was. I'm respected."At the point when Kail bowed jokingly, Silje bit her lips."Quit ri
Silje disregarded him and went comparably regular at work."Goodness! This salmon sandwich is astonishing. All the sandwiches made today were awesome.""Obviously. I put my everything into it, so it should be great.""Then, at that point, I will have another."Snickering and having a good time, Silje looked delightful and Kail couldn't quit checking her out. In her pink sweater and pants, she at long last resembled an ordinary high school young lady. She seemed healthy enough for once."It's so scrumptious! Haha."Silje grinned and continually ate as though she was starving and continued to shout how great the food was. At the point when more clients came in, she happily welcomed them and took their orders.Her satisfaction irritated him."Welcome!"Gazing at her, Kail grinned obscurely.Which side of her was her genuine self?Kail's grin was shadowy and ridiculous. He became inquisitive.'I can't he
Silje saw the recognizable face. With bleach light hair and clear violet eyes, it was Brigit who looked self-important as she was encircled by two or three people.Irina mumbled, "She is separated from everyone else today."Silje knew what she implied.Brigit wasn't with Kail Satan today.At the point when Brigit saw Silje, she snickered with her companions and scowled at her with disdain.Irina told Silje, "She is going out with Kail.""Kail?""That is correct. Just somebody like Brigit could date a sovereign like Kail I presume."Irina assumed Brigit and Kail were individuals of a more significant level."Every one of the folks deal with Brigit like a goddess. She can be excessively, so just somebody like Kail could presumably control her. Kail is… "Contemplating the horrible ruler, Irina burst into chuckling. Like the wide range of various young ladies in the school, she checked out at him with an abnor
The time she enjoyed with Irina was a magnificent break from her grim life. It was whenever Silje first felt warmth from a cohort. She contemplated whether this could be a defining moment in her school life.However, she wasn't right, tragically. The harassing proceeded. It turned out to be more regrettable, truth be told. Another talk expressed that she was Kail's next target, and her swathed wrist appeared to be sufficient evidence. Believing that Kail detested her, children became crueler to her."Something smells terrible here."Two or three children stuck bits of gum on Silje's jeans and begun to yell that she peed in her jeans. They snickered at her and Silje attempted to disregard them, however when she was going to plunk down, a child behind her pulled the seat back. Silje fell on the floor clumsily and the children began chuckling at her once more.This was just plain awful.Silje attempted to stand up, yet the children immediately encompa
Beep, beep.The street was busy with familiar yellow cabs and other cars. It was rush hour, and everyone was trying to get home while the restaurants and bars started to light up their neon signs.Beep, beep.The drivers honked in frustration, but Silje, who was on foot, was walking with a light heart. It was rush hour, but it didn’t mean anything to her.In an ivory trench coat, high heels, and a pink scarf, Silje looked like spring. Wearing a pair of sunglasses, she smiled happily as she hurriedly walked to her destination.It wasn’t that she was late, and she actually didn’t know where she would be going tonight. She was going to call him very soon to find out what he wanted to do.Waiting for the green light, she took a deep breath. The wind was still chilly, but it felt gentle, reminding her that the spring was finally coming to New York.“Could it really be almost spring already? It has been so cold this
Two years later at a TV studio for the show “One” Norway.“Hello, everyone. We are here today to interview the world-famous model Silje Kim. Oh, there she is, walking out. Do you see her? She has arrived right on time for her interview. The audience is turning around to get a glimpse of her. Yes, that’s right. Beautiful long black hair, calm black eyes, exotic features, and a gorgeous body. She was one of the top Asian models in New York until recently when she retired after getting married. She wrote an autobiography titled ‘The Swan’ which is receiving enormous attention from the public. In her book, Silje Kim talks about the terrible racism she experienced in her youth, going through an abortion as a teenager, and moving to New York to become a successful model. Her candidness has captured her audience’s attention and ‘The Swan’ is currently the number one bestseller in Norway. Her writing is considered to be excellent
Kail was in a coma for well over a week.After ten days of not waking up, the doctors didn’t seem to have much hope for him. Instead of becoming hysterical, Silje began to feel calmer as the uncertain time passed.She felt like she was ready to let him go now.With that thought, Silje visited the hospital again. Smelling the unpleasant disinfectant and walking into the VIP room, she stopped suddenly.“…”For some reason, there were more doctors and nurses inside the room than usual. Silje raised her eyebrows in confusion. Something felt different. These people weren’t here just for a routine round.One of the nurses noticed Silje and informed her, “The patient woke up a little while ago. You can visit him if you want, but only briefly.”Kail was awake.Just when she finally came to terms with his death, God sent her an unexpected gift. Walking slowly to his bed, Silje looked at him cal
