At around the beginning of the next school day- I was summoned to the director's office.
Upon coming back I knew that my future with the school was still undecided. In fact, it was in the hands of a number of people. Whether I'd join the advanced placement dance class like I originally would've, or redo the entire year and forget about all the hard work I had done.Knowing that the verdict about my life depended on whichever direction these people would decide to take, made me feel both restless and helpless.I hadn't expected all four dance instructors to be part of this decision-making meeting.But there I was; sitting in front of the director's desk, two instructors to my left and two more to my right."This is about whether or not you believe she can still make it in the class." Madam Bennett,our school director said, sharp-nosed and grey-haired like I remembered."I don't think she can cope in advanced placement. I mean, graduation is just a few months away." Cavanaugh, an instructor I worked with while still a junior voiced out."I agree. She would be under a lot of pressure, especially with picking up the combinations that the others already know. And she'd still need to choreograph her own routine for the upcoming trials." Madam Richardson, my contemporary instructor said adding another nail to my crucifixion."I don't think that would be the right course of action. Our advanced placement class is too small as is. And if what she lacks is already known, I say give her that. Classes are resuming this week, put her back in and get her training again." Disagreed the new instructor, I had learned in the beginning of the meeting that his name was Luca Bianchi."Impossible. She'll still be hopelessly behind her peers." Richardson continued throwing me under the bus.How dare she? In this room, she's the one person who I thought and believed knew exactly what I was capable of."No I won't," I argued. But no one listened to me, obviously."Then give her extra training sessions," Luca said.He and Madam Richardson continued on with the back and forth, while I and the others watched the exchange like it was a ping-pong game."Who's going to put in the extra time?" Bennett demanded, interrupting the back and forth. "You?"That's when the poor guy hesitated, "well, that's not what I-"I saw Richardson crossing her arms with satisfaction: as if to say, 'that's exactly what I thought'.Clearly at a loss, he frowned. His eyes flicked toward me, and I wondered what he saw. A pathetic girl, looking at him with big pleading eyes? Or someone who was willing to do anything to prove herself? Realizing that this was a battle I was already losing, I looked away from him."Yes," he finally said, causing my head to snap up again. "I can mentor Brianna. What I've seen in the records makes me believe she's raw potential. So, I'll give her the extra sessions along with her normal ones."The school had a habit of recording some of our performances to keep for future students to learn from. To know that someone had seen mine and realized the extent of my potential, made me feel a trickle of hope."I'm inclined to agree with Bianchi, I think the extra sessions can hone Brianna until she returns to her former glory." Marples, the instructor I had before I left suddenly spoke up from her corner.Bennett's' lips tightened into a straight line as she realized the tie in the votes. She turned to me before verbalizing the verdict, "you are being offered a very generous deal, I hope you'll take it with both hands and run with it."I started to say they knew I was good enough as everybody else, exceptional even. But then I caught Luca's gaze. It was hard to read. He might have been telling me that he believed in me. He might have been telling me I would be an idiot if I picked that fight. I don't know. Looking away from him for the second time during the meeting, I stared at the floor."If Miss Whitlock stays, here's how it will be." Bennett turned to me. "Your continued enrollment at Walnut Hill School will be strictly probationary. If there are no signs of improvement or you fail to step up to the plate in the upcoming month, you won't be allowed to join the class.You will attend all classes and required trainings for dancers your age. You will also train with instructor Bianchi in every spare moment you have- before and after your normal classes."I was waiting for her trademark line; "and we won't tolerate tardiness, ever." I said it with her in my head.In the end, I thought that things had turned out pretty well for me. Especially because this was more than what I had hoped for. Finally, there was a glimmer of light at the end of the tunnel. At long last, I exhaled and looked back up at the director."I accept."The Bianchi guy and I were the last ones out of the door. As I hopped away to share the news with my friends,he called out. "Where do you think you're going?""To see my friends,why?" I'm sure a frown formed on my face."You have practice right now, that's why." He said sternly while turning to walk towards the halls, as if he knew those words alone were enough to compel me to follow him wherever he went. And I