Chapter 3

It won’t work... here let me demonstrate. You throw the bottle and it shatters on a rock away from you, you wait a minute with baited breath as the shrieks head towards the bottle. Now! It’s your chance, you start for the building but…but you step on a stick and it snaps. Oh no! they’re coming for you, bam! You’re caught and ripped into shreds.

My subconscious chuckles as my hand picks up the transparent glass bottle, I just need to throw it far enough that they will run away from me. That way I can make a run for the building and barricade myself inside. My hands start to sweat with the tension running through my body, I grip the bottle tight as my breathing became heavy. I prepare to lob the bottle away from me. Here we go I just need to get it far enough away from me. I draw my arm back I propel the bottle forward, the glass easily slips through my sweaty grasp as my muscles tighten with the release.

SMASH!

The shrieking instantly sounds out as the blood thirsty beasts rush towards the commotion, I have at least a one minute gap to get to the building before they would begin to chase me. I leap up as I start to bolt towards the building, my legs burning with the accelerated pace as I tried to get to the building in time, I could hear the debris crunching underneath them as they ran towards me.

Shit, I need to go faster or I need to distract them.

You know what would make a great distraction? The question came so suddenly it surprised me, I almost stop running at the soft tone used to utter the question.

What..?

Throwing your body down on the ground and giving up, it will distract you from getting to your destination. It was said in the same soft tone that makes my skin crawl, it’s like she wants me to do everything but succeed.

You know that’s not what I meant when I said distraction! I snarl at my subconscious, angry that she’s urging me to just give up. It’s like she doesn’t even want to live. I continue on as I try to think of a plan to distract them. What if I were to loop in and out of the debris but that wouldn’t work, would it?

I weave between the debris in the hopes of distracting the beasts chasing me, as I continue i hear the thuds of the beasts as they hit hard surfaces in confusion. Was I actually confusing them? Were they not as smart as everyone believes them to be? Can they not comprehend the idea of weaving as I was doing? My short lived victory soon came to an end as I neared the building, the sound of teeth clicking together and snarling echoed towards me the closer I got to end. Was I the idiot? They had managed to herd me towards their accomplices waiting for me.

I told you, you would fail. You should just lay down now and accept that you’re about to be torn to shreds.

Maybe, maybe I should just lay here and wait to get torn apart by those things. If that’s what you think I should do maybe I should, this world isn’t going to get any better. It’s not like there is going to be a cure, it’s not like I’m going to get out of this alive. So… why shouldn’t I just give up I could lean on the nearly decimated wall and try to find some peace of mind before I get torn into, devoured and then reanimated.

I sighed as I slowed my stride and looked around for a somewhat comfortable place to lose my sanity and turn into a rabid beast, I spotted a pile of rubble that had landed in such a way that it reminded me of a recliner. God I miss recliners, I miss books, proper food, clean water. Jeez what I wouldn’t give to sleep on a bed. I miss my family even if they had given me my scar. They had abandoned me but I still wanted them to except me, too love me. I wish I knew what I did to make them want to cast me out as God had done to lucifer.

You merely existed, that’s what happened.

Why are you so cruel to me? Aren’t you supposed to be on my side? What did I do?

I’m so cruel to you as you put it because I’m what you want, you want to die. You want to give up. You want to take a blade and slit your wrists, you want to put a gun to your head and pull the trigger. I’m just encouraging you to follow your dreams!