“If you don't want to accept it, then don't,”
My brows arched. Akala ko ay ipapaliwanag na niya saakin.
I was about to utter another word. I want to object about her but a sudden ring of the telephone on the side of her table rings.
“Hello?” She said to the line.
I looked away. Giving her a privacy.
“Oh, really?” surprise crossed her tone.
Wow, I looked away but my ears were keep from evesdropping. Nice.
“I'll be there, save it for a scope.” She said before their call ended kasabay ng pag balik ko ng tingin sa kaniya.
A little grin was plastered in her lips. She play on her seat and sigh.
“I have an urgent,” She informed me before standing up. Tumango ako sakaniya. “Watch news later,” She smirk.
After an... I could say. a pretty long talk with the Editor in Chief, I hurriedly head the way going to the restroom because I felt an urge to pee after everything happened.
After doing my thing in the restroom, I fixed myself infront of the mirror. I look at the check and decided to hide it inside my bag before leaving.
“How was it? A plan to butt-in into my personal life?”
A one step backward is what I found myself doing as I heared a familiar cold baritone voice as I step outside the girls restroom. I could feel myself rooted at my spot with a widened eyes. The chills climbed up to my spine, ang pamilyar na boses ay bahagyang nag palamig sa kabuunan ko. Analyzing his words, I could precisely say that he's talking about the offer I had from the Editor in Chief.
Dahan dahan akong nag lakad. I glanced at him. Xheidan is leaning his back over the immaculate wall while the both hand is inserted in his both pocket.
“E-Excuse me?” I said, stuttering. Dahan dahan siyang tumayo ng diretso at tumingin saakin.
The leer of his eyes menace every detail of me. Being contented of the way of his gaze, he rolled his eyes and tilted his head, showing the earpods in his ear.
“I'm talking to someone nosy on line,” He said coldly, eyes are bored like what usually he was. The insult is mark in his eyes as it keep on me.
I gulp and look away. I start to take another step to leave but I stop again as he speak.
“You shouldn't meddle in others life. Sometimes, meddling in other can cause you trouble...”
I look at him. Xheidan's eyes met mine. He stand straightly to face me and continue his words.
“...watch yourself out,”
Don't I really think carefully in my decision? Will accepting that offer could bring trouble to me?
I gasp and awkwardly look away before look at him aback with a disbelief concurred in my eyes.
“Do I even know what you're saying?” I laugh for a bit to act not defensive in my words but I disappoint myself.
Xheidan stared at me like he doesn't like what I said. “I thought you're smart. Bet it stay as a thought until last,”
My brows met. I don't understand what he was saying. In the whole week I was seeing Xheidan for my classes, he never talk and if ever, those are just time when it was for an acad. That's way I have no idea in his vocabulary and how to play around his mind.
“Tss..” He crossed his arms and look at me intently. “I wonder how I made myself that important in a lot of people around me. All I know is I do nothing,” He arched the side of his lip while the burn in his eyes felt towards my spine.
My eyes fixed in Xheidan. I couldn't understand what he's trying to point out but the hint that cupping my head is Xheidan know about Crizeliah's offer on me. This is damn. How did he knew that if possible? As I could remember as the orientation held a weeks ago, all rooms and offices here are soundproof.
“Stop staring. You can't dig me as your part by doing that,”
“Ano bang sinasabi mo?” I tried to sound mad to hide my shiver and stutter. I was tense if Xheidan really knows everything.
“Oh? You don't understand English language?” The insult hugged his tone.
WHAT THE FUCK?!
My jaw almost fell off the floor after hearing that! I unbelievably look in his eyes and crossed my arms too. The butt hurt was visible in my eyes and the way I clench my jaw. This guys really deserves to be in detention. He's... He's so annoying.
“W-What?!”
FUCK ASTHREITTLE, STOP ASKING WHAT!!!!
Xheidan smirked at me, protruding his lips. “Stop acting dumb, it doesn't suits you.”
I didn't reply.
