Chapter 4

It won’t work... here let me demonstrate. You throw the bottle and it shatters on a rock away from you, you wait a minute with baited breath as the shrieks head towards the bottle. Now! It’s your chance, you start for the building but…but you step on a stick and it snaps. Oh no! they’re coming for you, bam! You’re caught and ripped into shreds.

My subconscious chuckles as my hand picks up the transparent glass bottle, I just need to throw it far enough that they will run away from me. That way I can make a run for the building and barricade myself inside. My hands start to sweat with the tension running through my body, I grip the bottle tight as my breathing became heavy. I prepare to lob the bottle away from me. Here we go I just need to get it far enough away from me. I draw my arm back I propel the bottle forward, the glass easily slips through my sweaty grasp as my muscles tighten with the release.

SMASH!

The shrieking instantly sounds out as the blood thirsty beasts rush towards the commotion, I have at least a one minute gap to get to the building before they would begin to chase me. I leap up as I start to bolt towards the building, my legs burning with the accelerated pace as I tried to get to the building in time, I could hear the debris crunching underneath them as they ran towards me.

Shit, I need to go faster or I need to distract them.

You know what would make a great distraction? The question came so suddenly it surprised me, I almost stop running at the soft tone used to utter the question.

What..?

Throwing your body down on the ground and giving up, it will distract you from getting to your destination. It was said in the same soft tone that makes my skin crawl, it’s like she wants me to do everything but succeed.

You know that’s not what I meant when I said distraction! I snarl at my subconscious angry that she’s urging me to just give up, it’s like she doesn’t even want to live. I continue on as I try to think of a plan to distract them. What if I were to loop in and out of the debris but that wouldn’t work, would it?

I weave between the debris in the hopes of distracting the beasts chasing me, as I continue i hear the thuds of the beasts as they hit hard surfaces in confusion. Was I actually confusing them? Were they not as smart as everyone believes them to be? Can they not comprehend the idea of weaving as I was doing? My short lived victory soon came to an end as I neared the building, the sound of teeth clicking together and snarling echoed towards me the closer I got to end. Was I the idiot? They had managed to herd me towards their accomplices waiting for me.

I told you, you would fail. You should just lay down now and accept that you’re about to be torn to shreds.

Maybe, maybe I sh

I gripped my head as I began to sob, the monsters closing in on me long forgotten. How is she is so right? Why so I feel this way? Why aren’t my family surrounding me with the comfort I so desperately need?

They aren’t here because you are nothing! You are worthless you should know that by now. You’ve been abandoned by multiple people, don’t you think that it would be better to just leave this world? Save yourself from all this pain?

I don’t want to leave yet! You’re wrong! I don’t want to die, I don’t want to slit my wrist or blow my brains out. I just want someone who is always going to be there for me but how can I have that without even wanting myself? Not even you want me around!

The sound of dirt crunching under multiple feet interrupted my pity party. I closed my eyes as the step came closer towards my seat amongst the rubble. This is it, the end is coming and there isn’t a thing I can do to stop it from happening. Not that I’d even try at this point. What’s the point of trying if there is no reason to even live? What the f**k am I supposed to do? Do I give up? Do I go on? Do I lay back and imagine a fake happiness as my body is ravaged into a  minced mess?

That sounds amazing but what if, what if you took that gun in your backpack and put it against your temple. You only need to pull a trigger and it would be all over. How great does that sound?

Too be honest it sounds better than becoming minced meat.

I couldn’t help it. I wanted to give up but on the other hand I wanted to prove everyone wrong. I wanted to prove myself wrong. Yes, that’s what I’ll do. I’ll prove to myself that I can be strong. That I can overcome any challenge thrown my way.

My eyes snapped open as I formulated my plan. I needed to find a stealth weapon, something easy like a bat or a brick. I strained to hear the dirt crunching as the footsteps had decreased. What were they doing? Were they trying to lure me out only to jump me? No I can’t get distracted. I need to stay on task. My eyes swept over the piles of broken concrete and bricks as I looked for a solid object to defend myself with. I searched the piles carefully as my eyes darted between the mounds and the noise of snarling as my palms began to sweat, that’s when I found it. Shining and sticking out of a pile of broken up bricks, the chrome aluminium shone as the sun’s rays hit it. Yes! Now I need to get it, I breathed a heavy breath through my chapped lips as I collected the courage to grab the bat.

I slowly rose from the rubble as the snarling grew in volume. Were they getting closer? I shook the thought from my head as I cautiously descended from the pile. The rubble began to creak as I stepped on a particularly loose brick.

Shit! I needed to go slower and watch where I step.

With consideration and measured steps I made it safely and quietly off the mass of wreckage to grab the bat. I just needed to get past without alerting them to my presence but how? I noticed a shining object in a clutter near the left of my body. What was that? Is that a shard from a mirror? I can use that to see where they were. I slowly made my way towards the clutter to pick the shard up. The fragment itself was dirty and covered in grime but that was an easy fix. I quickly cleaned the piece off with my shirt and tested the reflection. I could clearly see the buildings behind me and the monstrosities.