I lay on my side watching the full moon in the dark sky through the tiny window, feeling a mix of relief and sadness. I was relieved that my mate would not walk to his death to find me but sad that things had to be like this between us.
I can't help but wonder: what if he were the only one to survive my curse? The happily ever after I'd always dreamed of? Yet, I'm afraid to take such a big risk.
I barely survived when I killed my parents; I doubt I'd still be alive if I murdered my mate as well.
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I felt someone shaking my body, urging me to wake up.
"You were having a nightmare," said the nameless wolf standing over me.
I sat up, wiping away my tears. Every night I was tormented by the same nightmares of murdering my parents and everyone else my curse had taken from me.
"You had a horrible life out there, didn't you?" the nameless wolf asked as I rose to my feet.
I stayed silent as I glanced at the young she-wolves. Huddled together, traumatized, they stared back at me.
It was daytime, and the two men from yesterday had returned.
"Good morning, rogues, Are you excited to see what your outside life will be like from this cell?" The older men teased.
"More guards appeared behind them and into the cell, forcing the young girls to step out of the cell."
They screamed in terror, and some even attempted to flee, but the guards caught them and held them until they could no longer escape.
"Where are you taking them, you pedophiles!" I yelled angrily at them.
For that, I received a slap in the face and immediately fell back to the ground.
The girls had already exited the cell by the time I got back up.
Only the two guards were with us now. They aimed their sharp claws at our necks and led us out of the cell, making sure we didn't attempt to escape.
As they led us through a passage, I saw more she-wolves like us, as well as men. Some of them were battered and bleeding, likely due to their attempts to flee.
A pregnant she-wolf, seemingly on the verge of giving birth, tightly grips the iron bars of her cell. Tears streamed down her face as she begged the guard escorting us through the passage to let her go.
The guard responded with a vicious growl, causing her to nearly stumble to the ground in fear.
I felt a pang of sympathy as I watched her sit against the wall, placing a hand protectively over her large pregnant belly, just as any concerned mother would for their child's safety.
As I walked from her cell, I hoped her child would be a blessing to her and not a curse as I was to my parents and everyone else I'd ever loved.
I soon started to believe I deserved to be in this horrid place for killing my parents and everyone I'd ever loved, rather than the poor pregnant she-wolves and teens.
The sunlight hurts my eyes as we're outside. I paused to take in the new surroundings: a vast green field surrounded by walls. Within those walls, there were red brick barrack houses and several sheds with unglazed windows located farther from the barrack. I gathered they were meant for us, their slave workers.
"Move it, scoundrel," the guard gave me the hardest shove to walk, and for a moment I thought my soul had fallen from my body.
He grabbed me by my ponytail before I could fall face down, drawing me back to him. I reached for his hand, gripping it tightly, wincing in pain.
They led the nameless wolf and me into a large area, where werewolves like us gathered in rows. They pushed us into the same row to stand together. I looked for the teens who had shared a cell with us, wondering if they were there also. There was no sign of them or the men who had taken them, standing among their kind before us, waiting for their leader to arrive.
I wasn't afraid of what was going to happen to me here. I'd planned to take it with open arms as a punishment for the innocent lives I'd taken. I deserved everything that happened to me here.
I was only sorry for the ones who didn't belong here, the teens and the pregnant she-wolf. What was happening to them now was no different from the curse inside me, and I alone deserve this punishment for all the pain I'd inflicted on my loved ones just before I cold-heartedly took their lives.
Sometimes I wished my curse had killed me instead of the lives of everyone I'd cherished. Why did they have to die instead of me?
When they captured and brought me here, my only thought was to escape, but now I no longer want to. If I die here, my curse will no longer harm anyone.
Tears brimmed my eyes, and I immediately wiped them away. Sweat mixed with dirt on my hand burned the inside of my eyes as I wiped them away.
On my left, I saw a young couple holding hands. They appeared to be new mates. The beautiful blonde-haired she-wolf wept softly and shivered in terror. I closely observed the man's lips as he assured her that he would get them out of that there soon.
Suddenly, it dawned on me: what if my mate was one of the captured rogues? I could rescue him; he could be the only one I'd saved, and that would make me feel less guilty about dying here, knowing I had managed to save someone. A wistful smile spread across my face.
My hand trembles as I reach out to touch the necklaces, and I hesitate to see the spine-tingling image of a monstrous wolf walking within. Blood drenched his fur as if he'd bathed himself in the blood of his dead victims before coming here. The sharp, raw scent of the blood was so strong that I wanted to throw up.
