Chapter 15HappinessSa inakala ko makakapagpahinga na ako pagkatapos sa presinto pero hindi. On our way home, I felt sick. Mas naramdaman ko iyon nang bisitahin ko si Ice sa kuwarto at malakas ang buga ng air-con.We were sitting side by side. Kinamusta ko siya at binasahan na rin ng paborito niyang comic book dahil patulog na rin naman. Naibsan kahit kaunti ang sama ng pakiramdam ko dahil sa wakas, kasama ko na rin ang anak ko."You were like arguing last night. But you told me that... humans aren't perfect so they can disagree with some things because of their differences. I didn't understand what happened but I'm okay now, Mama. I know you're worried," nguso ni Ice at inabot ang kamay ko.Halos hindi ako makangiti nang maayos dahil sa nararamdamang ginaw. Instead of enduring it, I sought heat by hugging Ice. Napapikit ako."You don't need to understand, Ice. You're still young. It's an... issue between adults. Between Mama and Papa. And you did a great job, baby. I hope you don't
Chapter 16BreatheNauna akong lumabas sa kuwarto. Umiikot na ang paningin ko pero nakaya ko pa rin namang lakarin ang guest room. Things between Ivan and I werr still unsettled and it would be inappropriate for us to stay in one room.Sinarado ko ang pinto. I threw myself on the bed. I didn't bother switching the lights on. Maging na rin ang air-con o electric fan. Pakiramdam ko, bugbog na bugbog ang katawan ko.Nakadapa ako at nakabaon ang ulo sa malambot na unan. Hinila ko ang kumot para matabunan ang lamig na nararamdaman.All of a sudden the lights went on. Naaninag ko iyon kaya kumunot ang noo ko. I lifted myself so I could see the reason why it happened."Ivan?" hikab ko nang makita si Ivan na palapit.My head hurt even more with the striking light. Minasahe ko ang mga mata. On the other hand, I felt Ivan inched closer. Tinuon ko sa kaniya ang nanlalabong paningin.Lumundo ang kama sa kaniyang pagsampa. Pinilit kong makaupo dahil sa pagkabigla sa kaniyang ginawa."W-What are yo
Chapter 17 Story "Ivan is really a good help. I'm half relieved now. I just want your brother to be released. Sana'y aprubahan ang bail n'ya," Mommy stated over the phone. I just woke up from a tiring sleep when I received a call from her. Hindi ko alam. Imbis na makapagpahinga ako nang maayos, napuyat lang ako dahil sobrang lala ng ubo ko. "Tiwala lang po..." namamaos kong sinabi. "You sound sick. Are you okay? Don't make me worried even more, anak..." Naubo ako nang kaunti. "Uh... H-Hindi po. I caught some cold but I'll be fine." "You sure? I can go there. I will cook your favorite soup." "No need, 'Ma. Mas kailangan ka po ni Kuya. I can take good care of myself po. Don't worry, I'm old enough now..." She chuckled lowly. "I nearly forgot. You're still my baby girl for me, though." Tumakas sa akin ang isang tipid na ngiti. Bumuntonghininga ako at tumingala. Hinang-hina ako. I open my eyes whenever I feel my cough intensifies and I don't see Ivan beside me. I admit, umasa a
Chapter 18Unreal"What's happening?"Madali akong napahiwalay kay Manang dahil sa biglaang pagbungad ni Ivan sa may pintuan ng kusina. I wiped my tears. Kusa namang umurong ang mga senyales ng kalungkutan ko. "Hijo—" Bastos man pero pinutol ko si Manang. I don't want him to know. "Uh, medyo masakit kasi 'yung lalamunan ko. N-Naiyak lang ako sa... sakit," pagdadahilan ko. Ivan was wearing his three-piece suit. Mukhang may trabaho siya o 'di kaya, may pinuntahang trabaho. He glanced at my bowl and turned to me after. "You're eating. That's good. Uminom ka ng gamot pagkatapos," kalmadong aniya. Tipid akong tumango. "Salamat nga pala." I was expecting he'd deny it but he didn't. Instead, he asked Marilyn about the breakfast. Nagpaalam siyang may aasikasuhin muna sa office niya sa study. Doon lang ako nakahinga nang maayos. Umuubo-ubo pa rin ako kahit nalamanan na ang tiyan. I took my medicine for that hour. Natapos na rin ang agahan kaya naisipan kong gisingin na si Ice. But then
