Chapter 24MelancholyDinaluhan ko si Ice na nakatayo habang hawak ang likod. Ivan was lying on the carpeted floor. Nagmamadali kong hinila ang anak ko at protective na itinabi sa akin."Don't you dare hurt my son, Ivan!" I yelled.My mind was in chaos. Pansamantalang nanahan ang galit sa akin. Ivan rose. Humakbang ako paatras bitbit si Ice."Rigella—" He tried to reach me but I took a step back."You monster! Kahit ang anak natin, hindi mo kayang palagpasin?!" sigaw kong muli."M-Mama!" Ice cried beside me.I looked down to him. He was not shedding tears but he's wincing. Na-realize kong masiyadong mahigpit ang hawak ko sa kaniya. I loosened my hold on him. Lumuhod ako."N-Nasaktan ka ba, Ice? Did Papa hit you? Where? Tell me. Ituro mo—""We were just playing wrestling, Mama. What are you saying?" kunot noo niyang tanong."W-Wrestling?" I stammered.He nodded. "But it's not like what I see in movies because Papa's moves were limp. He didn't hurt me anywhere."He pulled a long face. M
Chapter 25AdamantDid he really think I would believe him and his words? That I will, yet again, yield to whatever lie he's telling me?I watched Ivan packed his clothes... including mine. Tulala lang ako sa isang tabi habang iniisip ang nangyari kagabi. It was a good thing he let go of me. Ang akala ko'y hindi na. And so after that, I ran with the fastest speed I could.Pero nahabol niya ako at dinala sa aming kuwarto. Hindi na rin ako nakapanlaban pa dahil sa pagod hindi lang ng katawan ko kundi pati na rin ng isip. I felt so worn out that I immediately slept right after seeing him settling himself on the sofa to sleep.Hindi sapat sa akin na ginawa niya iyon — na alam niya ang galit ko sa kaniya. I want him to be on the same page with me. I want him to declare our separation. Dahil ako, siguradong-sigurado na.I still love him but unlike before that I keep my quiet even though there's a huge hurricane between us, now it feels like that hurricane crushed my tiny, remaining particle
Chapter 26SignsI kept a stoic look. Is he testing my patience? Puwes, kung pahabaan lang din naman ng pasensiya, hindi ba dapat alam na niyang ako ang panalo sa aming dalawa? After the years of my endurance and faithfulness to him, he should know better.Kaya tama, hindi dapat ako magpaapekto."Fine," mariin kong saad habang pilit ang ngiti.Be thankful that I could see it as an opportunity to my way out.Naisip kong kung nasa labas kami at wala dito na puno ng tauhan, mas mapapadali ang pag-alis namin ng anak ko. Just don't he ever, ever bring his men with us.I stood up. Kaya lang, bago pa lang ako tutuwid ng tayo, umalon na agad ang paningin ko. I tilted my head. Pumikit ako nang mariin.Kumirot bigla ang ulo ko. My vision blurred a bit, too.Pero wala na akong sakit. I'm sure of that.Bakit bigla-bigla naman akong nahilo?"Rigella?" Ivan callec. Abala ako sa pagpawi ng kirot sa ulo at ng hilo na hindi ko na namalayan ang paglapit ni Ivan. He held my arm. Kahit medyo hirap pa, l
Chapter 27UnsaidAbala ako sa paglilibot ng tingin sa lugar mula sa terasa nang may marinig akong pagkabasag. I was startled on my feet. Nagmadali akong pumasok sa loob ng bahay."What's that?" tanong ko sa sarili.Walang katok akong pumasok sa isang kuwartong pinagmulan ng tunog. Naabutan ko si Ivan na hindi maganda ang ekspresiyon habang nagpupulot ng mga bubog sa sahig. He was holding a broken picture frame.Kumunot ang noo ko. "What happened?"He was taken aback. Matagal bago siya nag-angat ng tingin sa akin. He cursed probably when he realized I was really near him."Anong nangyari, Ivan?" ulit ko.He didn't speak a word. Humugot siya ng isang malalim na buntonghininga. Tumigil siya sa kaniyang ginagawa.Laking gulat ko nang humakbang siya nang malalaki papalapit sa akin. He hugged me afterwards. Halos mahigit ko ang aking hininga habang nakabalot ang kaniyang mga braso. My lips parted but no voice came out.Wait... what's this? Is he really hugging me? O hallucination lang 'to?
