PastaIsang linggo na simula nang mag-stay dito si Styx, hindi ko alam kung hanggang kailan niya balak dito pero wala rin akong balak itanong 'yon. Hindi natuloy ang balak naming pagpunta kahapon sa mall dahil sumama ang pakiramdam ko. Buong araw akong nakakulong lang sa kwarto at si Styx ang nagbebenta ng mga kakanin at sa gabi naman ay balot. Siya rin ang nag-asikaso sa anak namin."Do you feel okay?" Styx asked and placed a plate full of foods at the table. Tumango lang ako at mahigpit na kumapit sa kumot na nakatakip sa katawan ko. Wala akong lagnat at sipon o kahit ubo, sadyang masama lang talaga ang pakiramdam ko at madalas nahihilo. Gusto niya 'kong dalhin sa hospital pero hindi naman na 'yon kailangan dahil mababaw lang para sa 'kin."Eat a lot, you need to be healthy for our son." Umupo siya sa tabi ko at at kinuha ang pagkain. Hindi naman ako kumibo dahil wala talaga akong gana ngayon araw, bigla ko na lang talagang naramdaman 'to."Where's my son?" Isinubo niya sa 'kin ang i
Ay-ayaten ka"Mommy! Please let's ride there! Daddy, please!" Natatawa kong binalingan ang anak ko dahil sa sobrang kulit niya. Hindi ko siya masisisi, ngayon na lang kami ulit nakapunta sa theme park kayo sobrang excited siya at hindi mapakali."Sure but let's roam around first, may gusto ka bang bilhin?" tanong ni Styx kay Zenith habang hawak ang kaliwang kamay ng anak. Nakahawak naman ako sa kanang kamay ng anak namin, takot na baka mawala siya dahil marami ring tao."I want cotton candy!" Binilhan ni Styx si Zenith ng cotton candy pati ako, ayaw ko pa tanggapin no'ng una dahil hindi naman ako kumakain no'n pero pinilit niya ako at pinanlakihan ng mata."Saang rides gusto mong sumakay?" he asked our child. Zenith eat the remaining cotton candy and smiled widely."Sa carousel horse po," he said excitedly. Tumingin sa 'kin si Styx kaya tinaasan ko siya ng kilay. I crossed my arms over my chest and looked at him blankly."Samahan mo ang anak mo," I murmured. His brows furrowed and glan
RegretsI began to walk in the field of green and fresh grass as I stared at my son. He giggled and wrinkled his nose while holding a bouquet of flowers, katabi niya ang ama na mariin ang titig sa 'kin at hindi umiiwas ng tingin.My cheeks flushed. I didn't say anything and continued walking until I stopped in front of them. I turned my gaze away as I felt nervous because of his presence. The beautiful view of the blue sky perfectly paired with the greeny things around us. Styx was wearing his usual office attire that made him more intimidating and attractive. I gulped as I clear the lump in my throat and held my breath when he touch my delicate hand."Beautiful," he murmured and brought my hand to his lips and kissed it lovingly."Thanks," I replied even I felt the whole damm zoo inside my abdomen."Mommy, you're pretty." My attention was drawn into my son when he speaks. I smiled at him with my eyes pooling with tears."Thank you, mi amor."Hinatak ako ni Styx paupo sa isang tela na
Pregnant"Kapag bumalik na tayo sa Manila, may magbabago ba?" Natigilan ako sa tanong ni Styx.Mayroon nga ba? I mean, nasanay na ko sa presensya niya at alam kong gano'n din ang anak ko. Hindi madali para sa 'kin ang muling pag-a-adjust but whatever happens, happened. Nakakainis dahil gano'n kabilis nangilid ang luha ko habang pilit pinapasok sa loob ng isang bag ang gamit ni Zenith. Ngayon na ang byahe namin pabalik ng Manila. Hindi ko alam kung anong buhay ang nahihintay sa 'min doon ngunit gusto ko nang harapin ang lahat. Walang mangyayari kung mag-stay lang kami rito at patuloy na magtatago.Maayos na rin naman kami ni Styx at alam kong wala na siyang balak na saktan ako at ang anak ko."Siguro," sagot ko na lang at nagpatuloy.I felt his presence beside me so I stopped and looked at him blankly. Puno ng emosyon ang mata niya at tila ba nakikiusap, sinubukan kong umiwas ngunit hinawakan niya ang pisngi ko at hinarap sa kaniyang mukha. A tear fell from my eye. Mabilis ko 'yong pin