Chapter 19 Confusion Mukhang hindi nga yata ako — kami makakatulog. Quickly, he rose from his laying position. His brows pulled together quickly. Nag-iwas ako ng tingin. Why did he suddenly pay attention to it when I expect him to sleep soundly right after hearing me say those? I expected to get a cold shoulder from him again tutal, ang alam ko... wala siyang pakialam sa kahit ano tungkol sa kasal na 'to. "K-Kung gusto mo, ako ang kukuha ng abogado. I will... initiate the filing of annulment myself," I bargained hoarsely. "Are you out of your mind?" he asked coldly. Marahas akong napabaling sa kaniya. Ramdam ko ang umuusok niyang galit. His face contorted in irritation. Halos hindi ko siya malingon ulit. "Why are you staying here, then? You came back. Now you're telling me that you'll file an annulment?" his voice was dangerous. Wala akong maitugon sa sarkasmo niya. Fine, it's my issue. Hindi ko siya maiwanan sa ganoong lagay dahil sobra akong nag-alala. I knew I'd suffer the
Chapter 20 Hate "Ivan, please! 'Wag mo siyang sasaktan! 'Wag ang anak natin!" "Shut up! You are both the reason why I ended up like this. Kayo ang sumpa sa buhay ko!" "Ivan! Parang awa mo na!" "Ivan!" I screamed frighteningly. Mabilis akong napabangon. My breathing quickened. Bullets of sweat trickled my forehead. Malamig iyon at umaagos marahil dahil sa naging bangungot ko. Oh, God. I thought it was true. Akala ko sasaktan niya talaga ang anak namin. I know he would never do it but in my dream, I was very sure he'd hurt us. Kahit ako na lang sana... pero kahit si Ice... kinagalitan niya. P-Paano na lang kung mangyari iyon sa totoong buhay? Last night, I remembered him choking me. Oh, God. I immediately rose from the bed. Humarap ako sa tukador. I noticed the side of my neck swelling. Mukhang totoo nga. Totoo ang nangyari! Napahikbi ako. I couldn't control it. Malakas ang pag-iyak ko at alam kong maaabot ng tunog ang mga nasa labas. Weakly, I fell on my knees. Napaupo ako s
Chapter 21 Locked "Pakawalan n'yo ko. I'll visit my brother," hindi ko alam kung pang-ilang beses ko nang sinabi ang palusot na 'yon. But I believe it would be the best excuse because I feel well now. These two... they sedated me! Maiintindihan ko pa sana kung dahil iyon sa nag-panic ako pero pagkagising ko, nakakita kaagad ako ng maraming guwardiya sa labas. They obviously want to trap me here and I don't know why! "There's a thunderstorm outside. And you'd leave our son here?" taas-kilay ni Ivan. Hindi ko alam kung paano ko pang nasikmura na makipag-agahan kasama siya at ang kaibigan niya may parehas na kalibre na gaya sa kaniya. I don't know what to call them but I feel awfully mad at them. Sinadya pa nga yata ng panahon na makulong ako rito. Malakas ang bugso ng ulan sa labas. Based on the weather forecast I heard from the TV, it's not safe outside. But I'm very willing to risk it just so I could get out of here with my son! I don't feel safe anymore. Pakiramdam ko, bihag a
Chapter 22 Game "Manang, bakit niya 'to ginagawa sa 'kin? Minahal ko lang naman siya. Bakit ganito siya? Hindi pa ba sapat na nasaktan ako noong ako na ang nag-alok na makipaghiwalay?" I complained painfully. She caressed my arms around her. I could feel her shoulders shaking. Kahit ang mga pigil niyang hikbi. "H-Hindi ko na rin siya maintindihan, anak. Wala na akong nalalaman tungkol sa nangyayari sa kaniya. P-Patawarin mo ko k-kung hindi kita matulungan ngayon..." iyak niya. Ivan really has this cruel power of making women vital in his life cry this hard. Pero tinutuloy niya pa rin ang pananakit kahit anong mangyari. Sarili lang niya ang iniisip niya. Maybe, he doesn't want me to bruise his ego again as a married man. Hindi ako makapaniwalang mas mahalaga pa 'yon kaysa sa relasyon nila ni Lara. Although I hate her for intruding in our lives, I also pity her for settling for the less. For settling for Ivan. Alam niyang kasal si Ivan pero nagagawa niya pa ring mahalin nang sobr
