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Chapter 32

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"Chilli?" Sam sits on the floor with me, "are you okay?" I nod my head, fighting back my tears, lying. "I'm sorry, stupid question," I sob silently as he pats my shoulder. "You'll be okay Chilli socks, it will be okay". Nudging me with his shoulder, "come on girly, you'll be okay". Whipping my eyes I look up at him and try to smile through my pain, failing.

"It's my fault".

"How is it your fault?"

"It just is. I should of... I could have.." Unable to complete my sentences, to form the words.

"Now you listen to me and listen good! It is not your fault!" Sam says slowly but surely,

"But.." stuttering,

"No buts missy," he sighs, placing a hand on my shoulder, comforting me. "It's hard, I know, but it will happen for you two again. Try not to dwell and lose yourself in it. Focus on the future, on your future, together. "

"But I let everyone down. I .. I lost it." Choking on my emotions, bearly breathing. Sam puts an arm around me and gives me a squeeze.

"Oh Chilli, you didn't let anyo
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