Involuntarily, I retreated from the grotesque image of him, filled with horror at his presence and the sight of blood. The other rogues did just the same. I was left stunned when his members also withdrew.
"That's him, the stone-hearted leader," the she-wolf whose name I still didn't know whispered to me. Her voice shudders in fear.
I turned my head to see her face, which was as pale as if she had seen a ghost. More like a satanic wolf, my head averted back to him.
"How many rogues have you gathered for me?" inquired the blooded, gigantic wolf I now recognized as the one I'd been warned about. His attention raked us as he did. His voice was without any emotion and so frigid that I felt a strange wave of coldness coursing along my skin, though the weather was hot.
"500," fear laced one of his member's voices as he answered.
Without a response, the Alpha drew closer to us. We all continued to step back as he did.
"I apologize to those who wish not to be here." He paused and swept his gaze across our faces.
There was something within his voice and the way he walked that didn't make his apology seem sincere.
"Anyone who wishes to not be a part of my pack, you may go, and again I apologize for my men carrying you here without your will."
Every rogue exchanged a skeptical stare, doubting the alpha's comment.
"What? We're free to go," a male at the front of the row questioned.
The alpha slowly shook his head.
Unconvinced that he was willingly releasing us after he had allowed his men to capture us, I stayed in my position.
"Aren't you coming? "We're free to go," the nameless wolf tugged at my hand.
"I don't think we should," I warned her.
"But he's letting us go; why shouldn't we?" she said excitedly.
"I think he's testing us," I replied.
Not wanting to believe, the nameless wolf walked away with the others.
I watched with concern, sensing that something awful was about to happen.
They all were about to walk through the door, and I was starting to think that what if my gut warning was wrong and the Alpha was genuinely letting them go?
But if he was willing to let them go so easily, why did they call him the stone-hearted alpha?
I wish I hadn't been curious about that question when I saw him dash towards them, bringing every one of them down limb by limb and neck by neck with his bare teeth. Blood spurted everywhere, spilling more onto his coat.
The nameless wolf's Nordic blue eyes met mine with deep regret when the alpha bit off her neck. My eyes widened, and I could see in her eyes how badly she regretted not listening to me when her head fell to the ground, for she would be standing next to me now, alive, or probably a bit longer.
Her head smashed under the alpha's large feet as he leaped to his next prey. The alpha was quick
that none of them could dodge or escape his attack.
Their screams were piercing, reminding me of the first innocent life I had taken, my mother, who screamed so loudly before she died.
I wanted to feel less bad before it was my turn to be slain by the alpha in saving my mate if he's here, but I don't have the heart to do so anymore, fearing he might be a number among the dead ones who were now before me in a pool of blood, pieces by pieces, like an unattached body part of a pup's toy.
As if he hadn't killed several innocent lives just minutes ago, the hard-hearted alpha sauntered and stood in front of us, the remaining rogues.
"Who else refuses to be a part of my pack?" he asked once more, this time posing his genuine question.
Everyone was too afraid to answer.
On my left, a she-wolf fainted; she attempted to cling to me as she fell, ripping off my necklace. I quickly knelt to retrieve it, recalling the warning the witch had given me. It was too late to wear the necklace before it revealed my mate. It had already placed within my heart who he was: Alpha Gunner, the cold-blooded and stone-hearted alpha.
I froze on the ground, my blood running cold upon realizing that the psychopathic wolf was my mate. I struggled to digest the thought and I promptly put the necklace back on, remembering the witch's next warning.
The alpha fur dripped with blood from his freshly killed, sauntering my way; I thought I'd put on the necklace too late, and he was coming to kill me, like his other mates, knowing we were fated mates, but he was attacking the she-wolf who had fainted by ripping open her chest; I realized he didn't.
Her blood splashed across my face as his mouth dug into her for a kill. I went rigid onto my knees, shaking uncontrollably, horrified at the blood on my face, which was now on my hands as I tried to wipe it out.
"Blood, blood, blood....," I kept repeating in my head, traumatized and wanting it to get off my face and hand.
I throw up instantly at its awful raw scent.
"I am your alpha now; you will obey my command," I heard the alpha.
I lifted my head, wiping away the vomit from my mouth as he strutted out, and I immediately went back to vomiting at the sight of his bloody fur.
For two years, I had searched tirelessly for a witch to help me protect my mate from my deadly curse. After receiving the witch's help, I realized that it wasn't my fated mate who needed protection from my curse, but I from him.
