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2020-09-04 17:44:32"How are you feeling?" Charlie asked me as I angrily ate what was left of my cake that he and Tiffany almost finished. I don't know how I was feeling, I'm I angry, sad, hurt or confused? How in the world things escalated like that I don't understand. I've never ever in my life reacted to a situation like I did today and I'm honestly embarrassed that they all had to see that.
"I'm fine," I muttered as I looked down at the cake that was in my lap, "You guys finished it!" I cried pointing to them with the fork, it's quite obvious I'm not crying for the cake but for something else, more like someone else. Why does it always hurt, it just becomes worse and worse the more he pushes me away.
"Lotus," Tiffany whispered pulling me in for a hug as I cried, why do I always cry when it comes to him?
"I hate him but at the sa
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