Zara Howard"Ouch, that one actually hurt." I winced as Xena smacked me on my head for the third time in a row. "I am glad it did because someone needs to knock some sense in this stupid head of yours." She yelled as she proceeded to smack me yet again. "Heyyyyy!" I whined, not having a better protest. I really don't know what to say to her at this point. After telling her everything that happened with Asher last night, it seems like her fuse went off. "Zara, just because Asher is having fun by joining in on this little game you are trying to play with him, does not mean it is safe to do all this. What were you thinking going into his bedroom?" Xena scolded. She is pulling a real Scarlett move right now. "Mrs. Costanza said I could-" I tried to defend my actions but was quickly cut off. "The caretaker who practically raised that mafia household? Really? I refuse to believe someone can be this dumb." She gave me that 'you are impossible' look as she shook her head in disappointm
Zara HowardWe reached the fancy banquet hall of Hotel Hilton, a five-star hotel that was booked specifically for the party tonight. I changed into a black off-shoulder dress, made with a soft satin material that flattered my curves at all the right places. The dress also had a sexy yet classy slit on the side that showed off my legs.Just a few minutes into the party, Xena got busy with the little game she is trying to play with Jerold so that she can put him in place. As much as I approved of her plan, it meant I was going to be left all alone, unsupervised at this party. That also meant I am left with a lot of room to give in to my impulses and probably do a pathetic job of ignoring Asher. Girl Power, Zara. You are a strong, independent, smart woman. You don't need anyone to help you ignore Asher. Asher Lancaster has got nothing on you. Okay, fine, maybe a little bit but that doesn't mean anything. While I was too busy pep-talking myself, I felt a tap on my shoulder. Oh no.
Zara Howard"Xena, I am telling you nothing goes my way. I am starting to think someone has put some demonic spell on me. Whatever I want, the complete opposite of it happens. I had an elaborate plan of making Asher jealous but what happened instead? Without even trying, I ended up being the petty jealous one." I whine as I speak to Xena on call the next morning. "You were so confident that your stupid plan was going to work. You told me I would get to see Asher all frustrated and riled up. You told me I will see the green-eyed jealousy consuming his entire existence. You are a fraud. I want my money back." I angrily rant, without even waiting for Xena to respond. "What money?" Xena asked, confusion evident in her voice."Don't try to change the subject. I practically went against my natural instincts to ignore him. But he just seemed so unphased by everything. Even when I practically pushed him off me when that dumb bitch called his name." I practically growled just at the thought
Zara HowardI reached the Lancaster Penthouse while my mind was still numb with everything that had just happened. I sit on the couch, waiting for Asher. I fidget with my hands, placed on my lap as I try to figure out a way to explain everything that had happened to Asher. Where do I even start? How do I even begin to explain- Wait, does he even want to see me here after last night? Was he embarrassed to be seen with me like that? Is he pissed at me after yesterday? I didn't even say a proper goodbye. I just rushed out like I saw some ghost.Too many thoughts flood my mind as I notice Asher casually walking down the stairs. I stand up as he approaches me. As I stand there, I feel my body quivering like a leaf."Miss Howard, you are early today," Asher states in his usual casual demeanour. Once he finally stands close enough to face me, he instantly knows something is up. I guess the look on my face really gives it away. "What's wrong? Did something happen?" Asher asks, his no-no
Zara HowardAs we reached Asher's car, I stand there awkwardly, contemplating where to sit. Asher probably caught up on it and opened the passenger door for me. I muttered a small thank you as I settled in my seat. UGH. Sometimes I wish he wasn't such a gentleman. I know I'd be less miserable if he had a little bit of 'shitty jerkface' side to him.I look up as if I were talking to God and tell him or her, whoever it is, that they very generous while blessing Asher. Power, Beauty, Virtues. Now that I think of it, God might be a woman. Only a woman would create something like Asher. I mean come on, have you seen him? "Is everything alright? You have been staring at the car roof for a questionable amount of time." Asher asked as I snapped out of my thoughts."Yeah no, it's all good," I stuttered awkwardly and for some bizarre reason show him the peace sign.He just scoffs as he shakes his head. As he pulls out of the parking lot, I make a very wise decision. To shut the fuck up for
Zara HowardXander comes to drop me off at the Lancaster Enterprises the next morning, thanks to the additional security and protection. As soon as I drop my stuff at my desk, I make a beeline straight to Xena’s cabin."Morning," I announced as I walk into her cabin. We dropped the good of the good morning a long time ago. With Jerold as our direct superior, it was only rational to drop that expectation. Fewer expectations, fewer disappointments. "Morning! How was your day yesterday? Did you manage to distract yourself with work?" Xena asked while she was busy arranging a few sheets in the file. “Kind of,” I reply, not knowing what else to say. Because well, I was pretty distracted. “I will never understand how you use work as coping mechanism. It would only drain me further. You should learn something from me. I just sleep it off.” Xena brags and I find myself zoning out."Earth to Zara!" Xena snapped her fingers to get my attention. Oh boy, I gotta drop the ball. After I
Zara HowardCaleb decided to take me to a Chinese restaurant. A Man of his word indeed. After the last few hectic days that I have had, Chinese food sounds like absolute heaven. I couldn't help but wonder what kind of food is Asher's favourite. That man probably chews on bullets for all I care. Maybe I will ask Mrs. Costanza about his favourites. There is no better way to know about Asher's tastes and preferences. As I get ready for the date, I couldn't help but feel a nervous ball in my stomach, not knowing what to feel about the date.This is what happens when your life has been rather man-less. I am not a virgin but let's just say there has been a drought downtown for quite some time. Ever since I joined the Lancaster Enterprises it has been a little too hard to focus on anything else except Asher.People around me seem to have at least some sort of action going on for them. Xena has been in a relationship with Jerold for what feels like ages. Not too thrilled about that one.And
Zara Howard"I don't think we should be friends anymore. You have betrayed my trust too many times for me to be okay with it." I grumble to Xena as I take a monstrous bite of the burrito Scarlett packed for me in my tiffin. "What the hell are you talking about?" Xena asks, almost offended as she digs into her dry, tasteless salad.Is she eating only lettuce?"Your plans suck. They never work. You think they do but they always backfire. I went out on a date without counter-questioning you, I trusted you when you said it was a good idea and this is how you repay all my love and trust?" I accuse her as I narrow my eyes at her. "Asher literally called you just to check up on you last night. I would think that is a pretty successful outcome of my plan." Xena says as I continue to stuff food in my mouth. With how shitty everything is going in my life, food is the only thing that seems to comfort me right now. "Sure, and he hung up right after I told him I was out on a date as if nothing