Zara HowardAs soon as we sit in the car, I look at Axel and ask, "I am very aware of the fact that you are my boss and also that I am super terrified of you but-""Let me guess. You want to be dramatic about Asher not dropping you?" Axel cuts me off as he puts on his seatbelt."Yes please," I almost crib. I have grown to be kind of comfortable around Asher but Axel Lancaster is a whole different deal. I really don't want to do something stupid because there are chances I may never even get home, considering I am in his car.Axel just gestures to me to go ahead and I suck in a deep breath before saying, "I was going to some alone time with my Asher and you took that away from me. Mister Axel Lancaster, what do you have to say for yourself?"Axel just ignores everything I said with a scoff as he asks, "So you really like Asher huh?""Obviously," I reply, not understanding why he would ask me this basic question instead of answering my question. "So that means you would like to get mar
TWO WEEKS LATER Zara HowardI dreadfully get out of bed, wrapping the blanket around me as I walk to the kitchen like a zombie. The last few days have been hell. I have tried to work from home on most days and even when I was forced to go to work, I was a living corpse. I groan to myself as I make myself a cup of coffee. I really did not want to get out of bed today. It has been barely ten minutes since I have been up and I already hate eleven minutes of this morning. Xena and Scarlett both asked me if I could meet them for brunch today. When I told them I could meet just one of them, they coordinated and decided that the three of us will have brunch together. I am pretty sure it is an intervention of some kind. Honestly, I can't really blame them for being concerned for me. If I had it in me, I would be concerned for me too. I barely recognize myself since Axel dropped the bomb. At some point, my mother even suggested coming over for a few days to take care of me. But that is p
Zara HowardOh, this feels amazing. The lightheadedness is so good. My head feels so light. For all I care, I might be floating. Xena was right. This is the best idea ever. Letting it loose and letting the alcohol take over me. That being said, before I knew it, I stumbled on the doorstep of the Lancaster Penthouse."Mrs Costanza, it is so great seeing you after so long," I slur as I hug her as soon as I walk into the penthouse. I really missed this woman. "Are you alright, Miss Howard?"She asked, concern evident in her voice. "I am greatttt" I giggle as I chug down the last bit of the wine in my bottle. This wine bottle is the best thing that has happened to me in a while now. I look at it as grieve its emptiness. Why do all good things in life come to an end? "I'll ask Asher to come down in a minute." She says, snapping me out of my wine whine. "Thank you! You are the bestttt" I exclaim, going in for another hug but she grabs my arms and makes me sit on the couch. As soon as I
Zara HowardA loud scream jolts me out of my slumber. I winced as I felt a thumping headache. As much as I understand alcoholics using alcohol to escape reality, I am not a fan of the after-effects. "Jesus! Scarlett, for the love of God, can you tone it down?" I complain as I walk to the living room. If she is about to lecture me about my clothes lying around or how I didn't do the dishes, I am really not in the mood for it. I got home around two o'clock last night and considering the eventful evening that I had, I passed out as soon as my body hit the bed. I check the time and it's 5 PM already. Jeez, I literally slept through the whole day. I wonder how long would I continue to sleep if Scarlett's screech didn't wake me up.As soon as I see her face, blood drains out of my face. She looks at me with fear evident on her tear-stained face. I glance down to see her holding onto a sheet of paper that seems like a letter. "Are you okay, Scarlett? Are you hurt? What is going on?" I ask
Zara HowardI feel nervousness take over me at the thought of seeing Asher. He has already done way too much to help us out and he has never objected or asked for anything in return. I snap out of my thoughts when I see Asher rushing down the stairs. "What is going on? Xander told me Victor sent a threat again. Are you two okay?" Asher demanded as his eyes switched between me and Scarlett. "Yes, we are fine. This is what Scarlett found when she got back home from work," I answer as I hand over the letter to him with trembling hands. As Asher read the threat, I could see his hands curl up into fists."Where were you when this happened?" Asher asked me, making me squirm under his stare. I am really not a fan of the angry interrogative Asher Lancaster. He is plenty intimidating already. "Uhm, I was asleep. I uh-" I struggle to answer as I fidget with my fingers."Of course. The hangover." Asher just shook his head in disappointment.I open and close my mouth like a fish, not knowing
Zara HowardAfter everything that happened yesterday, I have learnt my lesson. No matter how sharp his words were, he was right. I am the one who needs him and not the other way around. He has been generous enough to let me stay with him in the Lancaster penthouse. I can't act like this ungrateful brat who does whatever she wants and expects people to just be okay with it.I freshen up and go down for breakfast. I can't avoid Asher and stay in my room forever. I notice Mrs Costanza setting up the plates for breakfast."Good morning, Mrs. Costanza!" I chirp as I start to help her set the plates. "Oh, looks like you are finally done hiding from Asher?" Mrs Costanza says as she proceeds to toast the bread, barely even glancing at me. What happened to Hello! Good morning, you little ray of sunshine. "Hiding? From Asher? What are you talking about?" I ask as I try my best to play it dumb. Mrs. Costanza gives me a look that says 'Who are you kidding?' "What? Seriously! I was sick." I p
Zara HowardJust like Asher promised, Xena was here to meet me. But now that she was here, I didn't know what to say. In the most ideal situation, I would've loved to tell her everything. Vent to her about all the bone-chilling things I witnessed. How I saw the love of my life brutally torture a man and shoot him in the head without batting an eye.But right now, I am too scared to say anything because I am afraid I might accidentally slip up and say something I shouldn't have. Ugh. Keeping such a big thing from Xena is eating me up. "Zara, what is going on? You are freaking me out. You are being eerily silent and it is very unsettling." Xena asks, her voice laced with concern. I blink repeatedly, trying to snap out of my thoughts. I can feel my mind chanting Asher's words. Warning me to keep my mouth shut. Threatening me with the consequences of my actions. I gulp too scared to even think of the consequences. I groan internally when I recall how he made me promise that I will be
Zara HowardOnce Xena leaves, I head back to my room. I plonk onto the bed with my face flat on the mattress. Xena's words loom over my mind. 'I had no idea orgasms could hit so hard. The rough intensity. The grabbing and groping. The pleasurable pain.'I groan into the pillow as her words keep chanting in my brain. I feel the pressure building up in the pit of my stomach as I feel every ounce of self-control crumbles into bits.Sure, I have always admired Asher, his handsome face, his taunting smirk, his deep dimples, his husky voice, and his forest green eyes always gleaming with mischief.But it has taken every fibre of my being to not think of Asher too sexually. To not think of him while I touch myself. To not think of him when I read smutty romance books even if that meant I had to picture a faceless blob throughout the story. Because deep down, I know once I give in, I won't be able to stop. Asher can already see right through me. I can only imagine my plight if I let my filt