Ashlynn POV.
In my car, I sped off toward my brother's place, I sent them a message along with my mother's, telling them I'm on my way, I started the long drive to their place, and I had music on to keep me company, but my brain kept on repeating the scent I've smelled.So faint, yet so strong, I wonder how would it smell when it's closer, when it's stronger, my wolf wants to roll down in that scent, to bite the owner and call them ours, only ours.I shook my head at that, I want them, it's not that I don't want them, but I'm not ready yet, I need to have some time to pick up all the broken pieces that broke off me due to Amber and her memories.Maybe once I'm feeling better, I'll get back to them, I'll search for them, I'll have Liam's help, they aren't anyone in my pack, I know everyone, they must be one of his friends who's coming over to spend the night, I'd be able to find them, I'm sure I would.Now that I have a plan, I slowed down a little, there's no need to be in a hurry, I'll make it there sometime during the night, I'm hardly sleeping anyway, I can afford to be awake for the rest of the night. The rest of the drive was easy, there weren't many people on the roads this late in the night, my mind started to wander off to what my mate is like, is it a he or a she?I think I'd prefer for him to be a he, would he be okay with me being a switch, would he mind my little space? I won't mind if he'd be my little, I won't mind him being anything he wants to be, I'll never abuse him, I'll never make him feel bad, I'll always love him.My wolf agrees with me, we want my mate to be a he, maybe it's a he, I just hope that mother nature is hearing my prayers and making my mate would be a he. My next thoughts were what would he look like, he's a he for sure now, but what would he look like, would be a blondie like a kitty? Or a brunette like me? Maybe a redhead? I don't think I'd like him to be a redhead, I want him to be, well he'd be whatever he wanna be as long as it's a he.I was almost over Micah's pack place, Micah is the submissive of their relationship, but he's also the alpha, it always fascinated me, how wolves could be and act, even when we're not the ones in charge, we could be in charge. I'm a switch who's very dominant in my pack, I should never forget this, I should never forget that I'm a strong badass wolf, I almost forgot that back when I was with Amber, but now I would always remind myself of that.My mate would never hurt me, we're made for each other, I think I just gave myself one hell of a pep talk, I'm ready to take over the world, I'm ready to fall for my mate, but first I need to find him, or her, but please mother nature, make it be a him.I gave a signal to the right, ready to drive into my brother's town, it used to be only wolf town, but after Micah took charge, he allowed humans in too, but bleh, humans. They are worthless, they don't understand what mates are, what true love is, all they do is abuse each other and they have abused me too.I kept on driving toward the alpha's house, where he lives with his mate and some of the pack members, they lead their pack similarly to ours, people are welcome in their home or to go and live in their own places, and they train daily but not as the old alpha used to force them to.I parked in front of their place, checking the time, it was three am, I hope they are awake, or not, I'd wake them my own way, I got my things and knocked lightly on the door, but no one answered, I tried to open the door, it was open. I walked into the house, whispering to see if anyone was up, I don't want to wake Kitty yet, I haven't seen him in a while, it was time for revenge.I knew where his bedroom was, I knew Micah would be sleeping right next to him, I opened the door slowly, tiptoeing inside their room, I went to Micah's side, shaking him awake slowly, he opened his eyes and looked at me with fear, I placed a hand against my lips telling him to keep quiet.Now that Micah was awake I pointed at my brother, I hope he's dressed, he used to sleep dressed since we shared the room, Micah nodded agreeing with me, and he slipped out of the bed and got ready with me.We both attacked Jordan, jumping on top of him, Micah allowed me to be the one who pinned my brother's face and hands."BOOOO!!!!" I yelled once he woke up, and the lights were turned on by Micah. "For god's sake Ashlynn!" he yells while Micah fell to the ground laughing, I smiled to my brother."Missed me?" I ask him with a chuckle."I'm going to kill you," he threatens me but it doesn't scare me, I'm his favourite. "You guys need better security, I could come in to kill you both in your sleep," I say doing a scary face toward Jordan and Micah, my brother looked annoyed while his mate was busy laughing again."They knew to allow you in, I expected you to crash on the sofa, not try to scare me to death," Jordan accuses me."Where's your trust! I would never do that," I say with a smile, making him groan."Baby, get back in bed, Ashlynn, get lost," he says, but I gasp."Is that a way to welcome your own sister?" I ask with a fake pout, he could try to kick me out and I'd come back holding a coffee ready to annoy him to death."Go and get some sleep, you know where the guest room is," Kitty says in a calmer voice, kissing the top of my head."We'll see you in the morning, Ashlynn," Micah says, now that the alpha is kicking me out, I'll go get some sleep then.Ashlynn POV. I went to the guest room, of course, I knew where it is, I always stay there when I come over, Jordy thinks he's going to be free of me! Never! I threw my things in the room, and got ready for bed, I felt energized, I felt at peace with myself, after all that time of running, I could finally rest, I know I'm strong, why I'm scaring myself? For once in a really long time, I fell asleep, I just need to recharge, and that's what this place provides, I challenge Amber to come over here, and Kitty would eat her alive. I woke up to someone jumping on top of me, I woke up slowly, I knew I wasn't in danger, not in Micah and Jordan's place, they are one of the strongest packs around, and nothing would hurt me except Micah's weight. "Get off, you're crushing my bones," I inform him, it's funny and cute when I jump on top f Jordan, but Micah's weight, which is made of eighty per cent muscles, is not so fun. "Wakey, wakey, don't you wanna watch them run?" he asks me making me