did.Curious about everything I'd learn from him, I jogged after him.At around the same time I reached the hall, a splitting headache began assaulting my skull. In attempt to soothe the veins,I started massaging my temples. His tall form walked over to where I stood, "are you okay?" he asked as his pale blue eyes bore into mine."Just a slight headache," I lied. Telling him that I thought skipping breakfast was what was causing it wasn't an option, especially if I wanted out of the probationary period. Everything else could wait, and that went for friends,food or literally anything else."Can you keep going?"The hard, stoic man I'd met earlier was gone-just for a moment- he actually looked concerned. Genuinely concerned. Feeling his eyes on me like that made something flutter inside of me- which was stupid, of course. I had no reason to get all goofy,just because the man was too good looking for his own good. After all, he was a maestro, according to Christopher. One who I'm sure would leave me in all sorts of physical pain, every passing day."Yeah, I'm fine," I lied.Then disappeared into the gym's dressing room and changed into workout clothes. Indecisive about my shoes, I peeked from the door "which ones should I go with?" I inquired, holding the pair of running shoes I'd been wearing earlier-in one hand- and my point shoes in the other."You won't be wearing those for a while," he told me gesturing at the point shoes.Some dance it'll be without them, I thought to myself as I complied.When I emerged he showed me the sets of workouts he wanted me to do, then sprawled in a corner with ear buds on. Some Maestro he was.I motioned to him when I finished; then he came over, stood beside me and demonstrated a few cool-down stretches."How'd you get to be Moore's replacement?" I asked.He didn't answer right away. I got the feeling he didn't talk about himself very often."The director called to offer me the job," he said curtly."Well, you've got big shoes to fill here." The words got out before I had a chance to stop them.A glint of something--maybe amusement--sparked in his eyes, but he didn't acknowledge the joke."After I graduated, I started choreographing dances with a partner. Which I loved, but when I got the offer I figured the change would do me good."When his smile dropped and face grew dark, I knew there was something he wasn't telling me. But I decided not to push it.By the time I did the second set of exercises, my muscles informed me they'd had enough for the day.So I suggested to Luca that maybe he should let me off this time.He laughed,and I was pretty sure it wasn't with me but at me."Why is that funny?" I asked, breathing heavily and shakily."Oh", he said, voice filled with mockery. "I didn't realize that you are serious.""Of course I am! You know that everyone is outside catching up, right? Serious training won't begin until this dance is out of the way. Let me live a little too," I whined."It's just one more hour, I'm sure you can live through that."He crossed his arms and looked down at me. His earlier concern was gone. He was all business now. A true embodiment of tough love."How do you feel right now? After the training you've done so far?""I hurt like hell," I said pouting."You'll feel worse tomorrow." He told me, matter of fact-ly."And you're telling me this because?" I crossed my arms over my chest."Because it makes sense to jump in now while you still feel...not as bad"."What kind of logic is that?" I retorted. But I didn't argue anymore because he joined me for the third set of exercises,as if to make me feel better about working while my peers played.Due to the exhaustion, I fought to keep my eyes open through dinner. When I went to bed afterward, I passed out before even hitting the pillow. And just like that, what looked like the rest of my senior year had began.I looked up at him, intending to make a funny comment.But the distance between our bodies was almost non existent. We stood in what looked like the inside of the dance hall that I know.His expression was gentle and tender as he studied me; making his pale blue eyes to glow with some inner emotion that I couldn't identify, or even understand.His entire focus was on me.It was like drowning in seas of blue. In that moment, there was nothing in the world that I wanted more than to just dive into the depths of those eyes.I couldn't remember what I'd been about to say. Or even why. All my mind seemed to comprehend were the beautiful features of his body. Like his lips, his arms, and even the scent that enveloped him. Which suddenly overpowered me. My body felt warm and feverish all over. I wanted him to close the small distance between us. Hell, I wanted him to kiss me even.Even thought I knew that he could tell what I wanted, from just looking into my eyes. He didn't give in. Or at le