“Did you know that stalking has a punishment? You can be imprison and will be fine more than a hundred of thousand because of that,” His tone turned warn. “But I know it won't step on your guts cause you have a money right? A check?” He smirked.
HOW THE FUCK DID HE KNEW THAT?!
My eyes were fixed at him, my breathing came heavy as I gritted my fist.
“What are you—”
“Tss, save your words.,” aniya at nilagpasan ako.
“How did you know...?”
Xheidan's smirk went wider and I feel my knees getting weak. Pakiramdam ko ay nahuli na ako sa krimeng hindi ko pa nasisimulan.
“I know everything, Asthreittle.” a ghost smiled cupped his face.
I stare at him. I don't know what to say. His words are marking in my chest and head.
Iniiling ko ang ulo ko. Sa mga oras na ito ay parang gusto ko nang bawiin lahat ng napag usapan namin ni Crizeliah. Xheidan is infront of me, hunting and confronting me about the offer I'd just take...
BUT I HAVEN'T TAKEN IT YET!
“Investigating without any strand of a law is defined as stalking. I could file a case for that,” He clenched his jaw.
“But I haven't say yes for it yet!” I defended with a gut in my eyes. Pakiramdam ko ay nabuhayan ako mula sa pag kakalubog ng isang paa ko sa hukay. Thanks God.
“Oh really?” He raised his brow. ”Are you backing out this early?”
“If you really evesdropped in our conversation, you probably heared that I never say yes and just said that I'll try!” Pag tatanggol ko sa sarili.
Xheidan snarl and pressed his lips together. “Tss. I mark those two as same.”
“XHEIDAN—”
“Don't call me by my name,” he cutted me off.
I rolled my eyes. “Ass..” I murmur. “What now?” I asked when silence eat the both of us. “Are you planning to call a police to arrest me?” I said sarcastically, agad naman akong kinilabutan nang dahil sa sarili kong sinabi.
What the heck, Asthreittle? Do you really want to be jailed?!
“No,” he said, eyes were cupped in serious all over ahead fixed in me. I feel the urge to clap because of that but I stop myself.
“As of reason that I have an offer for you,” He added.
Wow! I knew it. No time for celebration talaga. Bakit ba parang puro offer ang nakukuha ko sa araw na ito?
Inirapan ko siya. “What?!” I growl but then he suddenly glared and moved his brows as a one line that makes me smile awkwardly for get back. “What is it Xheidan—”
“Don't call me by my name,” He immediately cut me off... again.
WOW! WHAT DO I SUPPOSE TO CALL HIM? MASTER? SIKRETO NG MGA POGI?!
“Baby, you want?” Hindi ko napigilan ang pag ngisi.
Xheidan grimaced at me as if I said something disgusting! Napaka arte! First of all, all displayed in anything is just his first name Xheidan and nothing more. What do I suppose to call him then?
“Cut it off,” He rolled his eyes.
Did I already said that he's so stagy?
“I won't file a case against you because I'm actually planning to help you out.” He inserted both of his hands inside his pocket.
A sudden furrow and widened eyes is what I found myself doing as of hearing Xheidan's words. I carefully stared at him. Crizeliah already played with my mind just earlier and then now I'm right infront of Xheidan who's offering me another offer.
If I'm going to analyze anything, I found it fishy. Why would he even help me?
“Why?” Seryoso kong tanong.
“To clean my name.”
Hindi ako naniniwalang tumingin sakaniya.
“Among of everything, the most important to me is my name and my image. Knowing that the Editor in Chief is being fog curious about my identity is definitely a huge insult in some part of me. I want to clean my name from that senseless assumptions. I'm in this school to learn, why do I receive an assumptions?” He hissed and look away.
I stared at him and tried to invoke his words inside my head. But in that way, all I got is a continuos number of questions entering my head. I never expect Xheidan to be this type of person. All I thought of him is not showing any kind of interest on those people who are throwing shits against him, bashing and ranting him because of his attitude and mysterious background. I was thinking, isn't it fishy?
What if...
“I'm dumping that offer,” I forced myself to smile at him but the usual Xheidan never show any emotion as a reply.
