I knew what he was seeing and smelling: the very image of his sworn enemies.
Never minding my own tears, I forced my shaky hands to undo the collar of my dress. I pulled it open, closed my eyes and let my head back, offering my throat as the only sign I could think of to show him I knew my life was in his hands.
The wolf kept growling for a moment longer. I didn’t move. Then, to my utter surprise, he turned around and leaped away into the woods.
Going back to Teah’s place took me forever, because my leg hurt so bad I needed to stop every few steps. At least there were no boys guarding the access to the village.
The shortest way took me near my father’s smith workshop, right by the house he shared with his wife and my stepsiblings. There was a big dog laying outside the workshop closed door, and it barked as soon as it smelled me.
I hid in the alley across the street and peaked out. I recognize Van’s shepherd dog, and a moment later, Van himself hurried out of the workshop with my stepsister Lily on his heels. They shared a quick kiss goodbye and Van sprinted away with his dog, while Lily hurried quietly toward the house.
Lily was the daughter of my father’s wife, born a whole year before me. She was the most beautiful girl in the village, and the most conceited as well. She always bragged that she would be chosen to go to the castle, and she’d already rejected several proposals from respectable young men, confident the very Alpha would take her as his mate. Like a wolf would wed a human.
She’d just turned seventeen, so her Wolf Moon would be this very winter, in hardly two months. So how come she was dating the son of a hunter? She was no longer interested in becoming the Lady of the Dale?
Teah waited up for me, and as soon as she saw me walk in, she pounced on me, cursing out loud, ready to slap me. I braced myself, trying to shield my face, but she never touched me. I dared to open my eyes to see what had stopped her.
Her hair was white under her extravagant headdress, but her dark eyes still sparkled like they did when I was a child. She was staring at me with that concerned look she only showed before ruling a sick animal had to be put down.
“Holly Jesus and Mary, child!” she cried, grabbing my arm. “What happened to you? Come, come!”
She made me sit on a shabby stool and hurried to lay a straw mattress before the hearth for me. Then she made me take off my clothes and lie down. She had to cut open the boot on my aching ankle to take it off. Great. So much pain and I’d end up spending winter in sandals anyway.
She covered me with two blankets and her cherished bearskin, an old present form the Alpha. Not the young man with the beautiful body in the waterfall, but his father. Then she made me swallow one of her foul soups.
I couldn’t help falling asleep.
Like every time I was attacked and got hurt, the memory of the wolf king came to comfort me in dreams.
It’d been the first time Teah had ever taken me to collect herbs to the southern woods, near the waterfall, and I was about six. She was trying to teach me the differences between the sage and the rosemary, when a huge black wolf with golden eyes showed up before us. Teah made me kneel down and lower my head.
“My lord Alpha,” she said, her tone unusually respectful.
I looked up right away, beaming, and tried to touch him. I didn’t feel any fear. All the way around. Teah had told me how he’d refused to let my mother die out in the prairie. And when she was taken to Teah’s at the brink of death, he’d assisted Teah to help me be born, as my mother let out her last breath.
Teah tried to grab my hand when I reached out to the Alpha, but the wolf lowered his proud head to let me touch him. I let out the happiest giggle as I ran my little fingers through his silky jet black fur. The Alpha allowed me to rub his head and he licked my cheek gently. Then I jumped to my feet and threw my arms around his thick neck, pressing my face to him.
Frozen in horror, Teah let out a muffled groan when I stood on my tiptoes to kiss the Alpha’s muzzle.
“Thanks for saving my life, wolf king,” I told him.
I hugged him a moment longer, sinking my nose in his fur that smelled of forest and dew. He stepped back gently and stared at me with his golden eyes. Then he glanced at Teah, turned around and trotted away.
I woke up still smiling, the comforting warmth from the hearth on my face. I opened my eyes and found them covered. That blindfold had only one possible explanation: there was a wolf at Teah’s home and they didn’t want me to see their human form.
“Speak up, woman,” said a deep, curt voice behind me, oozing authority.
I kept still.
Somewhere behind me, Teah replied in a sugary way that didn’t suit her at all. And she relayed how I’d been born, but didn’t stop there.
“Her eyes used to be black, but they changed to that purple hue after she turned five. And her hair and skin turned white before entering puberty. But that’s all, my lord. She’s never showed any need or skill out of place. Believe me, the only thing she shares with the immortals is her looks, and I swear on my life she’s not a spy.
A long silence followed her answer. I held my breath when I heard the firm footsteps approaching me. I heard the rustle of fabric and the soft creak of leather boots when the wolf leaned forward toward me. He sniffed my hair and let out a disgruntled growl. My heart skipped a beat when I heard him talk to me.
“You stink,” he grunted through clenched teed, not hiding his disgust. “I don’t want to see you again in my woods after sunset.”