Happy to see that like yesterday, he had something to listen to- I set to my task with burning zeal, showing the lunges, long arm crunches and planks just what Brianna Whitlock is made of.I knew my workout fury was fired up by more than just the simple desire to do well.My feelings were out of control this morning; raw and intense after both the erotic dream that robbed me of my beauty sleep, as well as the email from my mother.Somewhere in the middle of my second set, Luca removed the buds from his ears, sat back and started watching me.For a second there, I became self conscious. But immediately pushed all other non-mentor related thoughts away.He occasionally critiqued and offered suggestions for new tactics. And I enthusiastically tried them out, without any witty quips."Taking it out in practice is one way to go about it," he said thoughtfully. "But talking is usually a better option.""Wish I knew what you're talking about," I said making another lunge forward."For starter
At lunch; I settled for a bit of brown rice, added chicken breast and a side of asparagus to my plate.I had learned over the years, that a big part of what made me a dancer - way more than the moves and the capability itself. Was what I put into my body. But of course, me being the rebel that I am, I still turned a blind eye from time to time.Especially when snacking opportunities were involved. My return to school had however made me feel determined to eat clean again. Because I needed with every fiber of my being, to see myself performing at my peak again. As I was, of course, still on probation. While grabbing an apple from the fruit basket; I could see Abby and the rest of them already settled at our favorite lunch table.My earlier temper over the email from my mother and my conversation with Luca, immediately shifted to the very back of my mind. As I excitedly headed to join them at the table.Christopher removed the thick book that he had placed next to him.I placed my
"Okay, enough chatting time." Luca said, freezing my hand in place. And moving out of reach too, before I could carry out my experiment."Time to get back to work."I mentally chastised myself for being stupid, and wanting to play silly games. Especially with the man who was supposed to help me prove myself to everyone who now doubted my talent and capability.But the most puzzling thing about that whole almost close weird experience, was how indifferent the man was.Almost as if I had imagined my very own actions, and weren't something that had really been close to being put in motion.I wondered what that was about."That's a bummer," I mockingly pouted. "Because I was starting to enjoy the aimlessly staring of the walls around here." I joked, hoping to mask my confusion and all the racing thoughts that were going on in my head. About what I had almost done, just a few seconds ago."You're a funny girl," he noted and walked towards the corner of the hall. Where he placed his buds o
By the end of that session, I was idiotically smiling to myself as I walked out of dance hall.I was pretty sure too that on my face, was the smirk similar to the one that I had caught Luca concealing.The 'what are we doing?' kind of smile.The 'it is so wrong to be feeling this way, and yet it feels so right too,' kind of smirk.I joyfully greeted everyone that I passed along the pavement, as I headed to Abby's dorm. Which was in the strings' section of the music building, near the eatery.My fingers rapped lightly on her door, just to see if she was home yet."Why do you look so surprised?" I asked, when she pulled the door open."Because you're never this polite," she stated matter of factly. Referring to my knocking.As according to her and the rest of my friends, I had some difficulties when it came to grasping the concept of knocking on people's doors."Well, people change mi amor," I grinned as I walked past her.And made myself comfortable on her small bed."Speaking of change
The rest of our first week back, flew by.And before we knew it, it was Friday evening. The moment that we had all been waiting for.'Welcome back' banners were placed all over the school. Abby came over to my dorm, so that we could get dressed together."I take it your loud roommate is home today?" I teased her. "What's her name again? Giselle?" She scoffed in response."Giselle changed schools," she informed. "A new girl got assigned with me, before last semester ended. Her name is Jessica." "I see you change them like pairs of socks," I joked and she laughed."Very funny," she said. "Because you know that it's not even up to me. If it were, you'd be in piano with me. So that we'd be assigned to the same dorm room too.""And leave all this space that comes with dance behind?" I dramatically waved around my spacious room. "I don't think so." "That's fine, go right ahead and brag about all these dance privileges." She chuckled.And upon seeing that the clock had struck 6 p.m, we
I didn't have a plan in mind, when I turned my back on him."I asked you a question, young lady." Luca said and gave me a pointed look."I don't feel good," I shakily told him. Trying hard to fight the wave of dizziness that I was suddenly feeling.He rushed to my side, and brought his four fingers to my forehead. "You're not feverish," he muttered. "Come," he grabbed me by the hand and led me to an empty bench towards the end of the long hallway."Sit here, while I get you some water." He commanded.With no smart quips to throw at him, I only nodded and sat."Try not to be dragged away by the next boy who comes by," he yelled as he jogged away. Without once looking back.I had clearly disappointed him, that went without saying.And I could tell too, that he wasn't going to let the events of that night go that easily.Within what I believed to have been five minutes, he was back. With bottled water in his hand."Are you feel nauseous?" He asked. Concern audible in his tone, as he sa