“Really?” He look at me intently.
“I don't wanna do it anymore,”
“Oh? Because I caught you off guard? Did you know that it's a sign of convict, taking back your words because you're shaggy?”
I swallowed hard. “Let me say that you're right. I don't want to do it 'cause you caught me off guard.” I hold on to his thought.
I was thinking. Why would he offer me a help which is definitely a bang to himself knowing that it's against him. I need more details. The idea inside my head wasn't reassembled accordingly as of lack of informations. Palagay ko ay kailangan kong mag bato ng tanong.
Xheidan nodded as of satisfaction before siding way his glance to the wall where he was leaning a few moment ago.
“All right, then. I hope so.” A smirk curved his lips.
Xheidan turned his back to me and started walking away. Akmang hahakbang na paalis ay muli akong nagsalita.
“Why do you wanna help me in regards that my plea is against you?” I asked.
Xheidan sideways his head to lightly look at me.
“See me as a Samaritan,” a smirk flashed in his lips before fading away as he left me standing dumbfounded. I let out a heavy breath and think of it.
This day seriously sucks. My first week seriously sucks. I rolled my eyes and tried to recall what happened in the EIC Office just a few moment ago and now. At this moment, parang gusto ko nalamang bawiin lahat ng sinabi ko kay Crizeliah.
I left the university as I gone back to Crizeliah's office and realized that she wasn't there anymore, probably on her way out to reach the person on her call awhile ago.
I rode a public jeepney going back to the apartment building, I can't deny that the traffic still creeps off the whole ride, pumara nalamang ako nang matanaw ko na ang apartment building namin.
Leaving the jeepney, I head my way going to a opposite direction from the apartment building to buy some food for my dinner, I didn't get that long and immediately leave there.
As I enter the main lounge, I stopped for a moment as I noticed a group of people outside, trying to enter but they were block by the security guard. I look around curiously and walk towards a woman nearby.
“Excuse me, ano pong meron?” I politely ask to the woman around 30s ang age. She was currently watching them all too as so as me while her cupping her both hands.
“Hindi ko alam e, may hinahabol ata na dito nakatira,” She answered that makes me nod for a bit. I bade a farewell to her before turning around to take my way going to my apartment unit.
I suddenly stopped infront of the main desk as I saw an unfamiliar guy walk just infront of me. Napatigil ako at pinag masdan siya.
A tall guy wearing a black jacket with a black cap and shades walked pass infront of me, hands were inside his pocket and walking directly and hurry as if there's an emergency.
Tumayo na lang ako ng diretso bago lumapit sa main desk. I saw a woman receptionist looking at the same person awhile ago. She's now having a phone call and as she put down her phone away from her, I immediately approach her, looking at me wuth a warmth smile.
“Yes?”
“Who's that guy?” I pointed the guy who's stading infront of the elevator, probably waiting.
“Ah, iyon ba? Hindi ko kilala e, but he's always visiting this building since last week,” She answered and picked up another call. Lumayo na ako para makaalis.
I stared at him for a moment, he's not familiar to me, I was curious why he's too much covered, seems like doesn't want to be recognized by anyone. At last, I just sighed and go to my apartment unit.
The first thing I ever do in my unit is to rest pysically and mentally. Gosh, I think my mind would going to explde because of those things that happened today. And one more thing, thise was just the first week of my stay here and all this is already happening.
Napabalikwas ako ng upo mula sa pagkakahiga ko. I irritatedly scratch the back of my head because of frustration.
First of all, Crizeliah's offer is seriously messing inside my mind. I don't seriously want to accept it but I don't even want any other to take it! Oh, gosh, am I crazy?
Next, about the website thing. I haven't clarified to Crizeliah that I'm not taking that because of that phone call. And then, this Xheidan is literally gangbishitting me. He said that he want to help me by INVESTIGATING him, cause he want to CLEAN his name to US yet he's not even giving a damn to those students who are keep on ranting about him. Well, kung ipag kukumpara ko naman ay mas mabigat nga lang ang pag iimbistiga.
