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Chapter 20
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2022-03-28 23:51:52"You're a whore. How dare you. You are not my daughter"
Sobrang sikip ng dibdib ko habang pilit na kinakalma ang sarili. I hate to look at myself who was so down now. I hate to think that I am no one again. I am that trash again. Why did they always ignore my side? I have my point of view too but why are they so blind to see what is mine. Doesn't it matter to them?"Love" I called him and try to reach him pero tinalikuran niya lamang ako at lumabas ng kwartong iyon. Mas lalo lamang akong umiyak habang patuloy na tinatanaw siya palabas ng kwarto ko.Ang sakit. Sobrang sakit. "Love" I called him again. My voice cracked while I was pleading for him to look at me, " I thought you'll side me no matter what happened love? What happened to that promise? Are you breaking it?" I asked him. But he didn't responded. He didn't even look at me. But one thing makes him stop is that her mother's word at me.
Kaugnay na kabanata
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I wake up in a room filled of fresh lillie's. A woman was holding me while a man was walking back and forth inside the room. I look around and saw no one except for this two. The room was different and so far from what I use to see when I am in an hospital. And everything I saw was nothing but a plain white. May benda ang kamay ko at may swero na nakakabit sa akin."Where I am?" Iyon agad ang tanong ko sa kanila ng makakuha ako ng lakas ng loob para mag salita."You're in a hospital honey. Oh gosh. I thought we hit you thanks God we didn't" the woman exaggerated what she was saying while holding my hand."You should!" I answered with no emotion while looking at the window. Masyadong mataas ang sikat ng araw habang maaliwalas ang langit. Walang pag babadya ang ulan at Wala rin ano bang malakas na hangin.The woman touch my hands before rubbing it gently. I look at her before looking back at the window."We can't.
Huling Na-update : 2022-03-29The Substitute Chapter 22
"So when are you going back? The company needs you. I miss you" Mom asked me over the phone the next morning. Huminga muna ako ng malalim habang nakatingin sa mga bata na nag hahabulan sa sala."Did the company needs me that much mom?""No. The company was fine but I am requesting you to come back here because I miss the two and you too" aniya sa akin. I look at my nails before looking back at my babies."Okay okay. We will going back Mom" pag suko ko dito habang nakanguso pa. My mom chuckled before starting to plan my flight or what day should we go back. She even suggested that she'll going here para lamang sunduin kami. She was very happy. And I won't take that happiness always from her."So ako ang susundo sayo sa Saturday okay. Aba namiss kita. Sobra. I want to see the twin too running towards their Grandma" aniya sa akin bago ibinaba ang tawag. The two was still running and laughing. Iniwan ko silang ganun bago ako nag
Huling Na-update : 2022-03-30The Substitute Chapter 23
Dale's POV"I told you mom I saw her. We saw her. She was looking so elegant while walking. Imagine that" Rose become berserk while saying those."But how did you saw her? How? I mean why of all the places" her mom asked while looking at me. Umiwas ako ng tingin sa kaniya. Kahit ako ay nag tatanong sa sarili ko. Why of all places doon pa. It was just a minute but it makes me asked too many why's."You saw her too did you Dale?" tanong ni mama sa akin. Hindi ko sila pinansin. They are waiting for my answer but I don't have time to answer their question. I don't have all the time for that. All I can say is that I hate what I am feeling. I hate myself now."Dale I'm talking to you! Did you see her?!" My mom shouted again but I still ignore her. Nilagpasan ko sila para mag tungo sa labas. I need to breath. And I need to prepare myself for tomorrow.I need to be
Huling Na-update : 2022-03-30The Substitute Chapter 24
