Monday afternoon I walk in to work. Weekdays at the Casino are slow. I did the mundane busy work I was called to do. The rest of the week followed the same pace. Wake up, get kids to school or fed, nap, shower, back to work. I had not heard from Keith since Sunday when I left him on read, except for an invite to a private group he created for the security crew. I accepted the invite to the group. As expected, being a predominantly male environment, their were crude jokes, tit pics, and locker room jokes and talk. I read comments and noticed the anger growing in the pit of my stomach everytime Keith commented on something referring to other females. Again I had to remind myself he wasn't mine. I could not feel possessive of someone I couldn't have. It was near the end of December, things with Keith hadn't changed. It seemed as if his interest in me, whatever it was had faded, I was fine with that. As I said before I definitely didn't n
I got to work Friday and I was training Karen again. "Why me?" I pouted to myself. "Amy!" my Corporal called out to me.I turned around with my eyebrows raised in waiting, showing my disdain for having to drag Karen around with me on a Friday night. "Can you both do 4 hours overtime tonight for the concert? Karen, you need the training and Amy you have been asking for overtime." he tells us.I look at Karen hoping she says no, knowing I can't turn down the hours if I want to get out of my exes house. To my horror she agrees.I called dispatch informing them I was with 178 again and all calls would be for her. "It's all you today!" I inform her, "I am only here to help if you get stuck." "Um, ok, do I need to tell dispatch we are available? " She asks. "Yes. " I tell her.She keys up her radio, "Um, ok, like, um dispatch, um hold on?" She stares at me wide e
Later that night after the concert was over I was guarding a T-shirt booth as they closed down. I felt Keith again. I looked up and locked eyes with him as he crossed the balcony of the theatre. This time I did not drop my eyes. I was searching his face for answers to all my questions about him. His eyes seemed to call to me. I felt as if some answers would be answered soon. After I was released from my shift I walked in to the security suite to gun down. Keith was in there working on a report from earlier in the evening. As I was getting ready to walk out the door he jumps up from his seat. "Do you smoke?" he asks. "Yes" I tell him knowing it's my one habit I can't kick. He walks outside with me. we light up and blow smoke out in the cold silence of the night. "How was your night?" he asked.I laughed. I told him about Karen and the guy who thought he could charm me with his dick in his hand. He lis
I started seeing Keith every night when I was leaving work. He made sure he said something to me in passing. It was always a quick "hello" or "how was your night," just very small acknowledgements. On my last night of 2nd shift it was new years eve. My shift ended at 11. We always beefed up security on new years because of all the drinking and partying.I was on a call that took me until 1130 to finish. The night was crazy and I was tired, angry, and ready to leave. I got out right at midnight and I blew right past Keith without even a backward glance. I was pissed off and just ready to get the hell away from that place. DING!My phone goes off. I grab it and look at the message. It's Keith."Are you OK?""I'm fine!" I bite back at him."You don't seem fine you didn't even look at me when you stormed out of the building. I was waiting for you." he wrote back."Why were you waiting for me?" I asked him."I got used to talkin
It is my first night of 3rd shift tonight and I walk in already regretting my first meeting with Keith since our last conversation. It is a Friday night and so I grab a schedule and head out to my first hour on the floor. I feel relieved getting out before I see Keith. My first hour is full of chip fills and card transfers so it goes by way too fast. My next post is parking garage escalators. I am walking the corridor when I hear a fight break out in the country bar. Keith is dealing with a woman who is trying to fight everyone so she can go back with the band. Keith is stopping her. I walk over to the bar because it is a woman he is dealing with and I am already close by. I walk into bar and find 216 escorting the woman to the front of the bar. I walk to the front with him. I am waiting with the woman while 216 explains what happened to the Casino Manager. One of the bar hostesses calls me over informing me that the guest has a $1300 tab that