“Yes, my lord wolf,” I mumbled in a thread of voice.
He stood up with a swift move and strode away.
“Teach her limits as well as potions, woman,” he chided Teah on his way out.
“Aye, my lord,” she replied, and I could bet she was bowing to him.
The backdoor slammed shut and I heard Teah let out a sigh of relief.
“Looks like you owe me an explanation, child,” she grunted, dragging her feet closer. “So take that blindfold off and speak up.”
I didn’t have a choice, so I told Teah what had transpired in the woods. However, I was wise enough to leave out the part about watching the Alpha change and swim in the nude. I knew that if she ever found out, she wouldn’t spare my life like the wolf had done.I think the only thing that spared me any punishment was that I still was in bad shape. And I soon got worse. Looked like my leg wasn’t the only thing I’d messed up during my night adventure. The pond’s cold water, and all the hours I’d spent wearing my soaking-wet clothes, had affected me. That night I was burning in fever, and in the morning I was coughing and struggling to breathe.I lost count of the days I spent lying on the straw mattress before the hearth, shaking and choking, moaning in pain every time I tried to move, because my chest and my leg hurt and burned.Finally, Teah forced her rheumatic bones to crouch down by my side. I wasn’t fully awake, lost in that fevered tossing and turning that filled my head with hot
The village square was surrounded by torches burning in the winter night. Nobody cared about the cruel cold frosting the thick layer of snow on the streets, and the cleared stone floor of the square around the well. Everybody in the village, myself included, had worn all the warm clothes and cloaks we had to witness the ceremony.Once a year, two nights before the first full moon of the new year, known as the Wolf Moon, all the single girls in the village, between seventeen and twenty, lined up by the well wearing their best dresses. Then, several wolves in human form showed up to pick the three lucky girls who would leave the village. It was one of the rare occasions when wolves openly showed their human forms, and I think that was the true reason why nobody wanted to miss it.The chosen girls moved with the wolves to their castle, at the other side of the Dale, and paired up with a young wolf. They lived a long life full of luxury and happiness in exchange for giving birth to a coup
“Nice show you put on,” Teah scolded me the minute we walked into her place. “Are you crazy? Thank God she intervened in your behalf. Else the whole village would’ve jumped on you!”“The princess,” I murmured. “Her eyes.”“Oh, yes, and her hair. I know. Nothing as blatant as you, but anyway striking for a wolf.” Teah shrugged. “Every now and then one like her is born.”I rubbed my face, still trying to think straight again.“I need to go home. I need to pack.”“Pack what? You hardly own the clothes on your back. Forget it. They will give you anything you may need. And you better stay indoors. All the girls who weren’t chosen would give anything to find you alone. You’ll stay right here until it’s time to go to the clearing. And I’ll walk you there myself.”I couldn’t sleep that night. I lay on my straw mattress by the fire, under the blankets and the bearskin. By the time Teah woke up the next morning, I had already gone to the well and cooked breakfast.At noon, my father came knocki
“Yarrow!”My own cry startled me awake. I was half-sitting, and even though I was still facing the fire, the cold in my chest reminded me I was naked. I lay back down in a hurry, pulling blanket and bearskin up to my nose.I noticed a trace of light from under the edge of the blindfold still covering my eyes. Meaning the other times it’d been night?“Are you well?”The wolf’s whisper startled me again and I curled up under the covers, nodding.“What did you say?”I shook my head, embarrassed.“Say it again.”His whispers now had an edge of authority, the wolf talking to one of his subjects.“Yarrow,” I mumbled.“The flower? What about it?”“You…” I stuttered, trailing off.I heard the rustle of fabric and his next whisper sounded closer to my head, like he’d leaned over me.“Yes?”“You… You smell like yarrow, my lord.”I heard him stiffen up.“Beg your pardon?”He was still talking in whispers, but they lacked any warmth now.“I’m so sorry, my lord. I didn’t mean to. You smell like th
“Silver?” I repeated, puzzled. “I don’t know what you’re talking about, my lord.”“This is how you thank me for saving your life?”He grabbed my shoulders and spun me around. The moment he let go of me, I fell to my knees once again, fighting back my tears.“I have no silver, my lord!” I cried. “I never had anything made of silver!”“Stand up,” he grunted.As I did what he said, I remembered the delicate chain around my neck.“You mean this?” I tried, showing it to him.“That’s white gold. Do you think our healers would give us necklaces made of silver?”Teah had explained to me that silver didn’t kill wolves as many people believed, but it did weaken them, and prevented them from changing, trapping them in their human form and depriving them of all their strength and might.I let go of the pendant, shaking my head. For the life of me, I had no idea why I would smell of silver.He pinched my chin to make me face him. I froze, my heart hammering my chest.“The smell of your fear won’t