Chapter 61His Past (Part 2)“What’s that? Pampalubag loob mo?” Larisse asked sternly and coldly after I handed over her a bouquet of flowers and chocolates.I kept a small smile, still. She can really be difficult at times, but I can understand. We’re each other’s reflection. We are so alike.Two people sharing the same dilemma. Their parents.Maybe that’s what prolly gravitated us towards each other.“Please, accept this?” I said softly, cajoling her, “I made the chocolates by myself.”Mabilis na nagbago ang seryoso niyang ekspresyon. Her face softened. Lumawak ang ngiti ko. She then finally accepted the flowers and chocolates.She straightened out her arms, offering a hug. Ngumiti ako niyakap siya. “It’s your fault, but apology accepted.”Napawi nang kaunti ang ngiti ko. I remembered why we ended up breaking up weeks ago. Nagselos siya sa babaeng lumapit sa ‘kin para kausapin ako saglit.Lara she couldn’t control her jealousy sometimes that it gave me thoughts. If this is really w
Chapter 60His Past (Part 1)“You ranked first, but this is not enough,” Papa told me, one time in my last year in high school, when I showed him my report card.I came into his office thinking that when I‘d brought him the good news, he‘d finally allow me to have culinary classes again. That was my only hope.But then, as per his very words...It’s still not enough.“What do you mean?“ mahina kong tanong nang tanggapin ko ang binalik niyang report card.My grades were high. I never had any eight or seven. Only nines and even a hundred.Why does he keep on underestimating my hard-earned efforts?“That’s still insufficient for you to be accepted in Harvard,“ he answered as if it was too simple to do.My lips parted. I was rendered speechless.I only... wanted one thing. To take culinary classes. I loved cooking. I loved the feeling of being able to serve people with delicious food. It’s... something that not all men in my league aspires to do, but I do.I can always breathe as long as
Chapter 59Her Doubts“It’s not that he forgot completely who Uno is. It’s that he’s under a trance, and he can’t say his name. Guess what? This is how he‘d been for the last thirteen years, Rigella,” mapait na dagdag ni Tres.Halos manigas ako sa aking kinatatayuan. My mouth parted but no voice came out. Umangat ang tingin ko kay Ivan na nanghihina pa rin at tila naluluha. And I just noticed, his eyes looked lost and and dead.What the hell is this?!“Maniniwala ka ba talaga sa gagong ‘to, Andrea?” Danger asked which made my rationality come back.True enough, that’s ridiculous.Tres hypnotized Ivan? What kind of excuse is that? Ano ito? Para lang hindi nila masabi sa ‘kin kung sino talaga si Uno?Of course! They’d avoid answering my one and only question. Kasamahan nila sa organisasyon ang demonyong ‘yon kaya pagtatakpan nila kahit buhay pa nila ang maging kapalit.And now, they’re trying to escape me with that pathetic excuse?“Great question, Cinco. It’s like you really don’t kno
Chapter 58Her Shock“What do you mean?!” I asked Ivan with a ragged breath.Habol ko ang aking hininga habang paulit-ulit ang pagdagundong sa dibdib ko. Halos kilabutan ako sa narinig ko sa kaniya.My enemy numero uno... my archnemesis... Uno...Is just within my reach... so close to me... all this fucking time?!His head fell weakly. Kumunot ang noo niya at parang litong-lito. Lumapit ako at padarag siyang hinawakan sa balikat.“Answer me! Sino si Uno!” Niyugyog ko ang nakatali niyang katawan.He lifted his head and our eyes met. May sugat siya sa gilid ng kaniyang mata at may pasa sa pisngi. His lip was bleeding.“I... I can’t say it,” he hissed.My brows quickly pulled together. “Are you insane? Sasabihin mo lang! Sabihin mo sa ‘kin kung sino si Uno!”Puno ng kalituhan ang mukha niya. What I noticed was his eyes. He looked very confused and his eyes were bloodshot.“S-Si... Si...” he attempted to say something, but he would pause each time he tries to speak.Niyugyog ko siyang mul
Chapter 57Her Danger“I want you to choose which method I should use on you,” nakahalukipkip kong tanong at pinadaan ang talim ng kutsilyo sa gilid ng leeg ni Ivan, “a torturous death... or an easy way out?” Kalmado pa rin ang mukha niya kahit nakababa na kami mula sa van at dinala ko siya sa isa sa mga rest house ko sa isang liblib na lugar sa probinsya.He was seated on the sofa of my living room — with both hands and feet cuffed. Nasa akin ang susi ng posas at naka-double lock din iyon. Unless, he‘d burn his own arms and legs, then he could get out.Nagkalat sa paligid ang mga tauhan ko at nasa taas din sina Sapphire at Emerald. Diamond left the port the moment I instructed her to guard my son and take him to a safe place. Kung saan tumutuloy si Darlyn at ang anak niya.“What do you want to know?” tanong niya at diretso ang tingin sa kawalan.From his back, I grabbed his chin. Inangat ko iyon hanggang sa ma-expose ang leeg niya. I pointed the edge of the knife on his neck.“Who i