Silje took the shiny scissors to Kail’s wrist.“…”She cut his pale skin, making the shockingly red blood drip from it.Next, it was her turn. Silje did the same on her delicate wrist.She dripped her own blood into Kail’s wound, as if this act could make them one.“I can’t let you go yet, so this is what I am going to do. You are not allowed to leave me. I’m sure there will be plenty of people in the world who would be pleased to have you die, but I am not ready for you to leave yet.”Kail still wouldn’t move, and Silje looked down at him coldly.“You are not allowed to die without my permission, Kail. You made me the way I am now, so don’t even think about leaving me without my permission. I will never forgive you if you die on me like this. You always do whatever you want, causing me so much pain, but this time, I will not let you get what you want. You can&rs
Pale face covered in wounds.Tubes going into his mouth to hook him to a ventilator.Kail was barely breathing, but despite the desperate situation, he still looked like a beautiful deity underneath the blue moon.Silje stared at him. She looked calm on the outside, but she felt her heart breaking on the inside.The noises from the medical devices were disturbing, making her frown.“Are you happy now? You made me into this weak woman. You made me feel such strong emotions… Fine, I will admit it. Looking at you like this is killing me. You once told me that I drove you to madness. You are doing the same to me… You flew halfway across the world to chase me and you have caused me so much pain. Are you happy now? Answer me! Kail!”Silence.It felt like she was standing in a cold graveyard. Watching him looking helpless, Silje put her hand on her chest and said to him slowly, “You won. You have ruined me, so
This was the first time Christian told her his true feelings. Silje didn’t know what to say at first. She thought for a second before asking him slowly, “If you get to come with me to the hospital now, do you think it will make you feel better? Would it be enough to make you feel like you no longer owe me anything?”“Probably.”Christian nodded and continued, “This will be the last time. I will take you to the hospital. You look like you are in shock so I don’t think you will be able to get there on your own anyway in your current state.”He was right. Silje was pretending to be calm, but her legs were shaking. She looked up at him and replied quietly, “Alright. Then could you drive me to the hospital, Christian? I need to see him.”“Of course.”She had to see him.On the phone, Silje was told that Kail was in a terrible accident and he was dying.The man she hate
The phone rang in the middle of the night.The woman swore in annoyance as she took a sip of her whiskey. Putting down her cigarette, she picked up the phone with her perfectly manicured hand.“Hello?”Messy blond hair, clad in black slip wet with sweat.A naked man watched her as she answered the phone. Ingrid was with a young man in a hotel room when the phone rang. Breathlessly, she answered, “What? Seriously! You finally got rid of him! Perfect. Good job. I knew you could do it. It was worth the money. Good. So now, you need to cross the border to go to Mexico and then take the boat to the Caribbean island like we planned. I will take care of the costs, so don’t worry. Make sure to destroy your cellphone as well. Rolf can never find out about this. Gosh!!! Finally! Finally, the day has come!”Ingrid laughed hysterically at the news. She took another sip of her whiskey as if to celebrate.The blond young man
When she came out wrapped in a white towel, Tasha was talking to her boyfriend on the phone. Anna was away in Saint Petersburg doing a photoshoot for Russian Vogue, so the dorm was quieter than usual.A siren was heard from outside but Silje was used to it by now. Drying her hair with the towel, Silje looked out the window with a bitter expression.She was used to this life now. When she first came to New York, she felt lost in this giant city.However, she no longer felt lonely. She used to be completely alone, but now, she had friends, including Jung Yun. After work, Silje often chatted with her friends.Jung Yun, especially, became a close friend. Jung Yun, a fellow model and the daughter of Silje’s favorite Korean restaurant owner, often gave Silje helpful advice regarding modeling.And of course, Silje sometimes talked to Niels and Tran in Oslo. She also contacted Irina from time to time. These were people who were happy for Silje’
After returning home from dinner with Christian, Silje changed into more comfortable clothes. She still lived in the agency dorm with the other models. Since she didn’t live alone, it wasn’t perfectly private, but Silje still felt like she belonged here.“Hello, Silje.”Tasha greeted her. She was a model from Eastern Europe with a long ponytail. She was wearing a yoga shirt and black hot pants. They lived with another model named Anna who was from Russia. The three got along well and they often went for meals together. Their favorite place was in Chinatown.Silje also had a wide network of acquaintances. She was often invited to parties where she was able to enjoy good jazz music and wine. Silje liked these parties sometimes, but she still couldn’t get used to them like many other New York models.What mattered the most to her was her work, but still, Silje recently opened up her heart and worked on her social life as well. I