I breathed heavily and let my body fall off the bed. I stared at the ceiling.
Bawiin ko nalang kaya ang lahat?
Muli akong napabalikwas ng upo nang maalala ang huling sinabi saakin ni Crizeliah. I hurriedly took my phone from my bag and watched the news, sakto namang mayroon nang headline.
“POLICE OFFICER NA ANAK NG NAHULING SENADOR, KASANGKOT SA DRUG TRAFFICKING?”
Oh, that's shame.
“AYON SA NBI PRIVATE INVESTIGATOR, DOKYUMENTO AT LITRATO NG POLICE OFFICER NA KASAMA ANG SARILING AMA SA NATURANG LUGAR ANG NAKAPAG TURO SA KRIMEN. IPINAKITA RIN SA MGA NAKUHANG IBIDENSYA ANG ILANG SACHET NA DROGA KUNG SAAN MAIIDENTIFY ANG FINGER PRINT NG PULIS. SA NGAYON AY PATULOY PARIN ANG PAG TANGGI NG PULIS SA NANGYARI KRIMEN...”
“Watch news later,”
My eyes widened and immediately visit the website of the university where I was studying. I search for an article in there to assure that the idea that occur in my head is true. If ever this is, this will bring a shame into the University. Freak that man.
List of former Editor in Chief:
Crizeliah ThanoxCurrentCarlo Samaniego
2017-2019Franco Melbionaz
2015-2016Arthur Rene Serianes
2009-2015A smirk curved into my lips. I got you.
Arthur Rene Serianes—the longest holder of Editor in Chief position of our university—get involved in a shameful crime.
Mag aalas onse na ng gabi nang dapuan ako ng antok, I even forgot my mother's words to me as she called awhile ago. I faced palm and lazily grabbed my phone. It's already ten p.m so I doubt if the senator is still up in this hour. I rolled my eyes and turn my laptop off. I opened the window to welcome the cold and fresh air from outside.Three years ago, the longest holder of the Editor in Chief position of our university graduated, and guess what? He become the highest positioned police officer. How come that he end up being a protector of that drug syndicate. That was too shameful. I could even remember hearing a lot of praise to him way back when I was in high school. He has the most authority and he is so respectable during their batch. I can't just think and put it inside my head that he become like that! Oh gosh.
What. The. Actual. Hell?Seriously? When did that website start throwing some riddles?I blink a couple of times, sinking that context that have just read. If this is the actual website that I used to visit, I could precisely tell that it wasn't graduate from that. That website reveals evidences that could point out a kind or frightful crime and doings of such a heightened classes of people, I could already tell that the main are those politician either way part of government which is on the nose of the person behind that site. How come this happened?Staying up too late was never, ever, really part of my vocabulary, well I could say that the idea was on the hook but doing that wasn't really part of my lif
The morning classes went nice but it was just a kind of different the fact that some were consciously glancing at me knowing that I've just became the vice-chairperson of the students committee. Well, I can't blame them. It was just a second week of the classes and then we already had our new vice-chairperson, who is me. FunnyDuring my last morning class, I received an approach from a one professor I have no idea whoever is, informing me about something I don't even fucking understand.Bumuntong hininga ako.I don't know what comes into Crizeliah's mind to put me as the vice-chairperson's position. I was a kind of confused too about the previous vice-chairperson's state when I saw
"If that's the case, you don't have anything to bother about.."I let out a sigh and stare at Crizeliah. We're here in the Jershey's Café De Letá infront of my apartment building. Here is where we both decides to meet up tonight, aside that it's favorable in my part that it's way nearer than any other place she could think, it's also way on private so we could had a privacy in ours."Do you think she dropped out because of me?" I asked."Why would she? Sino ka ba?" "Alam mo ikaw, napaka ano mo. Editor-in-chief ka na niyan?" I rolled my eyes.