"So yun na yun?" Ace asked me habang tumatawa. He was looking at Dale's mother who too pissed. Her fist was holding the glass of wine tightly before sipping a little. I smirk at him before I snatch a glass of wine in the table."You've been improving" my mom whisper at me before chuckling. I pout at her before winking."My teacher was expert. Of course I'll learn a lot" I complement her.Hindi nag tagal ay kusa ng tumayo ang nanay ni Dale habang inis na nag lalakad patungo sa pwesto namin. She drunk the wine straight before proceeding. Pilit siyang pinipigilan nila Dale but she push him away."Mom stop that. Huwag dito" I hear Dale whisper while holding her mother."What! She insulted me" she shouted. Umiwas na ako ng tingin sa kanila habang paunti-unti akong umiinom.My heart was beating fast. I can't feel my heart was going out of my ribcage. It wants to be freed. Ace hold my hand when he notice that I a
Huling Na-update : 2022-03-31The Substitute Chapter 25
"So did you enrol the kid?" I asked Ace habang nag aayos ako ng aking sarili. Today is our exhibit and I'll finally represent my own shop. Hindi ko naman hiniling na makasabay ang kakambal ko pero nakasabay ko siyang mag exhibit. Mas lalo lamang akong kinakabahan habang pilit kong iwinawaksi sa isip ang mga bagay na iyon. I am nervous just thinking that I'll gonna face them again. I hate it. I hate this feeling. It makes me think that it wasn't coincidence."Yeah. I told you I can enroll them easily. You just need to trust me." he whisper. I chuckled before looking at him."Ikaw ba ang babantay sa mga bata? Or we are going to look for a baby sitter?" I asked habang nag lalagay ng lipstick.Tila nag isip naman ito habang nakatingin sa akin."May meeting ako ngayon. Pumunta lang ako dito para ihatid ko kayo. So can you please hurry dahil ang meeting ko ay malapit ng mag simula.&nb
Huling Na-update : 2022-03-31The Substitute Chapter 26
26It was already afternoon when the exhibit had done. Kasalukuyan na akong nag aasikaso pauwi ng makita ko si Dale na nakatingin sa akin. He was looking at me seriously habang naka sandal sa pader. "What are you looking at?" I asked him habang pilit na iniiwasan ang mga tingin niya sa akin. "Kamusta ka?" He asked me. Umiling ako sa kaniya habang pilit na binibilisan ang galaw. Pero habang pilit ko siyang iniiwasan ay mas lalo ko lamang nararamdaman ang presensya niya. It doesn't make any change that I am walking more faster. Dahil malaki ang hakbang niya kaya niya akong abutan. And it was making me more nervous. Kumakabog ang dibdib ko habang pilit kinakalma ang sarili until I bump into someone. "Running eh?" Ace asked me. While looking at me. Muli kong tinignan ang likuran ko and I still find him there standing few steps away from me. Ace pull me closer before putting her hand around my waist. "The great Dale Marquez. It's nice to meet you again." he said out loud and smile at
Huling Na-update : 2022-05-01The Substitute Chapter 27
"Mom." my son called me habang pilit pinipigil ang tawa. And when I arrive at the dining table ay nakita kong punong-puno si Lara ng oatmeal sa mukha. She was laughing habang nakatingin sa kuya niya. I smile at them. They are already in uniform and ready to go to school but I think she need to change again dahil kahit ang damit niya ay puno nito. "Nag lalaro na naman kayo. Didn't you two are off to school." I asked at them but they just both laugh at me before they pointed at the chair in front of me. "Sit there mom. We prepared an aotmeal for you too. Your off to work too mommy." Lara told me before pushing the milk towards me. Umiling ako sa kaniya bago naupo. It was 2 days after they start going to school and 2 days after too when I distance myself to Ace. To think and to come up for my revenge plan. Pero hanggang ngayon ay wala pa rin akong plano. I just need to prepare myself and to make myself to believe that I can conquer everything. That I can face them already. That I won
Huling Na-update : 2022-05-12The Substitute Chapter 28
