I don't know what to feel...Am I sad? Certainly. But why am I acting like I should? Why am I only staring at blankness? Why can't I react the way that I should be reacting? It was as if I had lost all my emotions within me. Or perhaps, it lost its meaning to do so.I lost my child... How am I able to live now?"My baby..." I uttered weakly. I was wrong when I thought that the most painful thing was to be compared with your sister all the damn time. I was wrong when I thought that nothing could compare to the pain I went through in my childhood. But... nothing's more painful than losing your own child.I feel like dying.I felt resentment towards my family. I feel sad, disheartened. Anger was always in my heart back then. I don't know how to express my feelings so it turned into anger. I was angry about everything that was happening to me. It was anger.I hate to feel that way. I think it was toxic and inappropriate to someone like me to feel anger towards her own family. I never li
I was speechless to say the least. My body froze in shock as I processed her words. To hear her say those words stole all the energy left on me. I stared, wide-eyed, as she continued to cry. My lips trembled. "You're lying... right?" I whispered in the thin air, not knowing how to respond to her. I cannot believe her words. It sounds skeptical to me. As much as I want to hear the truth, what she said was just so absurd.What? Mom falling into paralysis? How could that even happen? My mother is one of the strongest people I've seen in my whole pathetic life. She couldn't be that weak. And it was because of me? Huh. I refuse to believe such things. My mother would not possibly risk her life for a mere daughter like me, right? I am not that worthy of risk.And for dad... He wouldn't be that ruthless to kill an innocent person, right? Khein is out of this mess. I drag him with me. I practically cling myself on him, so there is no way dad would vent out his anger towards him. My father wo
After the incident, we decided to move in to a different condo unit. The one that I frequently uses. Rosette needs a home, one that is not filled with traumatic memories.I carefully led her towards the living room. She hasn't recovered her enegery just yet. She was frail and still pale. I wanted he to stay in the hospital for a couple more days, but she refused and wanted to go home instead. But since I couldn't bring her back to the penthouse, I brought her back to the condo instead, twice smaller than the previous, but enough to accommodate us."Do you need anything?" I asked.She flashed a smile. "Just water," she said softly.I nodded my head and went to the kitchen to grab her a glass of water. I had the whole condo renovated to her liking, and I could see that she was liking it. I'm glad."Here, baby," I said and sat down next to her. After drinking the water, she leaned her head on my shoulders as she sighed.I could feel the tension as well as the emptiness in the air as we b
I got lost in my thoughts once again. I honestly couldn't count how many times it happened to me. I would just randomly stare at nothingness and forget the damn thing I was doing. It has been a total disaster, because I almost lit the house in fire, cut my fingers, and a lot of things I cannot imagine. It was worse than not being able to do anything at all.Everything I touch, gets ruin. I feel so useless right now.I sat there in my room, contemplating about my life's decision. I have been here for the last 5 hours, just sitting and staring at the wall. I wasn't tired nor energized. It was just... normal. As a matter of fact, I felt nothing even. I just had a lot of things to think about, and staring has been my new hobby lately, or say the least.I forgot how many days had already past or what time it was. I lost track of time, and if it wasn't for the phone I might not be able to tell what day is which.Again, I didn't notice that someone was already home until I felt a hand on min
"Baby," I said as I watched her standing at the balcony of our condo. We were at the 31th floor, and the view right here is quite amazing. It's already evening and wind was chilling. I wrapped a scarf around her as I pressed my chest against her. She was facing the view, holding onto the steer. On her other hand, she was holding a wine."The moon is beautiful, isn't it?" she asked, and I shook off the thought about the damn japanese quote.I raised my eyes and stared at the full, bright moon. Indeed it was beautiful. "Yes...""There are millions of stars, too," she said as a sigh escaped her lips. It was visible in her voice that she was loving the sight above us. I smiled. "Do you think our baby is one of those stars in the sky?"I really don't believe in such stuff. Even after losing my parents, I never think of such way as them being in the sky and watching over me. But as the way Rosette said it, it sounds really possible... and hopeful."Our baby is probably the brightest star, t
"Are you sure about it?" she asked for the ninth time, making sure I wouldn't regret what I was about to commit. I nodded my head as a sad smile appeared on my face. "Yeah...""But you'll hurt him," she said as a matter of fact. "You are only going to hurt yourselves, Rosette. Please think about it again. I have already given you the option. You can stay or you leave for good. If you stay, then I will not bother you anymore. I will also help you convince dad to leave you alone. But if your decision is to leave, then it better be for good. Because there is no turning back on this, sweetheart."I know I should listen to her and rethink my decision. But I've already made up my mind, not because I no longer love him, but because I love him so much to the point that I want no means of harm to go upon him. I love him so much that I am willing to distance myself so he could have a better life.I will not be selfish this time around. He deserves a life. A life that is free from stress, free