"Don't be blind. Everything were in purpose. You won't knew it for nothing.."AGAIN, for the nth time, I sigh and hardly closed my eyes. Usually, as arriving in my apartment the first thing I would surely do is to find were my slippers are-to went to the bathroom and have a bath but so far but not so good, here I am laying in my bed with the same outfit and wearings which I have used in the mall, agonizing the previous vice-chairperson's words to me.Freak.In her words, as far of those were no even having any scourges or threats, maybe I was just over reacting towards her words. Lahat naman siguro ng nangyayari sa buhay natin ay in purpose, hindi ba? I mean, why wouldn't it be? And as of she said those, I won't knew it for nothing-well, technically, everything we knew were never for nothing, right? It came towards us as having any reaso
“I'M SORRY, I'M LATE!” I hurriedly occupied the seat infront of Marcus. Marcus is currently taking a scope of ice cream from the bowl infront of him. Now, he's wearing a plain dark blue shirt which is dissimilar from my white navy shirt. “It's fine. I do actually enjoy eating these while waiting,” He answered and sign the food infront of him.Wow, did he just swallowed all the inside of a couple of bowl infront?“I woke up late, kasi..” I added and scratched the back of my head in sudden.I remember what happened last ni
“I HAVE A PLAN,”All of us exchange looks when Xheidan and Marcus said those words at the same time. All together in time, they also look at each other as of what happened. Papalit palit lang ang tingin ko sa kanilang dalawa. Their look to each other weren't chill neither sharp, it's in the middle of it, parang hindi nila inaasahan ang nangyari.“Sino ba 'yang katabi mo?” Tax whispered to me and pointed Marcus using his lips.“Marcus,” I answered.I core back my attention to the two guy looking at each other now. Even Crizeliah is just watching until someone finally uttered.“What's t
“Once wreck the edge of the bridge, the connections would follow. What does it mean?”For the nth time, I sigh once again. It's already evening, the usual time of our Math class and so, we are here in Crizeliah's office, having a meeting like what we have agreed yesterday. We're not complete cause Tax is not with us. They said Tax have a quiz at the moment that's why we just let him.“Wreck is like destroy, tama ba?” Crizeliah asked me. I nodded.“Once wreck the edge, connection would follows...” I muttered once again before letting out a heavy breath.
TWENTY-FIRST: The Last PieceIt's cold.I feel so cold all everywhere. I feel like all the eyes were at me.Trust. A simple word yet perform something huge inside us. In questionable, who deserve this word as in their back?Right after that moment of talking with Marcus, I can't say if it made me paranoid or whatever but I just felt so threaten wherever I goes. As if there were people fallowing me, holding a knife and already planning to stab me.“Asthreittle!”Mabilis ang nangyari. Ang tanging alam ko nalamang ay mayroong humila saakin pabalik sa gilid ng kalsada.“Gago! Kung mag papakamatay ka, huwag ka nang mandamay ng iba!”I panted.Ang sasakyan na iyon ay halos mahagip na ako kung wala lamang humila saakin.