"I want daddy mom" Lara cried when they already exited in my office. My son was just sitting at the sofa while looking at the things in the floor. Hindi siya umimik. Hindi siya nag salita. Nakiramdam lang ito habang pilit na pinipigilan ang sariling mag tanong. Hindi siya lumaki sa bansang ito. Hindi sila tulad ng mga bata na normal lang na makalimutan ang mga bagay na nakita nila kahit isang beses lang. They grew up abroad. With a sharp and advance thought. They are still playing but they think more mature than the other kid. They are 5 years old kid but know a thing around them. "Sorry honey but daddy can't make it" "He can mom. And. I want Dad too""Soon. We can meet Dad. Mom told us that dad was abroad. Working to gave us toys. Isn't pretty?" Lance voice lift Lara's head and she smile at her brother. This is us. The three of us. Sometimes having a twin was good not unless the other become a shadow. I can feel that I am the one who need to be blame on what Rose become. I didn't
Huling Na-update : 2022-05-18
Pinakabagong kabanata
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"Ano. Sigurado ka na ba talaga sa desisyon mo na yan? Final na yan? Ikaw kasi masyado kang takbuhin. Takbo ng takbo akala mo naman nakikipag karera ka." Karen told me while rolling her eyes. Inilapag ko ang aking bag bago naupo sa kama ko. I look around and see the same room I had left before. Thinking that I am back again here makes my eyes rolled. Haharapin ko na naman ang kapatid ko. It was just like we're twins. Yeah. Ako ang unang pinanganak sa ibang sinapupunan. Ako ang panganay sa aming dalawa. Ako ang nakakatanda pero bakit parang siya iyong nasusunod. "I hate it when Rose was making move on my husband. Hindi lang ako masasaktan. My daughter was too attached from his father. Hindi ko hahayaang maranasan niya ang naranasan ko. Hindi ko rin pinangarap na lumaki sila na hindi buo ang pamilya. ""So you're saying that you'll stay with him just because of the kids? Iyon lang ba hindi ka kasali sa dahilan na yun? Alam mo isa ka rin indenial queen. Bakit ba lahat kayo ganiyan. Naka
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"Mom." my son called me noong mahalata niyang naka tulala na naman ako. I smile at him bago ko inabot ang kamay ko sa kaniya. Agad naman niyang kinuha ang kamay ko at nag lakad patungo sa akin. It's been a month since I made my decision. Humingi ako ng break kay mommy bago kami nag tungo ng Vienna. Isang buwan na kami dito. Tumakbo na naman ako sa problema ko. Tumakbo ulit ako sa problema ko. Tinakbuhan ko na naman ang problemang dapat hinaharap ko."Is daddy going here too mom?" Lara asked me. Agad namang lumapit sa akin ang anak ko bago ito kumapit sa kabilang braso ko. "Do you miss your dad?" tanging tanong ko. Kasi kung oo ay ibabalik ko na sila. Actually kahit gaano ka kaready sa isang bagay pag dumating iyon magugulat ka pa rin. Masasaktan ka pa rin. Even though you expect it iba pa rin ang feeling pag dumating na. Iba pa rin yung mararamdaman mo pag nasa harapan mo na. "Yes. And we miss grandma too. Did they bully you too mom like the way they bully me? Kuya will away the
The Substitute Chapter 46
"I'm tired." I told him It's true. I am tired. I am really tired of this shit. Too tired of this lies. Pero parang mas nadadagdagan ang sakit na yun. Because he's here. Comforting me as if he didn't hurt me before. Isa siya sa sobrang nanakit sa akin. "Shhh. I'm here love." He whisper to me. But I push him. I tried to push him. "You hurt me more than they do. How dare you. Don't touch me!" I shouted as I push him. "Shh. Just cry. I won't leave you love." pag papakalma niya sa akin. But those memory keep coming back into my head. Trying to ruin the peace I am creating about him. I tried to forget to for once this time but I just can't. Mas lalo lamang nadagdagan ang sakit na nararamdaman ko noong mas niyakap niya ako ng mahigpit. Kinailangan ko siya noon pero bakit wala siya. It's hard to trust again lalo na ngayon. Sa mga nangyayari ngayon. "No. I can't. I still can't forget those pain you gave me. I can't forget how you treated me. It's still running back. So don't touch me!"