We were led to the shed with glassless windows, as I'd presume. After being left there, we received a warning: if any of us attempted to escape, we would face the same fate as the slaughtered ones. The fear in the remnant's eyes revealed that they were too traumatized by the horror that had occurred back there to even consider escaping. I was more traumatized that I was mated to him. Alpha Gunner, The Stone-Hearted Alpha.For years, I had kept to myself, never opening my heart to anyone again, fearing that once I did, my curse would lead them to their demise. And today I'd found out that I was mated to someone who bore a striking resemblance to my deadly curse. I felt as if my curse had stealthily crawled its way from my body without my knowledge, taking the form of a werewolf, weary of not killing for a while.I quickly went over to a drum filled with water, cleansing the blood from my face. The sight of blood mixed with water in my hand, I hastily washed it off, panicking."Where sh
Alpha GunnerThe fresh blood of my kills covering my fur is now rancid, forcing me to shift into my human form. It's been ages since I've shifted that I now feel like a stranger in my furless body.I wash the blood from my skin, eager to reverse into my wolf form.I stopped changing into my human form, for it too died when I lost both the love of my life and my only child.I want it to remain the same: never changing back into it ever again.Stepping out of the shower, I grab a towel.After drying my face, I hesitated to see an unfamiliar face staring back at me in the mirror. A face I haven't seen in quite a while, aged over the past nine years. I was in my early twenties when I decided never to turn into my human form; now I'm 32.My hair, once lowly cut, now reached my neck, and my previously clean-shaven face was no longer free from facial hair. It felt like I was gazing at someone else, far more mature, but the scar on my left eye, a reminder of the pain inflicted by my toxic fat
The shed where I and eleven she-wolves were placed. Inside was small and bedless. We lay on the boarded floor side by side.They gave us supper, a piece of bread, and a cup of water, before sending us into the shed.The cool night wind came in from the glassless window. Cold, I curled into a ball. Very slender for a she-wolf, I was susceptible to getting cold easily."Aren't you going to eat that?" A she-wolf near me asked, spotting my uneaten bread next to my untouched water.I shook my head, and she quickly stretched across me to take it.I turned my head to watch her, sitting up, and devouring it hungrily."I'm Rhena, by the way," with her mouth stuffed with bread, she introduced herself."What's your name?" she then asked."Nobody," I say, reverting my back toward her.Seeing I was not in any mood to talk, she said nothing else. It was better that way.For years, I've treated everyone who tries to talk to me coldly. The more unfriendly I am, the safer they are from my curse.The so
Alpha GunnerHearing from the commander what Astral had done to one of the pack members- almost ended him. I tracked his scent.I ceased beneath a tree, refusing to go any further to see where he was--the cemetery.From a distance, I watched him lay a bouquet of red roses on his mate's grave, and I remembered that today was their anniversary: the day they first met each other before knowing they were mates. Astral had been bringing her a bouquet of red roses, her favorite flower since they'd known each other, and even though she was dead, he continued to do so, leaving me to feel guilty.I left the area, aware that the same cemetery held the graves of both my mate and my pup.Like Astral, I never once visited their graves to leave their favorite roses or my firstborn's favorite toy on his grave, nor did I attend their funerals.Countless times I wished I could turn back time to be there for them. I felt like I disrespected them by not showing up, but the sight of their once-full-of-li
We had two she-wolf fighters assigned to us. I suspected it was the Beta's idea.I feel a mixture of emotions: I wish he would stop caring about me, as I don't deserve it, and I'm pleased with this new change for the other she-wolves; at least they won't be sexually assaulted by those body-hungry men anymore."Hey, where are you going? Take your musty self straight to the river!" exclaimed one of the new heads.The river was a short walk from the base, encircled by abundant thicket and wild blue flowers. The sight was breathtaking; it made me forget my emotional pain. The lives I'd taken and my curse, admiring its beauty. It felt like all the blood I'd shed never did happen until the heads ordering us to remove our clothes and get into the river quickly made me conscious that I did take the lives of the ones who only loved and trusted me.The intolerable emotional pain immediately reappeared, and the view of the river no longer fascinated me or looked the same; instead, I felt the over