“Yarrow!”My own cry startled me awake. I was half-sitting, and even though I was still facing the fire, the cold in my chest reminded me I was naked. I lay back down in a hurry, pulling blanket and bearskin up to my nose.I noticed a trace of light from under the edge of the blindfold still covering my eyes. Meaning the other times it’d been night?“Are you well?”The wolf’s whisper startled me again and I curled up under the covers, nodding.“What did you say?”I shook my head, embarrassed.“Say it again.”His whispers now had an edge of authority, the wolf talking to one of his subjects.“Yarrow,” I mumbled.“The flower? What about it?”“You…” I stuttered, trailing off.I heard the rustle of fabric and his next whisper sounded closer to my head, like he’d leaned over me.“Yes?”“You… You smell like yarrow, my lord.”I heard him stiffen up.“Beg your pardon?”He was still talking in whispers, but they lacked any warmth now.“I’m so sorry, my lord. I didn’t mean to. You smell like th
“Silver?” I repeated, puzzled. “I don’t know what you’re talking about, my lord.”“This is how you thank me for saving your life?”He grabbed my shoulders and spun me around. The moment he let go of me, I fell to my knees once again, fighting back my tears.“I have no silver, my lord!” I cried. “I never had anything made of silver!”“Stand up,” he grunted.As I did what he said, I remembered the delicate chain around my neck.“You mean this?” I tried, showing it to him.“That’s white gold. Do you think our healers would give us necklaces made of silver?”Teah had explained to me that silver didn’t kill wolves as many people believed, but it did weaken them, and prevented them from changing, trapping them in their human form and depriving them of all their strength and might.I let go of the pendant, shaking my head. For the life of me, I had no idea why I would smell of silver.He pinched my chin to make me face h
When I came back to, I was still kneeling on the cave floor. Two strong arms wrapped around me, and my cheek rested on soft fabric, a heart beating underneath it. I straightened up, feeling for the folds of my bodice to close them. The wolf put a wooden cup in my hand, full of fresh water.“Thank you, my lord,” I muttered after gulping it up.“You need to lay down,” he whispered with an unexpected gentleness. “Because you still smell of silver.”He help me up to my feet and to the pallet by the fire.“Let’s see what other surprises your sister kept in store,” he said, guiding me to lie down. “Stay still.”He made me stretch my legs, removed my boots and covered my feet with the blanket, as to keep me warm. I held my breath when he leaned forward over me. He slowly sniffed my face and my neck, then his breath felt like a warm gust on my skin, from shoulder to shoulder.I shivered when he moved my hands away, letting the bodice open again. I w
Ronda came when I was just back from taking the lunch tray to the kitchens. She was carrying two baskets full of the bright green lotion wolves used for their baths.She made me change my clothes, because they smelled of food, handed me one of the baskets and led me down the hall past the bend near my room. I’d never been past that bend. An old stone staircase started at the end of the bend, and Ronda led me up the stairs.The main level of the castle left me speechless, because it was like a fairy palace. Tall ceilings and wide hallways, with bright colorful tapestry and large painting hanging from the stone walls. The floors were made of big tiles of a white smooth streaked stone she called marble.Ronda wouldn’t let me pause to admire my surroundings, taking me down two broad hallways with heavy doors at both sides. Four wolfs were coming from the other end of the second hall, laughing like they were having the funniest of conversations,
The next morning, I found the cuff of his shirt showing out the trunk with my clothes. I took it and pressed it against my face, smiling. If I couldn’t spend the day with him, at least I could start it with his exquisite scent.Over breakfast, the list that Helga had given me passed from hand to hand around the healers’ table, causing murmurs and surprise.Kendra greeted me with her usual stern nod when I went to the kitchens. Heather hurried to me with her short, quick steps.“There you are, lionet. Come, come, we have a ton of peas to peel,” she said, nodding to the table where Rose and Primrose were working.I followed her, surprised by her friendly welcome. While Heather and Rose made room for me between them, I handed Primrose a small flask wrapped in a strip of paper.“For your finger,” I said, keeping my voice down. “This will help it heal and ease the pain. I wrote down the instructions for you.&rdq
He led me down a hallway that smelled of citrus and the oil from the lamps. We walked down a staircase with smooth steps, and then another hallway until a place that threw me off. It felt like we were outdoors, but the temperature and the stillness of the air told me we were still inside. It had to be a huge place. Then I noticed the humidity in the air. The floor was covered with big carved tiles, warm under my bare feet.The wolf put the small crate with his lotions and brushes in my hands.“Wait here, my child,” he said, kissing me.He walked away and I heard him take his clothes off before letting out that muffled gasp he couldn’t help when he changed. A moment later, he rubbed his furry head against my cheek.I took off the ribbon covering my eyes with a bright grin. He looked up and around, inviting me to do the same.The place was a true wonder. It was a hall large enough to fit three or four two-story village houses in it.