I get to the Security Suite. I walk in and find my Sergeant and a casino manager standing there waiting for me. Fuck, I might be in trouble I think to myself. "Amy" the casino manager says to me, "Thank you for handling that situation the way you did. We need more people like you who can handle a high stress situation like that, and get it out of the sight of the guests as quickly as you did! With that being said, there is audio and video surveillance in the interview rooms. Please try to refrain from calling guests fucking cunts." He finishes laughing at me. "I didn't even realize I did that, I will try to watch what I say in the future. Thank you!" I replied back. "We need your report on the incident as soon as possible," my Sergeant informs me. "I will do it right now, if you can rearrange my next post." I tell him. "128 will switch with you, When you finsh
I consider this for a moment. He has a point, if sparks don't fly then we don't need to waste our time getting to know each others stories. On the other hand, he is married and I don't know if I want to kiss a man that is married. After a few more minutes of consideration I decided that I had already agreed to hear him out so I might as well find out how he tastes even if it is just 1 time. "OK." I tell him. "Really?" He replies sounding surprised I would agree to this. "Yes, really." I reply. "The conversation we have tonight will be a bare all, I will tell you about me good, bad, and ugly. You will do the same. Then we will decide if we want to pursue something or walk away. There is no reason for you to know that much about me, or vice versa, if there isn't going to be any chemistry between us, so I think it is a good idea to get that out of the way first." "You won't chicken out?" he
"Who is going first?" I ask Keith as we settle in to start our stories. "We will go one for one," he says. "I will start." "My teeth are fake." He starts off with. "Why?" I ask, I needed to make sure it wasnt from drug use or something crazy. "I was in an explosion in Somalia and it killed the nerves in my teeth on one side, so I just them all taken out." He answered. "OK, that don't matter to me." I tell him. I consider what I want to start with to tell him and decide to start with the really bad so he can get out now if he wants, so I say, "I didn't recieve an honorable discharge from the military." "Why?" He asks in the same tone I did earlier. "When I tell you this, I want you to first know that I am ok, I still have some flashbacks about it, and there was a small amount of time in my life it had a very negat
"Hello my name is Becky, I am the head nurse on shift tonight. I was told you were requesting a supervisor. May I ask what has happened and how we can make this right?" The new nurse asks in a friendly voice. Keith relays everything I have just told him. "May I ask your relationship to Ms. Knight sir?" she asks him. "This is my future wife." He tells her without hesitation. "I see, first let me apologize for the treatment you have recieved here tonight Ms. Knight. If you don't mind I will go look at the previous notes of your blood pressure since check-in to verify your blood pressure history. I will return with pain medication for you if you have been consistent." She tells me. I just nod my head. Not even 5 minutes later Becky was back in the room. "I am very sorry for the delay in your comfort Ms. Knight. Do you think you can manage sitting up for me, so I can give you this medication? Please drink this water slowly, you aren't supposed to have liquid before you
"What the hell are you doing here!?" I ask him. "I called Marie to see if I could come hang out and she told me you were having emergency surgery. I was worried about you and wanted to be here for you." he says. "Marie shouldn't have told you anything! That is a HIPPA violation and I do not need or want you here. I don't need or want you any where around me ever. The only thing I need you to do is help take care of your daughter and you refuse to have anything to do with her unless I am there. Take now for example, instead of going and helping Marie with our daughter you are here harrassing me. If I need you in any way I have your phone number, and I am 100% positive I did not call or text you to come here. You need to leave!" I tell him. "I still care about you, and this is how you treat me? This is what I get for trying to be nice to you! You are still just a stupid fucking cunt! I bet you are fucking everyone at the casino!" He yells at me. I pick up my bedside remo