I fell into bed, with a huge smile on my face that night. And was only pleased when my dreams featured the man, shortly after.Then I impatiently waited for my weekend to end, so that I could see him again.On Monday morning, official classes across campus were beginning. For me, a special case, not only that was the case.But a few adjustments were thrown into my timetable.Like the fact that I had training with Luca, before my normal classes began. The same had to happen after school too. At least until I got out of probation.As soon as I had gotten dressed, I happily hopped towards the dance hall."Good morning," I chirpily greeted."Someone's in a good mood," he noted with an infectious grin that I couldn't help but return."Of course I am!" I bounced around, then quickly disappeared into the changing room.As I emerged a few moments after, I found him standing in front of the mirror - a small frown forming on his forehead."What's wrong?" My tone was soft, as I asked."Nothi
Feeling like I had been neglecting my friendship with Abby, I decided to spend that evening with her."Surprise!" I beamed when she opened the door."I'm surprised indeed, alright." She gave me a lazy smile."Someone's out of a funk already?" She checked."Oh, you know me, I'm made of sterner stuff." I shrugged."That you are," she weakly chuckled."Your roommate is never here," I noted, looking wildly around the small room. As if half expecting her to jump out of the small closet, any second."Uh huh," Abby nodded. "I never even really know where she is myself. In fact, I rarely see her.""She's probably out with Chris," I waved a bit dismissively."Bri, you and I have been best friends for years. So, I most definitely know when you're fishing." She called me out. "Me? Why would I? Never!" I instantly averted my gaze."What? Are you jealous?" She grabbed my chin, until my eyes wandered in her direction."To be honest with you, I'm not even." I began. "If anything I'm slightly reliev
Before I left the hall, I was given something to think about yet again.Luca had assigned me the responsibility of thinking what rules one needed to keep in mind during a dance routine.I thought about it, pretty much the entire evening as I tossed and turned in my small bed.Trying really hard to tune out everything bad that had happened in the day.When I saw the time going for midnight, I knew that I was in for an all expenses paid for- insomnia sponsored night.And I was quite shocked to feel myself yearning for something. A connection even. One with the one person that I had no real relationship with. My mother. That's when I knew my day had gone that horribly for me to even long for her genuine presence in my life. Screw it, I thought as I jumped off the bed.For a few minutes, or what could have easily passed for hours- I sat, motionlessly in front of the computer.Reading, rereading and memorizing the last email from her. That I already knew by heart.For quite some time, I
As I stepped into the sidewalk the next morning, I ran into Marcus."Oh, good morning beautiful." He beamed."Good morning to you too, Marcus." I said and continued walking."Rushing to practice?" He asked, and I nodded.After taking a quick glance at my wrist watch, I realized that I had five more minutes to kill. But I didn't intend to kill them with Marcus.I was so excited. Partly about what had finally happened yesterday, and mostly about the prospect of getting to experience Luca as a dance instructor that day. Instead of the personal trainer that he had quickly become in the past week."How was the coffee?" He studiously watched me.I frowned slightly, at the unexpected question."It was alright," I shrugged then asked. "Why do you ask?""I don't know, Bri." He thoughtfully began and slowly leaned towards me. "Maybe because it was a special blend, one made to serve a specific purpose.""What purpose was that?" I tried to keep it cool, and act like I wasn't mad but merely curiou
As soon as we had finished our coffee; I saw it as my cue, to head to the changing room.The real work would soon be beginning, and the idea easily transported me to cloud nine.Luca was lazily looking at me, when I emerged."What is it?" I wildly glanced around and at myself, all the while wondering if something was wrong with me.Or if I had emerged from the changing room, in only my bra and panties.Because his eyes looked lazy and somewhat sleepy, but even to a clueless somebody like myself- it was very easy to see that a lot of passion lied behind them as well."Nothing," he sat in front of the mirror. Which was very unexpected of him, because he was too much of a slave driver to simply allow a few minutes to drift on by. Without any work being done."You can tell me," the words came out in a seductive whisper, that sounded foreign even in my own ears."Really?" He looked up at me, with both curiosity and fascination."Yes," I slightly nodded. And then I decided to take things f