I nodded, pretending to read the woman’s small, tight handwriting, but I actually could only recognize the vowels.“Of course. I have them ready right tomorrow.”“That would be great. I can bring them to them.”“Wouldn’t you have any trouble, if they see you come back from this side with a basket of medicines?”“You’re right. I didn’t think about it.”“What time do you start your shift?”“It’s the dinner shift, from six to midnight.”“Good. I’ll take everything to the kitchens tomorrow, with detailed instructions for every remedy.”“You better come about this time, after we serve dinner upstairs.”“Of course. We can’t make them wait.”“Thank you, Joy.” Helga’s smile was open and honest. “I knew the rumors couldn’t be true.”
I stayed in the kitchens, helping anyway I could, until Kendra waved me over.“Enough for today, child. You’ve worked well, and you can come back tomorrow if you want.”I nodded with a quick bow, happy like Christmas. Before leaving, I waved goodbye at the three women. They were observing me, and flashed quick smiles at me.I found Tilda walking out of her chamber to go to Marla’s. She greeted me with a rare warm smile.“I’ve never seen you so happy,” she said, motioning for me to join her.“It’s the first time in my life I’m among humans who don’t insult me or abuse me because of how I look. I never thought it possible.”She paused to face me, and her grimace gave me a bad feeling. Especially because she hesitated before speaking.“You’re not supposed to know about it, but the cooks were warned against making any comment about your looks. They were in
That morning, I wore the dress I’d tried the night before, with the apron and the bonnet. For the first time since I’d gotten to the castle, I didn’t feel any pain in the arm the mountain lion had injured. I decided to let it be, putting the sling in the apron pocket just in case. I left my room carrying the tray with the dinner we’d never gotten to eat.I realized it was later than I’d thought when I found Almond and another woman cleaning Tilda’s chamber. Almond smiled hi at me. I noticed she didn’t look so congested anymore. I touched my nose, raising my eyebrows, and she nodded with another smile.Tilda came in from the other chambers and I faced them with my most docile ways, showing her the tray in my hands.“I’m taking this to the kitchens. Do you need anything from there? If not, I’d like to see if I can help there.”“Where’s your sling?” she asked.“I
I pushed my body against his hips, ignoring his attempt to stop me, and he froze for a long moment, to make sure I wasn’t in any kind of pain.His hips moved cautiously back, only a little, and then pushed forward again, his hands grabbing my waist to keep me from trying it again. Next, one of his hands moved under me to reach my groin. His fingers sneaked between the folds of my skin to rub my clit as his hips moved again, in synch with his fingers.I moaned and shivered, covered in sweat, my heart pounding in my chest, feeling him thrust inside me.He only let his need took over when he realized I was reaching my limit. Then his growls mixed with my moans and his hips pushed faster. I melted against his fingers at the same time he poured his seed in my guts, his fire becoming a part of my own climax.He dropped himself on top of me, panting, wrapping me in his intoxicating scent and warmth. He didn’t rush to leave my body, holding me out of
That afternoon, after a couple of hours studying with Aine in the meadow, I got back to my room to find something wrapped in fabric on my bed.I opened it and blushed so hard my ears burned. It was a translucent, low-cut petticoat. The short bodice wouldn’t cover my navel, and the long skirt was made with two independent folds of fabric that didn’t close by the front, nor behind.Then I noticed the small piece of paper that had fallen on the bearskin. I grabbed it and found three words written in a right-atilt, beautiful handwriting, big and clear so I could read it without any problem: I love you.I kissed the paper with tears in my eyes.That evening, I wore the daring petticoat, but decided to play a little joke on the wolf. So I put on one of the work dresses from my trunk, closed from the high collar down to my feet. I was adding apron and bonnet to the attire when Helga brought my dinner. She looked me up and down with a questio
The next morning, Tilda looked satisfied after checking my arm and removed the splints. I still needed the sling, but I was glad those hard sticks were gone. After breakfast, she gave me a sheet of paper, written in big, clear letters.“Can you read it?” she asked.Being able to read all the words almost without errors made me feel good. It was a list of kitchen condiments they didn’t grow in the medicinal garden.“Ronda is going to the kitchens. Go with her and bring me those, please.”I nodded with a big grin. They’d finally allow me to venture further than their chambers and my room! I grabbed the basket Tilda handed me and hurried out to the healers’ chambers, where I found Ronda waiting for me.She took me to the door to the garden and opened a big inner door to a broad bend in the hallway, that ran parallel to the outside wall. Windows opened in that door every few steps, letting in the daylight that