Alpha GunnerI rest atop a hill, looking down at a cottage amidst the wide, green land.Proceeding along its steep incline, I spot the first wolf I'd trust sitting on his porch.He wore dark glasses with both hands resting on his cane."I never thought I'd be alive to see you again," he said, turning his head toward me."I thought you were blind," I replied."You still have a dry humor," he chuckled.Though he could not see, his beastly senses were sharp enough to replace his lost sight.It had been years since I last visited him. The last time I saw him was at my second mate's inauguration: a ceremony to introduce the new Luna to the pack. At that time, I was in my early twenties.Luckmeil was once my father's advisor and his closest friend. He was like a father to me and the one who named me Gunner.A midwife once revealed to me that my father had planned to name me Pain upon my birth, as I had taken away his first mate. However, Luckmeil changed my name."I heard from your daughter
"The shortest time any of his lady maids had spent alive in his house is an hour. I doubt a rogue like you will last a minute," one of the she-wolf fighters said as she tossed a spoonful of mush into my bowl.I winced as it splashed into my face, almost reaching into my eyes, and took up a cup of the only drink they served us, water, taking my time back to the shed.What the fighter had said back there didn't frighten me; I must do this not only as a punishment for my evildoings but also to die by the one that I should have felt the safest with, my fated mate.Pain grew in my heart knowing that no matter how irksome I wanted my death to be by Alpha Gunner. My death will never be the same as those I've killed.I did more than simply end their lives. I first tore open their hearts that only showed me love by breaking their trust.Sitting next to the window outside the shed, tears stream down at the aching thought, and I wish my death to be more gruesome than theirs ever was.I heard som
Seeing the Beta in the driver seat of a red van approaching the Rogue base. I rose to my feet, watching as he parked the vehicle at the gate and got out, leaving the door open.As I walked towards him, a sense of unease overcame me. I knew he was here to take me to the one who would put a stop to my pain and end my curse.I passed through the gate, and the Beta appeared before me, causing me to halt.Upset, he looked down at me."Before I take you to the Alpha's home, I want you to see something," he said and held my hand, pulling me to his car.He helped me get in, walked around to his side, climbed in, and slammed the door.My body jolted at the loud slam of the door.Nervously and silently, I sat in the car as he sped along the road. He made a left turn into the wood, and I spotted a large sign that read "Cesspool: A waste area."He stopped a short distance from a large metal tank grounded into the earth. I quickly covered my nose at the stench of it."Look what is happening over t
I followed him, disheartened by his decision to spare me rather than harm me. I thought he was the merciless and stone-hearted alpha for a reason--sparing no one's lives.I came here to be tortured every second of my life by him until I was no more. Not to be shown mercy for a wolf like me doesn't deserve any.He stopped at a double entry door. I ceased watching as he pushed it open with his snout, letting himself in. As he did, I'm curious why he'd choose to remain in his beast form, never harking back into his human form as any normal werewolf would.Probably he wasn't a normal werewolf, based on his unusual size, I thought. The normal size for a werewolf was 7 feet long, but Alpha Gunner was far bigger and the largest werewolf I'd come across; even his stature was threatening.As soon as he realized I wasn't following him, he snarled, prompting me to snap out of my thoughts.My eyes scan the inside. It was not an ordinary office. To the south of it stood a stone throne. He leaped o
The interior is as opulent as I would expect a castle-like home to be: ivory walls, shiny glazed tiles, and stairs that go up and split off on both sides."Follow me, please," instructed the deputy butler.He led me upstairs, and I found it difficult not to admire the glowing crystal chandelier hanging above the stairs. It's like being surrounded by the rays of the shining sun.The deputy butler turned left at the top of the stairs, leading me through a series of rooms with a black mahogany door. I looked up at the stairs that continued above us and at the countless other rooms."Our stop ends here," the butler said, causing me to lower my gaze at him.I was startled to see him holding the door of a room open.I moved closer to peer inside. The room holds a queen-sized bed sheeted in white linen with a glossy brown bedhead to the south of it. Beside the bed was a matching brown bedside table, and across the room stood a vanity with a round mirror and a large closet to the right."This
Alpha GunnerAstral decided to interrupt us just as I was about to order one of my men to lower a male wolf that we had captured, tie his feet, and place above a tank of water."You will not kill her!" he yelled as he got out of his van, slamming the door and marching towards me."I have many wolves to kill shortly. You'll have to be specific as to whom not to kill," I said, spinning around and getting back to what I was doing."Or probably she may be dead in the few I just killed not long ago," I joked."Lower him in," I ordered my men again.While they were doing so, the intruder cried for us to stop.As the tip of his dyed green hair touches the water, I command them to cease, once more interrupted by Astral."Whatever you have to say, can't you wait until I'm done?" I asked as he now stood in front of me."I've never asked you for anything; please spare that new ladymaid life for me," Astral begged earnestly."You sure are fond of this rogue," I respond in an attempt to mock him.