Chapter 56His Surrender“Kill me,” I told her in a breathy voice.She wasn’t even fazed. The cold smirk on her lips told me that she didn’t feel anything about me anymore.I’m nothing but a prey for her... that she needs to kill and dispatch.My vision blurred even more. My heart clenched in pain. Umigting ang panga ko at nagbaba ng tingin. Kumuyom ang aking kamao.“Just do it, Rigella.” I have nothing else to say but it.Because I know, I deserve every pain and torture for not being able to protect her before.For letting those evil minds treat me like a guinea pig. For letting them mess up my mind that primarily affected my relationship with my wife and my family. It’s all my fault... and I deserve to die for it.“One question, Ivan,” aniya at mas diniin ang nguso ng baril sa aking noo, “are you Uno?” My eyes widened a bit. She... knows Uno? Then she probably knows that goddamn org, Dark Alpha.It shouldn’t surprise me anymore, but it still did. She’s Andrea Steinfields now. Som
Chapter 55Her Comeback“Momma, she’s crying,” nag-aalalang saad ni Rayven sa telepono.My heart clenched. “Baby, what happened? Did Rayne got hurt? Are you both okay?”“Yes, Momma. We’re okay. She had a nightmare. She told us you disappeared in an instant and never came back again in her dream.”Napahinga ako nang maluwag nang marinig iyon. Lulan ako ng van na patungo sa private port na pagmamay-ari ni Dos. A total of ten vehicles are tailing my van.Today is the D-day. I’ll finally come face-to-face with my pathetic little ex-husband after so many years. “Rayven, can you do something for Momma?” I asked carefully. “What is it?”“Please pass the phone to your sister? Tell her I called.” Tumahimik naman ang kabilang linya. I heard my daughter crying over the phone. Pumikit ako nang mariin. It breaks my heart to hear her cry like that at wala man lang ako sa tabi niya.“Rayne, Momma wants to talk to you,” I heard Rayven’s calm voice.“H-Huh? Momma? Momma is calling, Rayven?!” I hear
Chapter 54His Seat“Dos, can you calm this asshole?” iritadong saad ni Cuatro matapos maupo sa kaniyang upuan. I also settled in my seat, wearing my mask of indifference. Nakaupo na rin si Tres sa gitna namin. He’s massaging the bridge of his nose as if something’s pestering his mind.The oval meeting table was still unoccupied by the other members of Dark Alpha. Nauna kaming dumating at malalamang na namahuhuli si Uno dahil gusto niya na namang magpapansin sa lahat.“What’s wrong?” I asked in a serious voice.Cuatro hissed. “Sagutin mo, gago!” He punched Tres’ arm. Hindi naman natinag si Xyleus. His face was serious and his brows were furrowed tight.“Cuatro,” I called Creed, “what the hell is wrong with him?”Pumalatak siya. “Tangina talaga neto ni Tres. Kinakausap ka, eh!” My jaw clenched. Nang makita niyang dumidilim na ang ekspresyon ko ay napangiwi siya.“Para kayong gago, eh. ‘Wag n’yo na nga akong idamay sa mga katarantaduhan niyo. Namumuro na kayo, ah!”“What... the fuck.
Chapter 53Her Aces“Bakit hindi ka pa kumikilos?”Danger puffed from his cigarette beside me. Niyakap ko ang sarili ko dahil sa lamig na dala ng malakas na hangin.I happened to visit my organization’s hide-out in the Philippines. Binilin ko muna kay Roxanne ang kambal. Pinaalam ko na lang na may kailangan akong gawing trabaho at naintindihan naman nila.Ayoko sanang nahihiwalay ako kina Rayne at Rayven, pero kailangan.“Why are you so excited?” tanong ko at ngumisi.Binalingan ko siya. His face was serious and dark. Napailing ako nang muli siyang humithit sa kaniyang sigarilyo.“You’ll die early with what you’re doing,” iling ko.Matunog siyang ngumisi. “Not until I had avenged my brother against that fucking Dark Alpha.”Napahinga ako nang malalim. I don’t exactly know what Danger wants out of our plan, but I just know that his hatred for the people who killed his brother fuels his desire to destroy and eliminate them.“It’s a pity that Ate Rina died before we even got our hands on