Chapter 28 Burn Mas tumindi ang pag-iyak ko. He did his best to calm me. Hinimas niya ang aking likod at buhok. He repeatedly said his sorry like tomorrow will not come so he'd rather lose his voice to tell them to me. Ayoko ng ganitong pakiramdam. I'm starting to get curious of what he's up to. Binabagabag ako ng dahilan niyang ikasisira ng mundo ko kung sasabihin niya. He's full of mystery. Sino ba siya? Ano bang nagawa ko para maranasan lahat ng 'to sa puder niya? Ano bang kinalaman ko pa sa kaniya maliban sa mag-asawa na lang kami sa papel? Ginigising na kami ng mga pangyayari sa katotohanan. We shouldn't stay together anymore! What went into his head that he's suddenly acting like... he wants me to stay? "Ginawa ko ang lahat. Maniwala ka. 'Wag ka nang umiyak..." he hushed me. Napatigil lang ako sa pag-iyak nang may kumatok sa pinto. Suminghap ako at marahang nagpahid ng luha. The sharp pain didn't leave my chest. Hinawakan ko iyon at sinubukang ayusin ang aking paghinga. I
Chapter 29Special"Gaano tayo katagal dito?" banayad kong tanong habang pinapanood siyang palitan ng benda ang kaniyang sugat sa paa.He treated his wound before dinner last night. Sa umagang ito naman, pinalitan niya dahil may pupuntahan daw kami kasama si Ice. I want to ask if there will be guards around us but I chose not to. "H-Hindi ba masakit ang paa mo?" I asked warily.Isang malaking biro nga yatang maituturing na nagagawa ko pang makipag-usap sa kaniya nang kaswal. After last night, I don't know. Everything seemed to feel lighter.But doesn't mean it affected me, I don't plan on leaving anymore. Hindi. Siguro, nasa sulok lang ng mga iniisip ko ang kagustuhan kong umalis. Nandoon pa rin iyon at hindi nawawala. Lalo pa na mas iniisip ko ang posibilidad na buntis ako.God knows I want to confirm it so bad. Kahit naulit ang pagsusuka ko kanina, gusto ko pa rin ng ebidensiya. I cannot act the way that I did anymore, if it's true.He brought down his foot when he's done. Bukas pa
Chapter 30EmotionsWe left the office when I already cooled down. Naghihintay roon si Ivan na nakahawak ang kamay sa baywang habang ang isa naman ay sa telepono. He turned his back on us when he saw us."I told you no dirty business. Last month was horrible enough. Do something about it!" his voice echoed in the room.I covered Ice's ears when I realized how angry he was although he's trying his best to lower his voice down. Maybe it's his work. Kasasabi lang niya kanina na wala siyang aasikasuhin pero heto siya at namomroblema na.Bumuntonghininga ako."I can't go right now. Do you have your chains on me? I'm always locked like a dog! Fucking spare me just this once!"Sinulyapan ko si Ice na abala sa kaniyang tablet. Good thing I gave it to him earlier."Don't fucking bother me or else, I'll use all the power I have to seize you. You know me, Seis," aniya sa nagbabantang boses.Harshly, he turned the call off. Nahuli ko pang pinatay niya ang kaniyang cellphone.I cleared my throat.
Chapter 31DisbeliefHabang nasa sasakyan, may nasulyapan akong convenience store na may katabing pharmacy kaya saglit akong nagpadaan kay Ivan. Mabuti na lang at nasa mood yata siya kaya tinigil niya sa tabing kalsada ang sasakyan. The cars tailing behind us stopped, too."What will you buy inside?" tanong niya habang nagtatanggal ako ng seatbelt.Nag-isip muna ako ng sasabihin. "Paubos na 'yung breakfast oats ni Ice. I'll buy another one for him."Pinilig niya ang kaniyang ulo. "Saan? Sa convenience store?"Itinabi ko ang seatbelt. "Hmm. Mabilis lang ako. I can... take a bodyguard with me."Saglit niya akong tinitigan. Mukhang may nagtatalo pa sa loob niya kung papayagan ba ako o hindi. I rolled my eyes inwardly. Ayaw niya ba talaga akong makawala?"Go on," buntonghininga niya at inabutan ako ng pera.I simply smiled. Bago bumaba sa sasakyan, sinilip ko muna ang anak ko sa backseat. He's still sleeping. I'm not really sure about leaving him here because of the thought that Ivan migh