Two Aces Nagising ako na mugto ang mata at masakit ang ulo. Hindi ko na matandaan kung anong mga nangyari kagabi. It was tiring knowing that I had to recall all of those to understand what he said. Gusto ko na lang ibaon ang katawan ko sa kama at hayaan na lang mangyari ang lahat but I just couldn't let that happen. May anak ako at kailangan niya ako. Idagdag pa ang sinabi ni Styx na buntis ako, I had to make sure of that before doing something that could harm myself.Bumangon ako sa kama at itinaas ang kumot ng anak ko. Mahimbing ang tulog niya at nakayakap sa isang unan. I kissed his forehead and caressed his cheek before going to the bathroom to clean myself. After I took a bath, I wore my two-piece suit and put a light makeup. Sinigurado kong magaan lang ang kolorete sa mukha ko bago inayos saglit ang aking buhok at sinuot ang isang two inches heels. Nang matapos ay nananatili pa ring tulog si Zenith kaya naghintay muna akong magising siya bago umalis. Plano kong isama siya dahil
Betrayal "May appointment po ba kayo ma'am?" bungad sa akin ng secretary ni Duex. Hindi nakatakas sa paningin ko ang paghagod ng tingin niya sa 'kin.I raised my brow. Halatang bago lang siya rito dahil halos lahat ng empleyado rito ay kilala na ako. Not because I am the daughter of the former owner but because I am the major shareholder of this company. Hindi siya tago, ngunit hindi rin gano'n kabulgar sa lahat. Tanging mga empleyado at partner lang ng kumpanya ang nakakaalam. Pinasa ko ang pamumuno rito kay Duex dahil kailangan kong mag-focus sa plano ko noon kay Styx but now, if it's true that Duex was the reason why me and my son suffered, I won't hesitate to get back what's mine and make him pay for all of his damages."Hindi mo magugustuhan kung ako mismo ang magpapakilala sa 'yo," malamig na tugon ko at sinamaan siya ng tingin. She smiled nervously but she didn't listen."Ma'am, need po kasi ng appointment bago—" "Let her in." Nagulat ako nang may magsalita sa likod ko. His fa
SufferingsI didn't know that it's possible to feel comfort in the midst of the chaos. I could feel my heart thumping hard at the same time my mind rest for a while. Kahit na malabo sa paningin at pandinig ko ang lahat ay alam kong ligtas na ako sa kamay niya. I still believe that he cares for me. That what he said lately was not really his intention. Natabunan lang saglit ng galit at pagkalito dahil sa dulo, nanaig pa rin ang pagmamahal at ang pakialam niya sa 'kin bilang isang nag-iisang pamilya ko. I still remember the first time I had met him. I was really afraid that time knowing that I'm with someone I don't know. Even his name doesn't sound friendly at all. But despite this, he proved himself and worked for my trust. He embraced my torns and opened my eyes to see that despite my flaws, I am still delicate and fragile. He taught me how to love myself more before the person I've just met, not because that's required in every relationship but because the only person that will lo
ForgivenessWe tend to blame others for what happened to us even in the first place. We also have to blame ourselves for letting things happen 'cause we also have control over it. The grudges, the jealousy, the pain that we felt during those times, we let those control us until we lose ourselves through the process of blaming them.I was so mad that I even planned to take revenge, I was mad that I almost forgot that these people once became part of my life. I was so mad that I forgot I was wrong too.Is it wrong to seek for a chance to see them wrecked just like you? Is it wrong that you just let them feel how it feels to be played in someone's hand? Because for me, there's nothing more satisfying than seeing them crying because of what I did.I admit my heart was full of grudge, I let it fill the void until it occupied the whole place in my heart. I let it change me because that's what happens whenever we get hurt, we change not because we chose it, but because that's the effect of t