Time flies so fast when you're broken.I sat down on the stool bar and poured myself a glass of whiskey. My head has been throbbing and the only solution I could think of was to have a drink. At least, it will help me relieve stress even for a short period of time.To say I was exhausted is an understatement. I am more beyond that. I never felt this tired before, yet here I am, relying on the alcohol to keep me awake. The only time I act this way is when I feel like everything is out of control. Indeed, it is. I can't even think of a way to solve my problems. Such a weak man."You're drinking again, man?" I heard a familiar voice from behind. I didn't need to turn my head to know who it was. It was Chad, my best friend whom I didn't have contact with for the last 7 months. He just went back from the country after his so-called vacation."Fuck off," I said as I chugged down the content of the bottle. I need this as much as I hate to admit it. After this, I'll be able to get away from m
I sat by the window, sipping on a cup of chamomile tea. The sun casts a golden hue across the city skyline. The pain still lingered, like an unwelcome guest overstaying their welcome. It has been a month since I left Khein, and it felt so lonely. The emptiness in my chest is enough to suffocate me.I stirred the tea absentmindedly, observing the steam ascend and vanish into the air. Recollections surged in: the laughter, the late-night talks, and the commitments formed under the stars. Yet, those moments now appeared distant, clouded by the pain of a relationship that had reached its end.Leaving was the hardest thing I'd ever done. The weight of uncertainty pressed upon me like an anchor, but deep down, I knew it was the right choice. I needed space to find myself again, to rediscover the person I'd lost along the way.A gentle knock on the door interrupted my thoughts. "Hi," she announced, flashing a warm smile. "It's a good day today. Wanna go shopping?"I shook my head, tired. Ev
Emma left the room to give us some space and privacy. I clenched my fist as the tension between us thicken. I didn’t expect him to be back all of a sudden. Perhaps, it is a good thing as well."I don't want to stay here anymore," I declared with a steely gaze, my determination to leave this house firm in my mind. The sense of betrayal had eroded my trust in everyone around me, leaving me with a deep-seated desire to escape. "I will leave this house," I added, my voice steady despite the storm of emotions within.His eyes sharpened, and the tension in the room heightened as he gritted his teeth. My heart raced, but I maintained a composed exterior, unwilling to let him perceive any vulnerability. "Leave, you say? Ophelia, this is our house," he retorted after a brief pause, his voice laced with controlled intensity as if he were suppressing an inner turmoil. "You cannot leave."“Why not?” I hissed, my gaze narrowing into slits as I gritted my teeth. “Why can’t I leave?”“Because I don’
Emma left the room to give us some space and privacy. I clenched my fist as the tension between us thicken. I didn’t expect him to be back all of a sudden. Perhaps, it is a good thing as well."I don't want to stay here anymore," I declared with a steely gaze, my determination to leave this house firm in my mind. The sense of betrayal had eroded my trust in everyone around me, leaving me with a deep-seated desire to escape. "I will leave this house," I added, my voice steady despite the storm of emotions within.His eyes sharpened, and the tension in the room heightened as he gritted his teeth. My heart raced, but I maintained a composed exterior, unwilling to let him perceive any vulnerability. "Leave, you say? Ophelia, this is our house," he retorted after a brief pause, his voice laced with controlled intensity as if he were suppressing an inner turmoil. "You cannot leave."“Why not?” I hissed, my gaze narrowing into slits as I gritted my teeth. “Why can’t I leave?”“Because I don’
I've already made up my mind. I'll leave this place. I don't think there was a reason to stay. They were all lying to me, blatantly telling me lies that were obvious. They were deceiving me.Staying became increasingly challenging, especially since my husband, the supposed anchor for my presence here, was consistently absent. Despite their claims of my marriage, their inability to provide any evidence, not even a picture from my own wedding, added to my growing sense of disillusionment.I hung around for a while, hopeful that they'd eventually come clean. Unfortunately, that never happened – not even a bit.It became disheartening and hard to trust anyone.Disappointment settled in, directed at every individual under this roof.Leaving now feels not just necessary but also freeing. Staying doesn't do anything for me anymore. The lies have unraveled, showing a truth that lines up with what I've been feeling.I waited until everyone in the mansion was sound asleep before putting my esca