Chapter 61His Past (Part 2)“What’s that? Pampalubag loob mo?” Larisse asked sternly and coldly after I handed over her a bouquet of flowers and chocolates.I kept a small smile, still. She can really be difficult at times, but I can understand. We’re each other’s reflection. We are so alike.Two people sharing the same dilemma. Their parents.Maybe that’s what prolly gravitated us towards each other.“Please, accept this?” I said softly, cajoling her, “I made the chocolates by myself.”Mabilis na nagbago ang seryoso niyang ekspresyon. Her face softened. Lumawak ang ngiti ko. She then finally accepted the flowers and chocolates.She straightened out her arms, offering a hug. Ngumiti ako niyakap siya. “It’s your fault, but apology accepted.”Napawi nang kaunti ang ngiti ko. I remembered why we ended up breaking up weeks ago. Nagselos siya sa babaeng lumapit sa ‘kin para kausapin ako saglit.Lara she couldn’t control her jealousy sometimes that it gave me thoughts. If this is really w
Chapter 60His Past (Part 1)“You ranked first, but this is not enough,” Papa told me, one time in my last year in high school, when I showed him my report card.I came into his office thinking that when I‘d brought him the good news, he‘d finally allow me to have culinary classes again. That was my only hope.But then, as per his very words...It’s still not enough.“What do you mean?“ mahina kong tanong nang tanggapin ko ang binalik niyang report card.My grades were high. I never had any eight or seven. Only nines and even a hundred.Why does he keep on underestimating my hard-earned efforts?“That’s still insufficient for you to be accepted in Harvard,“ he answered as if it was too simple to do.My lips parted. I was rendered speechless.I only... wanted one thing. To take culinary classes. I loved cooking. I loved the feeling of being able to serve people with delicious food. It’s... something that not all men in my league aspires to do, but I do.I can always breathe as long as
Chapter 59Her Doubts“It’s not that he forgot completely who Uno is. It’s that he’s under a trance, and he can’t say his name. Guess what? This is how he‘d been for the last thirteen years, Rigella,” mapait na dagdag ni Tres.Halos manigas ako sa aking kinatatayuan. My mouth parted but no voice came out. Umangat ang tingin ko kay Ivan na nanghihina pa rin at tila naluluha. And I just noticed, his eyes looked lost and and dead.What the hell is this?!“Maniniwala ka ba talaga sa gagong ‘to, Andrea?” Danger asked which made my rationality come back.True enough, that’s ridiculous.Tres hypnotized Ivan? What kind of excuse is that? Ano ito? Para lang hindi nila masabi sa ‘kin kung sino talaga si Uno?Of course! They’d avoid answering my one and only question. Kasamahan nila sa organisasyon ang demonyong ‘yon kaya pagtatakpan nila kahit buhay pa nila ang maging kapalit.And now, they’re trying to escape me with that pathetic excuse?“Great question, Cinco. It’s like you really don’t kno
Chapter 58Her Shock“What do you mean?!” I asked Ivan with a ragged breath.Habol ko ang aking hininga habang paulit-ulit ang pagdagundong sa dibdib ko. Halos kilabutan ako sa narinig ko sa kaniya.My enemy numero uno... my archnemesis... Uno...Is just within my reach... so close to me... all this fucking time?!His head fell weakly. Kumunot ang noo niya at parang litong-lito. Lumapit ako at padarag siyang hinawakan sa balikat.“Answer me! Sino si Uno!” Niyugyog ko ang nakatali niyang katawan.He lifted his head and our eyes met. May sugat siya sa gilid ng kaniyang mata at may pasa sa pisngi. His lip was bleeding.“I... I can’t say it,” he hissed.My brows quickly pulled together. “Are you insane? Sasabihin mo lang! Sabihin mo sa ‘kin kung sino si Uno!”Puno ng kalituhan ang mukha niya. What I noticed was his eyes. He looked very confused and his eyes were bloodshot.“S-Si... Si...” he attempted to say something, but he would pause each time he tries to speak.Niyugyog ko siyang mul
Chapter 57Her Danger“I want you to choose which method I should use on you,” nakahalukipkip kong tanong at pinadaan ang talim ng kutsilyo sa gilid ng leeg ni Ivan, “a torturous death... or an easy way out?” Kalmado pa rin ang mukha niya kahit nakababa na kami mula sa van at dinala ko siya sa isa sa mga rest house ko sa isang liblib na lugar sa probinsya.He was seated on the sofa of my living room — with both hands and feet cuffed. Nasa akin ang susi ng posas at naka-double lock din iyon. Unless, he‘d burn his own arms and legs, then he could get out.Nagkalat sa paligid ang mga tauhan ko at nasa taas din sina Sapphire at Emerald. Diamond left the port the moment I instructed her to guard my son and take him to a safe place. Kung saan tumutuloy si Darlyn at ang anak niya.“What do you want to know?” tanong niya at diretso ang tingin sa kawalan.From his back, I grabbed his chin. Inangat ko iyon hanggang sa ma-expose ang leeg niya. I pointed the edge of the knife on his neck.“Who i