Seeing the Beta in the driver seat of a red van approaching the Rogue base. I rose to my feet, watching as he parked the vehicle at the gate and got out, leaving the door open.As I walked towards him, a sense of unease overcame me. I knew he was here to take me to the one who would put a stop to my pain and end my curse.I passed through the gate, and the Beta appeared before me, causing me to halt.Upset, he looked down at me."Before I take you to the Alpha's home, I want you to see something," he said and held my hand, pulling me to his car.He helped me get in, walked around to his side, climbed in, and slammed the door.My body jolted at the loud slam of the door.Nervously and silently, I sat in the car as he sped along the road. He made a left turn into the wood, and I spotted a large sign that read "Cesspool: A waste area."He stopped a short distance from a large metal tank grounded into the earth. I quickly covered my nose at the stench of it."Look what is happening over t
"The shortest time any of his lady maids had spent alive in his house is an hour. I doubt a rogue like you will last a minute," one of the she-wolf fighters said as she tossed a spoonful of mush into my bowl.I winced as it splashed into my face, almost reaching into my eyes, and took up a cup of the only drink they served us, water, taking my time back to the shed.What the fighter had said back there didn't frighten me; I must do this not only as a punishment for my evildoings but also to die by the one that I should have felt the safest with, my fated mate.Pain grew in my heart knowing that no matter how irksome I wanted my death to be by Alpha Gunner. My death will never be the same as those I've killed.I did more than simply end their lives. I first tore open their hearts that only showed me love by breaking their trust.Sitting next to the window outside the shed, tears stream down at the aching thought, and I wish my death to be more gruesome than theirs ever was.I heard som
Alpha GunnerI rest atop a hill, looking down at a cottage amidst the wide, green land.Proceeding along its steep incline, I spot the first wolf I'd trust sitting on his porch.He wore dark glasses with both hands resting on his cane."I never thought I'd be alive to see you again," he said, turning his head toward me."I thought you were blind," I replied."You still have a dry humor," he chuckled.Though he could not see, his beastly senses were sharp enough to replace his lost sight.It had been years since I last visited him. The last time I saw him was at my second mate's inauguration: a ceremony to introduce the new Luna to the pack. At that time, I was in my early twenties.Luckmeil was once my father's advisor and his closest friend. He was like a father to me and the one who named me Gunner.A midwife once revealed to me that my father had planned to name me Pain upon my birth, as I had taken away his first mate. However, Luckmeil changed my name."I heard from your daughter
We had two she-wolf fighters assigned to us. I suspected it was the Beta's idea.I feel a mixture of emotions: I wish he would stop caring about me, as I don't deserve it, and I'm pleased with this new change for the other she-wolves; at least they won't be sexually assaulted by those body-hungry men anymore."Hey, where are you going? Take your musty self straight to the river!" exclaimed one of the new heads.The river was a short walk from the base, encircled by abundant thicket and wild blue flowers. The sight was breathtaking; it made me forget my emotional pain. The lives I'd taken and my curse, admiring its beauty. It felt like all the blood I'd shed never did happen until the heads ordering us to remove our clothes and get into the river quickly made me conscious that I did take the lives of the ones who only loved and trusted me.The intolerable emotional pain immediately reappeared, and the view of the river no longer fascinated me or looked the same; instead, I felt the over
Alpha GunnerHearing from the commander what Astral had done to one of the pack members- almost ended him. I tracked his scent.I ceased beneath a tree, refusing to go any further to see where he was--the cemetery.From a distance, I watched him lay a bouquet of red roses on his mate's grave, and I remembered that today was their anniversary: the day they first met each other before knowing they were mates. Astral had been bringing her a bouquet of red roses, her favorite flower since they'd known each other, and even though she was dead, he continued to do so, leaving me to feel guilty.I left the area, aware that the same cemetery held the graves of both my mate and my pup.Like Astral, I never once visited their graves to leave their favorite roses or my firstborn's favorite toy on his grave, nor did I attend their funerals.Countless times I wished I could turn back time to be there for them. I felt like I disrespected them by not showing up, but the sight of their once-full-of-li
The shed where I and eleven she-wolves were placed. Inside was small and bedless. We lay on the boarded floor side by side.They gave us supper, a piece of bread, and a cup of water, before sending us into the shed.The cool night wind came in from the glassless window. Cold, I curled into a ball. Very slender for a she-wolf, I was susceptible to getting cold easily."Aren't you going to eat that?" A she-wolf near me asked, spotting my uneaten bread next to my untouched water.I shook my head, and she quickly stretched across me to take it.I turned my head to watch her, sitting up, and devouring it hungrily."I'm Rhena, by the way," with her mouth stuffed with bread, she introduced herself."What's your name?" she then asked."Nobody," I say, reverting my back toward her.Seeing I was not in any mood to talk, she said nothing else. It was better that way.For years, I've treated everyone who tries to talk to me coldly. The more unfriendly I am, the safer they are from my curse.The so