“Ma’am, your husband has already left,” Emma said, her tone cautious as she addressed me. These days, I wasn't in the best of moods, not because of any lingering sickness, but due to the nagging feeling that something was being kept from me. “He has left for work, and he’ll probably be back a week from now or so.” I nodded silently, then took a sip of the tea she had prepared for me. The revelation that my husband had left bothered me, but I chose not to show it. Why should I care or worry? After all, he didn’t even come to bid farewell himself, so why should I react as if I were genuinely disappointed. “Tell me, Emma,” I uttered, my tone seeking answers. “What were we like as a married couple before I lost my memories?” Caught off guard, Emma hesitated, her usually composed demeanor faltering for a moment. I closed my eyes briefly, taking a deep breath to steady myself before opening them again to face her. “I-I really didn’t know much, ma’am," she admitted, her words coming out
I was back to square one. My husband appeared to be keeping something from me, and I couldn't shake that feeling.When I inquired if he was worried, he didn't respond. Instead, he abruptly left the room, seemingly ignoring my question completely. I felt bewildered and offended. Is he truly my husband? Why isn't he behaving like one?Following that incident, he didn't visit or contact me to check on my well-being. I felt disappointed.But then again, it couldn't be helped.Days passed, and the absence of my husband weighed on me. The unanswered questions and the growing void in our interactions left me grappling with a sense of isolation. I yearned for some connection, for reassurance, but he remained elusive."He hasn't visited or even checked on me. Is this how a husband should act?" I questioned, my voice tinged with a mixture of frustration and sadness.Emma, always composed, offered a reassuring smile. "People cope with difficult situations in different ways, Miss Ophelia. Perhaps
I took a deep breath as I followed him into his office. The man, who claimed to be my husband, seated himself at the desk with casual ease. I stood there, feeling like a fool, waiting for his next command. His expression soured when he saw me hesitating. "What are you doing?" he demanded, his jaws clenching in annoyance. I blinked, my mind still trying to process the overwhelming information he had just laid upon me. I was shocked and utterly disoriented, unable to pull myself together and act with a rational mind. I felt like a leaf, caught in the unpredictable currents of this surreal situation. "What?" he snapped. "Come here." I slowly and reluctantly walked over to his side, my thoughts still swirling with the revelations. When I was close enough, my husband extended his arms towards me. I hesitated, glancing at his outstretched arm. "I won't hurt you, okay? So come here now," he said, annoyance evident in his voice. Biting my lower lip, cheeks burning with embarrassment, I g
Staring into his stunning blue eyes, which revealed no emotion, I couldn't help but notice his tall, masculine figure—undeniably handsome and attractive. Despite his physical perfection, I hesitated to accept him as my husband. In my dreams, the man who claimed that role held me with warmth and tenderness, his gaze filled with affection. The contrast between those dreams and the current reality was stark.The man in front of me felt distant, his demeanor cold and uninviting. An invisible barrier seemed to separate us, making it hard for me to connect the dream figure with the person standing before me. The discrepancy between the dream's warmth and the real-world chill heightened my confusion and left me questioning the authenticity of this man's claim to be my husband.I must have stood there like an idiot for what felt like an eternity. My gaze was fixed on him, my lips parting and closing like a gaping fish. Describing my state as surprised would be a severe understatement—I was ut
It felt as though the world had turned upside down, my head throbbing painfully as I attempted to recall the events that transpired during my time in a coma. The last tangible memory I could grasp was being in... a dark room.And beyond that point, my recollections became an impenetrable fog, leaving me grappling with the disorienting void that stretched between the past and my current state of consciousness.I gazed at the coffee cradled in my hands, its warmth and the sweet aroma wafting up, stirring a nostalgic feeling within me. Yet, my mind struggled to unravel the threads of memory, unable to pinpoint when or where I had last experienced this sensation. Was this scenario familiar, or was it a moment my consciousness had yet to encounter?“It’s time for your medicine now, ma’am,” Emma said as she handed me the pills that I have been taking for a month. Yes, it has been a month, and up until now I was still pondering what really happened, who am I, and where the hell I am. The onl
I jolted awake, gasping for breath, my eyes fluttering open to the harsh reality of my bedroom. Sweat trickled down from my forehead, soaking through the sheets as I grappled with the remnants of a haunting dream—a nightmare that lingered in my waking mind. As I lay there, heart racing and senses on high alert, I couldn't shake off the lingering unease that the dream left in its wake. The echo of a distant scream, the shadows that danced malevolently in the corners of my mind—everything felt vivid and disconcerting. I took a deep breath, attempting to shake off the remnants of the nightmare. Yet, the tendrils of fear still clung stubbornly, leaving me with an unsettling awareness that the boundary between dreams and reality was thinner than I had ever imagined. "Good morning," a voice suddenly exclaimed, prompting me to turn my gaze towards its source. There stood a woman in her mid-twenties, adorned in what appeared to be a maid's uniform. A tray laden with breakfast delicacies res