Chapter 56His Surrender“Kill me,” I told her in a breathy voice.She wasn’t even fazed. The cold smirk on her lips told me that she didn’t feel anything about me anymore.I’m nothing but a prey for her... that she needs to kill and dispatch.My vision blurred even more. My heart clenched in pain. Umigting ang panga ko at nagbaba ng tingin. Kumuyom ang aking kamao.“Just do it, Rigella.” I have nothing else to say but it.Because I know, I deserve every pain and torture for not being able to protect her before.For letting those evil minds treat me like a guinea pig. For letting them mess up my mind that primarily affected my relationship with my wife and my family. It’s all my fault... and I deserve to die for it.“One question, Ivan,” aniya at mas diniin ang nguso ng baril sa aking noo, “are you Uno?” My eyes widened a bit. She... knows Uno? Then she probably knows that goddamn org, Dark Alpha.It shouldn’t surprise me anymore, but it still did. She’s Andrea Steinfields now. Som
Chapter 55Her Comeback“Momma, she’s crying,” nag-aalalang saad ni Rayven sa telepono.My heart clenched. “Baby, what happened? Did Rayne got hurt? Are you both okay?”“Yes, Momma. We’re okay. She had a nightmare. She told us you disappeared in an instant and never came back again in her dream.”Napahinga ako nang maluwag nang marinig iyon. Lulan ako ng van na patungo sa private port na pagmamay-ari ni Dos. A total of ten vehicles are tailing my van.Today is the D-day. I’ll finally come face-to-face with my pathetic little ex-husband after so many years. “Rayven, can you do something for Momma?” I asked carefully. “What is it?”“Please pass the phone to your sister? Tell her I called.” Tumahimik naman ang kabilang linya. I heard my daughter crying over the phone. Pumikit ako nang mariin. It breaks my heart to hear her cry like that at wala man lang ako sa tabi niya.“Rayne, Momma wants to talk to you,” I heard Rayven’s calm voice.“H-Huh? Momma? Momma is calling, Rayven?!” I hear
Chapter 54His Seat“Dos, can you calm this asshole?” iritadong saad ni Cuatro matapos maupo sa kaniyang upuan. I also settled in my seat, wearing my mask of indifference. Nakaupo na rin si Tres sa gitna namin. He’s massaging the bridge of his nose as if something’s pestering his mind.The oval meeting table was still unoccupied by the other members of Dark Alpha. Nauna kaming dumating at malalamang na namahuhuli si Uno dahil gusto niya na namang magpapansin sa lahat.“What’s wrong?” I asked in a serious voice.Cuatro hissed. “Sagutin mo, gago!” He punched Tres’ arm. Hindi naman natinag si Xyleus. His face was serious and his brows were furrowed tight.“Cuatro,” I called Creed, “what the hell is wrong with him?”Pumalatak siya. “Tangina talaga neto ni Tres. Kinakausap ka, eh!” My jaw clenched. Nang makita niyang dumidilim na ang ekspresyon ko ay napangiwi siya.“Para kayong gago, eh. ‘Wag n’yo na nga akong idamay sa mga katarantaduhan niyo. Namumuro na kayo, ah!”“What... the fuck.
Chapter 53Her Aces“Bakit hindi ka pa kumikilos?”Danger puffed from his cigarette beside me. Niyakap ko ang sarili ko dahil sa lamig na dala ng malakas na hangin.I happened to visit my organization’s hide-out in the Philippines. Binilin ko muna kay Roxanne ang kambal. Pinaalam ko na lang na may kailangan akong gawing trabaho at naintindihan naman nila.Ayoko sanang nahihiwalay ako kina Rayne at Rayven, pero kailangan.“Why are you so excited?” tanong ko at ngumisi.Binalingan ko siya. His face was serious and dark. Napailing ako nang muli siyang humithit sa kaniyang sigarilyo.“You’ll die early with what you’re doing,” iling ko.Matunog siyang ngumisi. “Not until I had avenged my brother against that fucking Dark Alpha.”Napahinga ako nang malalim. I don’t exactly know what Danger wants out of our plan, but I just know that his hatred for the people who killed his brother fuels his desire to destroy and eliminate them.“It’s a pity that Ate Rina died before we even got our hands on