TWENTIETH: TrustMaybe in my whole life, I could say that that's the most undeniably chest attacking moment I could ever enhance.Everything around me seems to froze as if it's making me feel even more how terrifying my state was.I wanted to run away. I wanted to put the phone down and just don't mind what Marcus have said. I even wanted to throw off the thoughts of it and just not think if that but simple thing really did not make any sense. As in nothing made any.I could remember how I told myself that I will only face what the consequence will going to be throw over my face after doing all the things I have done. After all, I have no one to blame on, it's just me because all decisions I have done reflects all the thoughts I've resembled.Pero kahit gaano talaga natin ihanda ang mga sarili natin para sa isang bagay, we
NINETEENTH: I Know You“SANDALI,”As her voice cupped around, I stopped but still did not paid her any bit of glance. I just don't think if I can look at her. It just made me reminisce what happened before.I was already fine. Ayos na ako na nakasama ko sila for a short time, at least diba that I felt like I've been part of them for awhile, pero hindi pala talaga maitatanggi na nananatili parin ang pagitan ko sakanila. We're still not okay, I am still bitter.“Asthreittle..” she called from behind. I breathed and just look over the floor.“If they
EIGHTEENTH: HiddenHow.But not the carabao.Tsk.How, that's the only question filling all the space in my head at the moment. Like how must it be Joe the one behind the website? I know I barely seen Joe but, I was really confused and puzzled. I don't know if I would think of Joe being the one behind that website or not.But Xheidan said it's from the website.The only document inside that room is the document I took a photo of.Or maybe there is other one yet I have no idea of?Goddamn it! Hindi ko alam ang iisipin ko!If it's Joe, why is he one of the investigators? Don't tell me nag papanggap lang siya? How about Reigh? Does he know about this too? But damn, I don't even know if it's Joe or not 'cause I have no any other basis that Xheidan saying that
That prosecutor... he would now stand as a defendant's attorney?Oh yeah, I know that I'm not that familiar in such a court abouts and even lawful matters regarding on how the trials were working, but I was a kind of freaking confused of why did that prosecutor will now stand as the attorney that would defend the Police Officer who was a protector of a drug syndicate!Don't tell me, Police Officer Arthur Rene would deny the accusation and plea not guilty? If that so, they're saying that all the evidence have taken were all fake?! Seriously?! As far as I could remember, those investigators who held that case and even had the evidences were Joe and Reigh. At ang mga evidence nila ay nanggaling sa website! Ugh! They were just makin
Is loving the moon really means being safe from the pain? Kung ganon ay gusto ko nalang mahalin iyon tulad ng pagmamahal ni Xheidan sakaniya.Maybe now I realized... I realized why Xheidan was always there, staring at his loving moon. He's having an accompany from his loving moon. It's his rest, it's his calmness. I'm glad to know that Xheidan has a soft part too.The day after, I don't know what is up with myself that I woke up earlier than my usual although I've already battled with myself last night before sleeping that I would rest all day and review the whole afternoon. Maybe masyado lang akong nasanay na gumigising ng maaga dahil halos weekends kaming nag kikita-kita para pag usapan ang ganap sa website.I sighed and let myself fell off the bed. I want to relax. I want to feel pleased after what happened.This is way better, far from hassle. S
“IS THAT true?”How could you say if something is real or not? How could you say if the ladder you're taking would bring you up or down? How could you say if everything you oversee are real or just all fantasy?How could you realise if you are just fooled by?When someone guide your path going to the truth.As I brought myself inside Crizeliah's office, my voice immediately filled inside the entire room. I was in a sudden stun when I notice Tax stand from his seat as he saw me but my system is too preoccupied in Crizeliah, making me have no time to think why Tax is even here after being not around for the whole week.
“Hello po, Senator?”I answered over my phone as the Senator called off. I was still in tense as of knowing that our professor declared that he won't give any special quizzes to us, in additional on what happened last day. It's totally burst out.“I heared, you cut a classes two times. Is it true?” I could overheard the thunder in his voice.Damn. I'm speechless, I don't know what word to utter as a reply to him. I feel like being toasted by my own sheep. He's the senator who I am being scholar. It's definitely not good, I know it, and the fact that he knew it, I'm doomed. I never expect him to knew this that fast although I know he has a lot of connections in the University, it was still unnecessary, that the news flew that instant.I feel like I'm going to fell off the floor anytime. I knew it, cutting classes would neve
“WOW! HINDI KO ALAM NA MAY JOWA NA PALA AKO??”I glared on Marcus who just frown on me. I cleared my throat and then gasped!Well, as for you to know, this Marcus just told someone over the phone that I am his girlfriend when we're in the coffee shop awhile ago. We both are now in my apartment unit 'cause Marcus asked me to bring him somewhere private and the only place I know private is this. May tiwala naman ako sakaniya kahit papaano.“Ganito kasi 'yon,” He sigh.“Ano?!” I widened my eyes to him and crossed my arms.Just make sure that it's an acceptable reason because if not? I would surely punch him in his face! Pag may nag chismis saaking may boyfriend na ako at nakarating sa parents ko ay isusumpa ko talaga ang lalaking ito.“Someone called me, right