I fell into bed, with a huge smile on my face that night. And was only pleased when my dreams featured the man, shortly after.Then I impatiently waited for my weekend to end, so that I could see him again.On Monday morning, official classes across campus were beginning. For me, a special case, not only that was the case.But a few adjustments were thrown into my timetable.Like the fact that I had training with Luca, before my normal classes began. The same had to happen after school too. At least until I got out of probation.As soon as I had gotten dressed, I happily hopped towards the dance hall."Good morning," I chirpily greeted."Someone's in a good mood," he noted with an infectious grin that I couldn't help but return."Of course I am!" I bounced around, then quickly disappeared into the changing room.As I emerged a few moments after, I found him standing in front of the mirror - a small frown forming on his forehead."What's wrong?" My tone was soft, as I asked."Nothi
I didn't have a plan in mind, when I turned my back on him."I asked you a question, young lady." Luca said and gave me a pointed look."I don't feel good," I shakily told him. Trying hard to fight the wave of dizziness that I was suddenly feeling.He rushed to my side, and brought his four fingers to my forehead. "You're not feverish," he muttered. "Come," he grabbed me by the hand and led me to an empty bench towards the end of the long hallway."Sit here, while I get you some water." He commanded.With no smart quips to throw at him, I only nodded and sat."Try not to be dragged away by the next boy who comes by," he yelled as he jogged away. Without once looking back.I had clearly disappointed him, that went without saying.And I could tell too, that he wasn't going to let the events of that night go that easily.Within what I believed to have been five minutes, he was back. With bottled water in his hand."Are you feel nauseous?" He asked. Concern audible in his tone, as he sa
The rest of our first week back, flew by.And before we knew it, it was Friday evening. The moment that we had all been waiting for.'Welcome back' banners were placed all over the school. Abby came over to my dorm, so that we could get dressed together."I take it your loud roommate is home today?" I teased her. "What's her name again? Giselle?" She scoffed in response."Giselle changed schools," she informed. "A new girl got assigned with me, before last semester ended. Her name is Jessica." "I see you change them like pairs of socks," I joked and she laughed."Very funny," she said. "Because you know that it's not even up to me. If it were, you'd be in piano with me. So that we'd be assigned to the same dorm room too.""And leave all this space that comes with dance behind?" I dramatically waved around my spacious room. "I don't think so." "That's fine, go right ahead and brag about all these dance privileges." She chuckled.And upon seeing that the clock had struck 6 p.m, we
By the end of that session, I was idiotically smiling to myself as I walked out of dance hall.I was pretty sure too that on my face, was the smirk similar to the one that I had caught Luca concealing.The 'what are we doing?' kind of smile.The 'it is so wrong to be feeling this way, and yet it feels so right too,' kind of smirk.I joyfully greeted everyone that I passed along the pavement, as I headed to Abby's dorm. Which was in the strings' section of the music building, near the eatery.My fingers rapped lightly on her door, just to see if she was home yet."Why do you look so surprised?" I asked, when she pulled the door open."Because you're never this polite," she stated matter of factly. Referring to my knocking.As according to her and the rest of my friends, I had some difficulties when it came to grasping the concept of knocking on people's doors."Well, people change mi amor," I grinned as I walked past her.And made myself comfortable on her small bed."Speaking of change
"Okay, enough chatting time." Luca said, freezing my hand in place. And moving out of reach too, before I could carry out my experiment."Time to get back to work."I mentally chastised myself for being stupid, and wanting to play silly games. Especially with the man who was supposed to help me prove myself to everyone who now doubted my talent and capability.But the most puzzling thing about that whole almost close weird experience, was how indifferent the man was.Almost as if I had imagined my very own actions, and weren't something that had really been close to being put in motion.I wondered what that was about."That's a bummer," I mockingly pouted. "Because I was starting to enjoy the aimlessly staring of the walls around here." I joked, hoping to mask my confusion and all the racing thoughts that were going on in my head. About what I had almost done, just a few seconds ago."You're a funny girl," he noted and walked towards the corner of the hall. Where he placed his buds o