The Substitute Chapter 45
The mall was pack of people. They are walking. Others are almost running. A typical mall on Sunday. Families on bonding. Kids are running. Every restaurant and fastfood was pack of family who are eating. Couples. Single. Friends. Or maybe exes who are out for closure. Pero sa dami ng tao doon ay hindi nakatakas sa akin ang pamilyang nasa harap namin. "So you plan to expose the marriage huh. Why?" My bio mom asked. Bakit nga ba? Hindi ba dapat? Ano ba ang dapat? Itago ko na may asawa na ako? Na may ama ang mga anak ko. Na kasal na ako at hindi totoo ang issue dati na nag pabuntis ako sa ibang lalaki. Na yung kinukuha at akala ng lahat na fiancee ng kakambal ko ay asawa ko pala. Are they ashamed? Well they should be. "Why? We are married. Aren't family belong here? I mean hindi ko sinasabing hindi kayo pamilya but. You know. Those family who betray and set up their family for money. Those traitors. " ani ko. "Oh. Us? Traitors? Hindi ba dapat ikaw yung mahiya. Ikaw yung nang agaw ng
The Substitute Chapter 44
"I'm going to take our children into school. Are you going with us?" he asked me habang ako ay nag aayos ng buhok. He is in my back. Looking at me straight from the mirror while bucking his belt. I don't have any idea why I say yes on his thought about this. Him in my house sharing room and acting like a parents. I'm fine with this if this is just for kids sake and also for me not to look like a fool to others. People are too confuse on what really is happening in our family. On what really made me this kind of woman. I don't care about what others may say before but now. I won't permit that. "Sure. I'm off to work too so might as well bring me to the site. Or I'll just commute." ani ko. I saw him smile before taking my things. My heart race as I watch him smile. Picking my things and walking out of our room. Lance wasn't too okay with the set up but Lara was more excited than ever. She was too happy having a dad. She always brag about it and always told everyone that she already me
The Substitute Chapter 43
I tried to focus on my work and ignore Dale but he always found a way for me to look at him. He was now running away from our kids while we are working. Mas naiistress ako habang nandito sila. Dahil baka may mahulog na lamang ng kung ano at nandito sila nag lalaro. Dale always makes me worried after the kids. I didn't even think that having him with my side will caused such a chaos. "Dale enough of that. Stop running here and take those two out and grab some food. Hindi mo man lang ba naisip yun?" I scolded him. The two kids stop running too and look at me. Dale look down finding the right word to answer me but instead of answering he pull me and try to drag me out of that site, "What are you doing?!" I asked him. Pulling my hands back. "We're going to eat. At saka you shouldn't stress yourself up. Madali na yan matapos so relax okay. Few more weeks and our house was done." He answered. "I thought it was ours. What happened to our house Dale?" Rose suddenly spoke at our back. Agad
The Substitute Chapter 42
I wake up the next day with Dale beside my bed. Hugging me from behind habang isinisiksik ang sarili sa akin. I saw his finger wearing our wedding ring. Holding my hands tightly when I tried to take my hand away. "Kailangan ng almusal ng mga anak ko""I already made them some breakfast. Just laid. I'm still sleepy love. " he whisper at me bago muling isiniksik ang sarili sa akin. I didn't move or even think to got up because he's holding me tight. "Just let me do this. This is the things that I missed for those times that I am running away from the marriage that I thought was fake and your scheming plan. I didn't realize that maybe you are a victim too. That maybe the both of us are victim". I hold his hand and start to feel his body at my back. I can even feel his breath in my head and his feet against mine. "What if we didn't suffer and parted for years. Are this gonna happened?""I wish we didn't parted our ways. I wish I could turn back time just to held you""But I know if yo
The Substitute Chapter 41
"Are you sure about being with Dale again?" Karen asked me like she's not favor in that decision. "You like it too. Why ask now?""Come on. I just want to piss you off but I didn't wish that to happened. I mean I want my godchildren to have a complete family. But if it means it will hurt you of course I won't permit those. My sister walk at the same path as yours so I know how hard it is. So decide carefully" aniya. Agad naman akong tumango sa kaniya bilang pag sang ayon. Yeah. It's true. I need to decide carefully of course. My children's future are in my hands. It's either they will have a father or stay what we have now. A simple small family we treasure. But when I think of the complication in the near future I always ended up thinking again. If we got annulled and his parents and my biological parents wants him to marry my sister it was a big trouble. Because my children and my sisters children will be sibling that may bring odd feeling for the both of us. And I don't want my
The Substitute Chapter 40
I don't know what to think. I am not looking forward to Dale being my childrens father again well technically he is but I can't trust him fully. I am not yet over on how did he push me away. I hate him. I hate him that much I am not ready for him to be my husband again. I've already witness and experience enough for me to say yes to him again. But what happened last night bothers me. Why did I laid down his bed. Damn his tricks. It always going into me. "Forget what happened last night" I told him when I saw him walking in the corridor. Umiling siya sa akin bago nag patuloy sa pag lakad. "No I won't. What happened last night was a dream come true to me. ""Well it's my nightmare" I answer him. Full of anger. I can't hold back myself. Naiinis ako. Naiinis ako sa sarili ko kung bakit ganun na lang ang nangyari. I should fall for him. The marriage that was bound to tie us loosen up years ago and now. Now that he's tying it up I'll just help him with that. No. The marriage that bound u