Ashlynn POV. God, my head hurt so badly, what happened? What did happen, I tried to wake up, to open my eyes, but they felt super heavy, I couldn't wake up, but why couldn't I wake up, I groaned to myself, this isn't happening again. I'm a big strong dominant wolf, I'm not someone to be hurt or abused, I can wake up, I should wake up, but then I felt weak, I don't want to feel weak. "Mmmmm," I whined and groaned trying to move my body, trying to get my consciousness to wake the frick up. "Hey princess, my sweet princess," the voice says, I recognize this voice, I've heard it before everything went dark, it was there. I whined some more, why can't I wake up, what did happen to me? I was suffering from lack of sleep, and insomnia, not being in a coma, was I in some kind of incident, unless if a meteor have hit me and sent me to a medical coma. I think I fell back to sleep, the darkness took hold of me and my mind again, my dreams were interrupted by memories of Amber, memories of t
Ashlynn POV. I looked at my mate confused, how did I end up here? I looked at him, how did he know my name, there's something missing, although I loved kissing him and having him here, finding him, the main question was how? How did I end up here? How did he find me? How did he get me here?These questions had my head spinning, I looked at Eliot with confusion, we're going to have a chat, a good long chat about all of this. "Can we talk?" I ask him, he looked worried at my request, he's been middling since the second we met, is he lost between his two headspaces, I hate when that happens, but now what's happening. "Uhh, am I in trouble?" he asks me looking down at his feet, he's not scary, he's not the one who's in charge, he's not the one who could hurt me. "You're not in trouble, we just going to have a chat," I explain to him. "Fine, let's go inside," he says, holding my hand, walking me inside the pretty home, we went to what looked to be the kitchen, he took his seat and to
Ashlynn POV. "Eliot, come back here," I say running after him, he's really trying his luck with me, I don't want to punish him, he kept running through the living room. "You can't catch me," he yells at me, as he kept on running away from me, why is he even running, I'm not going to punish him for running away from me. "Eliot, please baby, we need to eat," I inform him as he keeps on running, with me following him. Finally, I managed to catch him, I hugged him by the waist, he's the same height as me, I can't really pick him up and carry him, instead, I dragged him with me to the kitchen. But Eliot was still being fussy, the game wasn't over for him, he wanted to keep on playing, trying to get away from me. "Not hungry! Nu wanna eat!" He announces to me, but I decided to ignore him instead, I kept on walking sitting him on a chair, and looking at him with a big frown on my face, trying to sound firm. "Don't you dare leave this chair," I warn him, but he shakes his head no. "If
Ashlynn POV. "Stop, stop," I say pushing my mate off me, although we're both in our big headspace, I wasn't ready to have sex yet, it's not like I've been saving myself, life got lonely, but the thing is, I wasn't ready right now. "Fine, princess," he says getting off me, but then he pulled me into his lap, playing with my hair making me feel safe in his arms, I felt the urge, the need to regress, but I'm still fighting that feeling, fighting it off. "Eli, where are we exactly?" I ask him trying to get my mind off the whole regressing business."You're in my lap sweetie," he answers me, whispering the words in my ear, landing a kiss there. "I know, but I mean where are we on the map?" I ask him. "You're right here, in my heart," he says making me giggle, he's cute. "I'm for real," I say with a giggle, making him giggle too, I made Eli giggle, it felt like an accomplishment. "What? My pretty mate doesn't like my cheap romance talk? I learned them all off old cheesy movies, you d
Ashlynn POV. The rest of the day passed like that, cuddling and hugging, I tried to ask him more about his life before we came here, and what pack he was from, but he wouldn't tell me. I asked why he was over at Micah's place, but he said he was there for me only, but when I tried to get more information about where he was born, and "how did he live his life, I got nothing, absolutely nothing, he won't answer any of those personal questions. "At least tell me what's your favourite colour," I beg him, I want to know something, anything about him, even if it's just his favourite colour. "I like orange," he says with a smile, finally I got one piece of information out of him. "Do you want to have dinner?" I ask him, I hoped Eli wasn't as picky as little Eliot. "Yes, princess, come on, I'll cook you tonight," he promises me, getting out of the bed, holding my hand we both went down to the kitchen to have the dinner ready, he didn't look any picky while picking the ingredient for the
Ashlynn POV. "Baby, wakey wakey," he says begging me, but I wasn't going to obey him, I don't want to wake up, not after last night's dream, it felt like shit. "I don't want to wake up," I say with a groan, I don't want to wake up, why is he trying to even wake me up. "Please get up princess, I want to see your pretty eyes," he begs with me, with a groan, I opened my eyes allowing him to see them, hope he's happy now. "Happy?" I groan at him. "Very, now please get up," he begs with me, he didn't sound little but I had to make sure I'm not neglecting my little boy, I sat up and opened my arms for him, little Eliot would come and sit in my lap, he'd hug me, but big Eli pulled me in for a hug, placing me in his lap, he's clearly big. "You can take care of yourself for the day Eli, if little Eliot needs me, I'll be in bed," I say pushing him off and going back to sleep. He allowed me to sleep in for another hour or so, but after that, I was wakened up by my mate again, this time he
Ashlynn POV. I splashed my mate another time, he was giggling, splashing me back, he loved playing, and I did too, my little side was yet again fighting with me, little Ashlynn wanted to come out and splash in the water, to play and mess around this place. But I can't let her out, unlike Eliot, I don't have two different personalities, I don't count them as different, they are both parts of me, and little me is my safer place, my safe haven, the one that Amber broke and scarred, that part needs to stay hidden until I'm fully healed only then she's allowed out. "Ready to get out?" I ask him, the water was fun and all, but it's time to get out of the water. "Nu, me playing, you play with me," he demands of me, we've been playing for long now, I'm getting tired and hungry, I just want to get out of the water to rest a little, the water won't go away. "We can take a small break honey, drink water, have lunch," I say knowing some time has passed since we got in the water. "I don't wa