Keith and I fell into a routine over the next couple of weeks. We made sure to see eachother regularly. We made time to spend with my kids, and spoke on the phone regularly. I paid Marie to watch the kids so I could work and get some rest. Kaye's dad moved out of his house and into another house with his girlfriend. He found out we were staying with Marie and started coming to help with Kaye. He wasn't really helping though. He was trying to hook up with Marie. When she turned him down he would try to crawl in bed with me. I was still turning him down. One day I woke up to my phone ringing. It was Keith. "Hey baby! I left again!" Keith says as soon as I answer. "Wait, What?" I ask him confused trying to wipe the fog from my head and understand what he had just said to me. "I left, the kids sat us down and said that now that they knew we were having problems they could see how unhappy we
I wait for my brother to answer his phone. " Hey James, how are you?" "To be honest I am not doing good. I was about to call you actually." he says. "Ok well you go first. What's wrong?" I ask him. "My wife just kicked me out. I am sleeping in my truck at the yard." he confides. "What the fuck? Why?" I ask. "I found out she has been having an affair. I asked her about it and she told me I needed to leave. I wasn't going to fight with her so I just left. Do you think I can come stay with you until I get paid and find a place?" he asks. "I am staying with my friend right now. I will ask her but I am sure she won't want you sleeping in your truck." I tell him. "Is it your hot friend who tagged you in a photo of you both?" he asks laughing. "You might be kicked out but you are still married, please don'
Keith made love to me several more times before the sun came back up the next day. The kids went to school and we loaded Kaye up to go to the security suite with Keith so he could turn his uniform in and let them know what was going on. We went to grab lunch and he dropped Kaye and I off at the apartment and we spent the rest of our time before he had to leave for his meeting in each others arms. Keith gave me one last kiss. Something in my gut felt wrong. We had just had the best night together and spent the day together like we had been together for years. Why was I feeling this way. About 9 o clock that evening I got a meesage from Keith. "Give me your phone number, I need to call you." he sent. "Is everything ok?" I ask
Karen got home and we all sat down in the living room. Kaye climbed up into Keith's lap. I sat next to him. Karson and Kammy sat on the couch across from us. Karson was looking between Keith and myself. "Karson do you have any questions?" I ask him because I can see the questions in his eyes. "How do you know Keith?" He asks "I work with Keith. He is in security with me and Karen. Mommy has been speaking with him for a couple months now. We like each other a whole lot and he wants to help us get a place with him." I tell him. I know it is happening really soon but I hope Karson can understand. "Is he the reason we moved here and you are happier?" Kammy asks next. Karson nodding his head in
We pull up to my car and Keith helps me switch Kaye to her carseat. "I have to call my kids on the way. Give me the address and I will meet you there." Keith tells me. "Ok." I tell him. "Are you Ok? You have been very quiet since I told you everything." He asks me wrapping me in his arms. "Honestly, I really didn't expect you to leave. I thought you would play around for a little bit and then tell me you couldn't leave because of your kids or something like that. Now not only did you pack and you will sleep with me today but you have made plans for our future together. I don't want you to leave the casino but I understand your logic behind it. I am just trying to process everything. I
Work was daunting. All I wanted to do was see Keith. My heart and body longed to be near him. about 3 hours into work I get a message. "You have floor so meet me in the dining room and we will eat together." Keith messaged me. "144 dispatch." I call. "Go ahead 144." dispatch radioed back. " Can you show me 10-6 (busy) for 20 minutes in the dining room?" I request. "Received 144." dispatch told me. I walk into the ADR, associate dining room, and get my tray of food. It is not the best food but it works in a pinch. I grab a booth to sit in and look up. Keith is walking t
Later that night while I was trying to sleep I get a message from Keith. It was a meme it said, "The most beautiful part of loving a guarded girl is this: When she let's you in, it's not because she needs you. She stopped needing people a long time ago. It's because she wants you. And that- That is the purest love of all."- unknown. I went to sleep after reading that and finally rested easy knowing that there was a man out there who knew all my ugly and still wanted to love me. I woke up knowing that I was going to give Keith a chance and pray he doesn't hurt me. Karen gets home and I get ready for the gym. I gather all the kids up to tell them good night. "Kar